YAWN!

Sunday morning and Im in SAA taking my cushion and clothes to my campsite. ISC's leadership camp.

Much as Ive been worried that I cant take on ISC? Im sooo glad I did...I guess God knows my heart and has put me to a club that follows my heart..or my motto...watever that cud be...

All I know is that I sorta have a reason of why soo many things have happened to me..they all accumulated to who I am now.

I saw the stars just now and forthe 1st time i my whole life, Ive never seen soo many stars! And they're all sooo clear! Not to mention..I once again soo a rainbow halo around the moon. By my believes....God gave us rainbows to say that our sins are all forgiven..grace is given to us and He loves us!

One of the camp songs we learnt..was Pass It On...and much as I used to wonder how God would let me touch these guys hearts in regards to God. I realize that I dun need to worry! He does it Himself!

Father..bless my kids...in all ways possible...bless them in abundance that it overflows...give me wisdom Lord....I cant lead them without you.

God Bless

Hmmm

Qn: Where is DOHA?

Went out w frens yesterday at Boon Lay and bumped into an acquaintance...funny thing is on normal circumstances....i wud only nod at acquaintances..or even only do a"mini" smile or even just walk away! But for this guy, I did a smile and wave and he did the same. Its as if we were better acquainted than how we actually are. He was my ex's fren/acquaintance hahahha

As i went down the escalator, this hit me..why ah? Hmmm

Anyway.. I trying to deal with my terrible self..God help me...

Christmas is coming near and Im excited! hahahah

K anyway..back to work!

God Bless

Father...my slothing sin is back...

I hate myself everytime I realize that I slacked....its a habit im finding soo hard to overcome...

I know I wanna get this right but..how? time management?

Oh God....help me to be a better worker....if only life were sooo easy to flip a button in me and voila..im perfect! Alas....

I sooo need to get my act together and I know that im dissappointing my boss....arrgghhh...

I want to break myself apart and fix myself back again in a better version...

Im gonna try to manage my time...I really need to sit down and think abt how to better tune myself to finish stuff faster...I really need to adjust to this new life and not just stumble over it....

Father...Jesus....help me to always keep me reminded of this aim....Father..I want to e a better employee....I want to work hard and fast...I need to tune myself...Oh Father...please give me your discipline and strength..please give me the professional mind and the wonderfulmind that soo many of my colleagues have that make them such efficient workers...Oh Father...

Father..I need your guidance...I lackt he motivation to be a good christian...

God Bless

World AIDS Day

I never realized it was World Aids Day had I not read the papers..Yes there has been alot of noise abt AIDS and I think its about time!

Read the Home page today and all the testimonials of some AIDS sufferers and what struck me as most disgusting...wasnt that they had this disease due to some sexual intercourse (not all get it that way) or infected needle or with their spouses, but it was the sheer fear of AIDS from people arnd these sufferers. Newsflash people! The disease can not be spread by air..if so..it wud have been worse than SARS...it is not spread by sharing of utensils or drinks or food...Yes you can share food with them and you can share drinks and you can use the same forks and spoons.

What causes AIDS to spread..is exchange of bodily fluids and blood....simple. This exchange can come in forms of sexual intercourse, sharing of contaminated needles, open wounds where a sufferer's blood gets into your system.

Any other way like sneezing and coughing doesnt work.

And whoever thinks that they cant contract AIDS in sex..if they use medicated oil or pills...u need to get checked now.

I shiver at the thought of this disease but I also know the ways it cant be spread..and while people run away from their loved ones and colleagues who got it...I shud love to push them to a computer to make them read what AIDS is abt, before drawing lines and ending frenships. Any true friend and relative wud do so 1st and decide whether quaratining is needed later.

I imagined one of my relatives or freinds having this and imagined the reaction of my other relatives and friends and wonder if any of them would ever try to persuade me from sticking to my fren or relative....

How scary is that? At the worst moment...we are left alone.

I admit some or most of the AIDS victims are not victims..they had the sex without thinking with their heads...The ones I dislike most...are those who are doing it casually and often and behind their spouses backs. Ticks me off....
Yet...we all make mistakes and get Fd up results....literal or figure of speech....

My heart goes out to those who didnt get it on their own folly...esp those wives who got it from their A*& H$%^ husbands...and the poor poor kids..

While I express my views for this topic...it amazing linked to what I was looking through for the whole 2-3 days yesterday..Ive been searching for my Kunming Trip photos and videos for my ISC (intl Students Club) Hoping to get inspiration on what to do for the club...so many goals I have for this club! Coincidently, this trip was abt spreading the AIDS mssg to china students and the videos brought back memories.....

