Yeah woman's woe....
Anyway Im bad at new year resolutions, bad at parting words, bad at evaluting the year. All I know is that I feel like I hadnt had a very fulfilling year and I hope to fight my urge to repeat that next year.
things are gonna change drastically next year...and the more I feel like Im fine with it, the more I wonder if Im being complacent at my capabilitites to handle living and studying in a foreign land..hmmm
Life is as such I guess...
Next year the only resolution is to make sure that I keep God in my life. To lose Him would be to lose the compass...
God Bless
Friday, December 31, 2010
Monday, December 27, 2010
Christmas Day came and went
Honestly, I wasnt in the Christmassy mood this year..as it has been for a few years..that said, I do value the family gatherings :P Just dont see joy in buying presents anymore..why ah?
Is it coz I have so many friends and family that buying for all would be like buying the entire Robinsons? And whats this about buying for 1 person and feeling bad that I didnt buy for the others? Aferall, that its the point...Christmas is most firstly about Christ being born human for us. Then comes all the thanksgiving etc because we give thanks to those around us who have loved us and whom we love. not cause we have to..but cause we want to and we can.
That said..maybe Christmas in Spore is so commercialized that theres a very little hint of the real christmas in it..hence not really worth celebrating? Hmmm
Anyway Merry Christmas! It's a time to reflect on how much you've grown in the year and all the little or big blessings that God has bestowed to you. Congrats on the little hiccups, humps, challenges and trials that you overcame this year, despite it looking like Mt Everest when you first laid your eyes on it...Congrats on your progress if you're one of those who is chasing your dream. It may have felt little but if you look back.it sure has been a looonngg way.
Personally..Im making it a time to give thanks to God. For bringing me through to where I am and where Im gonna be. Im gonna thank him in advance for the blessings and favour He has given to me so that my studies in Sydney will be fruitful and eventful (in the right ways) Im just gonna do what Paul, Joseph, Abraham, Moses, Jesus and all the other disciples did...go my way and trust in Him to guide me.
God Bless
Is it coz I have so many friends and family that buying for all would be like buying the entire Robinsons? And whats this about buying for 1 person and feeling bad that I didnt buy for the others? Aferall, that its the point...Christmas is most firstly about Christ being born human for us. Then comes all the thanksgiving etc because we give thanks to those around us who have loved us and whom we love. not cause we have to..but cause we want to and we can.
That said..maybe Christmas in Spore is so commercialized that theres a very little hint of the real christmas in it..hence not really worth celebrating? Hmmm
Anyway Merry Christmas! It's a time to reflect on how much you've grown in the year and all the little or big blessings that God has bestowed to you. Congrats on the little hiccups, humps, challenges and trials that you overcame this year, despite it looking like Mt Everest when you first laid your eyes on it...Congrats on your progress if you're one of those who is chasing your dream. It may have felt little but if you look back.it sure has been a looonngg way.
Personally..Im making it a time to give thanks to God. For bringing me through to where I am and where Im gonna be. Im gonna thank him in advance for the blessings and favour He has given to me so that my studies in Sydney will be fruitful and eventful (in the right ways) Im just gonna do what Paul, Joseph, Abraham, Moses, Jesus and all the other disciples did...go my way and trust in Him to guide me.
God Bless
Saturday, December 18, 2010
realization....
Got my black buff :D...
Was looking at getting a rice ooker for sydney coz its darn expensive there. :/
Then walked around the suntec fair yesterday, came across a mattress sale section...NOOO Im not gonna buy a mattress to Sydney! Was planning to get it for Mum.
Bought a DVD player for parents...
Nothing for sister yet but havnt been in the Christmas mood recently. Im not being Emo...just dont feel teh mood.
BTW just coz I aint got the christmassy mood doesnt mean Im less of a christian. Nope. In fact Christmas is often celebrated for the wrong reasons..or rather celebrated with only half the reason.
Anyway..been planning my time recently...looks like my days are numbered...got almost everyone I want to meet in those days but..for those Im meeting in dec..it just doesnt seem good that they have to meet me 1 month in advance and not see me in Jan...
