And of course Im just a regular human being

After meeting a bunch of ex students/old friends, i realised that sometimes...Im just a silly fool to think that after so many years of not meeting up, that I could expect things to be as they were before I left. And this time round I left the place feeling like I shunt have turned up or shudnt have joined in....

That maybe I shud have been more attentive at the signs..that maybe inviting me was a polite gesture and not an earnest invite. And if this was true...Im such a fool...

We all choose to think that we ware better and more valuable people than we are and things like that remind me of how truly small my circle of close friends are..and maybe I am just such a terrible and unappreciative human in people's eyes...

And these close friends of mine, are just the nicest most forgiving people I know...who tolerate me for who I am, or just have not known me enough to see my true colours, end hence, still have the tolerance and love for me...

So I sat at my void deck, stomaching this revelation and fighting back tears, because I realise how small of a person I am..how ignorantly silly...and unobservant I am...

I guess Ive been (as my colleague had once said) too innocent...

I guess I am just disappointed w myself.. and a small part of me is disappointed with others...

This is Me. Im not perfect and I might be an annoying person... Im sorry in advance...

God Bless