Spent the day doing ISC manual.
Ive been quite worried abt ISC these few days that I was close to tearing when i heard abt the current issues in ISC. Im trying to tell myself that alot of things cant be dealt with by other pple but the pple involved themselves...This is however causing a split in the club....
All I can do is try my best to be the glue...
The dinner I had w ISC was fun. :) Havnt seen these guys in months and really do miss them alot man. Even int eh span of 2 months...I some how see that they've grown up. :) I see how 3-4 countries can be seated at the same table and im honored to be in the midst of it. Dont know if they know what being in ISC really means...to be..its a piece of the population that we've healed..after all the strife around hte world..prejudice, misunderstandings have made people drift apart.
At the same time..SPARC was having interviews...saw only a few but I knoe they need the people and the ones I saw were not tooo bad! :)
Met the Comperes and we had discussions on what to do with the juniors next....Im past my upset stage...more at my helpless stage......somethings cant be helped but the ones themselves...Yet I sooo wish I cud tell them how much compereing can mean to people. Me included. I guess its not fair to push these emotions on others coz they might not feel the same way...Im quite ready to give up.
And other clubs like SP String Ensemble...SP Guitarists....
All I can do at he end of the day...is really pray to God for wisdom and cast my worries to Him and know that aside from what I can doooo...he will work int heir lives to let this work out. :)
God Bless
Friday, October 23, 2009
Monday, October 05, 2009
Camp Rocked Me Off The Raft!
Was in Ipoh for Leadership Training Camp.
Let me 1stly say my quote for this camp: You can never stop learning wherever you are.
As Bishop TD Jake's Mum also said: The whole world is a university and you're the students. When you wake up in the morning, don't forget to go to school.
I learnt a fair bit going for this camp even though its meant for students. Everyone knows that you can teach students but students will teach you.
Every camp I go, I learn to facilitate and I learn how to communicate. This camp was another of those lessons that I came out feeling I could have done better. But smetimes we just have to learn that way.
The best bit out of the camp for me...was falling out of the raft. The entire raft banged into the Albeit it wasnt a fun thing to do but the experience is nonetheless the most memorable. I felt scared at that point of time because the rapid was in front of me. Hahaha I body surfed abit and hit some rocks etc and then I came to a boulder in front of me that I was worried would be danger to me. Instead, the water brought me up to the boulder sot hat I could sit there comfortably. :) I was stupid enough to grab the raft and be dragged along some more (hitting more rocks) But aside from that stupidity, the more I think about it, the more I know God was trying to make sure I was okay by bringing me to the boulder.
Can describe to you on how I got onto the rock coz it just seemed like the water sweeped me up and plonked me on the rock. It was smooth ride! I just went with the flow and waved "hi" to the raft once I found myself sitting put. Hahaha
I was also the sacrificial lamb for the rest since I was stubborn enough to not put on insect repellent. I've got mosquito bites and sandfly bites.
Also got an A&W bear as a souvenier and took my Big Toe around the residence to take silly photos.
The camp was indeed very fun. :)
There are many times that i wished i had thought of God more often while doing all that. Or appreciated my surroundings more. The beauty of the waterfall, the feeling in the water, the ups and downs of hte raft, the security we got from our guides, everything! Its easy to abseil down a waterfall just worrying abt whether you can make it down safely..but I wished I had taken time to go down and feel the water run down like a shower. :) or even taken a camera up to shoot from there!
I'd say that Im glad i conquered the waterfall and white water again. :)
Im glad God kept my students and I safe from harm. :) Yes we had mosquito bites and scratches etc but No serious injury to any.
Also had fun in Gua Tempurong. It was pitch dark as we climbed through all the crevices etc but it was fun while it lasted. Some holes are so small that you get claustrophobic haha
Sunday's service was good. The songs for worship were my favourite and it was uplifting for me. I dont know why but its been such a long time since I teared while singing but I did. I kept my mind off my worries and visualized myself in His presence, singing to Him. Trust me..the tears were of thanksgiving.
Went to Tecman after church and stayed there for 2 hours. got a book for a sista of mine who I feel needs the encouragement now. I know how she may be feeling because of personal experience and I know without God's help, she will have a harder time getting over her issues. Like me.
To end off the day, went to Mandarin Gardens to see Grandpa. He hurt his eye. Saw Ally as well and she is as insane and bubbly as ever. Max is still quiet but he'll grow big enough to make noise soon. :) nice to have 4 generations in the house.
