Not giving up...

So family updates were negative this time round and some of my relatives are sick.
As were the last 4 departed in my family, I tried to fight for the miracle.
Likewise this time.
Also why I didnt tell people what the family condition is because I didnt want to hear the negativity. I didnt want people to bring down my already small faith. I didnt want the negative thoughts around this situation to grow.
My entry today is to voice out what I believe is the outcome of this situation.

MY RELATIVES WILL BE HEALED!

Many people out there would reiterate the fact but I know believe in the Truth.
I believe that Truth would set those I love free from their diseases.
It is Done!

Jesus went about healing those who were sick and came to Him. Nowhere in the bible does it say that He rejected any of them. Also he didnt just heal the Jews, but the Gentiles, the ones who didnt know about the Law, who probably didn't even know the religion. Maybe they went to Him because they heard of His healing powers and believed that he would heal them.
Compare that to us Christians who are not Jews, who never followed the Law in our lives. Are we not like those Gentiles who got saved? In fact what we now have that they never had is the Holy Spirit who lives in us! which means we dont even need to travel high and low in search for Jesus Christ himself but look to him through our own hearts.

Every time someone in the Bible asked to be healed, Jesus's response was I AM WILLING. There would be people who didnt get healed but thats because they didnt approach Him. Maybe they watched Him heal others but for some reason, they didnt approach Him? Maybe they were scared that Jesus would say No..maybe they were scared that Jesus couldnt heal their particular disease?

But the Bible says that Jesus healed EVERY disease... And theres no saying No. Which disease is greater than Death? Even that Jesus not only healed but conquered.

In fact maybe those who asked Jesus "will you be willing to heal me?" Had doubt..but had enough faith to go up to Him. Thats isnt even being fully confident that Jesus would heal. yet Jesus did heal!

Then why do we still question whether God will heal now? Whats the difference now?
Woudl it be any different now that Jesus isnt physically in front of us? Does that mean His power is lesser than before? if anyting at all, he is sitting at the right hand of our Father. in Heaven.
The Holy Spirit is in us even. What we receive is direct from God through the Holy Spirit!

Are we too sinful to not be able to receive? In God's eyes everyone would have been sinful when Jesus was a human. Nobody would have been able to call themselves righteous because Jesus had not died for our sins yet... even the Pharisses were sinful. And since one sin was enough to make us as sinful as the next, all of us would have been as sinful as the people of those ages.

Does having the medical advancement now become a double edged sword. It heals us in many advanced ways but also gives us the most advanced medical facts that we are now unable to believe in God...

Has fact become so widely known that Truth cant be believed because nobody agrees to it?
Like how the most widely spread rumour is the truth because everyone believes it is so?
Is that why the truth that My God loves me and would never bring harm unto me is unbelieved? Is that Why My God can and WILL heal isnt believed as well?

I believe that God CAN HEAL and has healed. I await His goodness to show Result!

The disease in my relatives body has been expelled or eaten away or shrivelled from the lack of condemnation.

The Lammin Cell in their bodies will regenerate through the Holy Spirit.

I await the Good news that My relatives will be in the pink of health! Praise The Lord My Saviour Jesus Christ! The One True King Who is TRUTH and LIFE! Who IS the Fruit of the TREE OF LIFE!
The Knower of MY HEART! THE SON of the FATHER who knew me before I was made..who loved me before my ancestors were born! Before I was a neutron! Who THOUGHT of me!
PRAISE HIM!

God Bless!

Adelaide

So my 2nd day in Adelaide and 1st day at work. Office is a wonderful white building and its cosy inside with people working in every corner.

Cant believe Im here alone and doing a festival Id always wanted to do!

Coming down to Adelaide was a thrill and staying in a backpackers hostel in an 8 share bedroom is quite the experience.

Albeit there are somethings which im still living in luxury with. Ie: eating out etc for now...

But living in a backpackers hostel is a challenge because of all the different nationalities involved..maybe im just not comfortable with other nationalities yet. especially non asians.

I wonder why...

Anyway its been fun exploring Adelaide for now. Now that the work load is slowly seeping in. I gotta plan my time and get my head into work mode more. I guess being in a new state/country makes you feel like ur on a holiday and you can have alot of fun. Fun YES. Alot of it NO.

