Wednesday, May 03, 2006

more pics

The Prize-Winning Picture! (Truly God sent)
Se-Same Strut!
The A&W Experience!

The A&W Bear! Better than Root Beer!2

PEACE! Love the Root Bear more than the Root Beer! You got the beer! I got the BEAR! Kaarade! Eat ur heart out BOY!

Pandee Kutti

The A&W Bear! Better than Root Beer!

Im not gonna talk too much on the Seremban trip coz theres just too much to talk about and if I start, I wont stop, It also tends to take away the magic of the trip. what I am excited in talking about..is the A&W bear!

Its been years since I went to A&W. I was aiming fr the ice-cream waffle but hen I got there, od didnt have that in plan for me hahahah But what He did ahve in mind...was better than root beer and ice cream waffles and curly fries..it was the Bear himself! The Root Bear! We took photos with him! It was sooo fun! we saw the bear do his bear dance!

I dont kno what to say aboutt he trip that would make everyone understand how much fun I had...but what I can say is that the trip was fantastic! Im having wthdrawal syndromes coz of it. I felt like I was on a trip with old friends and we were acting like kids! We were singing on the highway and doing ridiculous acts like wearing the motorbike helmet in the car!

above it all, I feel like Ive found a new family and brothers! My bros family esp the siblings, are very very nice people and m actually missing them! Hope they come down soon and I'll try to show them around. I just hope they dont get the wrong idea..coz I do know where I stand. One of my bro's bros has actualy opened up to all of us throught he trip and Im very happy about that.

last but not least...I guess Im starting to get very frustrated or pissed with my bro's smoking. Im close to giving up. Not that I dont care..but coz I care too much..sounds like nagging... Ive become a very sarcastic person..esp when see my bros smoking. not all my bros are dear to me. only a handfull. And this guy is one of them...haiz...I dont know why but they always bring out the sarcastic bitch in me and much as I dont like to do that...I cant help it...watever lah...Ive said enough that my bros can recite all the comments Ive said. Hahahahah oh well..let my heart sink everytme they smoke and let me thnk about how breathing in somke wll hurt my own health..haiz...

Anyway, being back in spore is a bore...I miss Seremban alot and I think that feeling will last for the whole of this week. At least it gets my mind off certain things.

Thank you God for a safe trip. Thank yu God for the strength and excellent company.

God Bless!

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Recovery stage...

at work now..my heart is slightly mourning for a loss but I guess thats okay. God's will has to be obeyed. If He can sacrifice Himself for us, what is me sacrificing soemthing I believe is right (but is actually wrong)

Jesus...I know you know me best. You look after me keep me from home. even when I do something wrong and go the wrong way, you still follow me in, knowing that I will get hurt knowing Im wrong, yet...instead of giving up on me, you stay there to help me through. You never leave me and I know that at this sad moment...you are still by me....that all i have to do is think of you and remember how much you love me, that I will have strength and motivation to move further. Thank you Jesus...

God Bless

Monday, May 01, 2006

wohooo! what a weekend!

Just got back from seremban and the trip has been such a blast! I dont know what to say about the trip but its given me the same satisfaction and happiness as the trip to China 2 years ago. Not that I did anythign charitable... I wont dwell into the details oft he trip today because there is just soooooo uch to talk about that one entry would not be enough! Hahahahah

Anyway...today i herby fulfill my promise to God. The end of April is gone and God has given me his answer to my question. The answer is....."no" and that being so....I will fulfill my end of the bargain and cease to dream of a reconcilliation with my ex. I know many of my best frens would be astonsihed and calling me silly at the fact that I could still harbour such hopes...well...I really mean it when I say that unless you've gone through the exact same thing..you would never know how difficult it is...it is not burning all the pictures and cards and gifts and moving on with life...the love doesnt dissappear with a month..half a year..its been there for 2-3 years...Ive always wanted to dig into myself and pull it out but i cant. Ive done all from cold turkey to believing he's dead...but things just dont go away that easily.
God has given me the answer that no matter how i still lveo him, he doesnt tink its good for me..so I'll leave it as that...I know God has better ways for me.

Will tell you more next time. ciaos!

God Bless!