went to Reinhard Bonke's Healing Session at the Indoor Stadium. Many healed but Im more concerned for those I wanted to bring. Unfortunately, I cudnt bring my students down esp 1 of them who has so many problems in her life.
I know that there is nothing I can do in this world but I know who can and deep in me, I do wish I could show how much god loves her and no matter what problems she feels she has no control over, that God is the one who can help her get through it and solve it. I also wanted her to know that the problems she has doesnt make her a bad person and people around who would condemn her for who she is..are at fault. Not that her problem isnt a problem. Yes her condition is not desirable but it isnt her fault. Depending on how she wants to work it out, I know God in Jesus name has the solution.
I did manage to bring 1 of my close frens over. Im sooo glad she's been going to church and I wanted to share w her the love of God. I wanted her to understand how having God can be a carefree thing and not a legalistic thing. As Reinhard Bonke began to preach about healing...I knew in my heart that God's healing for her is not an impossible thing. I wanted so much to see her healed and so I prayed over her. Even now.
But the healing miracles of God is still something Im still struggling with. Inside of me I know God's healings are true but sometimes I sorta feel like they would never be mine. I know Satan chooses to play these messages in my head to rpevent me from getting myself healed.
even if my requests for healings are just minor astigmatism and knee problems.
As we ended friday and sat at mac talking abt God, we chances upon the topic of healing and she didnt really believe in healings. Wouldnt blame her. I have issues on this myself...but I do know as I said it..It is harder to raise Jeesus from the dead than heal a blind man. In accordance to the greek words used for "power" The greek word of power used to raise God from the dead was "all the power God The Father had"...while the "power" used in healing other miracles..was a word of lesser degree. So if God can raise Jesus from the dead...whats stopping God The Father from healing us?
If Jesus went around Jeruselum to do God The Father's will and in His work He never turned down any sick person's request to be healed. Then God's will must be that He wants us healed.
If the power and authority Jesus got from God The Father over the earth, after He rose from the dead, and Jesus passed on the power to His disciples to go forth and do miracles, even bigger miracles than what Jesus has done. Then definitely God's will for all is to get healing. Not only that, we as children of God who have the same power and authority as teh disciples..will have the same ability to heal. Not that we are very powerful..but that we are the vessels for God to work His miracles from.
I firmly believe in this and I believe my eyes (be it just astig and minor short sightedness) willb e healed. And my knee will heal and not hurt after sports.
I know around me are alot of people who need God's word but Im still not secure at telling them about God because Im not ready. Or I think so...or Satan might think so too.
Maybe these students and people come to me because something in them knows God is my Father.
Few nights back, I prayed for my family's salvation. I prayued for my students mental and physical health. I prayed for my friends salvation. I asked God to make me a lighthouse...to let me be a good example of a Christian that in me, people will recognise God or come to know God and be brought to His house. I know that is the best way. To walk the talk..to dwell in His finished work..that he would provide for all my needs and I can sleep in the boat as the storm roars just like how Jesus did..knowing Jesus has calmed the storm for me.
I cant speak to everyone about God yet but I know if I become a good example of God, that words might not even need to be said. After all actions speak louder than words right.
As these few days go past, I thank God for the love I dont fully understand and could never fully understand. But I can feel it. Im the pits of me I know somethings are true and they feel so right.
I know it when I talk to someone about God and explian His magnificent work and love contributed and inside me swells a well of love and respect for Him again.
I will not depend on my own wisdom and knowledge to explain Him...but depend on His word to come out of me.
I claim His love and blessings and I claim the salvation of all those around me. I claim the health for all around me and claim my favour I have in my students. I know without my God, I wouldnt be here and I wouldnt be doing things that I love to do.
Let me continue to be His light!
God Bless
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Sunday, March 29, 2009
much to say...#1 Comperes
We all know I used to be a compere when I was in SP and so I do want to build Comperes up again to where it was...but its taking me more than I thought needed to get them back up.
But we made good progress in my opinion during the comperes camp. i see improvement but I also see a very fragile situation.
1 of my comperes quit today. Not something Im proud of...too many of my students have backed off. I cant say its totally my fault but I cant say its not my fault at all. I wish I cud have done things differently. but I also know that if I did things differently...I might not be able to get to where I need to be and I also know that even if I changed the way i did it, it wouldnt have made things better if the person doesnt change too. In fact it might get worse. Sigh
But as I saw the juniors practice..I see improvement...I see committement but I also see unsureness, lack of confidence and in some..a lack of committement.
