K anger aside...Ive recently gotten back in contact w my sec sch teacher. Funny how I talk to her like I wud talk to a sister I respect. I wrote her a looonnnggg email and told her abt allt he stuff thats happened to me since I started Poly. I even rememebered how I went back to see her after getting my A level results...She was right abt one thing...I wud cry...Much as I told her that I was okay w my results...
Anyway...getting a reply from her was...comforting. Really hope that I cud stay frens w her in the future. :) Its very hard to have teachers as frens...real frens!
K back to anger!!!
Got a call today from one of the teachers...I dont know whats with these teachers nowadays...We are not bendable you know...Just coz you need to change something...doesnt mean we can do it. it doesnt work that way! And this cutesy sounding teacher who called me...sounded so demanding, "How can you.......!" Look..you are the midle person and so am I. You rush me, fine! I understand! But I have my own things to do! You forgot who's helping who here! we're helping you! And do not use last year's eg or last last years eg of ten years ago's eg to weight on me! Things change! You should too!
I swore after that...but not to her...
You know..I have respect for teachers. Those who can teach and who can handle kids or teenagers. But what I dont like abt them is how they can be sooo Gan Chong! Im not surprised if they get moulded intot hat way over time..but really...sometimes they shud learn to relax...
sigh...maybe I dont wanna be a teacher afterall... :/ Id be a DJ...turnt he world upside down!
MAjorlly irritated!
love
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
gibberish...
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lbvgseulgh;aowgnjksebgovbhrsuibvjkdzfbvdzivgawegogrubg.....
That was a spur of the moment way to vent my insanity..watever that means...
Abit sick coz got sore throat...back is better and today is Aikido Day! I think its coz I decided to keep myself awake the whole sat night through. Anyway, I know it'll clear up soon.
u all tc. will catch up later.
love
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lbvgseulgh;aowgnjksebgovbhrsuibvjkdzfbvdzivgawegogrubg.....
That was a spur of the moment way to vent my insanity..watever that means...
Abit sick coz got sore throat...back is better and today is Aikido Day! I think its coz I decided to keep myself awake the whole sat night through. Anyway, I know it'll clear up soon.
u all tc. will catch up later.
love
Sunday, August 28, 2005
...Grouchy me...wats wrong w me!
Ever seen someone be cherrful and happy one minute, then bitchy n down right rude the next?...its me.
Guess its coz Im damn tired? My brain didnt work. Was trying to recall what bus went to my grandma's place and I cudnt rememebr. Either that or I jumbled it up w the other grandma place!
Was irritaetd w the show I was watching n I was irritated w teh bad guy soo mucht hat even I felt like going there n killing him!
Anyway...Im gonna be a danger to the health of my family members if I continue to be awake..so Im gonna go slp..Hope I'll be a better person tom.
love
Guess its coz Im damn tired? My brain didnt work. Was trying to recall what bus went to my grandma's place and I cudnt rememebr. Either that or I jumbled it up w the other grandma place!
Was irritaetd w the show I was watching n I was irritated w teh bad guy soo mucht hat even I felt like going there n killing him!
Anyway...Im gonna be a danger to the health of my family members if I continue to be awake..so Im gonna go slp..Hope I'll be a better person tom.
love
wahhhhh tired sia!
Yesterday was great!!!! Danced the night away hahaha there was reggae and tablas n dohls n bhangra!!! I really really enjoyed myself! :) The only prob is hat its expensive...
Really gotta thank my boss who helped me gett he tixs hehehe Thanks Lao Ban!
Got a chance to talk with a very interesting man...my fren's fren. He's born in spore and yet..has been aroudnt he world. Coz of this,he's got the widest perspective on life and the world that ive ever seen. We talked abt the sch system..abt pple of diff countries...abt familes, abt races... He's a principal in canada...teachingt he native americans if Im not wrong...He left a teaching job in Spore and took that on instead because he didnt like the teaching system here. From his stories..i can ellt hat he's a family man...he loves his wife n daughter and yet...him having seent he world...is open to his students and can hold a conversation with us (in our early 20's) Im impressed! I admit that when my fren 1sttold me abt him, I felt that he was...a rather...too wild man...doing certain things he does...but my fren is right. we shud never scrutinize a person until we getto know them. yet..its a subcoonscious thing. Dont we all ake persumptions? Its nature's way of keeping us from probable danger...yet..I admit..Im int he wrong...
I guess for me...my perception of pple is afected by the certain things they do. Like smoke, like drink, like two-timing, like etc etc etc. I just feel that some of these things arent good to start with. Smoking doesnt cure a sickness1 I learn something though... just coz you hear someone taking marajuana...doesnt mean they are drug addicts. There is such things as a clinical marijuana that when inhaled, helps patients to develop an appetite for food. The word, (as my fren's fren said) is ABUSE. Drinking alcohol in moderation..is okay rite. But too much..is bad. In all things! I have been narrow-minded..Im afraid. Doesnt mean that I'll go out, stake out someone who has marijuana and buy some from them. I wudnt try it even if I had it in front of me! Again..we presume
Funny how the past few days, ive been talking abt nothing abt races...sigh...wat irony... Whatever it is, I stil spent time w some of my indian frens..had fun dancing bhangra...:P I called my one of my closest sistas in poly and told her abt it. Fancy me...complaining to an indian abt indian insults I hear from MY OWN RACE! She, instead of getting angry, told me that certain things cant be helped...certain things cant be changed just coz we want it to. We can only do part of the work..the other part is left to the other person... How can this indian girl, be advising me to not be upset over my dad's racist comments?!?!?! How come the tables are turned?
The day was spent int he airport...I got the chance to write my songs...abt 2... Its been awhile since I wrote a love song. Simply coz I didnt feel like it..or maybe..I didnt have the content to write one anymore hahaha But anyway...I did write one...seems okay but we'll see.
By the time I was on the train to my grandma's place...I was dead tired. I slept on the train n almost lost my stop until one of my frens called.
Its fun..to meet pple from all walks of life. It broadens our perspectives...You learn. My fren who introduced this principal to me...has also become a better person. he's finally starting to quit smoking... :) gd for you bro! Its for your health n pocket. I suddenly realized today..that this fren of mine..can be very mature and sensible when it needs be. he's a smart kid! he takes into consideration abt the feelings of the frens around him. Sorta reminds me off my ex lah..but anyway..both of themare fromt he same part of malaysia..so maybe its not malaysia boleh...it shud be seremban boleh hahahah rite bro! hahahaha
Once again..Im proud and happy to say that I have frens, bros, thumbee and thungichi, bruddas and sistas like that! take care you all!
LOVE
Really gotta thank my boss who helped me gett he tixs hehehe Thanks Lao Ban!
Got a chance to talk with a very interesting man...my fren's fren. He's born in spore and yet..has been aroudnt he world. Coz of this,he's got the widest perspective on life and the world that ive ever seen. We talked abt the sch system..abt pple of diff countries...abt familes, abt races... He's a principal in canada...teachingt he native americans if Im not wrong...He left a teaching job in Spore and took that on instead because he didnt like the teaching system here. From his stories..i can ellt hat he's a family man...he loves his wife n daughter and yet...him having seent he world...is open to his students and can hold a conversation with us (in our early 20's) Im impressed! I admit that when my fren 1sttold me abt him, I felt that he was...a rather...too wild man...doing certain things he does...but my fren is right. we shud never scrutinize a person until we getto know them. yet..its a subcoonscious thing. Dont we all ake persumptions? Its nature's way of keeping us from probable danger...yet..I admit..Im int he wrong...
I guess for me...my perception of pple is afected by the certain things they do. Like smoke, like drink, like two-timing, like etc etc etc. I just feel that some of these things arent good to start with. Smoking doesnt cure a sickness1 I learn something though... just coz you hear someone taking marajuana...doesnt mean they are drug addicts. There is such things as a clinical marijuana that when inhaled, helps patients to develop an appetite for food. The word, (as my fren's fren said) is ABUSE. Drinking alcohol in moderation..is okay rite. But too much..is bad. In all things! I have been narrow-minded..Im afraid. Doesnt mean that I'll go out, stake out someone who has marijuana and buy some from them. I wudnt try it even if I had it in front of me! Again..we presume
Funny how the past few days, ive been talking abt nothing abt races...sigh...wat irony... Whatever it is, I stil spent time w some of my indian frens..had fun dancing bhangra...:P I called my one of my closest sistas in poly and told her abt it. Fancy me...complaining to an indian abt indian insults I hear from MY OWN RACE! She, instead of getting angry, told me that certain things cant be helped...certain things cant be changed just coz we want it to. We can only do part of the work..the other part is left to the other person... How can this indian girl, be advising me to not be upset over my dad's racist comments?!?!?! How come the tables are turned?
The day was spent int he airport...I got the chance to write my songs...abt 2... Its been awhile since I wrote a love song. Simply coz I didnt feel like it..or maybe..I didnt have the content to write one anymore hahaha But anyway...I did write one...seems okay but we'll see.
By the time I was on the train to my grandma's place...I was dead tired. I slept on the train n almost lost my stop until one of my frens called.
Its fun..to meet pple from all walks of life. It broadens our perspectives...You learn. My fren who introduced this principal to me...has also become a better person. he's finally starting to quit smoking... :) gd for you bro! Its for your health n pocket. I suddenly realized today..that this fren of mine..can be very mature and sensible when it needs be. he's a smart kid! he takes into consideration abt the feelings of the frens around him. Sorta reminds me off my ex lah..but anyway..both of themare fromt he same part of malaysia..so maybe its not malaysia boleh...it shud be seremban boleh hahahah rite bro! hahahaha
Once again..Im proud and happy to say that I have frens, bros, thumbee and thungichi, bruddas and sistas like that! take care you all!
