Miss you. Today was tiring. I know I should be able to be more disconnected..but somehow I feel like by not being connected, I betray the students. I'm sure alot of my colleagues would beg to differ and of course I cant be like that because work isnt my life and it shouldnt be. emotional psychological health is impt.
Yet the accumulation of yesterday evening, this morning and today...was making me tired. And its not that I was on the edge of crying..I just felt that i could sit down and cry. i did feel a sense of low.
That and I didnt have you with me...I miss you and it would be great to have you sitting on a sofa with me. no words need to be said. I just need to be next to someone whom i can trust enough to not have to hold any strong fronts. Someone whom I know, if I fall asleep suddenly and the roof crashes down on me, that I would be safe from it somehow. or maybe I need to rant..I nee dyou to at least seem like you;re listening but you dont have to provide me with solutions. Its a very female thing to do...but it is useful. Because its not that we arent strong at all or anymore. It's that we're taking a deserved break from this madness and emptying ourselves to allow for more strength to fill up, so that we can carry on with the rest of the challenge...
That and maybe I just need you to tell me that it's okay if my decisions sucked..because life has to go on and we live with it and we try to fix what we can as we carry on. That nobody is perfect... and despite that being so...that you would love me like the first day we got together..
I just need that now. I may seem fierce or strong or brave..but everything needs a rest sometimes...if we dont rest accordingly, we tumble down very quickly... and at this moment, Id like to let my legs give way and know that you'd catch me. this moment...
I'd call you just to hear your voice..if I knew who you were...but I hope we'd meet soon...
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