It never crossed my mind till I read the papers k so imagine my surprise when at this time, I was also looking for those videos....wonder what it is God wants to say..but seems very very coincidental....

Anyway..Much planning is needed for myself..I went for a Time Mastery class yesterday and it gave me so much inspiration to mend my work habits..old to new...if I cud only pull my socks up.
It helps to have colleagues that are nice..truly nice to me..sincere...Thank you Father!

Once again..as I always do...I Thank God for all the provisions..Thank Jesus for His precious blood...So many times I have the faith that Eveyrthing is gonna be smooth and Im safe from harm.....nly prob is..I find it hard to tell my non-believing parents that Im truly safe in God's hands. What my parents cant do (which is to look after me 24/7) my God can. My Father and My Jesus.... How do I tell those I love that theres someone out there who can stop the rain from falling for me...

God Bless

The Little Prince, Tues w Morrie, etc

Every day, Im inspired by my bros and those I love, to write an entry..many days, I lack the necessary laptop and connection to do so...in result, I dont give enough credit to those whom I feel soo blessed to have....God is soo giving and He provides me with sooo much refuge and strength...I am truly truly...blessed...not because if myself...but because of Him.

My best fren is back from Aussie Land. In fact..both my frens are back from Aussie land...incredibly good news that is.

Having a terrible stomachache now...think its my irregular eating hours...sigh

Anyway..as the title says...I wanted to talk abt my 2 fav books, The Little Prince and Tues W Morrie.

Theres a piece of The Little Prince that I loved most... The Prince comes across a fox, who lets the prince tame him. But when the prince has to leave..the fox wanted to cry..yet it never complained that the prince tamed it and abandoned it...heres how it goes