LOVE
Saturday, August 27, 2005
how much can you say when u like w a racist?
I dont know whether to cry or to swear...maybe I'll just do both...
Told my dad in the morning, that I aws going to the Womad concert with my dad...one of the 1st questions he asked me...was whether the frens I was going with, were all indians. He didnt ask who they were..he just asked if they were indians. No, I am not going out with a gang leader, with a robber, with a thief, with the Prime Minister, with and Al Qaeda activist....but of course..whether I do or not..doesnt really matter does it...just as long as they're not indian!.....Im sorry for my sarcasm....Thats just how I feel. Is hanging with indians really that bad? Is it soo impt that I dont hang out with them?
I told my dad that the frens I'll be going with..are not all indians. But what if it was? Whats wrong with that?!?! My dad said that he didnt want me to hang around with indians. Why?!?! I managed to say and ask all this in the least harsh way...not sounding offensive..coz I know that its no good fighting fire with fire. It wud only prove one thing...that Im backing indians up against my own race..or that hanging w indians has changed me for the worse (in my dad's point of view) Again...Why? A few seconds of silence as my dad tries to think of something to say when all he can come up with wud be..."I just think you shudnt hangout with indians"
In a wave of courage n anger and pain...yet having no strength to argue fiercely, I said, "Pa, I dont think there is a prob w hanging w indians, in fact I think that the comment you just gave was racist. And honestly, I dont like that comment at all!" I finally said it....
Also told him that I was gonna stay overnight for the Womad. He said..once again, "I dont think you should stay overnight" Why? ( I had to ask for a reason twice) "Coz you're too young"
" pa, Im 22. If I was 18 or 17, Id feelt he same and I wudnt go for this concert even if I wanted to." I told him I wudnt drink or smoke because I dont even like it and my frens dont drink or smoke. At least those who went with me. Even if my frens do drink or smoke....Id be too old to happily join in the fun. He made me promise not to hanky panky... Well. if it makes him happy, I promise. But it never occured to be do so int he 1st place. Guess he doesnt understand that my purpose there is to catch up with my frens and enjoy the performances. Not filrt around, get drunk, smoke my lungs off and end up pregnant...to put in a crude way.
Byt eh time I left my dad's room (or the office as I shud put it) I was dissappointed and weak from that mental struggle. For years Ive fought to hold my tongue against saying allt he thigns i believed...the fact that I did say it today...was draining. But it was good.
Yet..when i went into my room, I had to break down n cry... for the simple reason that me being an anti-racist...shud have my father be the opposite. I wud love to show the world how much I love to learn things of other races, other cultures etc n in turn, hope that they'd do the same...yet come home to something or someone who makes all my efforts feel like...dust...blown away by the wind...My own father... For a moment, I cried for the cruelty and discrimination of him, I cried for the pitiful state of pple and the pitiful state of lovers who ahve to go through the same shit I went through. For a moment...I felt as if I was back in the tormenting tears I shed when my ex and I still fought for what we believed in...unfortunately...the fight was lost...
Maybe inside I thought my dad wud be wise enough to see the light...to see that indians are not all the same...guess not. I thought after soo long..that my dad would learn from us, that race doesnt matter...I guess not.
They say that we shud all look at issues from our opponents point of view...unfortunately..I cant see anythingelse from there...than racism and needless fear. Maybe the ones we shud fear more..are our own race..who tarnish the whole race's reputation, whom we trust more yet whom always seem to be the ones who lie to us more...the fact that we unconsciously believe in our own race more than others. I know my dad's worried...worry is fine..but we have to worry with reasonability. If he understood me...he would probably worry less. He wud know that Im not someone who talks to pple easily...that Im against smoking or drinking..that I nkow whats good and whats plain stupid...
I just wish pple wud just think more...
love
Told my dad in the morning, that I aws going to the Womad concert with my dad...one of the 1st questions he asked me...was whether the frens I was going with, were all indians. He didnt ask who they were..he just asked if they were indians. No, I am not going out with a gang leader, with a robber, with a thief, with the Prime Minister, with and Al Qaeda activist....but of course..whether I do or not..doesnt really matter does it...just as long as they're not indian!.....Im sorry for my sarcasm....Thats just how I feel. Is hanging with indians really that bad? Is it soo impt that I dont hang out with them?
I told my dad that the frens I'll be going with..are not all indians. But what if it was? Whats wrong with that?!?! My dad said that he didnt want me to hang around with indians. Why?!?! I managed to say and ask all this in the least harsh way...not sounding offensive..coz I know that its no good fighting fire with fire. It wud only prove one thing...that Im backing indians up against my own race..or that hanging w indians has changed me for the worse (in my dad's point of view) Again...Why? A few seconds of silence as my dad tries to think of something to say when all he can come up with wud be..."I just think you shudnt hangout with indians"
In a wave of courage n anger and pain...yet having no strength to argue fiercely, I said, "Pa, I dont think there is a prob w hanging w indians, in fact I think that the comment you just gave was racist. And honestly, I dont like that comment at all!" I finally said it....
Also told him that I was gonna stay overnight for the Womad. He said..once again, "I dont think you should stay overnight" Why? ( I had to ask for a reason twice) "Coz you're too young"
" pa, Im 22. If I was 18 or 17, Id feelt he same and I wudnt go for this concert even if I wanted to." I told him I wudnt drink or smoke because I dont even like it and my frens dont drink or smoke. At least those who went with me. Even if my frens do drink or smoke....Id be too old to happily join in the fun. He made me promise not to hanky panky... Well. if it makes him happy, I promise. But it never occured to be do so int he 1st place. Guess he doesnt understand that my purpose there is to catch up with my frens and enjoy the performances. Not filrt around, get drunk, smoke my lungs off and end up pregnant...to put in a crude way.
Byt eh time I left my dad's room (or the office as I shud put it) I was dissappointed and weak from that mental struggle. For years Ive fought to hold my tongue against saying allt he thigns i believed...the fact that I did say it today...was draining. But it was good.
Yet..when i went into my room, I had to break down n cry... for the simple reason that me being an anti-racist...shud have my father be the opposite. I wud love to show the world how much I love to learn things of other races, other cultures etc n in turn, hope that they'd do the same...yet come home to something or someone who makes all my efforts feel like...dust...blown away by the wind...My own father... For a moment, I cried for the cruelty and discrimination of him, I cried for the pitiful state of pple and the pitiful state of lovers who ahve to go through the same shit I went through. For a moment...I felt as if I was back in the tormenting tears I shed when my ex and I still fought for what we believed in...unfortunately...the fight was lost...
Maybe inside I thought my dad wud be wise enough to see the light...to see that indians are not all the same...guess not. I thought after soo long..that my dad would learn from us, that race doesnt matter...I guess not.
They say that we shud all look at issues from our opponents point of view...unfortunately..I cant see anythingelse from there...than racism and needless fear. Maybe the ones we shud fear more..are our own race..who tarnish the whole race's reputation, whom we trust more yet whom always seem to be the ones who lie to us more...the fact that we unconsciously believe in our own race more than others. I know my dad's worried...worry is fine..but we have to worry with reasonability. If he understood me...he would probably worry less. He wud know that Im not someone who talks to pple easily...that Im against smoking or drinking..that I nkow whats good and whats plain stupid...
I just wish pple wud just think more...
love
:)
Today was fun! had work int he morning, tried to do my work better. Cant rememebr how manyt iems I walked to my boss's table to clarify something. Cant rememebr how many times I vetted my work to check for small careless mistakes!
My back still hurts quite badly...cant bend without supporting my weight on my lap or on a table or chair. Now I know what it feels to be old!
found a blu black on my elbow..I think I know how it got there hahah as for the rest of my bruises..I have really no idea. Now i know how it feels to have amnesia! hahaha
Anyway...gonna gof or the womad concert tom. Its gonna be the event of my year! hahaha Im going w cal n her bf, and bevis and his wife hahaha its gonna be a fantastic and electrifying culture shock! I'll expect to be running around fort canning hill eating n listening n dancing.... damn!
manage to get my boss to help me buyt he tixs coz she's got a discount hahaha so i flashed a "pppllleeeaaassseeeee" smile at her heheheheheh
Anyway..todays event was...messy but...controlled messy. there were loads of changes int eh prog that...I guess. I just had to dot he thing impromptu int eh end. I now my fren was running around like crazy to settle the things though. The whole event was fun and i tried very hard to get pple to participate hahaha...I know i was abit messy...I know alot of thigns were...unplanned and maybe not smooth..but..i tried my best....i really did. Whats sad for me was that...my singign wasnt really appreciated :P The only ones who did applaude, were the performers hahaha and my fren. The singign bit was the worst for me hahaha Used abit of chinese and malay and wish i cud have used more tamil hahahah Given my anti-racist ideas..I wanted soo much to show pple who races can actually kneaded into each other in harmony. I wanted each race to know something abt the other races...i hope i did that.
