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while i still have batt in my laptop..time to blog

Wanted to blog a couple of times but it wasnt an appropriate time. Blogging has now become like a stress reliever to me. Afterall, alot of people write to relieve their burdened souls...

So for the best few days Ive been trying really hard not to let stress overcome. As studies show..stress is a cause for a helluva lot of diseases. But its really not my physical health Im worried about...but my mental health. it really sucks to be stressed all the time.

Tomorrow is lunchshow...Damn...Im stressed again.

Yesterday evening watched 17 again with ISC peeps and as usual, I was a sucker for romance. Zac Efron is too young but seriously he is cute and any right aged youth would love his good looks. If I were 17 I would too. Anyway we went to Macdonalds after that and ate and chat and played silly hand games. All was silly but we had fun. least I hope the juniors enjoyed it. :)

So..come to think of it, I have nothing to say at this point ciz my life hasnt been fantastic and exciting. Day by day I fight the good fight of faith and fight to be in his resting peace.

So all jibberish...Im done.

blessed lack of rain

Before I forget, I gotta blog it.

Yesterday was a worry-ful day, needless to say that since Im a worrywart, my heart wasnt at peace. How fragile we are that we could be swayed so easily by the raging winds.

5mins before the actual lunchshow performance, it started to rain. I thought to myself that I really wasnt gonna take this standing and prayed. I know I used to say that I didnt believe in tongues but after learning so much and reading so mucha bout it, I do now. I mumbled alittle in tongues.... and claimed the clearing of clouds.
Little did I know that while I went into moberly to take umbrellas (see the doubt) when I came out, the rain was gone. the sun came out and dried the raindrops on the bench and the show started.

We had a good show despite the little mistakes the band made. the crowd was well past 100pax..arnd 140? the food I catered last minute became 1 of the better pull factors. The performers came early enough to help w setup.

The lunchshow started and ended smoothly. The emcees could do better really...
But I thank God for the blessings.

Choir practice went well etc and it only rained after I got home. The rain was so heavy that had I still been on the way home, Id be soaked all the way and I would have a problem walking straight because of the wind.

God Bless

Resting in His peace.

Quick update on wats happened so far.

Last Thur:
Worrying abt welcome party which turned out quite successful. The band I allowed to play, apparently didnt dissappoint. Split was good too. very professional really. But I wont need to say more coz they know they did good. :)

Last Fri:
ISFO started early. Proud of the team. I didnt do much but be there so they deserve allt eh effort. its all them. Sutomo & Siswanto rose tot he occassion and the rest of the team who even bugged me for things...did very well. really happy for them. :) Yes glitches occured but they happen and we move on. HAPPY FOR THEM!! MY CHILDREN!
God's blessings ran on them. Fair weather all the way and compliments by directors.

Last Sat:
Served in Youth Choir. Wore the wrong colour code but close enough to fake. :( Spoilt my mood though. Felt so condemned (self condemned) for being so useless as to get even that wrong. But when we went up to worship and gave our best to Him, He made hte worship worthwhile.
The DARE & ARROW worship was soooo good on with teh new choir!
Aside from the conventional church choir, we jumped and sang and jumped and sang and all for Him! We made the people who were at the service felt like worshipping Him too. To express our hearts in song..every morsal of joy and emotions into the songs for Him. That is real worship!!!
Not saying old hymns are not nice. In fact, they bring out the child in me because I used to sing it as a child. Hence when I sing them I reaally feel like I was singing it to my God as a child to her father. the workout we got from that 2 services was awesome. I perspired just serving in the choir! :) Awesome!!! :D
And did I mention that I saw one of my students as the drummer for the youth worship? And I saw Rain in my church choir too? Praise God for bringing them to Him. :)

Last Sun:
Last day before school term starts. Thinking of lunchshow I wasnt too keen but Im hyping myself up w the knwledge that God will bring me through in His rest. His peace will mmake this term a smooth one. No matter how heavy the storm blows, the people in the ark (in Jesus) will never need to worry because they are in a safe place. AMEN!