Bought tickets for BaBies Proms for Jill, Ally & I. We are going for a girls day out at VCH in december.
Talk soon. Till then...
God Bless!
Let me 1stly say my quote for this camp: You can never stop learning wherever you are.
As Bishop TD Jake's Mum also said: The whole world is a university and you're the students. When you wake up in the morning, don't forget to go to school.
I learnt a fair bit going for this camp even though its meant for students. Everyone knows that you can teach students but students will teach you.
Every camp I go, I learn to facilitate and I learn how to communicate. This camp was another of those lessons that I came out feeling I could have done better. But smetimes we just have to learn that way.
The best bit out of the camp for me...was falling out of the raft. The entire raft banged into the Albeit it wasnt a fun thing to do but the experience is nonetheless the most memorable. I felt scared at that point of time because the rapid was in front of me. Hahaha I body surfed abit and hit some rocks etc and then I came to a boulder in front of me that I was worried would be danger to me. Instead, the water brought me up to the boulder sot hat I could sit there comfortably. :) I was stupid enough to grab the raft and be dragged along some more (hitting more rocks) But aside from that stupidity, the more I think about it, the more I know God was trying to make sure I was okay by bringing me to the boulder.
Can describe to you on how I got onto the rock coz it just seemed like the water sweeped me up and plonked me on the rock. It was smooth ride! I just went with the flow and waved "hi" to the raft once I found myself sitting put. Hahaha
I was also the sacrificial lamb for the rest since I was stubborn enough to not put on insect repellent. I've got mosquito bites and sandfly bites.
Also got an A&W bear as a souvenier and took my Big Toe around the residence to take silly photos.
The camp was indeed very fun. :)
There are many times that i wished i had thought of God more often while doing all that. Or appreciated my surroundings more. The beauty of the waterfall, the feeling in the water, the ups and downs of hte raft, the security we got from our guides, everything! Its easy to abseil down a waterfall just worrying abt whether you can make it down safely..but I wished I had taken time to go down and feel the water run down like a shower. :) or even taken a camera up to shoot from there!
I'd say that Im glad i conquered the waterfall and white water again. :)
Im glad God kept my students and I safe from harm. :) Yes we had mosquito bites and scratches etc but No serious injury to any.
Also had fun in Gua Tempurong. It was pitch dark as we climbed through all the crevices etc but it was fun while it lasted. Some holes are so small that you get claustrophobic haha
Sunday's service was good. The songs for worship were my favourite and it was uplifting for me. I dont know why but its been such a long time since I teared while singing but I did. I kept my mind off my worries and visualized myself in His presence, singing to Him. Trust me..the tears were of thanksgiving.
Went to Tecman after church and stayed there for 2 hours. got a book for a sista of mine who I feel needs the encouragement now. I know how she may be feeling because of personal experience and I know without God's help, she will have a harder time getting over her issues. Like me.
To end off the day, went to Mandarin Gardens to see Grandpa. He hurt his eye. Saw Ally as well and she is as insane and bubbly as ever. Max is still quiet but he'll grow big enough to make noise soon. :) nice to have 4 generations in the house.
Bought tickets for BaBies Proms for Jill, Ally & I. We are going for a girls day out at VCH in december.
Talk soon. Till then...
God Bless!
Monday, September 28, 2009
PIcs I owe!
Mum's side Granny who passed away in Aug.
Mum's side Grandpa who is handsome as ever. The only grandpa I know and love.
My niece whom I adore. :)
Random boy sleeping in the Dead Sea Scrolls Exhibition hall.
ChristianityHistory was too boring for this young'en.
The Torah: Old Testement in Hebrew used by the Judaism believers
Thats all for now! More soon. None related to students though coz Ive too many of them. Everything else will be on facebook in due time! :)
God Bless!
Nice Weekend!
This weekend Ive been the best child Ive been since primary school.
My initial plan of going out on sat was pushed back coz I was lazy and coz I decided somethings were more impt then roaming the streets. ...Being w God. :)
Yah call me crazy and maybe fired up with God but I'm still me.
In fact let me dispense the myths a christian carries with them. Or to be politically correct..this is what I feel is hanging around me when I mention Im a christian. So I'll just clear the air with a few points
- I like to do normal things like watch movie, listen to music (those who know me know my music taste is warped), read books, play games, sports etc
- I enjoy time wth normal friends
- Im lame and trip over lame jokes
- I have normal human feelings
- I have a normal family
- I have similar dreams
- I have frens of all religions, races, backgrounds
And these points can apply to pretty much allt he christians I know.
