Bodyaching from work but I went for dance class anyway. now its a double ache but hopefully they cancel out most of each other and I would be only have to deal with the remainder of it. Ning's theory.
Anyway, had a good day. Read the bible, Watched Cave Of The Golden Rose on Youtube and fell in love again with the lead actor. Just like how I did when I was young. LOL!
I guess Im a sucker for guys with long wavy hair and deep blue eyes. Shrugs
You know Id never really get that in reality so Im screwed hahahaha
In fact it reminded me about what the most attractive feature of a person is...to me that is..its the eyes. Well yes overall good looks help but the eyes are what would take my breathe away. :)
I might end up dreaming of the lead actor...quite ashamed to say so actually.
Silly me would even say that if Jesus were still living on earth as a mortal, he'd have a pair of eyes you'd look at and see the universe. And they would show so much compassion and love and dare I say a tinge of sadness? But loads of joy as well. It might be like Mona Lisa's eyes whom one can never tell what emotions she had because they are too vague?
Whatever it is...when I see Jesus I will know :)
Till then, have to suffer with small chinese slit eyes hahahahahaha
No dont start telling me that I can find an Ang Moh bf! Not possible! Lets stick to status quo k. Chinese christian can already.
God Bless
Saturday, October 27, 2012
Monday, October 22, 2012
Hmm
Ever felt like that reason why people communicate with you is because they need to?
Feeling that way now. Somehow, today has been a difficult day because nobody seems to be answering to my smses..getting frustrating..
Or even in normal school days..nobody seems to be coming up to say hi and hows it going. Okay a few of them do.
But everyoneelse seems to be speaking to me when its needed or when I say hi.
Honestly..I wonder if its because I look serious, or am an introvert or in reality Im not a nice person to be friends with. Or are we all just colleagues to each other?
Times like these I wonder if its because Im not local? And its quite ridiculous to think that that would be the reason anymore because Ive been here for 2 years... Should have assimilated into the aussie culture by now.
Do I come across as someone who doesnt like making friends? Who doesnt like company? etc?Do I seem like a serious introvert? Because if so..I need to change that.
Point is, I dont know if its me or people or culture or something.
And what I also wonder..is whether any of my international students feel leftout by the locals...albeit there are more intl students in SP than my school but do they feel that way in their own classes? If so..I hope they are doing okay...
God Bless
Feeling that way now. Somehow, today has been a difficult day because nobody seems to be answering to my smses..getting frustrating..
Or even in normal school days..nobody seems to be coming up to say hi and hows it going. Okay a few of them do.
But everyoneelse seems to be speaking to me when its needed or when I say hi.
Honestly..I wonder if its because I look serious, or am an introvert or in reality Im not a nice person to be friends with. Or are we all just colleagues to each other?
Times like these I wonder if its because Im not local? And its quite ridiculous to think that that would be the reason anymore because Ive been here for 2 years... Should have assimilated into the aussie culture by now.
Do I come across as someone who doesnt like making friends? Who doesnt like company? etc?Do I seem like a serious introvert? Because if so..I need to change that.
Point is, I dont know if its me or people or culture or something.
And what I also wonder..is whether any of my international students feel leftout by the locals...albeit there are more intl students in SP than my school but do they feel that way in their own classes? If so..I hope they are doing okay...
God Bless
Sunday, October 21, 2012
human nature
So my housemate has just moved out. I cant help but feel abit sad. And knowing that this upsets my comfort zone, it sorta makes me feel alittle out of sorts. Albeit my new housemate is a very nice person..but I guess it still takes getting used to...
I just feel the lack of motivation today.
That and me feeling the nervousness of doing secondments.
Maybe its just the way I'm brought up in SG to be soo concerned with grades...
Because of this little imbalance in my comfort zone, I felt like i needed to get my life sorted out again..
Made me think that Im not using every second I have efficiently...even while Im lacking motivation.
Suddenly I feel like I miss my family and friends alot. I feel like I need to skype them to hear their voice and see their faces..
Knowing that I wont be going back to SG this year is getting to me. My sister wants to drop by in December but Im not even sure if I can spend that time with her, given Sydney Festival.
Im gonna be missing the main festivals/holidays family celebrations next year because I will be here.
I know I will stop feeling this way soon. I believe so. Other than that, Im doing alright. :)
God Bless
I just feel the lack of motivation today.
That and me feeling the nervousness of doing secondments.
Maybe its just the way I'm brought up in SG to be soo concerned with grades...
Because of this little imbalance in my comfort zone, I felt like i needed to get my life sorted out again..