By the end fot he event...my fren and I and every other staff there was sighing continuous sighs of relief hahaha I went home w some stuff i got att he bazaar. A green necklace. The huge pendant kind that will look great on a normal shirt, and a brownish, island life-ish one hahaha. Also brough back some chinese ware that I intend to give away to my relatives. :P
All in all, I had a great time!
love
My back still hurts quite badly...cant bend without supporting my weight on my lap or on a table or chair. Now I know what it feels to be old!
found a blu black on my elbow..I think I know how it got there hahah as for the rest of my bruises..I have really no idea. Now i know how it feels to have amnesia! hahaha
Anyway...gonna gof or the womad concert tom. Its gonna be the event of my year! hahaha Im going w cal n her bf, and bevis and his wife hahaha its gonna be a fantastic and electrifying culture shock! I'll expect to be running around fort canning hill eating n listening n dancing.... damn!
manage to get my boss to help me buyt he tixs coz she's got a discount hahaha so i flashed a "pppllleeeaaassseeeee" smile at her heheheheheh
Anyway..todays event was...messy but...controlled messy. there were loads of changes int eh prog that...I guess. I just had to dot he thing impromptu int eh end. I now my fren was running around like crazy to settle the things though. The whole event was fun and i tried very hard to get pple to participate hahaha...I know i was abit messy...I know alot of thigns were...unplanned and maybe not smooth..but..i tried my best....i really did. Whats sad for me was that...my singign wasnt really appreciated :P The only ones who did applaude, were the performers hahaha and my fren. The singign bit was the worst for me hahaha Used abit of chinese and malay and wish i cud have used more tamil hahahah Given my anti-racist ideas..I wanted soo much to show pple who races can actually kneaded into each other in harmony. I wanted each race to know something abt the other races...i hope i did that.
By the end fot he event...my fren and I and every other staff there was sighing continuous sighs of relief hahaha I went home w some stuff i got att he bazaar. A green necklace. The huge pendant kind that will look great on a normal shirt, and a brownish, island life-ish one hahaha. Also brough back some chinese ware that I intend to give away to my relatives. :P
All in all, I had a great time!
love
Friday, August 26, 2005
Im in pain....
Had make up class for aikido today....as if my back wasnt pain enough..its gone worse!
I cant bend without feeling pain. its even a pain to bend to the sensei man!
Even before half the lesson was gone, My right arm was soo sore that I cudnt lift it up without my whole arm shaking! I had to hold on to my right sleeve, to lift it up!
I know this isnt supposed to happen and much as I try to do it, it still seems wrong! The instructor for us, today, wasnt really helping as well. She ept saying, knee, shoulder, butt. (the way to turn) and she demoed for us...but if she isnt there to correct us everytime we did it, how can we know if we're doing it right? all I know is when Im doing it wrong! Most of the time, the 3 of us were left to our own..to try..not knowing if our flips were correct. But i guess. thigsn cant be helped today..coz theres only one instructor for our group and another group. Its not easy going back n forth teaching...
Whatever it is, Im all sores... got blue blacks on both my shoulders...around and on my kneecaps, near my ankle..and im suspecting Id be getting another one around my hip area or butt....I dont think butt cheeks helped to cushion my fall today..maybe it did reduce my chances of getting blue blacks there.
Tomorrow is gonna be a long day man! got half day at SSO, then gonna go to my fren's office to help her host an event. Im REALLY hoping that I'd do well...really....
Dont even know if Id be able to bent and talk to the kids....Waaahhhhhh
K you all take care..Im gonna go raise wounds (direct translation of Yang Shang) ...K it just means..to recuperate.
LOVE
I cant bend without feeling pain. its even a pain to bend to the sensei man!
Even before half the lesson was gone, My right arm was soo sore that I cudnt lift it up without my whole arm shaking! I had to hold on to my right sleeve, to lift it up!
I know this isnt supposed to happen and much as I try to do it, it still seems wrong! The instructor for us, today, wasnt really helping as well. She ept saying, knee, shoulder, butt. (the way to turn) and she demoed for us...but if she isnt there to correct us everytime we did it, how can we know if we're doing it right? all I know is when Im doing it wrong! Most of the time, the 3 of us were left to our own..to try..not knowing if our flips were correct. But i guess. thigsn cant be helped today..coz theres only one instructor for our group and another group. Its not easy going back n forth teaching...
Whatever it is, Im all sores... got blue blacks on both my shoulders...around and on my kneecaps, near my ankle..and im suspecting Id be getting another one around my hip area or butt....I dont think butt cheeks helped to cushion my fall today..maybe it did reduce my chances of getting blue blacks there.
Tomorrow is gonna be a long day man! got half day at SSO, then gonna go to my fren's office to help her host an event. Im REALLY hoping that I'd do well...really....
Dont even know if Id be able to bent and talk to the kids....Waaahhhhhh
K you all take care..Im gonna go raise wounds (direct translation of Yang Shang) ...K it just means..to recuperate.
LOVE
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
the world is getting sadder by the minute.
Just a question..how many guys cheat on their gfs every minute?
How many couples break up every minute?
How many quarrels btwn parents n children occur every minute?
Hmmm
My boss was talking abt how alot of men sleep around and how they do it behind their gfs. Ive thought abt it and I think...if I ever heard any of my guy frens do that, Id slap them upside down...id fire my vulgarities at them. Its easy to say that these pple dont deserve to live...They dont actually...but Im sure one or two of my frens are like tat...
Somethign tells me that some of my girl frens do that too. Id slap them allt eh same.
Please dont think that Im being irrational or that Id hate them if they did that. I just dont think its the right thing to do. They are my frens and I love them n care for them..but allt he more I wud not allow them to get a way without my scolding. Why do somethign like that to urself n too others..esp those who believe you really love them?
It always makes me conclude a theory abt guys... when one head works, the other doesnt. For my girl frens who do that....I wudnt even know what to say...Id just be too....appalled! Can I say that they look at the dick more than they look at the brains and character?
I nkwo Im being harsh...But i just dont see any logic in all this!....my frens are still my frens..justt hat they are not as smart as I thought of them to be....
love
How many couples break up every minute?
How many quarrels btwn parents n children occur every minute?
Hmmm
My boss was talking abt how alot of men sleep around and how they do it behind their gfs. Ive thought abt it and I think...if I ever heard any of my guy frens do that, Id slap them upside down...id fire my vulgarities at them. Its easy to say that these pple dont deserve to live...They dont actually...but Im sure one or two of my frens are like tat...
Somethign tells me that some of my girl frens do that too. Id slap them allt eh same.
Please dont think that Im being irrational or that Id hate them if they did that. I just dont think its the right thing to do. They are my frens and I love them n care for them..but allt he more I wud not allow them to get a way without my scolding. Why do somethign like that to urself n too others..esp those who believe you really love them?
It always makes me conclude a theory abt guys... when one head works, the other doesnt. For my girl frens who do that....I wudnt even know what to say...Id just be too....appalled! Can I say that they look at the dick more than they look at the brains and character?
I nkwo Im being harsh...But i just dont see any logic in all this!....my frens are still my frens..justt hat they are not as smart as I thought of them to be....
love
Monday, August 22, 2005
wat the!!!!
Been having back probs because of aikido but im sure I'll get better soon. :P Trust me! hahaha
Well...the real motive of my entry today..isnt something new...its been one of my beliefs for quite awhile now. :)
I guess its coz of my bad experiences that I despise pple who belittle pple who are of a lower status as them..or another race..etc.
JUst yesterday, one of my best bros msned me saying," I'm lost" He was indeed lost! lost abt what to do in life! For months, he's been battling his parents abt his gf (whom i know personally as a very very nice n funny girl) but the prob w all this..is the status. They're different in no other way than the status! They're both christians, both chinese, both childhood frens..etc but why is it hie parents still dont like her?
Just talking to him..brought back loads of memories for me. memories that I can even bring myself to fully remember. For fear that Id get upset myself. But even then, I felt angry. I felt amzed in a sarcastic way, that even something soooo small cud stop 2 pple who love each other sooo much..from being together! really! Does the inside of soemone count anymore?!?!!?!
My bro n his gf asked if I cud be their witness..if ever they got married. obviously their parents wudnt be willing to do that! I said yes. Because i knew how mucht hey loved each other. I knew that if anything were to happen to my bro's gf...half of my bro wud crumble. He wud sacrifice his time n energy just to see her smile every day... something that I still wish I had...
because of all this, I wud love to se them happy together.
I did specify that Id only do it if they knew what they were doing..and if they promised to work things out when they marry, even if it kills them.
I know Ive touched on this topic sooo much that theres nothing I havnt said abt it..abt my conviction...that whatever matters can only be found ont he inside. Its not on the skin, the heritage, the name or watever. Ive lost my energy to say anything really....
I do feel for them...one wud be driven to a conviction that she will never have love..the other wud suffer for both of them, knowing that he might cause her pain and that half of him will die.
Nonetheless, I honestly want them to fight on. I want them to fight for what they really want...coz i feel that 5 years downt he road..they will still be regretting letting go.
As for their parents, I wished they cud open their eyes to see what is there instead of what isnt.
likwise for all parents...!
I pray for my frens..hope they find their right match n hope they stay witht heir right nmatches
Well...the real motive of my entry today..isnt something new...its been one of my beliefs for quite awhile now. :)
I guess its coz of my bad experiences that I despise pple who belittle pple who are of a lower status as them..or another race..etc.
JUst yesterday, one of my best bros msned me saying," I'm lost" He was indeed lost! lost abt what to do in life! For months, he's been battling his parents abt his gf (whom i know personally as a very very nice n funny girl) but the prob w all this..is the status. They're different in no other way than the status! They're both christians, both chinese, both childhood frens..etc but why is it hie parents still dont like her?
