PIcs I owe!

Mum's side Granny who passed away in Aug.

  Mum's side Grandpa who is handsome as ever. The only grandpa I know and love.

My niece whom I adore. :)

  Random boy sleeping in the Dead Sea Scrolls Exhibition hall.

ChristianityHistory was too boring for this young'en.

The Torah: Old Testement in Hebrew used by the Judaism believers

Thats all for now! More soon. None related to students though coz Ive too many of them. Everything else will be on facebook in due time! :)

God Bless!

Nice Weekend!

This weekend Ive been the best child Ive been since primary school.

My initial plan of going out on sat was pushed back coz I was lazy and coz I decided somethings were more impt then roaming the streets. ...Being w God. :)

Yah call me crazy and maybe fired up with God but I'm still me.

In fact let me dispense the myths a christian carries with them. Or to be politically correct..this is what I feel is hanging around me when I mention Im a christian. So I'll just clear the air with a few points
- I like to do normal things like watch movie, listen to music (those who know me know my music taste is warped), read books, play games, sports etc
- I enjoy time wth normal friends
- Im lame and trip over lame jokes
- I have normal human feelings
- I have a normal family
- I have similar dreams
- I have frens of all religions, races, backgrounds
And these points can apply to pretty much allt he christians I know.
Christians may be potrayed as the bunch who abstain from evil or non-spiritual stuff, or ostracize themselves from normal pple who are not christians...ALL THAT IS BULLSHIT!

Yap I said it.

Diff between christians and other pple...is our faith in our God. And what our God has done for us that makes us a new creation so to speak. And our knowledge in His love for us that makes us loe Him and want to spend time with Him too. We are blessed with His blessings and thereby have unexplanable confidence in conquering the problems in this world.

But note that if any Christian comes and makes you think they are superior to you and stuck up about it and points out your past to condemn you or make you feel lowly about yourself....thats not right.
Our God teaches us that God loves everyone including nonbelievers. And so we as Christians should treat our fellow humans with the same love we have for our fellow christians.
No doubt that christians have something common that we like to talk about...but we dont ostracize. And if you know a christian who does not want to talk to you or give you advise or listen to you because of who you are...thats not right either.

Im not saying Christians are the same as non-christians coz Bible says we're not and our beliefs differ.

But no Christians are Christians and not Aliens! (The right believing ones at least)

I dont know why I've said so much...maybe I dont want my blog to seem like a Christian website just coz I find a joy in talking abt God in my entries...or maybe because I know of pple I care for who have been poisoned by an image of Christians who in the end, make them feel that its better to stay away.

I wont preach abt the hidden depts of God but all I'll say is..I know my God is not asking His children (us) to chase pple away from knowing Him. He's not the fierce, unsympathetic and easily offended God that others may see Him as.
I guess it makes no sense for any God to chase anybody away because it means less believers for them rite?!?!

OKAY that said...moving on with my nice weekend!!!

Stayed at home all day! Dad & Mom must have been wondering why but never asked me.
- I had all my meals at home..unlike the normal where I had all my meals outside.
- Cleared my room
- Cleared the bathroom or all my laundry
- Washed my shoes and socks
- Showered early
- Ate w the family quickly
- Returned my library books
All this wouldnt be done without my mum;s nagging in the background. (on normal days)

In fact, I spent the day reading, using the PC, studying the bible, watching Aaja Nachle etc

Sunday  was the usual church morning but it was at Indoor Stadium and Pastor spoke about Restoration in the End Times.
I took comfort in knowing that what I lose is restored to me in double folds. The money I lost, the family bonds I lost, the relationship I lost..etc....I might not have the exact thing back but I will be restored. :)

Went home early, had dinner at home etc.

In fact it was a normal weekend for most pple but we all know that something like this snt normla for all families. Some families dont have the luxury due to various reasons.

And strangely enough..while I sometimes feel that not going out on weekends or week day evenings is a waste of precious time, (since I can meet up with frens etc) I felt more refreshed this weekend than others. :)
Maybe less walking and talking.

Gonna start putting in more pics. Humans like visuals hahaha


God Bless!!!

The Grinch, His Dog and Whoville or Maybe Mr Scrooge...

Yeah well Im pretty near to breaking point...had an okay day at work..tried to start the day obediently with some quiet time, ended the day with 2 of my bros andd Mario Wii game..but ended up having a quarrel with my dad.

Its nothing new. I admit....when my dad's around..I go code red inside. Not the best things to say about my dad but through the years....my love for him has wained. I say this knowing my uncles or aunties might be reading this but even ont eh surface...Im sure they would have sensed the kind of strain our entire household has.

