Condemnation is a many dangerous thing

I know this is a christina thinking but having seen sooo many students and their different issues with life..I really came to see how poisonous condemnation is...

It can come in small amounts but every pinch of condemnation and guilt added together...makes a big difference..esp since we humans dont forget our guilt easily..it all rools up into a big snowball and while we dont get paralysed 1 fine day..by it...it does result in a gradual increase in lack of self esteem..maybe the loss of friendships..maybe..the loss of self-motivation and gradual lack of confidence in fulfilling our own dreams.

COndemnation is what stops us from thinking better of ourselves..stops our confidence from growing.

You may ask abt over confidence...well my observation has taught me that over confident people are actually people who are insecure..hence lack of confidence.

In reality..over confidence is the lack of confidence that is disgused with fake confidence...or over enthusiasm to show that they are not confident.

Truthfully..I too suffer from this..

And alot of people suffer from lack of confidence from their background history..family issues, school issues, communication problems...etc

I however honestly feel that...the prettiest children....are those who have suffered alot..who are suffereing alot....somehow or rather..they are...

God Bless

Too many things I wanna do...

Okay so I guess Im easily influenced.. but then again....u cant help but think abt how colourful life would be..with those skills.
- Aikido
- Hip Hop Dance
- Sign language Class

And futher studying. Is that too much? Maybe...it sorta means that I wont have time for my friends...and family...

But does this mean I shudnt do it? Maybe I shud do it now before I think abt my age again and panic hahhaha

But to be honest..I know God's blessing will ensure that my body is physically good till a ripe old age. And maybe thats why till now..I still let myself dream of doing more things..Maybe its also got to do with hanging with students more..they keep me young and dreamy? hahaha

Anyway...Im just babbling again...

Sadly my hand hurts now and I dont know why.  Cant press down on it. Hmmm

God Bless

Get ready for a busy week for the next 3wks!!!

Preparing for Robocup now and right after that is Spore Intl Water Festival.

In the midst, got SPARC & Comperes Camp and SP JCC Camp...hmmm

Im gonna believe God for the wisdom and peace and inklings to know what to do. :D
Im also believeing for a good batch of students and batch of XCO for this acad year.

and did I mention? ITS THUR!!! TOM IS FRI!!!

Had dinner 2 nights back with my sis and her bf. :) Somehow I still see a childlike thing in them..the jokes they make..the silly thigns they do and it makes me smile coz Im happy for my sis. Someone to keep her young. :)
Also felt privileged to be with them..something like how you as a kid would always wanna be part of what your older siblings are into. Same but not as clingy. :P

K Im rambling...:)

Also note to self: not to buy so many cds! Time to stop!
I know I wanna train my ear to hear good music..hope it will help with my audio "evaluation kills" hahaha
But money wouldnt let me hahahaha

K shall stop here.

God Bless!!

Yes Im feeling ugly....

Ever done something that u regret..something that showed a side of you that U later felt was despicable? that was rude and mean? Yep...

Because of that..I felt ugly...and i still feel ugly...

I know I pissed u off...gave u a side of me that u would bitch to no end about...and while I did that in a wrong method...I was compelled to do it...compelled with a lack of sense...so I apologize. Im sorry. Its not lying..I really do still love you yah.

I guess its only better that i dnt name names...but you know who you are.  I dnt know if you read this though hahaha

I believe that I also cud have done things to you that I didnt even know I did. And you kept it to urself...I apologize too.


As for you! You who caused me all the headaches..who got me in a state of confusion...who made me lose my cool....I dnt blame you....I am to blame too. I wish there cud be a way to detach you from your irritatingness because Id like u alot better that way...but life isnt fair.
Pity u saw my ugly side...coz thats the last I want to show anyone. Im sorry if I let u down then...
In fact wud have loved for us to be friends...but it seems we will be stuck to being only acquiantances...
And for the good of both of us..that wud be the best :)

Have this urge to do aikido and hip hop dance again. :P anyone wanna join me? I need a partner!!!
Also need Cikgu's help with audio..
The mind will never be too old to learn things!

God Bless!

Love is a many irritating thing...

Finally..after such a long while..back to blogging my june entry.

Funny how I used to do this every week in the past..but now..not really.

Im starting to realize just how fast time flies. my 2nd youngest cousin is a grown up guy studying in US..and my youngest cousin in his last or 2nd yr in Poly.
My best friend's cousins (who were small when she was in poly) are in sec sch or army!
Time truly flies..my grandma's 1 yr death anniversary was last week.

The more I think about it..the more I could feel depressed seeing so many other people getting to places when Im still crawling through life..and I have no one to blame but my slothful self...I guess u can say I should be seeing things from a positive point of view..ie: now that I realize it..time to speed up.
Yes..true.. I will!

Aside from all this...I realize that I have lesser stuff to say these days...Im dry out of words  and things to blog about..coz alot of things have lost their importance in my heart...hmmm

K enuff said...

God Bless