Just talking to him..brought back loads of memories for me. memories that I can even bring myself to fully remember. For fear that Id get upset myself. But even then, I felt angry. I felt amzed in a sarcastic way, that even something soooo small cud stop 2 pple who love each other sooo much..from being together! really! Does the inside of soemone count anymore?!?!!?!
My bro n his gf asked if I cud be their witness..if ever they got married. obviously their parents wudnt be willing to do that! I said yes. Because i knew how mucht hey loved each other. I knew that if anything were to happen to my bro's gf...half of my bro wud crumble. He wud sacrifice his time n energy just to see her smile every day... something that I still wish I had...
because of all this, I wud love to se them happy together.
I did specify that Id only do it if they knew what they were doing..and if they promised to work things out when they marry, even if it kills them.
I know Ive touched on this topic sooo much that theres nothing I havnt said abt it..abt my conviction...that whatever matters can only be found ont he inside. Its not on the skin, the heritage, the name or watever. Ive lost my energy to say anything really....
I do feel for them...one wud be driven to a conviction that she will never have love..the other wud suffer for both of them, knowing that he might cause her pain and that half of him will die.
Nonetheless, I honestly want them to fight on. I want them to fight for what they really want...coz i feel that 5 years downt he road..they will still be regretting letting go.
As for their parents, I wished they cud open their eyes to see what is there instead of what isnt.
likwise for all parents...!
I pray for my frens..hope they find their right match n hope they stay witht heir right nmatches
Saturday, August 20, 2005
Im very tired..but i know i need to write this...
Today is Sat...and this is how I spent it...
Woke up at 7:30am.....literally jumped out of bed because I was supposed to be AT Raffles MRT area AT...NOW! Changed and stuff and literally ran to the nearest main road. JUMPED into the cab. Contemplated calling my colleagues....I did call coz I know that not calling wud get me in deeper trouble than calling if I dont get to the food over on time...YET...I am one who wants to solve my troubles on my own...because I just feelt hat...if you create trouble..you shud be the one to fix it. No matter how big, you have to try. But i knew and rememebered what my boss said...and what ironically, I said in my speech (if it wasnt my boss who said that again, I wudnt have remembered)..that...no man is an island...
Nonetheless, I found it bad to be calling my colleague and saying that I have a prob...I knew then that...my motivation to want to be meticulous...had failed...
To be honest, Ive been dissappointed with myself the whole week...every little mistake that I made had a rippling effect on me. Thats probably why i became more silent n kept to myself. I know its bad...Im trying to speak up!
My dad n mum have asked me a thousand times why I chose to do temp in SSO, instead of finding a real job. Well, Im not regretting it! I now know whats wrong w me! Like my boss said, its either i accept my flaws or I dont. And If I dont, I have to change it..if its too hard to change..then work around it. This is where the confusing thing comes in. I am someone who doesnt pay attention to fine print...but I can not accept when this manner gets in the way of my work performance and my frenship w pple. A huge part of me wants to relax...but I know I cant let myself relax....sigh...because of this, theres always small mistakes here n there. Small things that are not serious..not yet..but are solid proof that I am not meticulous enough. And I hate it!
I told my dad that I wud rather learn all this in a temp job, than learn it in a perm job and face bigger and harder n longer consequences. Coz the fact is...its more probable that I wont be staying in this company for long. Plus... I always used to know that I liked events managment coz I loved the thrill of it...but planning everything is another type of tea altogether. I now know that Im not as fitted for this cup of tea..as I thought I was. Its a cup of tea that i still like..but have to work hard to fit in...in comes the determination... :/
My lessons learnt today are big..likewise for the past few days...and the fear of me doing the same mistakes again...is so frightening that it can leave me w butterflies in my stomach (no kidding) Its the fear of forgetting what you dont want to forget....its paranoia...
I know its very easy to give up and say that I suck at events management and move on to somethign different...but I dont want to...I know I wont survive in advertising n PR..or writing...I dont want to give up... :(
love
Woke up at 7:30am.....literally jumped out of bed because I was supposed to be AT Raffles MRT area AT...NOW! Changed and stuff and literally ran to the nearest main road. JUMPED into the cab. Contemplated calling my colleagues....I did call coz I know that not calling wud get me in deeper trouble than calling if I dont get to the food over on time...YET...I am one who wants to solve my troubles on my own...because I just feelt hat...if you create trouble..you shud be the one to fix it. No matter how big, you have to try. But i knew and rememebered what my boss said...and what ironically, I said in my speech (if it wasnt my boss who said that again, I wudnt have remembered)..that...no man is an island...
Nonetheless, I found it bad to be calling my colleague and saying that I have a prob...I knew then that...my motivation to want to be meticulous...had failed...
To be honest, Ive been dissappointed with myself the whole week...every little mistake that I made had a rippling effect on me. Thats probably why i became more silent n kept to myself. I know its bad...Im trying to speak up!
My dad n mum have asked me a thousand times why I chose to do temp in SSO, instead of finding a real job. Well, Im not regretting it! I now know whats wrong w me! Like my boss said, its either i accept my flaws or I dont. And If I dont, I have to change it..if its too hard to change..then work around it. This is where the confusing thing comes in. I am someone who doesnt pay attention to fine print...but I can not accept when this manner gets in the way of my work performance and my frenship w pple. A huge part of me wants to relax...but I know I cant let myself relax....sigh...because of this, theres always small mistakes here n there. Small things that are not serious..not yet..but are solid proof that I am not meticulous enough. And I hate it!
I told my dad that I wud rather learn all this in a temp job, than learn it in a perm job and face bigger and harder n longer consequences. Coz the fact is...its more probable that I wont be staying in this company for long. Plus... I always used to know that I liked events managment coz I loved the thrill of it...but planning everything is another type of tea altogether. I now know that Im not as fitted for this cup of tea..as I thought I was. Its a cup of tea that i still like..but have to work hard to fit in...in comes the determination... :/
My lessons learnt today are big..likewise for the past few days...and the fear of me doing the same mistakes again...is so frightening that it can leave me w butterflies in my stomach (no kidding) Its the fear of forgetting what you dont want to forget....its paranoia...
I know its very easy to give up and say that I suck at events management and move on to somethign different...but I dont want to...I know I wont survive in advertising n PR..or writing...I dont want to give up... :(
love
Thursday, August 18, 2005
manah manah....
Im in a happy state of stress hahah wateva that means hahaha
I know I havnt beent he best of colleagues..nor the smartest.....but Im trying...really...
Tomorrow will be a syuperduper long day...dun even know if I'll be home by 12...coz I gotta prepare the VCH for Open House.
Been thinking abt my future...how it willt urn out.... :( Everybody is right...i think too much...but th eprob is...I dont think I think too much. Its more like I daydream! Yet..its funny how I cant stop it...Or maybe i can but Im not conscientious enough to know that im daydreaming..... :(
Everybody is asking me why I want to do a temp job instead of finding a permanent one. Well.....I just feel that before I throw myself intot he pits of everlasting hell of work, I have to test the waters out. Learn things...That way, byt he time I do get a perm job, I will know what to do and how to act. As well as...what kind of job I like to do.
As of now, my interest is in events management and radio deejaying...Im hoping that along the way, i can throw in hosting and singing... :( That will be the day that I really feel satisfied...
Was watching my aikido instructor do the back flip. he saw the puzzled or dazed look on my face and asked what i was thinking hahaha Well...i was thinking abt how he does this..how its like break dancing..u never mess up ur hair (if ur an expert) Hmm u now how u think of something and when soemthing happens, ur thought bubble bursts and u forget what ur thinking? hahahaha happens to me alot hahahah K that might also be termed as daydreaming? hahaha
I know i have to change..and because of that, I know I have to come up w a way to write down everything i need to do for the day. I guess the prob w this is that I focus soo much on doing them that my vision of other things i might have to do on the way...get blurred...
Anyone have ideas to increase conscientiousness? Other than do a "To Do" list? Coz im trying my best to do that also...
Heres what my boss said....everyone has flaw. Some have few but big flaws and some have alot of small probs. Its okay not to change it. You can accept it..but you have to do soemthing to offset that flaw. eg: if ur not meticulous (like me)..you try to check ur work more often....do things earlier so u dont miss out...write al the things u have to do on a list...etc..so that u minimize the effect of having this flaw.
Makes sense?...now do it! its hard if ur not meticulous and lazy att he same time. No doubt we can have the drive..the motivation..but more often than not, we tend to slck abit...thats when the bad guys find the loop hole and charge in. So one sec of slacking has resulted in a dinosau-rific disaster...thats rite!
k gonna go now. gonna do a few push-ups before diong anythingelse heheheh I shall batter my already battered body hehehe
Promise to catch up w u guys after my hectic weekend. :P Till then (assuming i wont be blogging the whole weekend) enjoy ur work free days!
LOVE
I know I havnt beent he best of colleagues..nor the smartest.....but Im trying...really...
Tomorrow will be a syuperduper long day...dun even know if I'll be home by 12...coz I gotta prepare the VCH for Open House.
Been thinking abt my future...how it willt urn out.... :( Everybody is right...i think too much...but th eprob is...I dont think I think too much. Its more like I daydream! Yet..its funny how I cant stop it...Or maybe i can but Im not conscientious enough to know that im daydreaming..... :(
Everybody is asking me why I want to do a temp job instead of finding a permanent one. Well.....I just feel that before I throw myself intot he pits of everlasting hell of work, I have to test the waters out. Learn things...That way, byt he time I do get a perm job, I will know what to do and how to act. As well as...what kind of job I like to do.