In the night, I got a chance to speak to them. I got to bond with them and that is precious to me. I want them to be able to speak openly. God knows I care of them and love them.
But ive said it to all of them...This is as far as Im gonna go to train them. Thats all I'll give tillt eh juniors come in and after that they will be on their own....
I know I shouldnt be worried and shouldnt be stressing on them. I know I should cast them into God's hands and see them prosper. See them change under God's care.
Lord, I cast the club into your care. Everything I cast into your care will be raised to glorify you because I woud not be able to boast of my efforts to raise the club. It will all be from you.
Thank you Father.
But we made good progress in my opinion during the comperes camp. i see improvement but I also see a very fragile situation.
1 of my comperes quit today. Not something Im proud of...too many of my students have backed off. I cant say its totally my fault but I cant say its not my fault at all. I wish I cud have done things differently. but I also know that if I did things differently...I might not be able to get to where I need to be and I also know that even if I changed the way i did it, it wouldnt have made things better if the person doesnt change too. In fact it might get worse. Sigh
But as I saw the juniors practice..I see improvement...I see committement but I also see unsureness, lack of confidence and in some..a lack of committement.
In the night, I got a chance to speak to them. I got to bond with them and that is precious to me. I want them to be able to speak openly. God knows I care of them and love them.
But ive said it to all of them...This is as far as Im gonna go to train them. Thats all I'll give tillt eh juniors come in and after that they will be on their own....
I know I shouldnt be worried and shouldnt be stressing on them. I know I should cast them into God's hands and see them prosper. See them change under God's care.
Lord, I cast the club into your care. Everything I cast into your care will be raised to glorify you because I woud not be able to boast of my efforts to raise the club. It will all be from you.
Thank you Father.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
We walked with God and invited Him for dinner
Let me start off with the chat I had with 1 of my students the night before.
It wasnt planned. alike most of my dinners w my students that are spur of the moment things.
I walked by the club house hungry but too late to go home and declare that i havnt eaten..hence I "jio"ed whoever was in the clubhouse who didnt mind eating w their "fierce" officer..for dinner.
Turns out only 1. A young ever-cheerful china christian boy.
Dont get your mind into crazy thoughts yah. Everything is as it is and no funny ideas.
The 2 of us walked to the mrt station enthusiastically for the sole purpose of getting to somewhere to appease our angry stomachs.
In my hands as I walked..were some stuff I printed out abt various well known pastors. All strong faithed pastors who have moved the world and yet suffer the criticism and condemnation by fellow pastors and non-christians. (tell you that in another session. Havnt finished reading them) So when he saw what I was reading, we started on the topic of God.
Bear in mind that Im so bad a christian that Im even having trouble believing that china students could be christians but in front of me was 1 of God's most treasured sons. I always believed that to show everyone how good God is, we are to be the living examples and he is 1 such person. He is always cheerful, never really bothered/stressed out by stuff and has a very good attitude. I see his love for God in him and I see God's favour & love for him.
We bought our food and ate and talked about God. About our experiences with God''s love for us.
I didnt wanna preach. In fact I wasnt. I was just saying what I felt like saying..my history, my beliefs, my thoughts. Like any other person would say to other people. Only diff is mine was full of God at that time. We exchanged ideas and when ideas differed, we talked it out and raised questions on why it differed and whether it could have been due to other reasons...nothing rocket science really.
But end of it all..when he left at his stop (yes we talked allt he way to the mrt station and on the train) We both agreed that talking about God made us so full. The fullness was different from having a hearty dinner...it felt like the day was complete after talking about God. Like that was what I needed to complete a day perfectly.
As the train moved on..I still smiled to myself at this feeling. Nevermind the srtess I had in the day. Nevermind the troubles I felt brewing in my heart..nevermind the things I kept reminding myself to do the next day..the whole "to do"list floating in my head. After talking about God...I was at peace.
Sounds absurd and you might call me extreme christian... Maybe... I wont say Im extreme coz there are other more extreme things that people do for their gods. Even christians for their version of God. But for me..if I can feel His love float around me after talking about Him..Wow!
In fact I find it easier to talk to a christian about God..than to a non-christian about God.
