:) Yes Im proud of you.

Not much space on facebook to say it so I decided to do it here. Its probably coz Im being abit more emotional this weekend hahaha
Anyway I figured that I might as write it here because I know you'd be able to find it here.
1stly, Im honored that you'd think of me when u got nominated babe. I am honored coz I cant believe that I would have that significance to you. It sounds like Im being melodramatic but it truly means something to me that you did and I am touched. :) Really
2ndly, I am proud of you despite your getting selected or not because I love you like a sister and I havnt not been proud of you. no matter how you may feel that you've dissappointed me .I cant believe that given the status diff between us in SP, that such a relationship would occur and honestly, in current times, it is very rare so I value our friendship.So yes I am proud of you as a sister for having handled everything that life threw at you with such energy, maturity and confidence. I know at times you're not your happy self but you dont really show it but I admire you for having all that strength in you :)3rdly, Congrats for graduating from SP. I'm sure its been a very long journey for you. No matter what has happened, SP will definitely have significance in your life. Im so sorry that I cant be there with u at Graduation ceremony. Thats my biggest regret in leaving Singapore so quickly. Seeing you guys graduate..being there to take pics w you guys.
I love you and miss you very very much woman :) Its students and friends like you that make me miss SP...and its students and friends like you that make me sad and happy that you're graduating.

If you do get selected, then have fun doing it and please please save a recording for me! Make sure u get a copy of the recording babe. Also, remind me again on when the graduation date will be so that I might *cross fingers* be able to tune in live.

HUGS HUGS HUGS *Chocolate CAKE*

Ning

So far so good :) 1 more week to 2 months in Aussie

Hahahah honestly i didnt expect to be blogging so little but I guess my initial fear of not being able to keep in touch w people I loved..wasnt as bad hahaha
School has been quite busy, typical day is 9-6pm and on assignments are due soon.
Bought my ticket to melbourne in april to visit my nephew and a bunch of other friends there, esp poh ling. :)
Making friends with people from various countries, starting with my housemates who are a fun bunch of people...and this is not cause I know one of them reads this hahaha Yes Im still the craziest one in the house but we just have loads of fun laughing and making fun of each other hahahaHad a wonderful time having a heart to heart talk with them last weekend :)
Foodwise, its been more cooking than anything. amazingly enough, the little aounts of cooking Ive done during Home economics or at home, have paid off! Somehow God has kept that in the depths of my brain that I would still be able to remember enough to cook an edible meal. Needless to say, theres been a fwe failures. hahhahaha yah but well if they're edible, one can't reaally deem in as a failure right? hahahahaAnyway Ive now got a regular routine of sunday calls to grandpa's place. Which is cool when i get to see my nephew, niece, cousins, aunties, mum, and grandpa. And yes I miss family, my bros and sistas and I also miss my "kids" Had a few chances to observe a few productions in the last month and I feel very much privileged :) Sometimes I wished that my students had such privileges too. had a classmate who introduced to me a particular competition for college kids who put up musical like performances with elaborate sets, costumes etc and the quality of their work is ahelluve lot better than what singaporean youth could do... of course singaporean institutes dont have the luxury of that kind of money.
Aside from which, I havnt had a chance to really sit down somewhere and chill and reflect and write songs etc...its been soooo long. I havnt been singing as much....Im actually itching to dance or sing leisurely.... :) And as usual, I sorta wished that I knew how to play the piano...not that I have a piano in my house...but in school yes hahaha
oh well...gonna stop here. Work to do. :)
God Bless!

