Saturday, January 26, 2013

festival moments so far

1) guy in a wedding gown tied up w cable ties
2) dance floor covered with bottles and alcohol
3) a guy who asked if he could grab me
4) a guy who said to me "you! me! My bed! now!"
5) security guards asking my age
6) lead guitarists/vocalists stripping down to his birthday suit, posing in all glory and spitting at the audience, then falling over on stage
7) knowing so many wonderful people (venue staff/security guards/technical people/CODA people/ Syd fest organisers)

Sunday, January 20, 2013

secondment so far

So after Castor & Pollux, Ive found myself in another baroque music opera but this time it include a fashion show. Thankfully , like the last one, Ive had the privilage of working with nice people.
I cant express how small the industry is! Alot of them I end up working with more than once.

Eg: Had to hire double basses and ended up calling the double bassist in Castor & Pollux. After numerous attempts to find luthiers and hiring companies!

And then the tuner of hte harpsichord and organ of the fashion show opera was hte same tuner of Castor & Pollux. I also had to ask him for a luther's number who could repair a baroque cello bow in a matter of hours.

And some of the mechs that worked in Castor & Pollux have worked in Castor & Pollux too.

Also had the privilage of working with Sonya and Ruth who are amazing people in their own rights. I have learnt so much. Not just what they do but how they do it (attitude, drive etc)

From Semele Walk (baroque opera fashion show) to Paradiso. All is going well so far :)

Im working hard but happy and loving working with these people. :) Soooo much respect for them!

TOday is my day off and I intend to let my body rest as much as it can.. :/

ALso..lost my ipod touch :( feeling very sad...

Thank you Daddy God for the people Ive worked with so far. :)

God Bless

Sunday, January 13, 2013

Its been a long time...

Woke up at 8am today. Damn the body clock!
Finally get to rest a day and Im lost for stuff to do!

Went to Chinatown to get some canto movies and a chinese book to read.
I liked mandarin and cantonese its just that I wasnt fluent in them because i dont speak it enough. And i dont read mandarin stuff. Now I will try..

Anyway I fell like I may have offended Silma and I hope not but I feel bad...

In fact, I really feel like Im changing..my temperament has changed.
I feel like I've become more impatient...I also feel like I've become more snide...
It makes me wonder if this education or living alone has made me this way.

Especially when I go back to SG, Ive had to ration my time and Im sure many would say that I dont need to meet everyone..just the more impt ones. I guess the "important" is the key word.
To me, i feel like there are alot of people that I care for...and enjoy being with..
Because of that..I never have enough time for all and trying to ration out my time means I never feel like theres enough and I rush from one to another...

And this lack of time has sometimes made me easily irritated when I get stood up or when people come late etc. Or when something makes me change my plans...

It made me question how much I mean or meant to them. It made me relook at my friendship with them...

I guess I had that coming..seeing as how I have lost some of my best friends to negligence...

It irritates me that I can be so easily irritated! And how my remarks can change to sarcasm or be snide so easily... I feel like its a me that I dont want...

I also feel like Im being more self-centred...casting alot of "I..." comments.

Almost makes me wanna shut myself up!

I might slowly become a bitch! :(

It leads me to think about why Ive become so self centred..do I feel the need to constantly say I?
To keep talking about how I feel? If I do where does it come from?
Do I feel like I havnt been heard? Do i feel like I don't have anyone to talk too and hence when I do get a chance, I immediately express MY opinion?
If so, is it because Im mostly alone? And dont socialise much?

If so...then other people I know whom have this same problem or who dont get the chance to socialize too...is that why they are how they are?

Reminds me of my parents as well. They dont speak to each other and to others.

While chatting with my sis, Ive come to a conclusion that I do need to help my parents become better selves. They have sacrificed enough for my sis and I and need their own lives and because they have lived too long with the identitiy of a parent, they dont see themselves as anything other than that. Not even as themselves.

My gut feel is that like someone who has just come out from a relationship and needs time to regain their own identity, they need to gain their own identity too..

God Bless