Im feeling better...

Watched a movie w students yesterday night...jamie fox, american soldiers in Saudi etc...the movie was good..dont know how the cameraman does it really...alot of angles seem to be unachieveable w/o someone or the camera getting hurt.

After that, sat down w them for awhile and spoke to the alumni about the alumni nite..I guess I wanted to find out what they felt...
- lack of preparation
- programme has to be better catered to the alumni
- need to book more time to try out cables and all mics and projector...in the vanda room

And while talking, suddenly my ex's name comes out. Caught me by surprise but cant be help...all of us, alumni and I respect him for the leader he really is. Pity he cant turn up for the alumni nite. I know he'll have his comments....and him being my bro, Id be able to sit down and talk to him like frens as well....

After we seperated, I started thinking about how certain things wud have been better if I hadnt taken my sweet time to do it. So in fact...I was at fault...so many things abt leadership..that I need to learn...Suddenly felt quite bad..thinking of how good it wud be if I could meet a fren from the past to wiggle back into my old comfort zone..where I more or less know that nothing cud go wrong...and thought of my sisters..sec sch, poly, now...all the sisters Ive made.

I took out my hp and wrote this:
No matter how you feel or what situation you may be in now, just remember that someone is thinking of you. Take care of yourself because I cant be there to do so.

Got some replies back...

The funny thing is I did that whe I was feeling low myself and I rememebred those that I know and love who might be feeling low too...so I sent that out. But somehow I wondered if i did that as well...to get rid of my own low feelings...cud it be? Making people feel better makes me feel better?

The last song I heard on my mp3 player..was Praise you in the Storm.
The lyrics:
I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to you, raised me up again
My strength is almost gone,
how can I carry on if I cant find you
As the thunder roars, I barely hear you whisper through the rain
Im with you
As your mercy falls, I raise my hands and praise the God who gives and takes away...

Amen...

God Bless

SCREW EMAILS!! THEY DONT WORK!

hmm I think emails are an excuse for anyone to be lazy to call..ad they lie to themselves thinking that people do read emails every day and not 2 months later. Emmm Im stupid...

Im very dissappointed w myself in fact....very dissappointed for thinking that I cud contact one person and expect the world to know. How come it works for gossips but not for proper issues?

Anyway...Im thankful today is thur..Im thnakful I ahve God's strength and Im praying that Jesus grace will help me to find favour in my boss's eyes that this shortcoming and grave mistake will not be taken into account...that they will see how good ISC and the rest of my clubs can be. Mybae if I wasnt their officer..mabe if it was someone else more efficient...my clubs would get the recognition they deserve...Cause they deserve it at times..they deserve it if I had kept chasing them for answers...

Sorry for pushing you guys...anyway i dont have much strength left also lah.

God Bless

ISC Spirit

The New Blood that will take over next year. Never underestimate the power of their combined effort. They're not ISCians for nothing.

Me in my best green jacket w ISC Alumni/Fren/Colleague Helmut.

Seems he's never left school hahahahah

God Bless

Alumni Nite 2007

Before the event...Wan Jun and I never knew that we wouold be the one of those to be sabohed ALOT throughout the event. The Alumni Nite became our "Saboh Officer/Emcee/Alumni" Day

God Bless

dream

As usual, anything stuck in my mind before i sleep, appears in my dreams...well not everything...but some things tend to have that effect on me...

Yesterday I was slightly troubled...a single thing on my mind. It wasnt something good but it wasnt something terrible, yet it got me thinking so much because I obviously didnt want this to happen. In fact everytime this pops up, i try to step back from what I feel, and force myself to handle it as if nothing is wrong. Nonetheless, I dont understand why it is worse this time. I feel really bad for the ones who are implied in this. Trust me that this isnt what I wanted.

So I had a really long dream that wasnt as sci-fi as some of my dreams are (walking through walls from the lving room to a desert etc) It was made of people from the past, in the present and possible near future. Maybe the dream was based on hope...a hopeless hope that never seemed to go away...only to fade to grey.
I guess the best thing wud be the initial prob I had..is now covered over by the dream.
Hahahahaha

K well back to work. I believe what Ive felt for the past few days..is enough for me to write some songs...

God Bless