As of now, my interest is in events management and radio deejaying...Im hoping that along the way, i can throw in hosting and singing... :( That will be the day that I really feel satisfied...
Was watching my aikido instructor do the back flip. he saw the puzzled or dazed look on my face and asked what i was thinking hahaha Well...i was thinking abt how he does this..how its like break dancing..u never mess up ur hair (if ur an expert) Hmm u now how u think of something and when soemthing happens, ur thought bubble bursts and u forget what ur thinking? hahahaha happens to me alot hahahah K that might also be termed as daydreaming? hahaha
I know i have to change..and because of that, I know I have to come up w a way to write down everything i need to do for the day. I guess the prob w this is that I focus soo much on doing them that my vision of other things i might have to do on the way...get blurred...
Anyone have ideas to increase conscientiousness? Other than do a "To Do" list? Coz im trying my best to do that also...
Heres what my boss said....everyone has flaw. Some have few but big flaws and some have alot of small probs. Its okay not to change it. You can accept it..but you have to do soemthing to offset that flaw. eg: if ur not meticulous (like me)..you try to check ur work more often....do things earlier so u dont miss out...write al the things u have to do on a list...etc..so that u minimize the effect of having this flaw.
Makes sense?...now do it! its hard if ur not meticulous and lazy att he same time. No doubt we can have the drive..the motivation..but more often than not, we tend to slck abit...thats when the bad guys find the loop hole and charge in. So one sec of slacking has resulted in a dinosau-rific disaster...thats rite!
k gonna go now. gonna do a few push-ups before diong anythingelse heheheh I shall batter my already battered body hehehe
Promise to catch up w u guys after my hectic weekend. :P Till then (assuming i wont be blogging the whole weekend) enjoy ur work free days!
LOVE
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
:)
Today is full of aches n pains :( Ive coined the diff stages of pain!!
stage 1:
the first instace of soreness after sports makes you feel a sense of achievement. because it feels like you had a good workout. Thus...its called, SHIOK pain!
Stage 2:
The soreness lingers on and gets worse until it affects your movement. You are too sore to function as well as you want and become frustrated with not being able to accomplish what you want to do in the normal way. Thus, IRRITATING Pain
Stage 3:
The 2nd day after sports is the peak of pain. Now, all your muscles are aching from the strain you did 2 days ago. You can't cry, laugh, smile, cough, clear your throat, sit down, squat or lie down without cringing w pain. Thus, BUI TAHAN Pain!
:) Im at the 2nd stage today. Tom, i might not even be able to get off my bed! haha
My computer has been reformatted..so I have nothing in it. Not even music! No pics, no mp3s, no movies, no documents! Its good in a way coz I had alot of rubbish int here as well. Finally I can clear all that. It also gives me a chance to organize myself! Something I mean to do when the weekend comes nearer.
Btw, if any of you planning to meet up w me this weekend, Im sorry but I cant make it. :P Got events the whole weekend long! One in Vic concert hall and the other just outside toa payoh library. :P Unless you plan to be there, why not! hahahaha
Okay..Im gonna go off now. TC! :)
love
stage 1:
the first instace of soreness after sports makes you feel a sense of achievement. because it feels like you had a good workout. Thus...its called, SHIOK pain!
Stage 2:
The soreness lingers on and gets worse until it affects your movement. You are too sore to function as well as you want and become frustrated with not being able to accomplish what you want to do in the normal way. Thus, IRRITATING Pain
Stage 3:
The 2nd day after sports is the peak of pain. Now, all your muscles are aching from the strain you did 2 days ago. You can't cry, laugh, smile, cough, clear your throat, sit down, squat or lie down without cringing w pain. Thus, BUI TAHAN Pain!
:) Im at the 2nd stage today. Tom, i might not even be able to get off my bed! haha
My computer has been reformatted..so I have nothing in it. Not even music! No pics, no mp3s, no movies, no documents! Its good in a way coz I had alot of rubbish int here as well. Finally I can clear all that. It also gives me a chance to organize myself! Something I mean to do when the weekend comes nearer.
Btw, if any of you planning to meet up w me this weekend, Im sorry but I cant make it. :P Got events the whole weekend long! One in Vic concert hall and the other just outside toa payoh library. :P Unless you plan to be there, why not! hahahaha
Okay..Im gonna go off now. TC! :)
love
Whats wrong with me ah?!?!?!
I admit..Im pissed w myself... :( Dissappointed lah....
I had an appraisal last month and my boss was telling me that I was not meticulous enough...that i lacked confidence and I was so ambitious that my mind couldnt keep up. I learned alot fromt hat appraisal and I really wanted to change! I know I have to be more conscientious and meticulous because my job recquires me to be so...but how exactly do you do that? How do I keep in mind to be meticuous and pay attention to things? Since I started work, Ive done alot of sill things. Though none of them have been highly serious (but for one), it still affected me. I would sooo want nothing to happen on my watch...really...I want to walk ut of the office knowing that I had done allt hat I was supposed to do on that day....I want to pass my boss a doc that I know would not be wrong format-wise...only a few glitches in the phrasing. Im not asking for perfect score...Im just asking for no silly mistakes! And yet..Ive had a hard time even doing that... :(
I feel...incompetent...like id never fit intot he events management job scope...but it is one fo the things Id find it fun and exciting to do! I dotn want to give that up!
I was talking to my fren just now abt this...it jus seems to me like Im a huge contradiction..waiting to explode... Im ambitious..yet my mind isnt processing things fast enough for me to go faster or as fast as my aspirations. I/m a serious lazy bum who likes to procrastinate...yet I dont like to rush things at teh last minute...
I know I sorta dissappointed my colleagues today...and yesterday...and I wish I cud hit my head against the wall and make things right...if only it was that easy.... :( Is it cuz I just graduated? Is it a fresh grad's symptom? Alot of thigns require constant training...but would anyone be willingtot rain you so many times without wondering whether to just fire you and look for someone who's more capable? Dont lie! I know it did cross your mind! I have to be more focused? more meticulous and more conscientious? Wihich eads me t wonder how pple can be on their toes 24/7...thinking of why things are...thinging of ....the way they think and I think is..different! Sorta makes me wonder whether I can even survivie int eh working world man! Its tough!
.....
I had an appraisal last month and my boss was telling me that I was not meticulous enough...that i lacked confidence and I was so ambitious that my mind couldnt keep up. I learned alot fromt hat appraisal and I really wanted to change! I know I have to be more conscientious and meticulous because my job recquires me to be so...but how exactly do you do that? How do I keep in mind to be meticuous and pay attention to things? Since I started work, Ive done alot of sill things. Though none of them have been highly serious (but for one), it still affected me. I would sooo want nothing to happen on my watch...really...I want to walk ut of the office knowing that I had done allt hat I was supposed to do on that day....I want to pass my boss a doc that I know would not be wrong format-wise...only a few glitches in the phrasing. Im not asking for perfect score...Im just asking for no silly mistakes! And yet..Ive had a hard time even doing that... :(
I feel...incompetent...like id never fit intot he events management job scope...but it is one fo the things Id find it fun and exciting to do! I dotn want to give that up!
I was talking to my fren just now abt this...it jus seems to me like Im a huge contradiction..waiting to explode... Im ambitious..yet my mind isnt processing things fast enough for me to go faster or as fast as my aspirations. I/m a serious lazy bum who likes to procrastinate...yet I dont like to rush things at teh last minute...
I know I sorta dissappointed my colleagues today...and yesterday...and I wish I cud hit my head against the wall and make things right...if only it was that easy.... :( Is it cuz I just graduated? Is it a fresh grad's symptom? Alot of thigns require constant training...but would anyone be willingtot rain you so many times without wondering whether to just fire you and look for someone who's more capable? Dont lie! I know it did cross your mind! I have to be more focused? more meticulous and more conscientious? Wihich eads me t wonder how pple can be on their toes 24/7...thinking of why things are...thinging of ....the way they think and I think is..different! Sorta makes me wonder whether I can even survivie int eh working world man! Its tough!
.....
Friday, August 12, 2005
aaaahhhhhhhh...irritated
k im jus irritated now...the rest of the day was good...but just a few mins w my mum and Im closed to pissed...
met up w a fren for dinner and we had fun talking abt our working experiences. It seems that we're going through the same stuff..like procrastination..etc he's really arty farty guy. sooo arty that I dun even know how to keep up! or even sustain a conversation w him! Its sad coz I do like him as a person... :)
Anyway, got pissed w mum coz she was complaining again. I have an event to host tom and yet its my grandmas birthday. She said, "how can you have an event when its ur grandma's birthday" As if it was all my fault....Fine! It is! Only coz I agreed to host before I rememebred it was my grandma's birthday. but seriously...just coz its her birthday, thatt he world stops for her. I only wish it did. It is a opportunity for me to host this time...becausemuch as my company is apprehensive to let me do this, they are letting me try! I want to!it cud help me int he future!
LIkewise in my kindermusic thing. I wanted to do it..I still do! but I cant coz Ive got too muich on my hands. My mum s blaming me that I decided to tyake up the worse offer instead of trying out kindermusic. What she doesnt realize is that What I learn from SSO can not be reflected in money. What I learn there also can not be found in kindermusic. Vise versa! Doing events management is my line of work. The line that I plan to do next time! if I have the chance to learn something abt it now, shudnt I? Yes! The other job offers more money. But Its not soemthing I can do for my whole life! She just doesnt see that! Plus I really dont even have time to go throught eh whole syllabus!