Mon:
Good to see students again. :) Good to see the year 1s. :)
SUBWAY IS IN SP! And we happen to have these 2 big ass arcade basketball machines in FC5 for now! (Stephen & Ian, you guys would love it)
Lotsa stuff starting to pile in but I'll take it in my stride!
Got a chance to meet up w Eka, Gajan, Arisya and gang. Not the most comfortbale moments coz I dont drink bbut I did miss them. :) Good to see all of them doing well.

Tue:
Went for OktoLive because it was the last show. Saw my dance instructor performing in it. Principal was there and I tried to hide. I tried to blend into the students haha
Had 3-4 clubs in my office at 1 point of time in the day and it felt like it was back to the good old busy days.

I know its not much for almost a weeks worth of time but alot fot hings are not worth mentioning on blogs. Which might mean that alot fo things are not meaningful to mention..Would that mean that a blog sorta shows how much meaningful time you have in like? Assuming that you do blog about everything that has a meaning to you. Assuming you dont hold back on menaingful stuff because it is classified.

I told God a while back that I want to be a Lighthouse for Him. Shine out to those around and lead the way to God. It doesnt necessarily take preaching because sometimes trying to evangelize with talking works in an adverse way. But by being his example..I get people interested in God. And when they ask about God, I will tell them about God's uncondemning love. :)

So while this week may be hectic....and worrying for me. I choose to cast my troubles to God and count my blessings. I confess to being a blessed child of God whom exceeds my expectations and does more than a normal father. AMEN! My clubs will do well with Him as the leader.

Lastly..to those who wanna join me for church..tell me. I willingly bring you. If you dont wanna say why I wont force you coz I may not know but God does. :)

God Bless!

Mad

Maybe its me. I work in a weird way...

I hit and exclaim my remarks oout loud often. It may seem very very obnoxious and irritating and improper but thats me. Maybe its coz of that and my face that I come across as angry or pissed all the time.

But I'm not. I never really am. Im forgiving and often too forgiving!

But when I realized that my student club is being dispised or looked down upon. I either get upset, discouraged or pissed. I mean pissed.

I know I want to do something but I also know that I cant please everyone. I know not everybody likes me and Ive upset alot. I dont know who my club has upset but it could very well be because of me.

And while I sit here and wonder and wish I had a way to find out who...Im so tempted to do all I can to find out...evn spend time to talk to all the members and find out if anyone knows anything and spend all the time I can to keep interogating...

But inside of me, I know I can only ask so much. Also the best way to this...is to cast to God.

In my heart, I pray that God will guide my club to be their best...to outshine alvin's and juwy's batch and even pravin's batch. That God would protect them from all sorts of enemies and problems. We have been a very very fortunate bunch. God has opened our path and opened many doors for us and we are slowly getting the recognition the club needs to do better. But as the doors open, people who dont like us get in to.
I believe in my God. I believe in His power to look after His children and the works of His children when they are cast to Him.

I cast all my clubs to Him. I ask Him to work in all their hearts..to do their best for the club..that it might shine. That other clubs will be amazed by the clubs' strength and versatility.
I am thankful for the clubs I have. :)

I know my God is watching my clubs ans everything they do. I know my God knows who has been talking bad about or mistreating the club. I know that there is nothing I can do to change their minds if htey are stubborn. But I know that if God be with me, NOTHING can be against me. And..NOTHING can be against us! Amen!!!! If needs be, God will work int heir hearts and let them see the lights.
As for me and my clubs..we will do what we can and rest in His peace!

God Bless

Is it true?

There has to be a reason why so many jewish people are geniuses...Maybe God is using them as witnesses.

