okay..come on...you can do this

Im slacking till 8pm and then get back to going my lighting design and sound design stuff. Much to do this weekend actually and Im quitely stressed...

Its abit hard to hold on to God when ur entire mind is on school work and stressed. I guess thats why God doesnt want us to worry. "let not your heart be troubled"

The room is cold  but I actually feel heat in my face ..alike when I blush...but I guess its really because of the stress...

1 more week before term 3 ends. Its been a really quick term but its been a very very hectic term. I know I wont die from it but the real challenge is to persist on and do as well as you can....without going insane or without getting depressed or feel condemned...

I know when I look back on this, I will be amazed at how much I have gone through...part of me will regret not putting in more more effort...but sometimes body trumps will.....

I need to make sure I dont regret....

Miss all my folks. Miss my family and friends...miss my students. almost wish they were here to cheer me on and motivate me to keep going.
That said, I appreciate them keeping in touch online.

God Bless

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No title for this one coz the subject isnt specific anyway. And i cant keep going "busy month" or "crazy week" etc

Anyway had a brief moment of wanting to relive my poly years. Missed allt ehf un I had as a compere and perofrmer etc and the friends I made there. All my sistas and bruddas there. Pravin, Adam, Chris, Timothy, Jasper, Wendy, Cal, Neetz, Carol etc. :)

To meet them again and still call them sistas and bruddas to me is endearing. :)

Obviously the list of sistas and bruddas have increased. Some have become closer to me than others. But the time we shared was epic :)

Anyway anther thing is that one of my close sistas is coming down to SYD at end of aug and I am going to bring them around and join them in gold coast as well! :D I cant wait to bring them around SYD and explore Gold coast myself! Woohoooo!

As for family in SG, didnt get to speak much to mum about how thigns are except that the aunties got together to visit my grandpa's urn. I miss my grandpa...the best man in my life. Love him to bits and will always love him.

Another things that happened this week was that my posters arrived! :D did abit of reshuffling of stuff on my room walls :D a huge red poster that says "keep calm and trust god" and another nice poster of a painting of Jesus christ as well as a union jack poster that says "keep calm and carry on"

Sorta wished I had more people I know who were visiting sydney. :) wanna show them around sydney...as if I knew alot about sydney like that...not really..just that its mroe fun bring them around than me walking around myself :P

I guess I also miss my only other sisters whom I knew in Sydney...Sonal and Sam. Sonal has left for india for good. Sam is around but we never really meet up :/ oh well.....

Lastly, also missing my own sister. Hope she's doing well. She's the most stable person I know and it isnt just because she's small hence a better centre of gravity lol! Its because she's just emotionally and psychologically stable. indirectly, she would be my rock as well :) Love her :)

my emotional state is stable for now. aside from the usual stress, I guess Im missing home but not as badly as the last time. I can honestly say that there are some people I used to miss quite badly which Ive gotten over. non-family or farmily. this is sorta good coz then I wouldnt keep thinking of them or wanting to msg them hahahhaha and Im happy to say that at this point that the 2 particular people whom i found so hard to let go off, I have. :) While I do still feel like speaking to them, I wont pin on it. hahahah sigh..life is tough...


God Bless