After writing all this..I changed the title to what it is now. Brings a smile to my face. If God is omni present and if 2 or more are gathered in His name He is there, then that means as we talked, God was there. God was with us at Subway. God was with us at the train station and in the train. Wow! And I bet He wasnt hungry... I bet anything in this world that He was smiling. Looking at 2 of his children talking about Him and discussing about Him and eventually feeling His love for us. Wow!
As the bible said about Jesus when He was in hungry and set by a well while his disciples when to get Him food. Then a Samaritan woman came by to draw water from the well. They talked and Jesus told her about God, Him and Him as the Living water that no one would ever thirst again with Him. The Samaritan woman was so excited she went about the town announcing that she say Jesus and beckoning everyone to see Him. By the time Jesus disciples were back with food, Jesus was no longer hungry. He had food to eat that the disciples didnt know about.
I dont think it was material/physical food that Jesus had before the disciples came back. But the spiritual food He had when preached to the Samaritan woman. Same fullness I encountered.
I bet every pastor who believes the right way...would feel the fulness in their innermost..after a good hearty bout of preaching God's love. Wow!
So as God sat with us and watched us discuss about Him, Im absolutely sure He wasnt hungry. And Im sooo sure that Hewas filling us up at the same time. Wow!
Im feeing full now.
K well lots more to talk about but I wont be getting much internet connection these 3 days so bear with me. More to come on friday night.
God Bless
It wasnt planned. alike most of my dinners w my students that are spur of the moment things.
I walked by the club house hungry but too late to go home and declare that i havnt eaten..hence I "jio"ed whoever was in the clubhouse who didnt mind eating w their "fierce" officer..for dinner.
Turns out only 1. A young ever-cheerful china christian boy.
Dont get your mind into crazy thoughts yah. Everything is as it is and no funny ideas.
The 2 of us walked to the mrt station enthusiastically for the sole purpose of getting to somewhere to appease our angry stomachs.
In my hands as I walked..were some stuff I printed out abt various well known pastors. All strong faithed pastors who have moved the world and yet suffer the criticism and condemnation by fellow pastors and non-christians. (tell you that in another session. Havnt finished reading them) So when he saw what I was reading, we started on the topic of God.
Bear in mind that Im so bad a christian that Im even having trouble believing that china students could be christians but in front of me was 1 of God's most treasured sons. I always believed that to show everyone how good God is, we are to be the living examples and he is 1 such person. He is always cheerful, never really bothered/stressed out by stuff and has a very good attitude. I see his love for God in him and I see God's favour & love for him.
We bought our food and ate and talked about God. About our experiences with God''s love for us.
I didnt wanna preach. In fact I wasnt. I was just saying what I felt like saying..my history, my beliefs, my thoughts. Like any other person would say to other people. Only diff is mine was full of God at that time. We exchanged ideas and when ideas differed, we talked it out and raised questions on why it differed and whether it could have been due to other reasons...nothing rocket science really.
But end of it all..when he left at his stop (yes we talked allt he way to the mrt station and on the train) We both agreed that talking about God made us so full. The fullness was different from having a hearty dinner...it felt like the day was complete after talking about God. Like that was what I needed to complete a day perfectly.
As the train moved on..I still smiled to myself at this feeling. Nevermind the srtess I had in the day. Nevermind the troubles I felt brewing in my heart..nevermind the things I kept reminding myself to do the next day..the whole "to do"list floating in my head. After talking about God...I was at peace.
Sounds absurd and you might call me extreme christian... Maybe... I wont say Im extreme coz there are other more extreme things that people do for their gods. Even christians for their version of God. But for me..if I can feel His love float around me after talking about Him..Wow!
In fact I find it easier to talk to a christian about God..than to a non-christian about God.
After writing all this..I changed the title to what it is now. Brings a smile to my face. If God is omni present and if 2 or more are gathered in His name He is there, then that means as we talked, God was there. God was with us at Subway. God was with us at the train station and in the train. Wow! And I bet He wasnt hungry... I bet anything in this world that He was smiling. Looking at 2 of his children talking about Him and discussing about Him and eventually feeling His love for us. Wow!
As the bible said about Jesus when He was in hungry and set by a well while his disciples when to get Him food. Then a Samaritan woman came by to draw water from the well. They talked and Jesus told her about God, Him and Him as the Living water that no one would ever thirst again with Him. The Samaritan woman was so excited she went about the town announcing that she say Jesus and beckoning everyone to see Him. By the time Jesus disciples were back with food, Jesus was no longer hungry. He had food to eat that the disciples didnt know about.
