Reflections on Grad C

Im thankful for the bunch of people helping me. Im thankful for the extra lessons I got from Cikgu Wandi...Im thankful for the comperes.

Grad C is actually an event that comperes always did..in my time..we had sooo much problems getting dedications...its comparatively easier. Also..we never had proper sound guys and the luxury of non-radioed music...

As i see my grownup"kids" leave SP...I felt so proud of them..no matter how the sun sapped up all my energy..I cud still jump/hop/skip over to them to take a picture...

I know they dnt all read my blog and thats great..but I guess for those who do..

To my graduates:

A building is only as known as the company of pple who occupy it. Just like a school is only as good as the students that come from it. Just as how a teacher is only as good as the students that he/she teaches.
Because of that, know that you guys (added together) are the ones who give SP it's colour/spots/stripes/hues/tones and character. And because of you guys (added together) I see Sp in a different light..not by its grey and beige buildings and its industrial like chimneys...but by the stripes and hues and tones I speak about.
Even as you graduate and new blood or paint take over...to give SP a new character...know that beneatht he top layer of colour...is always the previous colours..
Theres no way to get rid of hte colours before them.. no matter how u try to scrap them off.
So SP will always have a piece of you with them.
Moving further into that...our bodies are the buildings of our hearts...meaning...because u guys are in my heart...you too make me who I am...and two people who share a bond..will never fail to affect each other.
No matter how many students I will have..You'll still be one of those in my heart. :)
Congratulations.

The other thing I felt at Grad C...was a sorta unhappiness with my comperes. I guess I gotta hand it to Angel for bearing with us. and for picking the right people...meaning..our batch..
We had little problems..we were independent..we were a talent agency...

Now..I only feel sad abt my seniors not taking the mentoring job seriously...or not realizing exactly whaat mentoring entails. Its not about being next to ur juniors and chatting with them..or dancing around tot he music..its also abt being an example to them..giving them pointers on what they shud include in their scripts...
Maybe Im asking too much from them..they're still kids...they dnt realize certain things beyond their noses because they're not the officer in charge...
I know this si something Im arguing with myself about...
Are they mature enough to make things happen? Shud I just step back and watch them stumble?
Some of them asked for info on the stalls..I told them to find it themselves..some of them used other people's scripts..and it turned out horrible.
I know 1 of hte session was so badly planned and rehearsed that the guy stumbled all over the place..Alia got fed up and took over the mic. She apologized later thinking Id be angry. Im not angry abt her taking over hte mic..Im just not happy with them dancing to wondergirls (or whtever the group is) while Im trying to brief them...They lost sight of the issue...

Im glad teh ceremony is over but somehow Im still worried for Comperes. I know Im not supposed to worry for them...I know my maternal instincts are kicking in and looking at my dad...I know where I got the worry-nerve from.

Now everytime I listen to the radio....or the popular songs...I get drawn back into Grad C mood...

Its because of all those that matter to me...that make the songs meaningful.

K gonna stop playing facebook..stop blogging n start sleeping

God Bless

Grad C is over!!!

After all the 4 days..Im prob 4 shades darker... Haiz

Must admit that this Grad C was fun.

Its truly the one time that I can be w my comperes train them..see how the juniors are like etc. Some have potential..some are good..some..not so good..but it means more trainings..

Despite all that and the weather getting into my nerves...I do appreciate the seniors being there to cheer them on...to keep them company and advize them. Even the seniors have much to learn...


Another thanks goes out to the guys who have been helping me with the music. giving me more time to focus on the comperes... Same bunch of guys for the past few SP events...same bunch of nice guys. You respect them..they do the same...most impt thing...be humble......

As usual..Wandi was there to irritate me and it did get to me at first...but I made things quite clear..
Must thank him for giving me the free audio lessons..Dnt know whether I really got it..but Im trying..and I will try not to forget what I learnt..as they all say... practice more..haiz... yes Cikgu..
I guess i shud say that Im blessed to have such people around who are willing to teach..some of them dnt want to. Wats worse.. some of them look like they cud bite ur head off...Yes I am blessed.
I know I made too many mistakes in the 4 days...but i wnt give up...I wont!

Anyway these 4 days have brought me down memory lane too...bad and good memories...sorta made me abit emo...
Ive been trying to get myself out of the emo state since Monday...

Time to sleep...

God Bless!

Last day of Gad Ceremony!!!!

Finally last day. For the past few days, ive been playing catch with rain. Stupid murphy and bored angel combined. Thanks Stephen for bringing BA over lah!

right knee got problem...hair messy and etc...grrr

BUT managed to squeeze some time to celebrate my student's graduation...*check facebook* :D

Specially prepared a board for every grad picture I took. They say a picture speaks a thousand words but a picture with subtitles tells alot more than anything else. FINALLY LAH!

and tonight, I have a bigger celebration!!!! NEETZ's BANGLE CEREMONY!!! Wohooo!

SHE"S GETTING MARRIED THIS SUNDAY!!!!

Ning

Sun and Rain..pros and cons

4 days of Grad Ceremony...IT HAS STARTED!!!!

