A memorable production

Just finished a production! Had the best company ever! We were a team as a whole! No serious quarrels.

Im very happy with the way the production has grown and taken shape.

We had such awesome time in and outside the venue!

I didn't feel as stressed as I felt in the last 2. And the play is sooo funny! The cast were a group of really really nice people :)

Im really blessed to be in this production. I know I could have done better because of what Ive learnt. But while thinking that I dont feel terribly condemned like that last production as an ASM.

At this point, Im happy to say that Ive found good friends in Australia. Designer, Props and costume people. I finally feel like Im fitting in! :)

While Im happy that the production is over, Im also starting to get post production blues because of the commaderie developed here.

Can I also say that I received really nice closing night presents :) Its not big stuff but it was very sweet. :)

1 more week before I head back to SG :)

God Bless!

trying to write songs again

there was a time that I felt that I could pen songs down. now I just feel like everything I write is cliche... that and maybe I dont have anything to write about anymore... its mostly about love lost and if I keep writing about it..every song will seem the same... And maybe Im just writing songs into reality...

I went to facebook for awhile and chanced upon my ex bf's photo... maybe I do still feel sadness..because we lost something that I feel is almost impossible to get back... And what hurts the most, is that Ive lost him as a best friend...and possibly lost him as a friend..a good friend..a confidante... and it breaks my heart...
Maybe I will never stop loving him...He will always have a special place in my heart... always...even if we can't be together. even if he doesn't love me anymore.... doesn't mean I will stop loving him. And my love will be there as a friend, as a sister, as a confidante.... just sucks that we started of as being siblings and now, we're not even close friends...

Yes abit emo...

Wonder what would happen if he read this... hmmm well....that would be embarrassing.... but I do hope he's doing well...I hope he's found someone to love...very sure its not hard for him to do so... he looks as good as he used to hahaha

me on the other hand, its gonna take a longer time. studying overseas is taxing but it means that without a partner, I can concentrate on myself....things that I want to do. not that I dont want to spend time w the person...it means that i won't have to worry about us.

Time to dance, time to sing, time to write songs etc...

times like these...I just wished I could get a glimpse of my future to know how it will unfold...

God Bless

Fav Song List

So after 29 years of my life, I reckon Ive got a few all-time favs. Obviously this list isnt exhaustive. Because billions of hits have been played and just cause one is my fav, doesnt mean I would listen to it 24/7 and not get bored of it for awhile.

PS: They are not necessarily the original singers of the song

- Rufus Wainwright - Hallelughia
- Sarah Mclachlan - Arms of An Angel
- Richard Marxx - Right Here Waiting
- Lighthouse Family - Aint No sunshine
- Bonnie Raitt - I Cant Make You Love Me
- Guns & Roses - Sweet Child Of Mine
- Porgy & Bess Musical - Summertime
- Somewhere Over The Rainbow
- No Doubt - Dont Speak
- Audioslave - Like a Stone


Special Mention
Soundtrack from The Piano by Michael Nyman

God Bless

Feeling like such a loser...

arrgghhhhh!!!! doing my lighting paperwork and I feel like such a loser for not having caught up with certain things! And worst fo all, I dont know if I was just stupid enough to miss out on all that or did people just not tell me!?!?! Aarrggghhh! I dont wanna copy from other people! I wanna do it with my own strength and yet!!! Its really dissappointing me! I hate it!

Im angry! But I dont know which is worse, angry at myself for not being a good head lx or angry with others...

Im angry enough to swear in my head..but mostly at myself for not having been on top of things..... I feel very very dissappointed with myself...

SIgh.....

I know that I need to get over all this and focus on getting things going till bump out...

God Bless

Condemnation...

So my Facebook status says:
Maybe one of the hardest things is not " forgiving others" or "getting others to forgive me" but forgiving myself...
While walking home, I had that thoughts stuck in my head. It wasn't a good night and I felt that I had let people down. I felt like I had fallen out of favour. Obviously Satan was speaking into my ears about it. While I walked home, I did tear a little.
I got pissed with myself for not making things go my way. Obviously Im not saying that things should go my way all the time! But where I felt it mattered, I let it slip and it was disappointing...I dont know if others truly felt that way...but I felt disappointed in myself too...
That and me constantly making stupid mistakes....I know Im not a lighting person..not yet..and hence I can't be certain that I will be correct all the time. mistakes will be made. But I really sorta wished that I didn't make such silly mistakes. it felt like my brain wasn't thinking the right way! And I couldn't get myself to think the right way! Its not rocket science! Its common sense!
Yes Im feeling incompetent...

How powerful is condemnation...

Its got me in an endless spiral of stupidity sometimes...and when it starts, it goes downhill...

Anyway Im gonna keep myself motivated and positive and finish up all my paperwork this weekend!

Im gonna keep reminding myself that its never by my own efforts..but by Jesus's work that I get favour.

God Bless