Jewish Actors and Actresses:
Cary Grant -- Classical good looks and humor
Alicia Silverstone -- Actress - Clueless, The Crush, The Babysitter, Batman
Barbara Streisand -- Singer and actress winner of two Oscars, four Emmys, nine Golden Globes, and other awards.
Mandy Patinkin -- Emmy & Tony award-winning actor, 'Dr Jeffrey Geiger' on TV's Chicago Hope
Harrison Ford -- Actor: 'Raiders of the Lost Ark', 'Star Wars', ' American Graffiti', 'Witness', 'The Fugitive'
Gwyneth Paltrow -- Oscar winnerWilliam Shatner -- Captain James T. Kirk on the original 'Star Trek'
Natalie Portman -- Actress, Queen Amidala in Star Wars: The Phantom MenaceAl Jolson -- famous entertainer. Starred in the first talking movie
Winona Ryder -- Star of films like Heathers, Girl Interrupted, Little Women, Beetlejuice
Noah Wyle -- Actor, 'Dr John Carter' on TV's ER
Michael Landon -- Little Joe Cartwright on Bonanza
Mark Frankel -- Actor in 'Sisters' and 'Fortune Hunter'
Sarah Jessica Parker -- Acress in 'Sex and the City', 'LA Story'Seth Green -- television actor, Buffy, the Vampire Slayer, Family Guy.
Robert Downey, Jr. -- actor in 'Less Than Zero,' 'Chaplin,' 'Short Cuts.'
Paul Newman -- Academy Award winning actor and philanthropist

Musicians:
Itzhak Perlman -- Grammy-winning Violin soloist
Max Weinberg -- Drummer for Springstein and musical director for
Conan O'BrienIsaac Stern -- Violin virtuoso
George Gershwin -- American composer of many vocal and theatrical works written in collaboration with his older brother, lyricist Ira Gershwin.
Jascha Heifetz -- Violinist
Yehudi Menuhin -- Violinist
Herb Alpert -- Leader and trumpeter of Tijuana Brass
Stan Getz -- Jazz Tenor Sax player most famous for The Girl from Ipanema
Julio Iglesias -- Internationally famous Spanish singer. Holds Guinness world record for the most albums sold in the most languages.

Scientists:
Albert Einstein -- One of the most famous and influential scientists since
Isaac NewtonCarl Sagan -- astronomer and popular science author; made book and TV series 'Cosmos'
Niels Bohr -- Nobel prize-winning Physicist: atomic structure
Roald Hoffmann -- Nobel prize winner in Chemistry: field of electronic structures
Fritz Haber -- winner of the Nobel Prize of Chemistry in 1918, for the synthesis of ammonia from its elements
Edward Teller -- Physicist, father of the hydrogen bomb
Leo Szilard -- Physicist, proved the possibility of a nuclear chain reaction in 1933.
Jonas Salk -- Developed the first polio vaccine.

Business Professionals:
Milton Hershey -- Hershey's Chocolate founder
Michael Dell -- Founder of Dell Computer
Larry Ellison -- Founder and CEO of Oracle
Alan Greenspan -- Federal Reserve Chairman under Reagan, Bush, Clinton, Bush
Steve Ballmer -- CEO of Microsoft and the richest Jew in the world
Sir James Goldsmith -- financier and banker who amongst others has taken over Goodyear.
George Soros -- millionaire philanthropist who has donated millions to aid Eastern Europe.

Fashion designers:
Calvin Klein -- Famous Clothes Designer
Ralph Lauren -- (Ralph Lipshitz) world famous fashion designer
Levi Strauss -- Inventor of Blue Jeans
Kenneth Cole -- Fashion Designer who's married to Mario Cuomo's daughter

Comedians:
Jerry Lewis -- A comedian who teamed up with Dean Martin
Marcel Marceau -- The most famous mime in history
Jerry Seinfeld -- Stand up comedian, TV show Seinfeld, American Express commercials
Milton Berle -- Comedian who pioneered comedy/variety on television
Jack Benny -- Reknowned radio and TV comic

Directors and producers:
Steven Spielberg -- Director of films such as Saving Private Ryan & Schindler's List, Jurassic Park, E.T.,
Stanley Kubrick -- Director of 2001: A Space Odyssey, Clockwork Orange, The Shining, Full Metal Jacket, Spartacus
Mel Brooks -- Film director, producer, actor: Blazing Saddles, Young Frankenstein
Woody Allen -- Film Maker/Actor: Annie Hall, Bullets Over Broadway, Mighty Aphrodite, Antz
Roman Polanski -- Director, screenwriter, actor: Rosemary's Baby, Macbeth, Chinatown, Tess
Ben Stiller -- Director/Actor: Seinfeld, SNL, Reality Bites, Something About Mary, The Cable Guy
Aaron Spelling -- Produced Beverly Hills 90210, Melrose Place...
Oliver Stone -- Popular Director: The Doors, J.F.K., Heaven And Earth, Natural Born Killers