Ended 2nd day with sore legs...Stupid Ning think she super hero...happy happy bounce back and forth...
the 1st day ended with rain and my shoes and socks were soaked..made my knees and feet ache..spoilt my mood...

Sweet and sour kind of feeling seeing my students graduate...Had a whiteboard with the words
"LIKE FINALLY LA!! www.KnewYouCudDoIt/goodluck/come_back_soon/Missyou.com.sg"
Took photos with everyone of them that i could find.

Anyway..getting tired because of the Sun. Stupid Ning play under the sun untill she sleepy....damn..

Also getting easily irritated with the Comperes. Sorry Guys...
I guess I expected alot more from them that they thought...Is it asking for too much?
Im not pissed k..Im not really very dissappointed either..just that I know more can be done.

Dunno how I can last for the next few days...

God Bless

Sunday Emo

@Jas: yes babe..u will and I will make sure you do but dnt need to start practicing anytime soon. And I miss you too sweets. Come down to grad C rehearsal and some fo the days?
@Sam you too (i have a feeling ur reading this too)

K so anyway.. felling abit emo today...most prob coz it rained..was planning to catch the Arts Fest opening but the rain was an issue.

Since the Guitarists Concert, Yiruma's River Flows In You has been stuck in my head and since its such an emo-able song...I was listening to it today..

Got to catch up w 2 good friends...Yuen Tak and Edwin..different times and we talked abt the past..abt the future etc..and on both instances I sorta felt abit regretful on not using my timme wisely...I cud have learnt soooo much more last time...

Now..everything is abt money and time..both of which I dnt have the luxury of getting in abundance...

Anyway..good news! I finally passed my BSEE1 for sign language..the test I was sooo worried about was still quite okay...but i need to keep practicing if i wanna get past BSEE2...

Anyway...baack to emo-ing..I realized that a person's true emotional state of mind..is reflected at night..when they are the only one left awake int eh house...staring out of the window..at the world outside.
Or maybe its just me coz my house is quite high...hence there is a view to look at...whillle others..might only be able to look out at the carpark. But u get my point...
Anyway..I realize that there is a songlist for my emo-ing self..and most of it is instrumental..
1) Yiruma - River Flows In You
2) Fantaghiro OST
3) Michael Nyman - The Piano OST
4) Caution LUST OST
5) La Valse D' Amelia OST
6) Handel's Sarabande
7) Josh Groban - Per Te/Alejate/Cinema Paradiso/In Her Eyes/Alla Luce Del Sole

Havnt figured out what I wud do for my kids during Grad C...too many to count so I cant do it for all...
Dunno...

K time to sleep...need strength..tomorrow is a new day and things to settle etc...

God Bless

Decided enough was enough...

Grad Ceremony is coming..getting paranoid....

Hopefully this time round..the event wud go smoothly...

Thankfully got sound guys to help so I can focus on comperes. Thanks Wandi, Izzat, Ansari, Rahmat, Emm wats his name..(sya?) &..HELMI!....thanks all for helping with the set up. I know the techrider was wrong and u guys had to shift all the stuff over...and I know u guys got bored waiting for rehearsals...and catering to the sudden changes..incuding my side..Thanks Azwan and the rest also for helping to set up the stuff outside..
Terimah Kasih! I know Id be pissed/Sian too if I had to bring all the load of stuff and not need to use it...
Gonna need your help for the next 1 week..and hope to get some knowledge off you guys...

And looks like I got a new bro out of the entire thing...Sorta got down to telling Wan off for calling me names hahaha Not bad names..but names that are not really appropriate..

I guess there are some names that ud reserve for the best one...And that is what it is to me. And I dont want people to get wrong  ideas so yah. yes hearts are very mallable.
Btw...not that I dnt respect the new bro of mine...just that I cant look at him w a straight face.
Im happy Ive ironed things out and Im glad I can out my foot down and stand by God's promise of His own provision..
And I know where I stand....God is my deciding factor. My past experience has already taught me that.


Dnt get me wrong k. I dnt plan to be a nun...but I plan to use God's love and grace as a benchmark...the best one has to be Christian.

Sorta seems weird saying all this in my blog..esp when 28 is looming around the corner and child games arent popular amonngst my age groups..but this is truly wat i feel.

I believe that He will give me someone who loves Him and has the mental, spiritual, physical and financial capabilities to support me and vice versa.

Last I want now is to get someon who rocks my boat...

God Bless

less than a week before Grad Ceremony starts...

Grad C is coming again...it s a joyous occassion coz my little "children" are old and mature enough to fly off into the working world. Some of them Ive had the joy of working with closely..some..for a short period of time but nonetheless still memorable.

Yet let me reassure you that all the memories are good...

So in the next 2 weeks, I will saying " good luck and see you soon" to a bunch of students with mixed feelings. :)

Coz I'll miss seeing them in school, in the club...miss having meals with them..miss joking with them..

And dnt blame me if I tear...coz I spent my last 3 yrs in your lives and the time I had with you guys wud never be lesser than not being there at all.

I will get myself a small white board for Grad C..to write a msg and take photos with my dear students..

Im sure I know why teachers love their jobs...coz at the end of the day...they know they are alie when  they feel happy/sad to see their "cildren" go.

