Hang in there Ning!

Hang in there babe.
You know you;re better than who you think you are.
You know that You can do better and you cant let yourself be handicapped by thoughts...
Everybody has to learn and dont let your thoughts handicap you from learning...

Yes skills and knowledge is the makes of a good SM or techie but attitude is as well and so you will have to show people that your attitude is good.
You can do it Ning. You're a fighter! Dont forget what Ms Liu said before.
Dont forget that you have alot of people who support you. Including God.
Dont forget that if He is for you, no one can be against you.
No matter what kind of challenge you get, you will get through because you are a Child of God.