And just 2 days ago, Pastor Brian Houston was talking about God in our household.

I accept the fact that my sis and I are the only direct relatives in this household who can save my mom and my dad and if I rest on God;s word, its accomplishable..only with His word. Because after tonight...I know my flesh is so weak tat nothing I do in my own srtength would be enough for me to even bypass my code red.

I dont know...maybe its me...I see my dad as someone who has soooo much bad stuff in his heart (not saying he's evil) that he doesnt see good in others. Not even his direct family. I swear theres at least a dozen spirits in Him who are playing with His mind. Im not joking... Like the crazy guy Jesus bumped into with a legion of evil spirits in him

In my flesh,,,I see my dad as the Grinch  and I now see my mum as the Grinch's dog.
Not to use words like Bitch etc. Nope...why I say she's the dog is because she's still scared of him and tries so much to please him that its affected her mental and her physical health too.

We grew up in a family that bites their lips/tongues and swallows everything....but its getting harder to stay that way. Esp when I know for sure that my God doesnt want things this way!!!!

I want sooo much to garner the Holy Spirit in me and hold fast to Jesus promises of His power...and chase off the devils in my dad!!! Think of it as exorcism if you want to think extreme.

The more i think about it...the more the vocab in my head gets vulgar.

How do you live with a thousand demons in your head spewing doubt in everyone you know and casting lies on everyone you've met? Not to mention making you paranoid with "what if this happened to your daughters?"s

Just thinking about this long enough can make my heart smaller...not to mention the one who has to suffer from it.

As we sat int he same room....I teared...not because I had defied my dad...but because I felt helpless in trying to reason with him. That I cant even save my own dad...In my flesh I hoped something would go wrong to prove to him once and for all that not everything he says is right. But my spirit knows that my flesh cant be trusted with sensible thoughts.

Every day I see my mum and dad think and how they are affected by life and time etc..I rememebr how Martha (int eh bible) was scurrying around the kitchen preparing a meal for Jesus & His disciples while Mary just sat at Jesus feet to listen to His words.
Martha got pissed coz she was the only one working for Jesus so she went to Jesus and said " Lord is it nothing to you that Mary has left me alone to serve?...." In one shot...she blamed both Jesus and Mary.
Jesus replied, " Martha Martha you are anxious and troubled about many things"

I cast my cares to God tonight...knowing that if I think about how troubled my family is...I will be controlled by the devil to think that the people around me can never be saved. Nor can I be any help to save them...when I know my God will use even the smallest thing to bring down a giant...likewise...he will use little weak and "not good at sustaining a discussion" me to win over the battle with Satan over my parents.

I know the best thing out of all this...is that Satan has caused me to look to Jesus more.

My affection for my dad may be waining....but I know God's love for my dad is strong as well..likewise for my mum. So I will bank on my God's love for me and my love for my God...and my faith in Him to use me as a weapon to win this battle.

God Bless

Start of new days...

Wasnt feeling too swell yesterday because of mistakes I made and while my head was behrating me for it...I turned to God and what I got from God was...the grace & favour of God is more than enough to help us with our mistakes.

I spent the evening watching Pastor's Secrets in Hebrew Language Dvd and it was fantastic! :)

My resolution is to sleep early and wake up earlier to have time to read abit abit each day. It really does make a difference! :)Going about the day with God's word in me. :)

My mum;s going to Israel end this year and I sooo want to go too but I cant. Im banking on my mum being saved, being baptised by water and the Holy Spirit in Israel. Coz that would be coolness!
I think for any Jesus loving person...Israel is a place theyd want to go because this is where everything in the Bible is based on! At least the entire Old Testement and most of hte New Testament. Like Muslims to Mecca
I know I want to go there, climb up to one of the hills and sit down and indulge in a good dose of God's word.

I guess at this point, any non-believer is not very fond of me writing about this but I dont know how to describe the calmness I feel when I go to Him and stay by His words and His love long enough.

In fact when Fran & I went to Tecman to look at some bibles and books. Just being in that room and surrounded by so many books that just scream the same thing, " Jesus Loves You and wants you to depend on Him" brought an undescribable peace in my heart that made me want to go, " God, I dont know why..its not like Ive read 1% of these...but I feel an growing love in my heart for you just being here"
We chanced upon an English-Greek Bible and Parallel Bibles (2 versions of the bible placed side by side on a page for comparison)
So tempting.....