God Bless

2 weeks of Grad Ceremony...1 month of Robocup....

Wandi and guys moved into SP today to set upt he sound. As expected..the equipment they brought in was more than needed. Poor guys were "dissappointed" for the wasted energy in carrying the load and lack of work available during the event. Understandable...I sorta thinkt hey did a good job dealing with the dissappointment.

I sorta feel its a sad world that girls cant be sound guys..not just because of the title but also coz it takes mus-cels (as Jenny rightly pronounce it) and a whole load of time. Time that girls might not necessary want to lose...

I guess this Grad C will be a good time for me to practice my newly acquired skill...okay mostly theory based...Since my good friend Wandi will be there..I'll grab a few tutorials from him hahahahahahhaa

 Im also excited that my students would learn how to work that sound system...learn how its patcched up etc..althought now that I come to mention abt it...it might be abit too much for them.
 Personally...I know I wanna learn how to EQ...

BTW..I bought myself an IPodTouch. :D *BIG GLITTERING GRIN*
Walked around the BEST for a soild close to 1.5hrs...came back to the same display window 4 times...allt eh times..staring at only 1 thing...the price range of a single IPOD touch...$500 is tough!

I still hate Iphone users BTW hahaha so dnt think Id stop grumbling if ur an Iphone User...hahaha Coz its no end until I get one hahahaI guess now that I have an Itouch, my desire is appeased for now hahahah

Also managed to catch this really cool emcee at Bishan. He does chinese, hokkien, engllish..he sings, etc He's fluent and he's funny and he's smooth! Geez! I couldnt helpp but sms my students abt him and he most definitely got me thinking abt my chinese standard...Hmmpphhh
 1 day!

So here it is..I know what I want to achieve this 2 weeks! (For myself that is...)
- Sign language test
- Sound lessons possibly w EQ

And in the long run...better chinese... try lah Hao Mah?

I also learnt 1 thing abt myself today...I act hero when Im not meant to be one. I act independent when I do need pple to help me. Tsk tsk

All the best for the next 2 weeks!

God Bless

:)

No title because I dnt have an appropriate title.

This week has been tough for me..alot of emotional/self critical moments that made me lose my fightting spirit.

Its funny co every sunday night, I feel the strain of going back to work...not only coz its work..but because I feel like Im leaving the day of peace and back into battle.

Yesterday was Sp Guitarists Concert and despite the problems we had during rehearsals....Im sooo glad that we could make it. Before the event...the bunch of us christians..huddlde outside Audi and just prayed and claimed His love and blessings for us! That made us feel calm!

The concert went well with as little problems as possible and Liyi  & I were sooo proud of them...we were also soooo in love with God for His hand on our concert. Our cues were quite smooth...the club members didnt seem nervous...they tried their very best! I was soo in love with Jesus!

And before I sang the last 2 songs for the concert...I raised my hands and gave praise to God in my heart.
It is of course time to see the new students join the clubs under me. Im also praying for all my clubs that they would get enough good members in their clubs. Esp, Makeup artists, SPARC and Comperes...

More next time!

Time to get ready to go to church!

God Bless!

Fing pissed with self...

Im so pissed that I seriously dont wanna see any of my students now...for fear that Id scream and shout at them for unreasonable reasons....

for teh Fing second time, Im missing sign language and while in the depths of my head, Im blaming allt eh things that I have to do...I know that all this would be done if I was more organised and thats why im even more pissed and even more dissappointed with myself...

I cant help but bang the table and swear at nobody or somebody or myself because I finally brought my heart and deterination down to finish this blasted course and yet ONCE AGAIN I M MISSING THE TEST!!!!

I could so kill satan if he could actually be killed...AARRGHHHHH!!!!!

And the most comical part of it all!!!! ITS SIGN LANGUAGE and wat better way to swear than w hand signs!

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*cooling down*
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Super sian mode......


God Bless Me....

Restful Increase...I claim it!

This year has been good to me. I claim God's goodness!

I know I havnt updated in months..in the blink of an eye, its May...abt 2.5months of not blogging!

Things that have happened so far...my work has been okay. My older students are graduating and once again Im gonna miss them..and miss teh times we had...seeing them grow into adults.

Did abit of things I wanted to do for awhile..dancing..sign language (test this week)...and of course choir.

The junior have now moved up and taken leadership positions..and I honestly have my reservations abt Comperes climbing up the ladder...I honestly feel like Im failing the alumni on this...
But while the new comm assures that I can trust them...I know I have to take this bold step and give them that authority...I soooo hope they can do it. because hte club is gonna be dependent on them.

As for ISC..they've been having their problems but I see them climbing out of it already. Seeing teh ISFO photos..I cant help but smile at their determination and committement to ISC...making sure the event goes smoothly..and at the same time...coming together to be with the new students. proud of them

I sound biased and maybe I am...and I should change that...I know I need to be with my other clubs more.

This year is gonna be my year of Restful Increase and I insist on seeing God to His word that we can rest n Him and throw our worries to Him. This in actual fact requires fighting...its abt as strenuous as running long distance because I really have to psycho myself to keep my eyes to Him...