Walked around the whole day today and because all this is running in my mind...I sorta felt that my day was not as worthwhile....why ah?
Just yesterday, had a ball of a time w 2 of my indian besties. We talked abt our happenings and about the upcoming events et..went to one fo their new homes, did a tour of the house, screamed in her walk in wardrobe (for fun) and sat down to wath her wedding vids. :D Yes everybody's life is falling into place. hahaha mine has only started and I dont even know what its gonna end up like. hahahah
Love them to death and so happy for them.
December huh....time flies...its past mid Dec...5 more weeks to go....
God Bless
Was looking at getting a rice ooker for sydney coz its darn expensive there. :/
Then walked around the suntec fair yesterday, came across a mattress sale section...NOOO Im not gonna buy a mattress to Sydney! Was planning to get it for Mum.
Bought a DVD player for parents...
Nothing for sister yet but havnt been in the Christmas mood recently. Im not being Emo...just dont feel teh mood.
BTW just coz I aint got the christmassy mood doesnt mean Im less of a christian. Nope. In fact Christmas is often celebrated for the wrong reasons..or rather celebrated with only half the reason.
Anyway..been planning my time recently...looks like my days are numbered...got almost everyone I want to meet in those days but..for those Im meeting in dec..it just doesnt seem good that they have to meet me 1 month in advance and not see me in Jan...
Walked around the whole day today and because all this is running in my mind...I sorta felt that my day was not as worthwhile....why ah?
Just yesterday, had a ball of a time w 2 of my indian besties. We talked abt our happenings and about the upcoming events et..went to one fo their new homes, did a tour of the house, screamed in her walk in wardrobe (for fun) and sat down to wath her wedding vids. :D Yes everybody's life is falling into place. hahaha mine has only started and I dont even know what its gonna end up like. hahahah
Love them to death and so happy for them.
December huh....time flies...its past mid Dec...5 more weeks to go....
God Bless
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Wishlist...
sooo been working on a wishlist hahaha. Nope i dont do this every year. In fact its hte 1st time Im doing this and its because of my upcoming trip to Aussie that has compelled the shopperholic in me to come alive! But One cant be a shopaholic without getting some help. :D
Here it is!!
- 1 black buff. Can have patterns but patterns cant be bright and obvious. Should be the Buff brand. :)
- 1 pair of black crocs :) shud be a size 7 or bigger hehehe
- 1 waterproof haversack :D
- i iphone :D :D
- 1 pair of cargo pants that can be zipped down into burms. Ie: bottom half is detachable
That would be it :D And of course if its not possible for anyone to buy the item itself coz its bloody expensive, Sure! I dnt mind Ang Baos! :D
Here it is!!
- 1 black buff. Can have patterns but patterns cant be bright and obvious. Should be the Buff brand. :)
- 1 pair of black crocs :) shud be a size 7 or bigger hehehe
- 1 waterproof haversack :D
- i iphone :D :D
- 1 pair of cargo pants that can be zipped down into burms. Ie: bottom half is detachable
That would be it :D And of course if its not possible for anyone to buy the item itself coz its bloody expensive, Sure! I dnt mind Ang Baos! :D
Thursday, December 09, 2010
Yeah You got me all figured out.
Hmm yes got a reply from neighbourhood "penpal" Nothing much to say except, "thanks! Im glad you finally got me figured out"
So anyway, nothing much today except me strumming too hard on Band hero and getting a blister on my thumb. And I said to myself, " Good going Ning.."
Amazingly Janice & I hit it off quite well and somehow I see abit of me in her. Hahahah the way we see things maybe? How we think...hmm not good for her. Hahaha Hate to say this but she makes me regret alot fo things that I didnt do in my life hahahaha
Finally told Wendy & YQ about my NIDA offer and YQ's reply went something like, "You got into NIDAaaaNA BEH!" hahahaha damn funny hahahaha His reply was classic hahaha
Sooo...let's hope that my company is okay with me changing my decision...
K gonna skype my brother in peace.