Christians may be potrayed as the bunch who abstain from evil or non-spiritual stuff, or ostracize themselves from normal pple who are not christians...ALL THAT IS BULLSHIT!
Yap I said it.
Diff between christians and other pple...is our faith in our God. And what our God has done for us that makes us a new creation so to speak. And our knowledge in His love for us that makes us loe Him and want to spend time with Him too. We are blessed with His blessings and thereby have unexplanable confidence in conquering the problems in this world.
But note that if any Christian comes and makes you think they are superior to you and stuck up about it and points out your past to condemn you or make you feel lowly about yourself....thats not right.
Our God teaches us that God loves everyone including nonbelievers. And so we as Christians should treat our fellow humans with the same love we have for our fellow christians.
No doubt that christians have something common that we like to talk about...but we dont ostracize. And if you know a christian who does not want to talk to you or give you advise or listen to you because of who you are...thats not right either.
Im not saying Christians are the same as non-christians coz Bible says we're not and our beliefs differ.
But no Christians are Christians and not Aliens! (The right believing ones at least)
I dont know why I've said so much...maybe I dont want my blog to seem like a Christian website just coz I find a joy in talking abt God in my entries...or maybe because I know of pple I care for who have been poisoned by an image of Christians who in the end, make them feel that its better to stay away.
I wont preach abt the hidden depts of God but all I'll say is..I know my God is not asking His children (us) to chase pple away from knowing Him. He's not the fierce, unsympathetic and easily offended God that others may see Him as.
I guess it makes no sense for any God to chase anybody away because it means less believers for them rite?!?!
OKAY that said...moving on with my nice weekend!!!
Stayed at home all day! Dad & Mom must have been wondering why but never asked me.
- I had all my meals at home..unlike the normal where I had all my meals outside.
- Cleared my room
- Cleared the bathroom or all my laundry
- Washed my shoes and socks
- Showered early
- Ate w the family quickly
- Returned my library books
All this wouldnt be done without my mum;s nagging in the background. (on normal days)
In fact, I spent the day reading, using the PC, studying the bible, watching Aaja Nachle etc
Sunday was the usual church morning but it was at Indoor Stadium and Pastor spoke about Restoration in the End Times.
I took comfort in knowing that what I lose is restored to me in double folds. The money I lost, the family bonds I lost, the relationship I lost..etc....I might not have the exact thing back but I will be restored. :)
Went home early, had dinner at home etc.
In fact it was a normal weekend for most pple but we all know that something like this snt normla for all families. Some families dont have the luxury due to various reasons.
And strangely enough..while I sometimes feel that not going out on weekends or week day evenings is a waste of precious time, (since I can meet up with frens etc) I felt more refreshed this weekend than others. :)
Maybe less walking and talking.
Gonna start putting in more pics. Humans like visuals hahaha
God Bless!!!
My initial plan of going out on sat was pushed back coz I was lazy and coz I decided somethings were more impt then roaming the streets. ...Being w God. :)
Yah call me crazy and maybe fired up with God but I'm still me.
In fact let me dispense the myths a christian carries with them. Or to be politically correct..this is what I feel is hanging around me when I mention Im a christian. So I'll just clear the air with a few points
- I like to do normal things like watch movie, listen to music (those who know me know my music taste is warped), read books, play games, sports etc
- I enjoy time wth normal friends
- Im lame and trip over lame jokes
- I have normal human feelings
- I have a normal family
- I have similar dreams
- I have frens of all religions, races, backgrounds
And these points can apply to pretty much allt he christians I know.
Christians may be potrayed as the bunch who abstain from evil or non-spiritual stuff, or ostracize themselves from normal pple who are not christians...ALL THAT IS BULLSHIT!
Yap I said it.
Diff between christians and other pple...is our faith in our God. And what our God has done for us that makes us a new creation so to speak. And our knowledge in His love for us that makes us loe Him and want to spend time with Him too. We are blessed with His blessings and thereby have unexplanable confidence in conquering the problems in this world.
But note that if any Christian comes and makes you think they are superior to you and stuck up about it and points out your past to condemn you or make you feel lowly about yourself....thats not right.