...been reading up on some self esteem stuff....guess at this point of time..nothings gonna help unles i try to make the changes myself...
love
met up w a fren for dinner and we had fun talking abt our working experiences. It seems that we're going through the same stuff..like procrastination..etc he's really arty farty guy. sooo arty that I dun even know how to keep up! or even sustain a conversation w him! Its sad coz I do like him as a person... :)
Anyway, got pissed w mum coz she was complaining again. I have an event to host tom and yet its my grandmas birthday. She said, "how can you have an event when its ur grandma's birthday" As if it was all my fault....Fine! It is! Only coz I agreed to host before I rememebred it was my grandma's birthday. but seriously...just coz its her birthday, thatt he world stops for her. I only wish it did. It is a opportunity for me to host this time...becausemuch as my company is apprehensive to let me do this, they are letting me try! I want to!it cud help me int he future!
LIkewise in my kindermusic thing. I wanted to do it..I still do! but I cant coz Ive got too muich on my hands. My mum s blaming me that I decided to tyake up the worse offer instead of trying out kindermusic. What she doesnt realize is that What I learn from SSO can not be reflected in money. What I learn there also can not be found in kindermusic. Vise versa! Doing events management is my line of work. The line that I plan to do next time! if I have the chance to learn something abt it now, shudnt I? Yes! The other job offers more money. But Its not soemthing I can do for my whole life! She just doesnt see that! Plus I really dont even have time to go throught eh whole syllabus!
...been reading up on some self esteem stuff....guess at this point of time..nothings gonna help unles i try to make the changes myself...
love
Thursday, August 11, 2005
manah manah dudu dududu... :D
Had a crazy day today...was laughing alot! K its partly the stress but Im glad I got quite abit of stuff done. The event I'm organizing is gonna be next week and I cant wait to see it come and go! hahaha Not that I hate it...but I cant wait to see if its gonna be successful (cross fingers) :P
Im trying my best to make things work in my life... Its soo easy to see something as a gift from God and take it for granted...like hosting jobs...my voice...my frens...Im trying soo hard to tell myself that all this isnt just gonna be there forever...Hosting jobs arnt gonna always be there just coz u think u can host. You need to constantly prove it. Frens can drift away..you have to constantly meet up!...even work itself...doesnt come easy...
Having a chance to host outside of sch is a priveilage. I know I have to cherish it and work it like ive never done before. Which is what I want to do. :) Im gonna work ont he script, Im gonna think of how to spice up the show...
Likewise for work...gotta stop thinking im tired and start taking braver steps.
I actually made this pocket card yesterday. Burnt the edges and lamenated it....it contains the thing i feel i have to do...eg: stop procrastinating, be more meticulous etc...
Yesterday itself, I had to change a document about 5 times or more. Why? Coz there was always something wrong. I know its terrible..but att he end of the day, after al that editing, its made my eyes sharper...and it shows that I dont do soemthing and hand it up to my boss blindly...least I try not to do it. The prob is..I assume and I scan. My deadly sins hehehe 9k bad joke) After editing it abt 7 times, I finally plucked up enuff courage in my work, to pass it over to my boss. Who will somehow or rather, still manage to find one of two faults hahahaha Can u imagine if I didnt edit them? Id just like to apologize for the rapid depletion of printer ink hahahahahah I know my boss n colleagues have been highly tolerant of me...Thank you! :P
Ever felt like you wanted to do everything you wanted to do..but cant..or are scared that if u start, you cant commit? I do!..now. I know what my dreams are ( thought abt it all during the weekends ) Know how I want life to be. yet because of my situation now, I cant do it..even if I had the chance. let's hope God will give me another chance next time. :)
Spoke to my fren just now..she says I sound happier. I guess I do...I hipe it stays that way hahaha but then of course..I cant leave that up to hoping can I. I gotta work for it!. God please help me.
LOVE
Im trying my best to make things work in my life... Its soo easy to see something as a gift from God and take it for granted...like hosting jobs...my voice...my frens...Im trying soo hard to tell myself that all this isnt just gonna be there forever...Hosting jobs arnt gonna always be there just coz u think u can host. You need to constantly prove it. Frens can drift away..you have to constantly meet up!...even work itself...doesnt come easy...
Having a chance to host outside of sch is a priveilage. I know I have to cherish it and work it like ive never done before. Which is what I want to do. :) Im gonna work ont he script, Im gonna think of how to spice up the show...
Likewise for work...gotta stop thinking im tired and start taking braver steps.
I actually made this pocket card yesterday. Burnt the edges and lamenated it....it contains the thing i feel i have to do...eg: stop procrastinating, be more meticulous etc...
Yesterday itself, I had to change a document about 5 times or more. Why? Coz there was always something wrong. I know its terrible..but att he end of the day, after al that editing, its made my eyes sharper...and it shows that I dont do soemthing and hand it up to my boss blindly...least I try not to do it. The prob is..I assume and I scan. My deadly sins hehehe 9k bad joke) After editing it abt 7 times, I finally plucked up enuff courage in my work, to pass it over to my boss. Who will somehow or rather, still manage to find one of two faults hahahaha Can u imagine if I didnt edit them? Id just like to apologize for the rapid depletion of printer ink hahahahahah I know my boss n colleagues have been highly tolerant of me...Thank you! :P
Ever felt like you wanted to do everything you wanted to do..but cant..or are scared that if u start, you cant commit? I do!..now. I know what my dreams are ( thought abt it all during the weekends ) Know how I want life to be. yet because of my situation now, I cant do it..even if I had the chance. let's hope God will give me another chance next time. :)
Spoke to my fren just now..she says I sound happier. I guess I do...I hipe it stays that way hahaha but then of course..I cant leave that up to hoping can I. I gotta work for it!. God please help me.
LOVE
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
wohooo!
have a few funny events these two days hahaha
Yesterday, was craving for dark chocolate...found it and it was great! Lindt!!! Thin slices of chocolate that broke with clean crisp 'snap' owww heavenly!!!...Til I found a worm in it..... :/ I turned to my mum and said, "mum, there's a worm in the chocolate"...
She said, "just throw the worm away and eatt he chocolate" I froze! I found this cobweb like thing on one fo the slices and ....DAMN! hahahahaha suddenly the weirdest, most disgusting thing came to my mind...i turned to my mum again and asked, "how doy ou know if ur eating chocolate or worm shit?"...she said (note: this is a classic moment)," well, when the worm eats the chocolate, what comes out is chocolate shit so its ot much difference." ....!!!!!!!! I dont know whether to laugh or cry! hahahahOne, its disgusting ahhaha but two, its one of the funniest and silliest things Ive ever heard my mum say! other than that Buffy the Vampire slayer joke hahahaha
The other moment I've had int eh past 2 days, is when my sis and I watched Manhunt hahahaha WOHOOOO! Goodness! The winner's hair and body is......WWWOOOOWWWWW. And guess what, the episode we watched was the final episode! And the last photoshoot was a nude shot!!! Wohoooo! Man! The winner's hair is like ...ever cool, wavy, excellent beautiful brown! I looked at him...like how i look at.....chocolate chip ice cream! Wahahahahahaha
His body is....copper brown...excellent beach surfer body...6-8 pack...Bloody hell!
Im just lacking a nose bleed man!! hahahahaha
K for those of you who know me, Im a very discreet person hahaha I dont always show what I feel, what I like..etc hahahah but if you really know me, you'd know that...i am like any other girl...except, i dont go all crazy and fainty and teary hahaha I just go..Wooohhhh...etc :P But like any other girl, I cant help but"admire" men w washboard abs, shoulder-length wavy hair (like they were born for modelling) Soooo..yeah hahahahaha
OKay enough of being crazy hahahaha nothing much today :P Just trying my best to make things work :)
LOVE
Yesterday, was craving for dark chocolate...found it and it was great! Lindt!!! Thin slices of chocolate that broke with clean crisp 'snap' owww heavenly!!!...Til I found a worm in it..... :/ I turned to my mum and said, "mum, there's a worm in the chocolate"...
She said, "just throw the worm away and eatt he chocolate" I froze! I found this cobweb like thing on one fo the slices and ....DAMN! hahahahaha suddenly the weirdest, most disgusting thing came to my mind...i turned to my mum again and asked, "how doy ou know if ur eating chocolate or worm shit?"...she said (note: this is a classic moment)," well, when the worm eats the chocolate, what comes out is chocolate shit so its ot much difference." ....!!!!!!!! I dont know whether to laugh or cry! hahahahOne, its disgusting ahhaha but two, its one of the funniest and silliest things Ive ever heard my mum say! other than that Buffy the Vampire slayer joke hahahaha
The other moment I've had int eh past 2 days, is when my sis and I watched Manhunt hahahaha WOHOOOO! Goodness! The winner's hair and body is......WWWOOOOWWWWW. And guess what, the episode we watched was the final episode! And the last photoshoot was a nude shot!!! Wohoooo! Man! The winner's hair is like ...ever cool, wavy, excellent beautiful brown! I looked at him...like how i look at.....chocolate chip ice cream! Wahahahahahaha
His body is....copper brown...excellent beach surfer body...6-8 pack...Bloody hell!