Artists:
Frida Kahlo --
Mexican artist famous for vivid, surrealist self-portraits. Married to Diego Rivera.
Marc Chagall -- Painter, designer and graphic artist
Modigliani -- Artist whose elongated faces are reminiscent of African masks
Camille Pissarro -- Father of Impressionism

Politicians:
Golda Mabovitch (Golda Myerson, Golda Meir) - the fourth prime minister of the State of Israel.

Amen to God!

An Atheist Professor of Philosophy was speaking to his Class on the problem Science
has with GOD, the ALMIGHTY. He asked one of his new Christian students to stand
and...
Professor : You are a Christian, aren't you, son?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So, you believe in GOD?
Student : Absolutely, sir.
Professor : Is GOD good?
Student : Sure.
Professor : Is GOD ALL - POWERFUL?
Student : Yes.
Professor : My Brother died of cancer even though he prayed to GOD to heal him. Most of us
would attempt to help others who are ill. But GOD didn't. How is this GOD good then? Hmm?
(Student was silent)
Professor : You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fella.
Is GOD Good?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Is Satan good?
Student : No.
Professor : Where does Satan come from?
Student : From...GOD...
Professor : That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this World?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And GOD did make everything. Correct?
Student : Yes.
Professor : So who created evil?
(Student did not answer)
Professor : Is there Sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the World, don't they?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So, who created them?
(Student had no answer)
Professor : Science says you have 5 Senses you use to Identify and Observe the World around you. Tell me, son...have you ever seen GOD?
Student : No, sir.
Professor : Tell us if you have ever heard your GOD?
Student : No, sir.
Professor : Have you ever Felt your GOD, Tasted your GOD, Smelt your GOD? Have you ever had any Sensory Perception of GOD for that matter?
Student : No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Professor : Yet you still believe in HIM?
Student : Yes.
Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student : Nothing. I only have my Faith.
Professor : Yes, Faith. And that is the problem Science has.
Student : Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?
Professor : Yes.
Student : And is there such a thing as Cold?
Professor : Yes.
Student : No, sir. There isn't...
(The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events)
Student : Sir, you can have Lots of Heat, even More Heat, Superheat, Mega Heat, White Heat, a Little Heat or No Heat. But we don't have anything called Cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is No Heat, but we can't go any further after that.
There is no such thing as Cold. Cold is only a Word we use to describe the Absence of Heat. We cannot Measure Cold. Heat is Energy. Cold is Not the Opposite of Heat, sir, just the Absence of it. (There was pin-drop dilence in the Lecture Theatre)
Student : What about Darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as Darkness?
Professor : Yes. What is Night if there isn't Darkness?
Student : You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the Absence of Something.
You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light...
But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and its called Darkness, isn't it?
In reality, Darkness isn't. If it is, you would be able to make Darkness Darker, wouldn't you?
Professor : So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student : Sir, my point is, your Philosophical Premise is flawed.
Professor : Flawed? Can you explain how?
Student : Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality. You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a Good GOD and a Bad GOD. You are viewing the Concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can't even explain a Thought. It uses Electricity and Magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one.
To view Death as the Opposite of Life is to be ignorant of the fact that Death cannot exist as a Substantive Thing.
Death is Not the Opposite of Life: just the Absence of it
Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your Students that they evolved from a Monkey?
Professor : If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes, of course, I do.
Student : Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?
(The Professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going)
Student : Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and Cannot even prove that this Process is an On-Going Endeavor, Are you not teaching your Opinion, sir? Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?
(The Class was in uproar)
Student : Is there anyone in the Class who has ever seen the Professor's brain?
(The Class broke out into laughter)
Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it?... No one appears to have done so. So, according to the Established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have No Brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?
(The Room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable)
Professor : I guess you'll have to take them on Faith, son.
Student : That is it sir...Exactly! The Link between Man & GOD is FAITH. That is all that Keeps Things Alive and Moving.

