Its almost the end of september!

Time flies! Its almost the end of september!
Its been 8 months! Every production is a new challenge!

Since the last entry, Ive started dancing every saturday.

ASMing is a challenge. Working with seniors and a director is a challenge.

I think ive become less sensitive to some people's emotions. Because its a waste of time doing that.

In 2 months and a few weeks, the school term will be over and I can head home!

Going home means that I will miss a few chances to do events but I have to go back to SP to work.

Anyway...these few weeks are crucial for me to finish my prompt copy, perf history and stuff but im being lazy...bad!

K gotta go. Love!

God Bless!

ASMing

So its day 4 of ASMing. I think ive been doing good so far but maybe I havnt been asking enough questions and that I'm not doing as much as I have to do.

Im still gonna keep trying. :)

This time, Im not gonna let depression and low self esteem get to me. :)

Its gonna be difficult but I'LL KEEP TRYING! I WILL!!!

God Bless

Arts & Ideas, Rock climbing, Dance, Beach, PORT and kids...

And I know I should be finishing Arts & Ideas. About 3/4 done and Im starting to procrastinate.
Just for updates, Ive started my role as an ASM. So far its been good but Im still nervous about how things will be as we go. Im gonna try my absolute best to do well and keep my head above water.
It started with rock climbing on friday night. With Issy, Tanisha, Brad and I. Cant believe that I did that well. Loved it but afraid of it at the same time. Especially the corner spot with 3 walls to climb at once.
Stayed over at my friend, Sonal's place on friday night. Then we went for dance class with one of my classmates on saturday afternoon. In fact that dance class was the best Ive had! :D Might decide to do this dance class every saturday..whichever saturday i have that is..
Then we stopped at The Rocks Market to have subway. Then succumbing to the carbohydrate curse, Tom and I got sleepy and we decided to leave Sonal in the city and head back to our own homes to sleep. Indeed yesterday was a very very good day! My body is aching but its a good ache.
Sunday, Sonal and I met to head to Manly. Its too chilly a day for a suntan but we did hangout at the beach for abit. In fact, I feel asleep. Cant wait for a sunny day to actually get a suntan.
Although it was a short trip to Manly, it was a relaxing one and Im glad I went. On the way back from Manly, a family of 4 sat next to us. Th 2 kids were adorable to the max! The older one is probably in lower primary? He has a pure blond head of hair with clear blue eyes! And his younger brother has curly hazel hair with blond streaks and light brown eyes! Both are sooo cute they're positively lethal!
The older boy kept looking out of the window to see the boats and waves but the younger one couldnt so the big brother tried to carry him up but couldnt. So innocent and so funny!
It just seems like a model family! The boys love each other, the parents look like they are close and the whole family seemed closely knit. :)
I had much fun interacting with the kids :) Especially the older one. The younger kid had an especially cheeky smile! As all younger kids do. But the blue eyes were the best attraction of the day. :) He's gonna grow up to be a heart throb. Im not a pedophile yah. But his eyes were really attractive! He'll be a heartthrob when he grows up! Alot like the guy from Home Alone but better looking.
In fact I was telling Sonal that I would never forget those kids.
That sorta brought me to a sad thought of whether something like that would ever happen to me. I dont mean having a blond blue-eyed child. I mean having someone to love and be loved by the person. In my heart, as I looked at the waves and the distant houses, I was asking God about this.
I guess the conclusion is that if Im the Child of God and God does want me to  be happy, then I would have someone. Its not an "If"...its a "When" And after asking Him why it's taking so long, the answer I felt given back to me is," because both of u are not ready for each other" For reasons only God will know, both of us would never be able to make hte relationship last if we met and got together now. i know I wouldnt..because I have my studies. Also because Im not in Singapore and I dont intend to find someone outside of Singapore.
Anyway, Im back home now. Home meaning Kensington, Sydney. This next fw months will be scary and fast paced and Im gonna keep trying my best to do bring it on!

Im gonna depend on God to give me the favour and knowledge and understanding to do my work well and efficiently. Because I myself as a human being wont be able to do it alone.

Counting down to 12 Sept...

Which reminds me that today is the Sept 11, 10th year anniversary. its been too long a time.. Glad Osama is finally dead although I know Satan always has a backup henchman ready to succeed Osama...

Okay back to Arts&Ideas!

God Bless

Peace That Passeth Understanding...

For someone who doesnt have much faith in herself, Im very much surprised when people tell me that I come across as being very calm.

Had a classmate in Poly who said I was like the Calmness before the storm...

And just now, after chatting with one of my poly students on facebook and giving her advice on an upcoming camp, She thanked me and said that I brought about a very "safe/secure feeling"

My tutors thought I didnt have problems with my class because I seemed so calm and not uncertain...

Am I really that calm? From my knowledge, Im like a swan.. calm and collected on the top, paddling for dear like under the water surface!

I guess in certain cases, its good that I have such a talent.. Maybe thats how I got into comperes hahaha

But honestly, I thank God for this ability. Especially if I make people feel secure...
Maybe it's God's blessings on me that make me look like I have the peace that passeth understanding. While it doesnt always feel that way inside, yet on the outside, I still become the model of God with that sense of peace and security on the outside.

And where Calmness and Peace is mentioned, it brings to mind my name: Ho Wei Ning
Ho: sounds the same as another chinese character that is hte first charcter for the word "peace"
Wei: second character for the word: wisdom
Ning: first character for the phrase "peaceful and quiet"

Maybe God does look at names and their meanings.

God Bless
And where peace and clamness is concerned, it brings to mind my name... Wei Ning

Last day of Holis

Today is the last day of holidays. Almost done with Perf Hist Essay....
Went for dance class in the afternoon. This is obviously my last class for the holidays. I guess the rest of the tickets will have to be used during the weekends. I think after going for a few classes, I figure that Im quite happy with latin american dance and hip hop.
From tomorrow onwards, I'll be throwing myself into the Port world. It's gonna be my first ASM role. The Gala wasnt counted! Im actually pretty scared :/ Not even nervous!Throughout this holiday, Ive been at home most of the time. Because Ive been alone at home most of the time without even Sonal, Ive felt very very lonely...not desperate lonely...just lonely. Made me miss Sonal & Sam. And made me miss fambily and family...I actually really really miss everyone in Singapore! I miss interactions w people I love and can bare my heart out to. Not that I cant do it here...there are a few that I can..but I think my tendencies to qualify myself and pit myself against them is actually destroying it... Im scared that I might end up messing things up like in JC.Yap! Thats the confession! I'm possibly like the kid who screws up because he/she is so scared of screwing up that he/she trips and screws up. The ultimate irony...I dont want that to happen....I dont...Im actually possibly scared of the new term.. Confession #2Scared yah..not nervous..literally scared.I think Im actually going through a battle with the devil. He's making me think that Im lesser than everyoneelse...And by doing so, He'll affect my friendships, my grades etc..
Anyway tomorrow the new battle starts!
God Bless