For those who dont knoe...the Bible was written half in Hebrew n half in Greek.

You ask me how I could have so much love for a God. I dont know! I know my God is impartial to how good I am so long as I would regard Him as my saviour. I know His words are kind and loving and I know Jesus died for me to get a place higher than the devil Himself. Maybe thats why.
Maybe thats why my thirst to know more about Him is more than my eyes can have time to absorb.
Isnt it the same as loving a human? Esp when its your bf/gf and you dont know why but you still love the person anyway? Almost like that. Only diff is that my God doesnt leave me.

Im asking God for answers these days....:) Hoping He can give me a direction on which road to take.

Also for those of you who didnt get a chance to go for teh Dead Sea Scrolls Exhibit, its a pity. The exhibit gave me the same peace and assuarance as when I went to Tecman. How many people believed in God so much that they would risk their lives to get the bible done.
How despite of the ages past....God will preserve His word.

Photos soon.


God Bless!

Burning out...not much oil left on my lamp

So Poly FOrum is officially over. Thanks for being here, dont forget anythings as you proceed out of the hall and once you;re out, go home and dont come back! :) jkjk

I almost went crazy for this....but glad its done! got to know new people..got to bond w my sparc abit more...

But truth be told..Im burning out and I dont know how long i can hold on....

My passion for working with these kids wont die. But its harder to stay back after work to meet up w them. the load is getting heavier.

Other than that..Im fine.need a holiday but Im fine!


God Bless

Dad's hearing

Took afternoon off yesterday to accompany dad to ntuc healthcare.

He was gonna get his hearing aid and after he tried it out....he asked for the price. Lets say its more expensive than my hp, dvd player. laptop, bag, mp4 and clothes combined...

Doc also said to get his other ear checked since my dad menioned he had sudden hearing loss. Could be more that meets the eye.

Its kinda scary the more I think about it but I put my trust in God. I know my God will heal him.


Ning

Thur & Fri

Thur:
Comperes and SPARC gonna get a change of uniform. Seems exciting really and you learn abit about what the different parts of the uniform etc. Coolness!
SPARC has decided and the sample should be out soon! Comperes design shud be decided within this week. :)
Had abit of sports activity with the dept at the sports hall so if you heard alot of commotion..it was us hahaha. Went over late thanks to the uniform issue but had a chance to play frisbee with the rest and it was fun! Also shot some hoops w the netball. And if you didnt already know, we have foldable basketball baskets and board...yah that bigass thing except it can be folded down and so we had this silly idea to do a slamdunk on our knees! Photoworthy but pity no camera at time of incident. Was BLOODY FUNNY!!!
Perspired alot but felt damn shiok.
Went home, finished listening to 1 of pastor's sermons (out of the many) and watched Asterix and Cesear on DVD.

Cant wait for this month to end.......

Gonna go down to SIM tomorrow..that will be my achievement for tomorrow.

Wed

I made a promise to myself to make sure i make every day a well spent one and today was 1 such day.

Took leave coz Dad had to go to the specialist clinic to see an ear doctor....issues but Im praying all goes better. Thanks Lord!
So went with him to see the doc and got back.

Went back to Guanyang for awhile since it was just nearby..to say hi to ex-teachers. :) The ones whom I owe heaps. Esp my godma. Said hi to my sec 3&4 chem teacher, my sec3 english teacher, my godma, my Sec1-4 science lab tech and my sec4 phy teacher.

As I said in an email...
"despite how your students maybe be irritating, not hand in homework or break rules for no good reason, know that you have a horde of alumni who have you to thank."

Im glad I went down despite how shortlived  the visit was and how strict the rules are that i almost cudnt go in.

Also went to SPH to find my cousin and had a chat with her. Which is quite amazing really coz I never really had chances to chat with her. And we know how not speaking to someone on normal basis is gonna make the "first time" a very uncomfortable one. But now..not this time round. :)
A nice good chat.

Then went to see my grandfather and the "mum's side family" got together to celebrate the birthday of my grandma (who passed away last last month) Spent time with my grandpa and seeing him in his dazed state...heartbreaking.
BUT we make the best of what we have.
My niece and nephew was there and while Jillian looked after the smaller, Ally has everybody to play with.
I got into the house, called her name and she came to me to give me a hug.
Yes!

And my youngest cousin was there with girlfriend.

How time flies.....

Well...it also got me thinking about what which way I would have to go in the long run...The more I read God's word, the less frightened I am with it....

Got to arrange for to meet ups with my ex teachers. Time to plan for gatherings!


God Bless