God Bless
So anyway, nothing much today except me strumming too hard on Band hero and getting a blister on my thumb. And I said to myself, " Good going Ning.."
Amazingly Janice & I hit it off quite well and somehow I see abit of me in her. Hahahah the way we see things maybe? How we think...hmm not good for her. Hahaha Hate to say this but she makes me regret alot fo things that I didnt do in my life hahahaha
Finally told Wendy & YQ about my NIDA offer and YQ's reply went something like, "You got into NIDAaaaNA BEH!" hahahaha damn funny hahahaha His reply was classic hahaha
Sooo...let's hope that my company is okay with me changing my decision...
K gonna skype my brother in peace.
God Bless
OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!
"To God,
Oh Lord, I don't know where to start to thank you Lord. Shall i start from the part where you gave me the interest to pursue it? Then you put people in my life who made that interest grow and pushed me to pursue it..and now...
Lord, they all say that I am lucky, some say Im smart...Im gonna say Im blessed. Because out of all the admin staff who get chances to further study under SP (which is very little already), a smaller percentage of them and almost none of them get to study with full sponsorship! And that I would be in that small almost impossible group...is no short of a MIRACLE!!!
My Lord! How can anyone not see how good you are to your children! it isnt just me Lord..I see you doing so many things for your children around me....I see their blessings bless the others who don't know you...
Lord, I believe that you have gone ahead of me to prepare my arrivial in Australia... :)
That no matter how out of water I may feel from the start..that I would assimilate and excel smoothly!
Thank you Lord! "
Ning
Oh Lord, I don't know where to start to thank you Lord. Shall i start from the part where you gave me the interest to pursue it? Then you put people in my life who made that interest grow and pushed me to pursue it..and now...
Lord, they all say that I am lucky, some say Im smart...Im gonna say Im blessed. Because out of all the admin staff who get chances to further study under SP (which is very little already), a smaller percentage of them and almost none of them get to study with full sponsorship! And that I would be in that small almost impossible group...is no short of a MIRACLE!!!
My Lord! How can anyone not see how good you are to your children! it isnt just me Lord..I see you doing so many things for your children around me....I see their blessings bless the others who don't know you...
Lord, I believe that you have gone ahead of me to prepare my arrivial in Australia... :)
That no matter how out of water I may feel from the start..that I would assimilate and excel smoothly!
Thank you Lord! "
Ning
Tuesday, December 07, 2010
The Script, The Fray, One Republic, change of the music genre these days
Got myself hooked on some recent bands and somehow..its giving me the itch to sing again...Man!!!
Pity my bros are not in town...
Ive only got till feb to organize a something to sing at....
And all the acoustic versions for these songs are fabulous! I sooow ished I was there in person to listen to them...And even thinking about it makes my heart expand and Im forced to take a long deep breathe. As if doing so would help me take in more fo htat fabulousness in the music!
My regrets are that I didnt practice my guitar well enough to play a proper song....nor did I learn the keyboard...Yeah some people have all the talent :/ *shrugs*
They've got all the right moves and all the right places, yeah we're going down..
God Bless
Pity my bros are not in town...
Ive only got till feb to organize a something to sing at....
And all the acoustic versions for these songs are fabulous! I sooow ished I was there in person to listen to them...And even thinking about it makes my heart expand and Im forced to take a long deep breathe. As if doing so would help me take in more fo htat fabulousness in the music!
My regrets are that I didnt practice my guitar well enough to play a proper song....nor did I learn the keyboard...Yeah some people have all the talent :/ *shrugs*
They've got all the right moves and all the right places, yeah we're going down..
God Bless
Monday, December 06, 2010
I am subtly amused... *flinch* *blink* ..okay
So I received a very queer mail today and upon reading it, I realized that someone in my naighbourhood read my blog hmmm not good but calculated risk.
K well after being slightly reprimanded for blogging about the person previously in a not soo pleasant way..I apologize. No seriously! I do!