I dont think it was material/physical food that Jesus had before the disciples came back. But the spiritual food He had when preached to the Samaritan woman. Same fullness I encountered.
I bet every pastor who believes the right way...would feel the fulness in their innermost..after a good hearty bout of preaching God's love. Wow!
So as God sat with us and watched us discuss about Him, Im absolutely sure He wasnt hungry. And Im sooo sure that Hewas filling us up at the same time. Wow!
Im feeing full now.
K well lots more to talk about but I wont be getting much internet connection these 3 days so bear with me. More to come on friday night.
God Bless
Saturday, March 07, 2009
rainbow part2
i was so amazed byt he rainbow that ic udnt help but stare at it and hope to absord as much of that image has possible..maybe if i stared long enough,t he image would stay in my head more. But nothing beats seeing it live! no matter how many times I see it live, it never fails to make me smile and gaze with amazement and be thankful of God's love.
I looked around to see if anyone noticed the rainbow but only a few of them. most of them who did, took a pic of it but the tohers who didnt...evidently had other things on their mind.
Which leads me to conclude that so many of us are soooo taken up by our work or family or etc that we dont look up to see around us...if they had looked up, they would have seen a very vivid rainbow that God probably wanted us to see..to tell us no matter what happens in our lives, we would still have God to be on our side..his peace and even shows him watching over us.
What others say about God just creating the world and then letting it run on its own....RUBBISH!
So the people in the train..just kept looking and doing their own stuff while I was the only goon w my face pasted to the window of the mrt and chasing the rainbow around till it dissappeared...
Ever wondered why the rainbow has bright primary collours? why not dull ones? Maybe its meant to make us smile..ever wondered why its always after rain and yet...there is never a cloudless sky on a rainbowed day. Does this mean that even while ur life is clouded and u dont see the bright sky...rest assured that at the end of a rainy day...there is a rainbow. or rather through the clouds will a rainbow emerge.
I believe that a rainbow is something god does to make us feel peace and smile..just like how someone who cares for you..tries to comfort u, cheer u up when ur down...
And i also believe that w breeze is God's way of hugging u...
After all everything is made by God...
I love my God!
Ning
I looked around to see if anyone noticed the rainbow but only a few of them. most of them who did, took a pic of it but the tohers who didnt...evidently had other things on their mind.
Which leads me to conclude that so many of us are soooo taken up by our work or family or etc that we dont look up to see around us...if they had looked up, they would have seen a very vivid rainbow that God probably wanted us to see..to tell us no matter what happens in our lives, we would still have God to be on our side..his peace and even shows him watching over us.
What others say about God just creating the world and then letting it run on its own....RUBBISH!
So the people in the train..just kept looking and doing their own stuff while I was the only goon w my face pasted to the window of the mrt and chasing the rainbow around till it dissappeared...
Ever wondered why the rainbow has bright primary collours? why not dull ones? Maybe its meant to make us smile..ever wondered why its always after rain and yet...there is never a cloudless sky on a rainbowed day. Does this mean that even while ur life is clouded and u dont see the bright sky...rest assured that at the end of a rainy day...there is a rainbow. or rather through the clouds will a rainbow emerge.
I believe that a rainbow is something god does to make us feel peace and smile..just like how someone who cares for you..tries to comfort u, cheer u up when ur down...
And i also believe that w breeze is God's way of hugging u...
After all everything is made by God...
I love my God!
Ning
Friday, March 06, 2009
Rainbows are the most beautiful things...
For hte last 2 weeks Ive been thinking abt the rainbows...
2 weeks back on a wed/thur..there were 2 rainbows up in the sky...the bigger one was so clear that it looked like it was from a nippon paint ad and someone had used a roller and painted the rainbow unto the sky.
I think everyone who knows abt Jesus would also know how significant a rainbow is to us. For thsoe that dont know, at the end of the flood hat killed all mankind and animals and etc except oah and his family and paris of every kind of animal, God gave themt he rainbow as a sign of peace between Him and mankind and that He would never do anything like that to all mankaind anymore. So that rainbow is a sign or a standing agreement that while it may rain..while things may go wrong..it would never consume us...for those who believe in God.
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