NB:
I believe you have enjoyed the Conversation...and if so...
You'll probably want your friends/colleagues to enjoy the same... won't you?
Forward them to Increase their Knowledge...or FAITH.
That student was ALBERT EINSTEIN. He is a Jew.

Afternote: Albert Einstein was also autistic. John Nash who brokethrough countless math isues was a schizophrenic? The character for Beautiful Minds

Good Friday and Easter

went to Reinhard Bonke's Healing Session at the Indoor Stadium. Many healed but Im more concerned for those I wanted to bring. Unfortunately, I cudnt bring my students down esp 1 of them who has so many problems in her life.

I know that there is nothing I can do in this world but I know who can and deep in me, I do wish I could show how much god loves her and no matter what problems she feels she has no control over, that God is the one who can help her get through it and solve it. I also wanted her to know that the problems she has doesnt make her a bad person and people around who would condemn her for who she is..are at fault. Not that her problem isnt a problem. Yes her condition is not desirable but it isnt her fault. Depending on how she wants to work it out, I know God in Jesus name has the solution.
I did manage to bring 1 of my close frens over. Im sooo glad she's been going to church and I wanted to share w her the love of God. I wanted her to understand how having God can be a carefree thing and not a legalistic thing. As Reinhard Bonke began to preach about healing...I knew in my heart that God's healing for her is not an impossible thing. I wanted so much to see her healed and so I prayed over her. Even now.
But the healing miracles of God is still something Im still struggling with. Inside of me I know God's healings are true but sometimes I sorta feel like they would never be mine. I know Satan chooses to play these messages in my head to rpevent me from getting myself healed.
even if my requests for healings are just minor astigmatism and knee problems.

As we ended friday and sat at mac talking abt God, we chances upon the topic of healing and she didnt really believe in healings. Wouldnt blame her. I have issues on this myself...but I do know as I said it..It is harder to raise Jeesus from the dead than heal a blind man. In accordance to the greek words used for "power" The greek word of power used to raise God from the dead was "all the power God The Father had"...while the "power" used in healing other miracles..was a word of lesser degree. So if God can raise Jesus from the dead...whats stopping God The Father from healing us?
If Jesus went around Jeruselum to do God The Father's will and in His work He never turned down any sick person's request to be healed. Then God's will must be that He wants us healed.
If the power and authority Jesus got from God The Father over the earth, after He rose from the dead, and Jesus passed on the power to His disciples to go forth and do miracles, even bigger miracles than what Jesus has done. Then definitely God's will for all is to get healing. Not only that, we as children of God who have the same power and authority as teh disciples..will have the same ability to heal. Not that we are very powerful..but that we are the vessels for God to work His miracles from.

I firmly believe in this and I believe my eyes (be it just astig and minor short sightedness) willb e healed. And my knee will heal and not hurt after sports.

I know around me are alot of people who need God's word but Im still not secure at telling them about God because Im not ready. Or I think so...or Satan might think so too.
Maybe these students and people come to me because something in them knows God is my Father.

Few nights back, I prayed for my family's salvation. I prayued for my students mental and physical health. I prayed for my friends salvation. I asked God to make me a lighthouse...to let me be a good example of a Christian that in me, people will recognise God or come to know God and be brought to His house. I know that is the best way. To walk the talk..to dwell in His finished work..that he would provide for all my needs and I can sleep in the boat as the storm roars just like how Jesus did..knowing Jesus has calmed the storm for me.
I cant speak to everyone about God yet but I know if I become a good example of God, that words might not even need to be said. After all actions speak louder than words right.

As these few days go past, I thank God for the love I dont fully understand and could never fully understand. But I can feel it. Im the pits of me I know somethings are true and they feel so right.
I know it when I talk to someone about God and explian His magnificent work and love contributed and inside me swells a well of love and respect for Him again.
I will not depend on my own wisdom and knowledge to explain Him...but depend on His word to come out of me.

I claim His love and blessings and I claim the salvation of all those around me. I claim the health for all around me and claim my favour I have in my students. I know without my God, I wouldnt be here and I wouldnt be doing things that I love to do.

Let me continue to be His light!

God Bless