Made me think that Im not using every second I have efficiently...even while Im lacking motivation.
Suddenly I feel like I miss my family and friends alot. I feel like I need to skype them to hear their voice and see their faces..
Knowing that I wont be going back to SG this year is getting to me. My sister wants to drop by in December but Im not even sure if I can spend that time with her, given Sydney Festival.
Im gonna be missing the main festivals/holidays family celebrations next year because I will be here.
I know I will stop feeling this way soon. I believe so. Other than that, Im doing alright. :)
God Bless
Friday, October 19, 2012
this close!
This close to finishing Year2! Thhiiissss cllooossseeee!
Cant wait! But first..need to finish up paperwork and assignment..which is psychologically hard because I know Im almost done and Im zoo ready to just drop everything and head into the sunset saying "seeya next year NIDA!" But no...doesnt work that way.
Not gonna be going back to SG this year. Im half excited, half apprehensive...Don't know how sucky Christmas alone could be..Also..secondments are on so I dont know how Id go with that even! Will I survive and get good comments? :/
Ive unfortunately packed my schedule all the way through till february...whheewww
SIster wants to come over this year but I dont even know if I can accomodate her... :/ I can accomodate but I dont know how much time I can spend with her. very unfortunate if the only time I can spend with her is at night and on weekends.
And knowing me, having her here would be great but having her leave again would result in me having to go "cold turkey" again..just to get myself adjusted to being alone again...
This is however the last year that I will be in Sydney...I know I need to make the most use of it. Which is why Im working through november to february.
in fact I just realized that since July, Ive lost touch with my loved ones in SG. My sisters and brothers, Sonal, my family etc. Sad but honestly I've been starving for time...and when it comes, admittedly, some times I havnt been the wisest in using them...
Okay well..back to work. assignemtn due today. :/
God bless
Cant wait! But first..need to finish up paperwork and assignment..which is psychologically hard because I know Im almost done and Im zoo ready to just drop everything and head into the sunset saying "seeya next year NIDA!" But no...doesnt work that way.
Not gonna be going back to SG this year. Im half excited, half apprehensive...Don't know how sucky Christmas alone could be..Also..secondments are on so I dont know how Id go with that even! Will I survive and get good comments? :/
Ive unfortunately packed my schedule all the way through till february...whheewww
SIster wants to come over this year but I dont even know if I can accomodate her... :/ I can accomodate but I dont know how much time I can spend with her. very unfortunate if the only time I can spend with her is at night and on weekends.
And knowing me, having her here would be great but having her leave again would result in me having to go "cold turkey" again..just to get myself adjusted to being alone again...
This is however the last year that I will be in Sydney...I know I need to make the most use of it. Which is why Im working through november to february.
in fact I just realized that since July, Ive lost touch with my loved ones in SG. My sisters and brothers, Sonal, my family etc. Sad but honestly I've been starving for time...and when it comes, admittedly, some times I havnt been the wisest in using them...
Okay well..back to work. assignemtn due today. :/
God bless
Saturday, October 06, 2012
Nice things
So have been abit stressed with production. Im not very good at it but Im learning.. I refuse to beat myself down! I love my cast and production people :)
Its 2 more weeks before I go into secondments and Im abit scared...I dont know how I am gonna survive it. I will be amongst the professionals...I dont wanna give a bad impression at all!
Anyway 2 nice things that happened, was that one of my seniors whom I am abit afraid of...gave me a compliment. I am still afraid of him by the way...
Another thing was that a sound project I did with 2 acting schoolmates on a page of The Little Prince, was listened to by little kids. One of my casts sent it to his dad who is a primary school principal and he let the kids listen to it. :) Im happy!
And it sorta makes me wanna do a proper audiobook... Hmm should I?
I guess maybe the happy excitement of doing it might mean that its a good idea.
This has been in my mind since he told me... I feel like I want to do it...hmmm
God Bless
Its 2 more weeks before I go into secondments and Im abit scared...I dont know how I am gonna survive it. I will be amongst the professionals...I dont wanna give a bad impression at all!
Anyway 2 nice things that happened, was that one of my seniors whom I am abit afraid of...gave me a compliment. I am still afraid of him by the way...
Another thing was that a sound project I did with 2 acting schoolmates on a page of The Little Prince, was listened to by little kids. One of my casts sent it to his dad who is a primary school principal and he let the kids listen to it. :) Im happy!
And it sorta makes me wanna do a proper audiobook... Hmm should I?
I guess maybe the happy excitement of doing it might mean that its a good idea.
This has been in my mind since he told me... I feel like I want to do it...hmmm
God Bless
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