Okay okay breathe...breathe in...breaathe out....take long deep breathes slowly.....
It sucks when Im trying to sleep and all of a sudden I get this sudden panic that I forgot something and Im doomed to failure tomorrow...esp at 1am in the morning...aarrggghhhh
I know Im fine..nothing bads gonna happen but my heart is still racing! Talk abt F1 lah!
Anyway while I try to cool down...decided to start blogging again...
yesterday (being sunday) was a lazy day..didnt leave the house..did abt of packinng..did alot more sleeping... Somehow I needed to take a break...to stone. I dont think anyone has ever heard of the need to "stone" but that is a necessity for me and I honestly recommend it to one and all! haha
Stone= to plonk youself on a butt-friendly place that allows you to abide for long lengths of time to simply do nothing but think/contemplate.
What people choose to think abt or contemplate about....is dependant on individual interest...
Just thinking abt teh plans will get me hyperventilating aging so i wont mention it now...all I know is that this is gonna be the start of a long ride.
Thanks to all who have congratulated my flying to australia...its only for a week although everyone already thinks I made it to NIDA or VCA. Im not gonna turn down that congratulations. Im claiming it with a big AMEN!!! WOHOOO!
You may think that the higher hopes I have, the more dissappointment I will feel. True...but I cant let that stop me from going to the auditionn confidently...as they say.."if you think ur gonna lose, you've already lost half the battle" And besides...I know how Stephen's (my brother) bored angel works. If I deny my blessigns now...He'll be happy to help me make those *worst case scenarios* come true. Neh! Not gonna give the bored angel that satisfaction.
Also managed to catch the last episode of Hana Yuri Dango. The episode where the couple finally finally get married. Not bad! hahah not the wedding.....more like the "adventure" they had before the wedding hahaha
Amazing really hahaha i didnt mean to catch that episode haha just happen to change channels hahaha Admittedly..I always wanted to know how things would end.
And about tv dramas...I am staying out of that hahahaha watch anymore of those and Im gonna drive myself nuts!
Lastly...cant wait for the upcoming weddings :D Might not be able to turn up...but really happy for them!
Monday, September 27, 2010
Thursday, September 23, 2010
I guess its time :)
So Im calling for interested parties to be part of a podcast!
I dont know how long this things is gonna last but no harm trying. Its time!
I know I cant use music so its probably just gonna be alot of talking and VOs and small bits of music...
Might not sound very interesting...but like I said..no harm trying..:)
K so recording would most probably be either weekday eve or saturday...depending on who's gonna be in it..and it can be a weekly guest appearance thing too! :)
YES! it will Work!
Btw: quote for today:
You can suck as a colleague, friend and husband..but if you treat your child right and show love to her. She will still see you as her guardian angel and love you as the best person in the world.
God Bless!
I dont know how long this things is gonna last but no harm trying. Its time!
I know I cant use music so its probably just gonna be alot of talking and VOs and small bits of music...
Might not sound very interesting...but like I said..no harm trying..:)
K so recording would most probably be either weekday eve or saturday...depending on who's gonna be in it..and it can be a weekly guest appearance thing too! :)
YES! it will Work!
Btw: quote for today:
You can suck as a colleague, friend and husband..but if you treat your child right and show love to her. She will still see you as her guardian angel and love you as the best person in the world.
God Bless!
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Ning's Quotes
As my brother would say: hindsights a B*&^%...took me 3years to learn that sometimes camwhoring could work for you in your portfolio..sigh.
Pain is feeling your stomach cringe up and your lungs mulfunction when you see your old self.
The lack of self esteem stops you from showing others who you really are.
I always knew I wasnt photogenic..now i can prove it. But please don't force me to.
The 2 easiest ways to make me kill myself, 1) sing out of tune 2) show me a recording of myself
If I had a 3rd hand to smack my forehead with, I'd do it
Ning
Saturday, September 18, 2010
low self esteem...
I see so many blessed people around me. Christian or not, they are blessed and some are talented and good looking etc.
The whole of this week has been good. I dont say much through the trip because I utter rubbish mostly but I do see my bros & sistas in such a light. They are truly smart and talented people. All different in their own ways and it amazes me how we ended up being in this big family.
I see my bros in such a strong bond that u could pass them off as fraternal twins! And to see how they support each other and understand each other so well... :)
I guess at certain points of the week, I sorta felt that my differences with them and the other sisters could be so huge that I could simply be a passerby friend. Of course I know this is insecure me talking and thats also why I shut up...coz it proves that i utter too much rubbish. EMO Ning talking..
And yet at the same time..I makes me soooo thankful that I would be counted as a sister in this group of people that takes away my pride and gives me full humility.I dont know how I landed a role in this family but Im sure glad that I have them. :)
I know I shouldnt be so negative but I already see a part of me giving way...mentally...emotionally...physically. Can keep up with them anymore...if I dont already irritate them...I already irritate myself...
My hearing sucks...my muscles n joints ache easily...and admittedly I feel the pinch of not having someone to hold on to at the times when it matters. Sad... I know full well that these siblings of mine will find their better half and Im gonna be happy for them. :)
Basically feeling very emo now.... can start writing emo songs again...
