1 word hangs in the back of my mind

I cant believe u managed to break through the hard shell... and now that u're in, theres never been a day that u dont do rounds around my head. I attribute my headaches and mood swings to you. You've made my months a rollercoaster ride...

But yet..I always end up finding myself smiling when I think of you...and u make me miss u every day... you make me fall asleep thinking of you and wake up hoping to hear from you...

I do feel abit pathetic.. for willingly wading in this pool of quick sand...

1 word hangs at the tip of my tongue... Babe/Love
And i wonder some times, when or if I will ever have that luxury/right of calling u that...

Of course this makes me almost shit scared that it could all be 1 sided..but whatever it is,   i guess i would try to look more towards the happiness i felt when this dream lasts.. than crying at what might not be mine.

Thank you for the love babe. Thank you making me feel like I am loved.

Good job..let me clap for you...

Good job Ning. You killed the one thing that made you happy because u let your temper get the better of you...now your heart is so bruised that it almost seems like it isnt beating...
like it was numb...
U always knew ur temper would hurt others...u always knew that you couldnt hold your tongue. Now you gone and destroyed it...come I clap for you...