To the person:
I did consider writing a long entry but I deleted it..this isnt with regards to an issue of trust; But more like , if I wanted to say more, I would have to write an essay. Alot of it will consist of justifications and might end up making things worse unneccesarily. No need for all that since I would say that there was never anything between us anyway except friendship (at a point of time)
Maybe it would have been good to let you come to the right conclusion on your own although one would wonder how long it would take and if my entry did give you that final conclusion, while it did hurt your feelings, it probably was needed. And hence, yes maybe God did intend to let you find it afterall even I cant find my blog, much less that entry myself. And since it is that hard, not many people bother finding it either so rest assured that any damage done was not alot. All of at most 6 of my readers dont know you personally. Nonetheless, lesson learnt for both of us.
No Im not scared shit-less..(from this letter or previous ocassions and smses) but nonetheless it would have made me reconsider friendship. Which brings to thought the extent of trust that I would have considered while blogging. ie: "issue of trust" level of friend or non-friend. Hence the level of transparency or bluntness in my previous entry.
And lastly..yes I believe in God, not the church itself. In fact while ur past experience with a church gives you commands on how to live...doesnt mean that the church is right and doesnt mean that God or Christianity is wrong. Too many churches out there carry His name wrongly. In fact, God doesnt just consist of the church or a church in specific. :) He's bigger and better than all that. Hope you'll really get to know Him and Jesus Christ some day. Hopefully sooner than later.
Since the internet is so accessible, feel free to read on.
God Bless
K well after being slightly reprimanded for blogging about the person previously in a not soo pleasant way..I apologize. No seriously! I do!
To the person:
I did consider writing a long entry but I deleted it..this isnt with regards to an issue of trust; But more like , if I wanted to say more, I would have to write an essay. Alot of it will consist of justifications and might end up making things worse unneccesarily. No need for all that since I would say that there was never anything between us anyway except friendship (at a point of time)
Maybe it would have been good to let you come to the right conclusion on your own although one would wonder how long it would take and if my entry did give you that final conclusion, while it did hurt your feelings, it probably was needed. And hence, yes maybe God did intend to let you find it afterall even I cant find my blog, much less that entry myself. And since it is that hard, not many people bother finding it either so rest assured that any damage done was not alot. All of at most 6 of my readers dont know you personally. Nonetheless, lesson learnt for both of us.
No Im not scared shit-less..(from this letter or previous ocassions and smses) but nonetheless it would have made me reconsider friendship. Which brings to thought the extent of trust that I would have considered while blogging. ie: "issue of trust" level of friend or non-friend. Hence the level of transparency or bluntness in my previous entry.
And lastly..yes I believe in God, not the church itself. In fact while ur past experience with a church gives you commands on how to live...doesnt mean that the church is right and doesnt mean that God or Christianity is wrong. Too many churches out there carry His name wrongly. In fact, God doesnt just consist of the church or a church in specific. :) He's bigger and better than all that. Hope you'll really get to know Him and Jesus Christ some day. Hopefully sooner than later.
Since the internet is so accessible, feel free to read on.
God Bless
Friday, December 03, 2010
Things to do before going to Melbourne...
- friendship band (red orange turquoise purple
- take pictures by groups(grandpa, Fran/Peiyan/amily/deb, Ching/yan, isc, comperes, family, auntie, cal/neetz, spmac, yq/wendy, pravinngang,
- get iPhone
- get clothes
- clear room
- decide what I want to bring over
- write a song
- meet up w ms ng mrs cheong
- decide on when to go over
- Christmas cards
- Christmas n new year gathering
- develop some pics
- stay overnight at grandparents place
- learn to cycle
- learn to cook, learn to pick foood
- get TB hard drive
- cut hair
- give away stuff
- take pictures by groups(grandpa, Fran/Peiyan/amily/deb, Ching/yan, isc, comperes, family, auntie, cal/neetz, spmac, yq/wendy, pravinngang,
- get iPhone
- get clothes
- clear room
- decide what I want to bring over
- write a song
- meet up w ms ng mrs cheong
- decide on when to go over
- Christmas cards
- Christmas n new year gathering
- develop some pics
- stay overnight at grandparents place
- learn to cycle
- learn to cook, learn to pick foood
- get TB hard drive
- cut hair
- give away stuff
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