I know that God is the one whom I can depend on 24hrs to be there and for all the bros & sistas I know..they are all provided by God as well...
God bless
The whole of this week has been good. I dont say much through the trip because I utter rubbish mostly but I do see my bros & sistas in such a light. They are truly smart and talented people. All different in their own ways and it amazes me how we ended up being in this big family.
I see my bros in such a strong bond that u could pass them off as fraternal twins! And to see how they support each other and understand each other so well... :)
I guess at certain points of the week, I sorta felt that my differences with them and the other sisters could be so huge that I could simply be a passerby friend. Of course I know this is insecure me talking and thats also why I shut up...coz it proves that i utter too much rubbish. EMO Ning talking..
And yet at the same time..I makes me soooo thankful that I would be counted as a sister in this group of people that takes away my pride and gives me full humility.I dont know how I landed a role in this family but Im sure glad that I have them. :)
I know I shouldnt be so negative but I already see a part of me giving way...mentally...emotionally...physically. Can keep up with them anymore...if I dont already irritate them...I already irritate myself...
My hearing sucks...my muscles n joints ache easily...and admittedly I feel the pinch of not having someone to hold on to at the times when it matters. Sad... I know full well that these siblings of mine will find their better half and Im gonna be happy for them. :)
Basically feeling very emo now.... can start writing emo songs again...
I know that God is the one whom I can depend on 24hrs to be there and for all the bros & sistas I know..they are all provided by God as well...
God bless
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Away from home
Being away from home has a way of making me reflect on life quite abit...
LTC trip last month was reaally good and I did learn alot about myself. I learnt how I need to leave my emotions out to better facilitate a group in debriefing. The students I got were (in my emotional opinion) on the egoistic side. While we all did have fun, I sorta felt hte students could have done better in leading...but I know very well that I could have done a better job in debriefing them too...
Got sick too..but thats a small issue lah...
I got to know Jacob alot more and yes he can be abit looney at times and that totally makes him a "normal" guy hahaha
Conclusion: lots to lern to be a proper facilitator and (I presume Jacob would agree) I dont think one would ever stop learning to be a good facilitator.
Did I also mention that I now know that listening to Gospel songs really helps me to calm down and if I ever feel like cant sleep, that would knock me into lala land fast. Not that I dont like it...just that it clams me down...puts me at peace :)
Anyway..in camp again and this time I have my bros and sister with me. :) In fact..this would be the 1st time Im at camp with all of them... This is a time where I know how fortunate I am to have these siblings. I do love all of them very much.
And I am very much aware of the fact that I have a helluvalot of bros & sis hahahaha All are good in their own way. :D I do feel blessed to have all of them. :)
Speaking of being blessed and being loved...whoever you are reading this, go check out this book (if you havnt already), 5 love languages. it is a fabulously good book that makes alot of sense and shows you ways to better express your love for those whom matter to you. :) Very good book! recommended to all!
Other than that, life is okay. Am trying to apply for further studies in aussie so lets hope that will work out well. Gotta go around getting referals :/
God thank you for those around me. Yes sometimes it may seem that no matter how many frieds we have, we're still empty and lonely..but you never fail to show me that its not true. You also never fail to show me how much you love me with the little things even.
God Bless
LTC trip last month was reaally good and I did learn alot about myself. I learnt how I need to leave my emotions out to better facilitate a group in debriefing. The students I got were (in my emotional opinion) on the egoistic side. While we all did have fun, I sorta felt hte students could have done better in leading...but I know very well that I could have done a better job in debriefing them too...
Got sick too..but thats a small issue lah...
I got to know Jacob alot more and yes he can be abit looney at times and that totally makes him a "normal" guy hahaha
Conclusion: lots to lern to be a proper facilitator and (I presume Jacob would agree) I dont think one would ever stop learning to be a good facilitator.
Did I also mention that I now know that listening to Gospel songs really helps me to calm down and if I ever feel like cant sleep, that would knock me into lala land fast. Not that I dont like it...just that it clams me down...puts me at peace :)
Anyway..in camp again and this time I have my bros and sister with me. :) In fact..this would be the 1st time Im at camp with all of them... This is a time where I know how fortunate I am to have these siblings. I do love all of them very much.
And I am very much aware of the fact that I have a helluvalot of bros & sis hahahaha All are good in their own way. :D I do feel blessed to have all of them. :)
Speaking of being blessed and being loved...whoever you are reading this, go check out this book (if you havnt already), 5 love languages. it is a fabulously good book that makes alot of sense and shows you ways to better express your love for those whom matter to you. :) Very good book! recommended to all!
Other than that, life is okay. Am trying to apply for further studies in aussie so lets hope that will work out well. Gotta go around getting referals :/
God thank you for those around me. Yes sometimes it may seem that no matter how many frieds we have, we're still empty and lonely..but you never fail to show me that its not true. You also never fail to show me how much you love me with the little things even.
God Bless
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