Our God teaches us that God loves everyone including nonbelievers. And so we as Christians should treat our fellow humans with the same love we have for our fellow christians.
No doubt that christians have something common that we like to talk about...but we dont ostracize. And if you know a christian who does not want to talk to you or give you advise or listen to you because of who you are...thats not right either.
Im not saying Christians are the same as non-christians coz Bible says we're not and our beliefs differ.
But no Christians are Christians and not Aliens! (The right believing ones at least)
I dont know why I've said so much...maybe I dont want my blog to seem like a Christian website just coz I find a joy in talking abt God in my entries...or maybe because I know of pple I care for who have been poisoned by an image of Christians who in the end, make them feel that its better to stay away.
I wont preach abt the hidden depts of God but all I'll say is..I know my God is not asking His children (us) to chase pple away from knowing Him. He's not the fierce, unsympathetic and easily offended God that others may see Him as.
I guess it makes no sense for any God to chase anybody away because it means less believers for them rite?!?!
OKAY that said...moving on with my nice weekend!!!
Stayed at home all day! Dad & Mom must have been wondering why but never asked me.
- I had all my meals at home..unlike the normal where I had all my meals outside.
- Cleared my room
- Cleared the bathroom or all my laundry
- Washed my shoes and socks
- Showered early
- Ate w the family quickly
- Returned my library books
All this wouldnt be done without my mum;s nagging in the background. (on normal days)
In fact, I spent the day reading, using the PC, studying the bible, watching Aaja Nachle etc
Sunday was the usual church morning but it was at Indoor Stadium and Pastor spoke about Restoration in the End Times.
I took comfort in knowing that what I lose is restored to me in double folds. The money I lost, the family bonds I lost, the relationship I lost..etc....I might not have the exact thing back but I will be restored. :)
Went home early, had dinner at home etc.
In fact it was a normal weekend for most pple but we all know that something like this snt normla for all families. Some families dont have the luxury due to various reasons.
And strangely enough..while I sometimes feel that not going out on weekends or week day evenings is a waste of precious time, (since I can meet up with frens etc) I felt more refreshed this weekend than others. :)
Maybe less walking and talking.
Gonna start putting in more pics. Humans like visuals hahaha
God Bless!!!
Thursday, September 24, 2009
The Grinch, His Dog and Whoville or Maybe Mr Scrooge...
Yeah well Im pretty near to breaking point...had an okay day at work..tried to start the day obediently with some quiet time, ended the day with 2 of my bros andd Mario Wii game..but ended up having a quarrel with my dad.
Its nothing new. I admit....when my dad's around..I go code red inside. Not the best things to say about my dad but through the years....my love for him has wained. I say this knowing my uncles or aunties might be reading this but even ont eh surface...Im sure they would have sensed the kind of strain our entire household has.
And just 2 days ago, Pastor Brian Houston was talking about God in our household.
I accept the fact that my sis and I are the only direct relatives in this household who can save my mom and my dad and if I rest on God;s word, its accomplishable..only with His word. Because after tonight...I know my flesh is so weak tat nothing I do in my own srtength would be enough for me to even bypass my code red.
I dont know...maybe its me...I see my dad as someone who has soooo much bad stuff in his heart (not saying he's evil) that he doesnt see good in others. Not even his direct family. I swear theres at least a dozen spirits in Him who are playing with His mind. Im not joking... Like the crazy guy Jesus bumped into with a legion of evil spirits in him
In my flesh,,,I see my dad as the Grinch and I now see my mum as the Grinch's dog.
Not to use words like Bitch etc. Nope...why I say she's the dog is because she's still scared of him and tries so much to please him that its affected her mental and her physical health too.
We grew up in a family that bites their lips/tongues and swallows everything....but its getting harder to stay that way. Esp when I know for sure that my God doesnt want things this way!!!!
I want sooo much to garner the Holy Spirit in me and hold fast to Jesus promises of His power...and chase off the devils in my dad!!! Think of it as exorcism if you want to think extreme.
The more i think about it...the more the vocab in my head gets vulgar.
How do you live with a thousand demons in your head spewing doubt in everyone you know and casting lies on everyone you've met? Not to mention making you paranoid with "what if this happened to your daughters?"s
Just thinking about this long enough can make my heart smaller...not to mention the one who has to suffer from it.