It was then that the fox appeared.
"Good morning," said the fox.
"Good morning," the little prince responded politely, although when he turned around he saw nothing.
"I am right here," the voice said, "under the apple tree."
"Who are you?" asked the little prince, and added, "You are very pretty to look at."
"I am a fox," the fox said.
"Come and play with me," proposed the little prince. "I am so unhappy."
"I cannot play with you," the fox said. "I am not tamed."
"Ah! Please excuse me," said the little prince.
But, after some thought, he added:
"What does that mean--'tame'?"
"You do not live here," said the fox. "What is it that you are looking for?"
"I am looking for men," said the little prince. "What does that mean--'tame'?"
"Men," said the fox. "They have guns, and they hunt. It is very disturbing. They also raise chickens. These are their only interests. Are you looking for chickens?"
"No," said the little prince. "I am looking for friends. What does that mean--'tame'?"
"It is an act too often neglected," said the fox. It means to establish ties."
"'To establish ties'?"
"Just that," said the fox. "To me, you are still nothing more than a little boy who is just like a hundred thousand other little boys. And I have no need of you. And you, on your part, have no need of me. To you, I am nothing more than a fox like a hundred thousand other foxes. But if you tame me, then we shall need each other. To me, you will be unique in all the world. To you, I shall be unique in all the world . . ."
"I am beginning to understand," said the little prince. "There is a flower . . . I think that she has tamed me . . ."
"It is possible," said the fox. "On the Earth one sees all sorts of things."
"Oh, but this is not on the Earth!" said the little prince.
The fox seemed perplexed, and very curious.
"On another planet?"
"Yes."
"Are there hunters on that planet?"
"No."
"Ah, that is interesting! Are there chickens?"
"No."
"Nothing is perfect," sighed the fox.
But he came back to his idea.
"My life is very monotonous," the fox said. "I hunt chickens; men hunt me. All the chickens are just alike, and all the men are just alike. And, in consequence, I am a little bored. But if you tame me, it will be as if the sun came to shine on my life. I shall know the sound of a step that will be different from all the others. Other steps send me hurrying back underneath the ground. Yours will call me, like music, out of my burrow. And then look: you see the grain-fields down yonder? I do not eat bread. Wheat is of no use to me. The wheat fields have nothing to say to me. And that is sad. But you have hair that is the color of gold. Think how wonderful that will be when you have tamed me! The grain, which is also golden, will bring me back the thought of you. And I shall love to listen to the wind in the wheat . . ."
The fox gazed at the little prince, for a long time.
"Please--tame me!" he said.
"I want to, very much," the little prince replied. "But I have not much time. I have friends to discover, and a great many things to understand."
"One only understands the things that one tames," said the fox. "Men have no more time to understand anything. They buy things all ready made at the shops. But there is no shop anywhere where one can buy friendship, and so men have no friends any more. If you want a friend, tame me . . ."
"What must I do, to tame you?" asked the little prince.
"You must be very patient," replied the fox. "First you will sit down at a little distance from me--like that--in the grass. I shall look at you out of the corner of my eye, and you will say nothing. Words are the source of misunderstandings. But you will sit a little closer to me, every day . . ."
The next day the little prince came back.
"It would have been better to come back at the same hour," said the fox. "If, for example, you come at four o'clock in the afternoon, then at three o'clock I shall begin to be happy. I shall feel happier and happier as the hour advances. At four o'clock, I shall already be worrying and jumping about. I shall show you how happy I am! But if you come at just any time, I shall never know at what hour my heart is to be ready to greet you . . . One must observe the proper rites . . ."
"What is a rite?" asked the little prince.
"Those also are actions too often neglected," said the fox. "They are what make one day different from other days, one hour from other hours. There is a rite, for example, among my hunters. Every Thursday they dance with the village girls. So Thursday is a wonderful day for me! I can take a walk as far as the vineyards. But if the hunters danced at just any time, every day would be like every other day, and I should never have any vacation at all."
So the little prince tamed the fox. And when the hour of his departure drew near--
"Ah," said the fox, "I shall cry."
"It is your own fault," said the little prince. "I never wished you any sort of harm; but you wanted me to tame you . . ."
"Yes, that is so," said the fox.
"But now you are going to cry!" said the little prince.
"Yes, that is so," said the fox.
"Then it has done you no good at all!"
"It has done me good," said the fox, "because of the color of the wheat fields." And then he added:
"Go and look again at the roses. You will understand now that yours is unique in all the world. Then come back to say goodbye to me, and I will make you a present of a secret."
The little prince went away, to look again at the roses.
"You are not at all like my rose," he said. "As yet you are nothing. No one has tamed you, and you have tamed no one. You are like my fox when I first knew him. He was only a fox like a hundred thousand other foxes. But I have made him my friend, and now he is unique in all the world."
And the roses were very much embarassed.
"You are beautiful, but you are empty," he went on. "One could not die for you. To be sure, an ordinary passerby would think that my rose looked just like you--the rose that belongs to me. But in herself alone she is more important than all the hundreds of you other roses: because it is she that I have watered; because it is she that I have put under the glass globe; because it is she that I have sheltered behind the screen; because it is for her that I have killed the caterpillars (except the two or three that we saved to become butterflies); because it is she that I have listened to, when she grumbled, or boasted, or ever sometimes when she said nothing. Because she is my rose.
And he went back to meet the fox.
"Goodbye," he said.
"Goodbye," said the fox. "And now here is my secret, a very simple secret: It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye."
"What is essential is invisible to the eye," the little prince repeated, so that he would be sure to remember.
"It is the time you have wasted for your rose that makes your rose so important."
"It is the time I have wasted for my rose--" said the little prince, so that he would be sure to remember.
"Men have forgotten this truth," said the fox. "But you must not forget it. You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed. You are responsible for your rose . . ."
"I am responsible for my rose," the little prince repeated, so that he would be sure to remember.

I refered this to the times that I lost loved ones and there was a time I wud have loved to send my ex this book. Much as I introduced it to him, He didnt read it..its a pity...Likewise..because of him and all my other indian frens, I have an affinity for indian music and indian culture.. because of my grandma, I have an affinity for cantonese music..even opera hahaha you shud read this book.

Tuesday with Morrie...Mitch Albom visits his old proffessor and as the professor slowly dies from illnesses, hegives Mitch the most impt lessons...lessonsof life..the reality of how we as humans react and how we should be...

Why are we scared of loving? Because we're scared to lose.
Why do we work in something that we dont like? Do we do the work we love, or do the work we hate? Or hate the work we do?
Infants are born loving physical contact..yet through the years....as we grow up, we cringe at the thought of physical contact...
We have to love or we'll die
To live life is to accept that death will inevitably occur. Am i living the life I want to live? Little blue bird on our shoulders...

Both these books...teach me so much..to look at those I love and pass on the most valuable thing of all..something that forces the barred up parts of our hearts to open...to bring out the inner us that tries to hide away. Its always with love and hugs that causes a person to burst out in true feelings...in the happiest and sadest moments.

God Bless