Planning to watch alot of shows here. in fact planning to stay till the end of Adelaide Festival. :)

There is just soo much happening here that I had to sit down during breakfast and mull over what to watch. money vs entertainment. Maybe the short break I wanted to have after Womad, wouldnt happen because hte money Id wanna use for that, would have been spent on shows.

Also missing people in Sydney whom I love. 

My goal here is not only to have fun doing this festival, and learning all that I can, but to explore Adelaide! it shall be done!

Miss home, miss my room, miss family, miss farmily, miss heaps of people. 

God Bless

festival moments so far

1) guy in a wedding gown tied up w cable ties
2) dance floor covered with bottles and alcohol
3) a guy who asked if he could grab me
4) a guy who said to me "you! me! My bed! now!"
5) security guards asking my age
6) lead guitarists/vocalists stripping down to his birthday suit, posing in all glory and spitting at the audience, then falling over on stage
7) knowing so many wonderful people (venue staff/security guards/technical people/CODA people/ Syd fest organisers)

secondment so far

So after Castor & Pollux, Ive found myself in another baroque music opera but this time it include a fashion show. Thankfully , like the last one, Ive had the privilage of working with nice people.
I cant express how small the industry is! Alot of them I end up working with more than once.

Eg: Had to hire double basses and ended up calling the double bassist in Castor & Pollux. After numerous attempts to find luthiers and hiring companies!

And then the tuner of hte harpsichord and organ of the fashion show opera was hte same tuner of Castor & Pollux. I also had to ask him for a luther's number who could repair a baroque cello bow in a matter of hours.

And some of the mechs that worked in Castor & Pollux have worked in Castor & Pollux too.

Also had the privilage of working with Sonya and Ruth who are amazing people in their own rights. I have learnt so much. Not just what they do but how they do it (attitude, drive etc)

From Semele Walk (baroque opera fashion show) to Paradiso. All is going well so far :)

Im working hard but happy and loving working with these people. :) Soooo much respect for them!

TOday is my day off and I intend to let my body rest as much as it can.. :/

ALso..lost my ipod touch :( feeling very sad...

Thank you Daddy God for the people Ive worked with so far. :)

God Bless

Its been a long time...

Woke up at 8am today. Damn the body clock!
Finally get to rest a day and Im lost for stuff to do!

Went to Chinatown to get some canto movies and a chinese book to read.
I liked mandarin and cantonese its just that I wasnt fluent in them because i dont speak it enough. And i dont read mandarin stuff. Now I will try..

Anyway I fell like I may have offended Silma and I hope not but I feel bad...

In fact, I really feel like Im changing..my temperament has changed.
I feel like I've become more impatient...I also feel like I've become more snide...
It makes me wonder if this education or living alone has made me this way.

Especially when I go back to SG, Ive had to ration my time and Im sure many would say that I dont need to meet everyone..just the more impt ones. I guess the "important" is the key word.
To me, i feel like there are alot of people that I care for...and enjoy being with..
Because of that..I never have enough time for all and trying to ration out my time means I never feel like theres enough and I rush from one to another...

And this lack of time has sometimes made me easily irritated when I get stood up or when people come late etc. Or when something makes me change my plans...

It made me question how much I mean or meant to them. It made me relook at my friendship with them...

I guess I had that coming..seeing as how I have lost some of my best friends to negligence...

It irritates me that I can be so easily irritated! And how my remarks can change to sarcasm or be snide so easily... I feel like its a me that I dont want...

I also feel like Im being more self-centred...casting alot of "I..." comments.

Almost makes me wanna shut myself up!

I might slowly become a bitch! :(

It leads me to think about why Ive become so self centred..do I feel the need to constantly say I?
To keep talking about how I feel? If I do where does it come from?
Do I feel like I havnt been heard? Do i feel like I don't have anyone to talk too and hence when I do get a chance, I immediately express MY opinion?
If so, is it because Im mostly alone? And dont socialise much?

If so...then other people I know whom have this same problem or who dont get the chance to socialize too...is that why they are how they are?

Reminds me of my parents as well. They dont speak to each other and to others.

While chatting with my sis, Ive come to a conclusion that I do need to help my parents become better selves. They have sacrificed enough for my sis and I and need their own lives and because they have lived too long with the identitiy of a parent, they dont see themselves as anything other than that. Not even as themselves.

My gut feel is that like someone who has just come out from a relationship and needs time to regain their own identity, they need to gain their own identity too..

God Bless