As we sat int he same room....I teared...not because I had defied my dad...but because I felt helpless in trying to reason with him. That I cant even save my own dad...In my flesh I hoped something would go wrong to prove to him once and for all that not everything he says is right. But my spirit knows that my flesh cant be trusted with sensible thoughts.
Every day I see my mum and dad think and how they are affected by life and time etc..I rememebr how Martha (int eh bible) was scurrying around the kitchen preparing a meal for Jesus & His disciples while Mary just sat at Jesus feet to listen to His words.
Martha got pissed coz she was the only one working for Jesus so she went to Jesus and said " Lord is it nothing to you that Mary has left me alone to serve?...." In one shot...she blamed both Jesus and Mary.
Jesus replied, " Martha Martha you are anxious and troubled about many things"
I cast my cares to God tonight...knowing that if I think about how troubled my family is...I will be controlled by the devil to think that the people around me can never be saved. Nor can I be any help to save them...when I know my God will use even the smallest thing to bring down a giant...likewise...he will use little weak and "not good at sustaining a discussion" me to win over the battle with Satan over my parents.
I know the best thing out of all this...is that Satan has caused me to look to Jesus more.
My affection for my dad may be waining....but I know God's love for my dad is strong as well..likewise for my mum. So I will bank on my God's love for me and my love for my God...and my faith in Him to use me as a weapon to win this battle.
God Bless
Its nothing new. I admit....when my dad's around..I go code red inside. Not the best things to say about my dad but through the years....my love for him has wained. I say this knowing my uncles or aunties might be reading this but even ont eh surface...Im sure they would have sensed the kind of strain our entire household has.
And just 2 days ago, Pastor Brian Houston was talking about God in our household.
I accept the fact that my sis and I are the only direct relatives in this household who can save my mom and my dad and if I rest on God;s word, its accomplishable..only with His word. Because after tonight...I know my flesh is so weak tat nothing I do in my own srtength would be enough for me to even bypass my code red.
I dont know...maybe its me...I see my dad as someone who has soooo much bad stuff in his heart (not saying he's evil) that he doesnt see good in others. Not even his direct family. I swear theres at least a dozen spirits in Him who are playing with His mind. Im not joking... Like the crazy guy Jesus bumped into with a legion of evil spirits in him
In my flesh,,,I see my dad as the Grinch and I now see my mum as the Grinch's dog.
Not to use words like Bitch etc. Nope...why I say she's the dog is because she's still scared of him and tries so much to please him that its affected her mental and her physical health too.
We grew up in a family that bites their lips/tongues and swallows everything....but its getting harder to stay that way. Esp when I know for sure that my God doesnt want things this way!!!!
I want sooo much to garner the Holy Spirit in me and hold fast to Jesus promises of His power...and chase off the devils in my dad!!! Think of it as exorcism if you want to think extreme.
The more i think about it...the more the vocab in my head gets vulgar.
How do you live with a thousand demons in your head spewing doubt in everyone you know and casting lies on everyone you've met? Not to mention making you paranoid with "what if this happened to your daughters?"s
Just thinking about this long enough can make my heart smaller...not to mention the one who has to suffer from it.
As we sat int he same room....I teared...not because I had defied my dad...but because I felt helpless in trying to reason with him. That I cant even save my own dad...In my flesh I hoped something would go wrong to prove to him once and for all that not everything he says is right. But my spirit knows that my flesh cant be trusted with sensible thoughts.
Every day I see my mum and dad think and how they are affected by life and time etc..I rememebr how Martha (int eh bible) was scurrying around the kitchen preparing a meal for Jesus & His disciples while Mary just sat at Jesus feet to listen to His words.
Martha got pissed coz she was the only one working for Jesus so she went to Jesus and said " Lord is it nothing to you that Mary has left me alone to serve?...." In one shot...she blamed both Jesus and Mary.
Jesus replied, " Martha Martha you are anxious and troubled about many things"
I cast my cares to God tonight...knowing that if I think about how troubled my family is...I will be controlled by the devil to think that the people around me can never be saved. Nor can I be any help to save them...when I know my God will use even the smallest thing to bring down a giant...likewise...he will use little weak and "not good at sustaining a discussion" me to win over the battle with Satan over my parents.
I know the best thing out of all this...is that Satan has caused me to look to Jesus more.
My affection for my dad may be waining....but I know God's love for my dad is strong as well..likewise for my mum. So I will bank on my God's love for me and my love for my God...and my faith in Him to use me as a weapon to win this battle.
God Bless
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