1 month anniversary

Its been about 6 weeks since I left Singapore and I must pat myself on my back about my ability to handle being away from home. I guess my initial sentiments of not being able to stay away from Singapore might not be as bad as I thought.
Of course it could just be because I have stuff to do and Im still finding the novelty of exploring australia.
Anyway school is good. We're going through assignments etc and Ive got my big project even!
Since leaving Singapore I've gotten my mum's eye for mess. Well not to her level at least but I have been more serious with the cleanliness of the kitchen. Food has been good and Ive started to cook. no burnts and injuries so far.
My housemates are fun to speak to and they remind me of my friends in singapore. Fun bunch! I malaysian, 1 indian, 2 from china etc :)
Ive grown to love alot of my classmates and what I love about people in australia (at least those Ive come in contact with) is that they are more vocal about affection. But yet..it also reminds me of the love and affection I have for those I love in Singapore.
Recently...unfortuantely..Ive started to wonder how great it would have been to have someone special I love..but I then quickly remind myself that that relationships would be in trouble. So I guess in a warped way, Im glad I didnt have a relationship before I came over. Everyones asking me if I found an angmoh boyfriend hahahhaha but I know I wudnt ever go there. Aside from all this, my communication with my family has been better. Its maybe because I dont ave to face them every day and I dont have to hear their rambles, only their misses. But having not to hear their rambles and complaints actually makes it easier for me to speak to them via email.Hopefully my emails to them about my thought process here and how Im living, would help them realize that I am able to be more independent that what I may seem in Singapore. that I can looka fter myself, that I do cook and clean, that I am cautious and fast thinking about certain things....in essence, that Im not just taking things for granted. Hope my mum realizes that nagging has never helped things in the present and that just coz she sees certain things as they are...doesnt mean that they are always that way...I especially miss my grandpa. Hope he's in good health. My heart goes out most to him...I also miss my sis. Its a pity that our family never developed the "hugging" culture because hugs can make such a big difference. at least I think so. And maybe I sorta regret not giving my family hugs. Especially my sis. Its actually amazing really. My sis and I didnt always hit it ont eh right note and I reacll quarrelling with her a fair bit...but I always remember the small things we used to share. basketball sessions, playtime, tv drama times, random movie moments etc. And I cant say that our relationship was bad. It was and is quite good! :) Yeah and I can actually say that I really do love my sister. She annoys me at times but I do love her. Our family is quite screwed up on a whole but Im glad that i have her.Also miss Francine , ian & Stephen, Peiyan etc. My sistas, my student clubs and basically....Singapore and the familiarity of it...No dont worry that I miss singapore too much, Im doing fine and I dont start crying when I think about home etc. Im not homesick.Anyway as the school term goes, I forsee other problems surfacing from the class and I forsee my stress level going up but Im clear that I will eb able to handle it. God will help me with that!Just had a backstage tour of Capitol Theatre today and it was FABULOUS! When I saw the HUGEASS sound desk and the BIG BAND miced up onstage, i got sooooo excited! Shit! I wanna be able to work that!ANd when they played music through the system...I was HIGH! I know what excites me now!K gotta go back to doing my project work now....I know in my heart, there are 1 or 2 people whom I cant name, whom I miss alot and I wished that I could tell them that...but I cant...coz it wouldnt be right. I also know they wouldnt read this blog coz they wouldnt bother. But nonetheless...I do miss them...
As for church, I admit I havnt been the most disciplined christian...but yes I do go to Hillsong for church. Worship has been so helpful in bringing me closer to God :) Its sooo easy to forget about Him...because Satan preys on people who are alone.
K seriously time to go. Take care and I love you!
God Bless

okay its been awhile but im back!

Yes im officially back! Ive got my iphone, mobile broadband and sch connection so Im quite connected to the world :DSchool has been good, Ive managed to adapt to the environment for now, made new friends, still quite shy about people who are not in my class but alls still well. Had fun during the workshop periods, made my own old school tool box (drill, sander, nails and screws and all) and made my own apron! Yes wearable!Been cooking as well and somehow Ive become alot more disciplined here than in spore. marketing weekly and stuff.School work is picking up but im really trying to stay focused.Still miss people in Spore but Im actually adapting quite well. At least now australia doesnt seem like a foreign country to me. I dont feel a stranger to the place and Im quite happy to communicate with people. Somehow, australia is friendlier and more expressive than S'pore..or maybe im just generalizing....
new housemate is finally in and she's malaysian hahha which is a sense of familiarity for me. In fact only last week, i finally found someone i know in Spore, studying in UNSW! one of my sp students!I was surprisingly happy about it and only then did i realize how it feels to have "a piece of home".Not that I was very close to him..but because he was someone who represented (in a way) who i was and where i was from...
Cant wait to have people visit me coz it would be a great great feeling!
K gonna pack up and head home :)
God Bless!
Ning

Back online but stillin sydney

To all lf my (at most) 6 people who read this hahahaha

So I'm online because I have my iPhone. but im at a internet cafe downstairs my place now. Called Happy Convenience. hahahaha

1st week was fun coz it wasn't the school term and I could hang out in the city with mum. We did slot of walking and exploring in the city. Seems there's alot more Chinese than I expected and in fact, there are alot of Cantonese speaking people. I bought my hp in Cantonese hehehe

The bus system is bait like Melbourne and Singapore in the sense that it goes by geographical distance but we enchant an ezlink card that will automatically calculate our distance. We haveto buy the right ticket for the estimated distance

Mum and I ended up walking alot more coz itwas abut hard to find out which bus does where.

We happened to arrive the day before australia day and so weended up at darling harbour watching the Australia day fireworks and performances.

In themidst of all this, I was still quietly assessing the sydney Australian so see how I should be acting as too. I guess they're quite like singaporeans...

In the midst of all that, I got my hp, and bank account done so I'm working on getting all my tools and books for school. In the meantime, school orientation has started. In fact its already the 3rd day. Trying hard to fit in because my classmate Nd I are the only intl students there. in our cohort. Other students who are not australian born , have at least lived in australia for around 3 years plus.

I know Im supposed to count my blessings that Im here but Im missing singapore and everyone there. Especially the times that my friends and I go for supper or dinner. Somehow, my appetitite hasnt been upt eh past 2 weeks. Simply coz I dnt have hte mood to. Even when mum was here, I just didnt have a preference on what to eat..no craving etc. Simply eat coz I have to.

So for teh past few days..I havnt been eating outside. Bought abit of stuff from Woolworths and other convenience stores and survived on that...dont worry..vegetables and fruits included.
It isnt as healthy as I would have wanted it but I know as I slowly get used to my school life (afterall its still only orientation now) that I would slowly build steam and get down to making my lifestyle healthier.

Cant wait for Foong to visit, cant wait for my bros and sistas to visit. much to eat guys! But I wouldnt go without u.....feels wrong.

so yeah... :)... miss u guys, lotsa love from downunder.

God Bless