Im just lacking a nose bleed man!! hahahahaha
K for those of you who know me, Im a very discreet person hahaha I dont always show what I feel, what I like..etc hahahah but if you really know me, you'd know that...i am like any other girl...except, i dont go all crazy and fainty and teary hahaha I just go..Wooohhhh...etc :P But like any other girl, I cant help but"admire" men w washboard abs, shoulder-length wavy hair (like they were born for modelling) Soooo..yeah hahahahaha
OKay enough of being crazy hahahaha nothing much today :P Just trying my best to make things work :)
LOVE
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
resolution
My goal for today..is to find out who I am...what I wanna do and where I wanna go...not easy for anyone really...alot of soul searching.
I guess if I dont do this now, I'd be lost half the time that Im working.
I erally need to sort thigns out today... esp before my major event at the end og august.... I owe it to myself and everyone I work with really. :)
To all my fellow singaporeans, happy national day! Im not highly patriotic okay...just saying it :P
Okay im gonna go think abt life now...u all take care. keep i touch yah. :)
I guess if I dont do this now, I'd be lost half the time that Im working.
I erally need to sort thigns out today... esp before my major event at the end og august.... I owe it to myself and everyone I work with really. :)
To all my fellow singaporeans, happy national day! Im not highly patriotic okay...just saying it :P
Okay im gonna go think abt life now...u all take care. keep i touch yah. :)
Sunday, August 07, 2005
...im weird!
I did abit of packing up today...theres a huge bag of stuff int he storeroom-cum- toilet that belongs to me..so I ventured into the "forgotten" and opened it.
bottles, bags, toys etc...
heres why i feel Im weird:
Ive got bottles from historical times (okay..not so ancient)...all of them I kept..to remember soemthing..some moment....thing is..Ive clean forgotten the moments! hahaha iev got a coffee bottle in poly..waiting for my ex..to dot he play..i tink. ive got an orangina bottle in JC on a malaysia field trip..got an "old sch" coca cola bottle from JC when I did my 1st big scale ushering duty at the youth day celebratons in Natnl stadium...a spring valley orange juice bottle for the time i helped out at esplanade (w my super creative fren). A snapple bottle from my 21st birthday...and...an older snapple bottle.....from....(scratch head)...some JC visit to the CPF building or something. Hahahah some memory ah! Go CPF building also must remember! Wahahaha Thats why Im weird! hahahahaha
Ive got toys... polly pocket...littlest pet shop...care bear...any my little pony (yes all girlie toys) in my cupboard :D. The newest one tot he collection was given to me by my poly fren hahahah..emm.last year? My Little Pony!!!! My oldest My Little Pony is still standing happily on my...drawer top hahaha (yeah..im weird)
ive got tons of postcards...enough to cover my four walls! SOMEDAY..I will frame them and hang them up! :P SOMEDAY lah k...SOMEDAY.
ive got cloth..materials...wrapping paper..all ready to be made into "creative" stuff....as and when...I have the time for. Hahaha As if I have the time now...but...SOMEDAY!
I forewarn anyone who's planning to visit my house for hte 1st time hahaha PLEASE BRACE YOURSELF! Wahahhaa
That said, I havnt even gone to the number of bags around my room (old lecture notes n etc) Hell I cud come up with a HIDE n SEEK or FIND MY STUFF! Show and be confident that noone would walk away with the grand prize! hahahaha
Okay yeah...maybe SOMEDAY, I will have my own house nad transfer all of it there...probably get a glass cupboard to display them in. Befoer my mum chases me out of the house that is hahahahaha
k gonna makan now. u all tc! Still aching btw...akido lus basketball has left my left arm a little sore but thats good! :P
LOVE
bottles, bags, toys etc...
heres why i feel Im weird:
Ive got bottles from historical times (okay..not so ancient)...all of them I kept..to remember soemthing..some moment....thing is..Ive clean forgotten the moments! hahaha iev got a coffee bottle in poly..waiting for my ex..to dot he play..i tink. ive got an orangina bottle in JC on a malaysia field trip..got an "old sch" coca cola bottle from JC when I did my 1st big scale ushering duty at the youth day celebratons in Natnl stadium...a spring valley orange juice bottle for the time i helped out at esplanade (w my super creative fren). A snapple bottle from my 21st birthday...and...an older snapple bottle.....from....(scratch head)...some JC visit to the CPF building or something. Hahahah some memory ah! Go CPF building also must remember! Wahahaha Thats why Im weird! hahahahaha
Ive got toys... polly pocket...littlest pet shop...care bear...any my little pony (yes all girlie toys) in my cupboard :D. The newest one tot he collection was given to me by my poly fren hahahah..emm.last year? My Little Pony!!!! My oldest My Little Pony is still standing happily on my...drawer top hahaha (yeah..im weird)
ive got tons of postcards...enough to cover my four walls! SOMEDAY..I will frame them and hang them up! :P SOMEDAY lah k...SOMEDAY.
ive got cloth..materials...wrapping paper..all ready to be made into "creative" stuff....as and when...I have the time for. Hahaha As if I have the time now...but...SOMEDAY!
I forewarn anyone who's planning to visit my house for hte 1st time hahaha PLEASE BRACE YOURSELF! Wahahhaa
That said, I havnt even gone to the number of bags around my room (old lecture notes n etc) Hell I cud come up with a HIDE n SEEK or FIND MY STUFF! Show and be confident that noone would walk away with the grand prize! hahahaha
Okay yeah...maybe SOMEDAY, I will have my own house nad transfer all of it there...probably get a glass cupboard to display them in. Befoer my mum chases me out of the house that is hahahahaha
k gonna makan now. u all tc! Still aching btw...akido lus basketball has left my left arm a little sore but thats good! :P
LOVE
Saturday, August 06, 2005
:) Thanks guys...
Spoke to one of my sistas yesterday...she said that she was really proud of me for doing the grad speech...she and some of my other close frens felt that my speech was for them. If thats the case....even though my speech wasnt as smooth as i wanted, it still worked. Coz it was meant for them. I wanted them to feel it...feel like i was talking to them! :)
Much as they say they were proud of me, I still feel that theres soo much more that i wanted to say. Soooo much moer I cud be thnkful for...because of them. :)
I love yah sistas!!! I regret not saying that earlier. I love you guys soo much!
You guys were the ones who changed me... :)
love
Much as they say they were proud of me, I still feel that theres soo much more that i wanted to say. Soooo much moer I cud be thnkful for...because of them. :)
I love yah sistas!!! I regret not saying that earlier. I love you guys soo much!
You guys were the ones who changed me... :)
love
I am sooo asking for it!
Played basketball at sch today! :) well..not really...was just shooting 3pters hahaha trying... manage to shoot 5 or 6 times.
Even b4 we were done, my thighs were aching..from both Aikido and this I cud feel the pull everytime I sat down on the floor man! Byt he time i got home, i felt that my left knee was feeling abit funny. Not that its painful or sore...lets just hope that it wun swell.
my colleagues said Im funny and crazy for trying to "kill" myself hahaha
I called up my fren today..a fellow compere..
He told me about everythign happening in the club now and I have only one thing to say...dissappointed.
I am dissappointed (i hope the club members are reading this) at their attitude now. When I was there, i treasured every event that I got..as if it was my last. Yet now, these goons are not even willnig to do them! Some of them MIA-ed for a long time! It goes to show 2 things! They have no responsibility and no interest. If thats so, leave now! I will not have my club be destroyed by juniors who dont give a shit abt it. Its too valuable for that. This club is one of a kind in singapore's polys. Everythingelse in the world like this requires money. You are given a chance to train urself to be better hosts and gaint he experience of working w the mic, on stage and in front of hordes of pple you dont even know, FOR FREE! You get to gain soo much more experience! Some pple out there dont even get the CHANCE to dot hat! YET, they have an undying love for compereing! You who are given this chance, instead of grabbing each chance, you waste it!
Hell, id jump at the chance to do it for you! Its possible! All I have to do is talk tot he officers in charge and ask them to apss all the events that you guys dont want to do, to me! Why not?!?!
The point is, by the time you grad from SP and you start to work , decide to pursue hosting as freelance....you will regret you turned down all those events. Big or small, you will regret! Every event adds to your resume. You will have skills that are not perfected..in otherwards...you wasted your chance..you will have nothing to prove that you've been compereing and no one will hire you coz you're skills are no better! As if thats not enough, because of these people, they bring the reputation and credibility of a good club..down...it breaks my heart...
Anyway, this is the subject that has been storming my heart today. Given a chance, Id go back to help in my club. Id tell them that this club isnt for slackers...it isnt for pple who "suddenly" have a passion for hosting ( passions that can "suddenly" go away) Its not for pple who dont wanna learn.
This club is for pple who love to entertain crowds, who love to be on stage, who love to make pple laugh, who are responsible in every event they do, who grab every event as if it was their last.
love
Even b4 we were done, my thighs were aching..from both Aikido and this I cud feel the pull everytime I sat down on the floor man! Byt he time i got home, i felt that my left knee was feeling abit funny. Not that its painful or sore...lets just hope that it wun swell.
my colleagues said Im funny and crazy for trying to "kill" myself hahaha
I called up my fren today..a fellow compere..
He told me about everythign happening in the club now and I have only one thing to say...dissappointed.
