Ode to my grandpa and a big LOVE to my family and friends

My grandpa passed away on 1 Aug. I was there to say goodbye...
Deep inside Im still crying because I always wanted my grandpa to get better.
I was so glad that I could go home to say my last goodbyes and give my eulogy. Im so glad that he saw his great grandchildren as well.
Having the little kiddies around helped me feel better as well.
I didnt cry as much as expected in Singapore but now that Im back, I feel the pain even more because Im alone.
I will miss giving my grandpa hugs, buying food up for him, seeing him and communicating with him in cantonese...just being by his side...
Im so thankful that I have family and friends around me who have helped me through this time. My own sister, cousin: Bryan & Jill, my niece and nephew:Ally & Max, my bros: Ian, Stephen, my sistas: Francine, Peiyan, my other bros: Wandi, and other close friends: Wendy, Jess etc
Also those in Sydney who look out for me too. :/
I am truly blessed to have so many wonderful people in my life....
I know that although funerals are painful, that its always in these occassions that I feel the blessings in my life..that my relatives come together and get closer. I love my extended family even more. esp my niece and nephew and my baby cousin, Bryan who is no longer a baby.
It was a short few days but i had a chance to catch up with Bryan, with my bros and sistas and with Wandi
Thanks guys for spending time with me...u guys mean alot to me. Not just being there to help me with things, but just merely to cheer me up. to make me laugh, to help me get my mind off my grandpa.
Now I know how it feels like to lose a precious grandfather while overseas. Reminded me so much of Pravin....I remember how he loved his grandfather like his own father. While I didnt get a chance to send him my condolences...I still felt the pain when I knew about it. I guess in a way...I wished that I was still close to him. no doubt that he is only a msg away....but we have probabaly drifted too far away to offer each other such condolences without feeling akward. I feel that he might be the best person to understand me...afterall, I still regard him as my bestest best bro.... These are the times that I wish we were still close...
I guess now I can stop worrying about anything happening to Gong Gong. because he is in a better place now...
God Bless