I will cry...

will i cry for you sir?
and if i do, how many tears will flow?
how much do you mean to me?
to Singapore?
the things you've done for our nation,
the value of those things,
the sweat, tears, words of motivation.
what does that amount?

all that You've given to this island.
a teen amongst the nations older.
yet
the controversies that spin around like the black widow's web.
trying ever, ever trying to tarnish those white uniforms.

minus that from the whole of your works.
Will that make me cry for you sir?
Will that make my tears flow like the others next to me?

....Maybe i will
....i will
i will cry for you.
for your works, your sacrifice
you made this nation a worthy home.
I learnt that, whilst away from home.

but more so...
because you are but a human
who took the hardest tasks of believing
who still went home to a family of 5 after
after working for the family of millions tirelessly
who guided this lion cub with an iron fist connected to an understanding heart
who loved, loved your kids and wife with a tender invisible touch..

I will cry Sir
Cry as I say farewell
tears of joy for your release
tears of sadness for our lose
tears of gratitude for your tireless service
and tears of regret for not understanding till now
~~~

Thank you Mr Lee

setting goals again

This week, I pat myself on the back for being able to swim. Remembering that just last year, I embarked on my goal to take lessons and learn how to swim. Albeit I'm no where near getting the butterfly..but Ive got the freestyle and breast stroke. No Im not perfect with them.

This year, I need to set new learning goals.

Cycling and playing the guitar...

Yes..I cant cycle. The same response when I told people that I cant swim...

So I do want to learn how to cycle this year.

As for learning the guitar, I've had my guitar for years and since JC times, I've never really touched it.. need to do so now... again..

Its time...

God Bless

sick, party, reality check

Been sick the past few days. All started with a sore throat that grew into a monster of a fever, headache and running nose etc. That coupled by some smelly nonsense in school and that made my thursday quite shit. I took leave on friday...

But saturday was like a dream... us sistas heading to a yacht for a sista's birthday, playing music that pleased the crowd and decking up the place with simple buntings.. Feeling the wind in my face as we ride the waves... and thought back on when it was that Id last sat a boat like that... realising that it was my ex who put us on a bumboat ride around the Singapore river hahahaha because he had no money to out us on a yacht or cruise ship hahaha. Dont worry Im not being emotional. Its all past now.
In fact, if anything at all, Im happy that I managed to enjoy this yachting experience with my sistas! And that the birthday girl is happy with the surprise.

Im thankful that I was healthy enough to go and help despite knowing that i was perspiring abit more than usual just hanging buntings and that I wasn't in my most alert of minds..One of those out of body experiences..

I proved that i was an indian by my song selections. It would have made Sonal and Puneet proud too.
All the hindi songs and bhangra etc

We had the best time last night. :)

Then as I lay down on my bed last night... I realised that Im so glad I have this bunch of friends...none of them are chinese actually...my best friends are mostly Indian. My farmily is chinese yes but more western... and like Puneet said, I was one in a million. My character is so unique that I'm the centrespace between the cultures that actually appreciates the best of all the worlds.
Thats me...and Maybe being one in a million isn't that good a thing anymore...coz its a lot harder to find the other one in million...adding on to the small probability that the next one would be a chinese male.

So as I lay in my bed...i realised that maybe...just maybe..I will be alone in this world. surrounded by amazing friends and family etc. But maybe...this world hasn't made enough oddballs like me.

All I know is that I dot wanna lose my friends...ideally, I want someone who can assimilate into all my groups of friends..especially the ones dearest to me. Coz they are family...