I am dissappointed (i hope the club members are reading this) at their attitude now. When I was there, i treasured every event that I got..as if it was my last. Yet now, these goons are not even willnig to do them! Some of them MIA-ed for a long time! It goes to show 2 things! They have no responsibility and no interest. If thats so, leave now! I will not have my club be destroyed by juniors who dont give a shit abt it. Its too valuable for that. This club is one of a kind in singapore's polys. Everythingelse in the world like this requires money. You are given a chance to train urself to be better hosts and gaint he experience of working w the mic, on stage and in front of hordes of pple you dont even know, FOR FREE! You get to gain soo much more experience! Some pple out there dont even get the CHANCE to dot hat! YET, they have an undying love for compereing! You who are given this chance, instead of grabbing each chance, you waste it!
Hell, id jump at the chance to do it for you! Its possible! All I have to do is talk tot he officers in charge and ask them to apss all the events that you guys dont want to do, to me! Why not?!?!
The point is, by the time you grad from SP and you start to work , decide to pursue hosting as freelance....you will regret you turned down all those events. Big or small, you will regret! Every event adds to your resume. You will have skills that are not perfected..in otherwards...you wasted your chance..you will have nothing to prove that you've been compereing and no one will hire you coz you're skills are no better! As if thats not enough, because of these people, they bring the reputation and credibility of a good club..down...it breaks my heart...
Anyway, this is the subject that has been storming my heart today. Given a chance, Id go back to help in my club. Id tell them that this club isnt for slackers...it isnt for pple who "suddenly" have a passion for hosting ( passions that can "suddenly" go away) Its not for pple who dont wanna learn.
This club is for pple who love to entertain crowds, who love to be on stage, who love to make pple laugh, who are responsible in every event they do, who grab every event as if it was their last.
love
:0 after a long week
I know Ive been virtually inactive for the past week but trust me that Ive been more than in active.
Monday:
Tuition...My tuition kid was good, I was forced to play games with him again (praying that it wudnt be space impact again) It turned out okay and he's really smart! The only prob with him is coz he's a kid, he likes to play and he cant sit still! :)
Tuesday:
Had loads of work...was very stressed coz Ive got an event to organize and an event to host. I was even thinking of going back on my off day..to do up some of the work. Evenmtually, I brought the work back and worked at it. Slept at..around 3 i think.
Had Aikido class as well! my 1st class! Learnt to rock, back roll, forward roll, simple stuff..but it still ached like crazy!
Wed:
One of the rare days of being able to wake up late :P Took half day for a sch event. :P Now, going back to sch is like a luxury! its like going home! It was the national day ceremony in school and the director of Corp Comms asked that I host for them. I know its bad that I took a day off....but this was probably one of the things that Id give anything to do! Hosting! And I got a chance to host with Clement Chow! For those of you who dont know him, he's a singer and a songwriter for one of Spore's evergreen national day songs. He's got a great voice and I only wish I cud match up to him! :(
we had jap students come to perform so Clement and I got the whole crowd to say ," Ohiyo" to them. After the show, we made them say, "Arrigato" It was something I hoped the jap students would appreciate. They're singing was very interesting! I even spoke tot he choir master after that hahah using my limited knowledge of jap lang, I cud only say a few words, " Konichiwa, arrigato, sigoye!"
While singing the national days songs, I tried my best to get everyone to stand and wave their flags and sing. They did! They sang and waved! Esp att he chorus! Clement and I sang as well ...our best! I ran from corner to corner to get them to sing!
Halfway through the songs, the soundsystem got cut off. Everyone went, "woohhhh" But I was shocked for a minute...but the magical part of it is...we still continued singing! Was it clement who said to carry on? or was it just hearing them singing, that made me think, " the sound system dying isnt gonna stop us from singing!"
I started to be on a high! I can from side to side, trying to get them to continue singing! I even wanted one of the performing groups to play their drums! :)Byt he end of the event...I was sweating all over! My hair was in a mess! Yet..I felt sooo good! I felt like this would have beent he most enthusiastic NDOC Ive ever seen!
I went to the reception after that and got a chance to see all the directors again! :) My fav Dr Dave Cheong, my SB director....etc :) even the director who gave me this chance! Spoke to Mdm Halimah Yacob. Told her about our comperes club and she was pleased to know that there is such a thing in schools! Seeing her face to face for the second time...I know she doesnt recognize me but its okay. :) it just made it esier for me..coz I was comfortable! Saw my principal and stuff and much as many of them shook my hand and said Iw as good, I really dont know...We talked abt that surprise soundsystem malfunction hahaha one of the directors jokingly asked if it was all planned hahaha
We joked about how my director was at a corner discussing w mediacorp abt hiring me hahaha and one fo them asked if i had gone for any interviews. I said, "not really" He replied, " well, you just had ur interview hahah with that sound system malfunction" Well. ier ally dont know if I passed! hahahaha
Hope so hehehe. come to think of it, I dont think I did very well for this event.....I was like an over-excited monkey! Funny how all my aches and pains from Aikido dissappeared when I was hosting. heheheheheh
Thurs:
This was the 1st time I ever felt soo old! I was aching ALL OVER! Thighs, arms, the entire shoulderblade, the waist, mid-section. Sitting down is literally like slowly putting down a ton of bricks I cant even get up w/o cringing! My boss is in pain too hehehehe. Even mroe paint han me! hahaha
Fri:
Getting very very stressed and tense.... got loads to finish today..had a briefing int he evening and much as I tried my best to proof-read my doc for the briefing..I still did alot of small mistakes. Like allocating the wrong duty to the wrong pple..like printing out the schedule which was wrong...not to mention..not being able to give them all the info one shot... :(
Thats only tip of the iceberg :) for the whole week that is.
To all my frens, hope you're doing well. Keep smiling yah. i'll try my best too.
Monday:
Tuition...My tuition kid was good, I was forced to play games with him again (praying that it wudnt be space impact again) It turned out okay and he's really smart! The only prob with him is coz he's a kid, he likes to play and he cant sit still! :)
Tuesday:
Had loads of work...was very stressed coz Ive got an event to organize and an event to host. I was even thinking of going back on my off day..to do up some of the work. Evenmtually, I brought the work back and worked at it. Slept at..around 3 i think.
Had Aikido class as well! my 1st class! Learnt to rock, back roll, forward roll, simple stuff..but it still ached like crazy!
Wed:
One of the rare days of being able to wake up late :P Took half day for a sch event. :P Now, going back to sch is like a luxury! its like going home! It was the national day ceremony in school and the director of Corp Comms asked that I host for them. I know its bad that I took a day off....but this was probably one of the things that Id give anything to do! Hosting! And I got a chance to host with Clement Chow! For those of you who dont know him, he's a singer and a songwriter for one of Spore's evergreen national day songs. He's got a great voice and I only wish I cud match up to him! :(
we had jap students come to perform so Clement and I got the whole crowd to say ," Ohiyo" to them. After the show, we made them say, "Arrigato" It was something I hoped the jap students would appreciate. They're singing was very interesting! I even spoke tot he choir master after that hahah using my limited knowledge of jap lang, I cud only say a few words, " Konichiwa, arrigato, sigoye!"
While singing the national days songs, I tried my best to get everyone to stand and wave their flags and sing. They did! They sang and waved! Esp att he chorus! Clement and I sang as well ...our best! I ran from corner to corner to get them to sing!
Halfway through the songs, the soundsystem got cut off. Everyone went, "woohhhh" But I was shocked for a minute...but the magical part of it is...we still continued singing! Was it clement who said to carry on? or was it just hearing them singing, that made me think, " the sound system dying isnt gonna stop us from singing!"
I started to be on a high! I can from side to side, trying to get them to continue singing! I even wanted one of the performing groups to play their drums! :)Byt he end of the event...I was sweating all over! My hair was in a mess! Yet..I felt sooo good! I felt like this would have beent he most enthusiastic NDOC Ive ever seen!
I went to the reception after that and got a chance to see all the directors again! :) My fav Dr Dave Cheong, my SB director....etc :) even the director who gave me this chance! Spoke to Mdm Halimah Yacob. Told her about our comperes club and she was pleased to know that there is such a thing in schools! Seeing her face to face for the second time...I know she doesnt recognize me but its okay. :) it just made it esier for me..coz I was comfortable! Saw my principal and stuff and much as many of them shook my hand and said Iw as good, I really dont know...We talked abt that surprise soundsystem malfunction hahaha one of the directors jokingly asked if it was all planned hahaha
We joked about how my director was at a corner discussing w mediacorp abt hiring me hahaha and one fo them asked if i had gone for any interviews. I said, "not really" He replied, " well, you just had ur interview hahah with that sound system malfunction" Well. ier ally dont know if I passed! hahahaha
Hope so hehehe. come to think of it, I dont think I did very well for this event.....I was like an over-excited monkey! Funny how all my aches and pains from Aikido dissappeared when I was hosting. heheheheheh
Thurs:
This was the 1st time I ever felt soo old! I was aching ALL OVER! Thighs, arms, the entire shoulderblade, the waist, mid-section. Sitting down is literally like slowly putting down a ton of bricks I cant even get up w/o cringing! My boss is in pain too hehehehe. Even mroe paint han me! hahaha
Fri:
Getting very very stressed and tense.... got loads to finish today..had a briefing int he evening and much as I tried my best to proof-read my doc for the briefing..I still did alot of small mistakes. Like allocating the wrong duty to the wrong pple..like printing out the schedule which was wrong...not to mention..not being able to give them all the info one shot... :(
Thats only tip of the iceberg :) for the whole week that is.
To all my frens, hope you're doing well. Keep smiling yah. i'll try my best too.
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