stressing out!

Got a little being in me screaming: what teh hell are you doing? Why are you even wasting your time?
Another part of me was playing reverse psychology with the little being. Hmmm

Anyway been going back to diary writing..like how I used to... and just yesterday, finished up my diary that I started when I graduated from SP...say..7 years ago? Obviously it isnt a very concise diary. dribs and drabs of stuff... But as the last entry of the book, I was abit more reflective about whats happened in the past 7 years...

People that have come and gone, incidents that have affected me... grandparents passing away, niece and nephews born, people whom I've come to love...and incorporated into my family.

So glad that Ive had chances to meet special and talented people who have helped me in so many ways in my life. Im truly blessed!

God Bless

Can not let time slip away..

I need to get my discipline back!

Within the next 4 weeks, everything will converge into a mass and or mess of deadlines and Im afraid! Very very very afraid! I know I need ot get stuff done really quickly but why doesnt my brain wanna help!?!?!?

Aarrgghhh!

I cant let the little invisible being (who contantly mutters," relax!") to convince me to do otherwise. I also cant let my guard down and do meaningless stuff while the deadlines loom!!! OMG! I will cry!!

- Melbourne Tour
- Multimedia
- Soundtrack
- H/LX assignment
- Perf History Assignment
- etc

AARRGGHH

I need to find peace again!

God Bless

Wish my voice was a higher register indeed

Im supposed to be concentrating on calling and other stuff...but I had to destress...

Aside from allt eh school work, Im also trying to get my voice around Bintang Di Surga and Tiada Lagi...
Both requiring me to sing the higher register. I know I can reach them..I just cant reach them with my real voice...I also cant wait for my singing class to start because I want to make my voice better...

I know alot of people would say, "just keep singing lah! in due time it will get sronger" but I cant because I find it odd to sing in public as opposed to in a karaoke room or stage or studio..I feel like Im disturbing people. esp when I try to hit the highnotes and go out of tune.

I guess I still have to thank Wandi and his band for this...it is my reason to pushing myself...

its about time...I know Jimmy would be happy to see me hit the register...

God Bless

Quack quack, cluck cluck, mooo, neigh, oink

Communication is a very important thing. Something I feel takes a lifetime to master yet along hte way of learning, I find myself getting irritated. Iam the culprit too and can kick myself in the ass....oink oink oink...

But Im wondering if its me or its the asian culture that makes me realize that its a bigger problem in Aussie. And the main reason is because people in Australia are more vocal. So listening is made to take the backseat at times.

And in Asia, everyone is politely taking turns to voice out or never voices out because they are too reserved. I guess there are pros and cons to this..

What this all means is that if I do feel like I have to make a point, I have to go out and make my point, with the risk of feeling like Im too opinionated...which really isnt true. Its just me trying to speak over the roaring winds...

God Bless

Getting back to speed!

So Ive been hanging around for abit...hanging around hte house..instead of being productive..very bad me!

Updates are that recently, ive decided to go full out on learning about audio. And I am gonna finally take singing classes! And keep at dance class!

Its alot to do actually...

To add on, I msged Wandi one day and went,"how cool would it be if we did a cover of Bintang Di Surga?" And before you know it, Im doing a cover of it and another song, Tiada Lagi. It will be recorded during my april holidays in NIDA recording studio...*cross fingers*

And Wandi will mix it in to the rest of hte recordings and hopefully, hey presto! We got a good mix! Thent hat would be major awesomeness! I am very very excited! I know its not an english song hence some might ask "whats the point!" But the plus point is that it is not an english song! :) That makes it more interesting! I wanna do this and I do wanna do other songs that are non-english because music isnt just about the language!

I also signed up as a vounteer for Shir Madness Festival and one of the geuest perofrmers is Mosh Ben Ari! One of the Israeli music big names!

Im gonna have to up my boosters then...Aarrghhh! This year will be hectic!

God Bless!