Last week was like a slow withdrawal for me. withdrawing my presence in alot of things like hte band and some of the club activities. Not because I want to, but because i have to.
I realize that with the clubs that I've been the most involved in, there was a lack of discipline and my students were becoming too much like me.
I felt that I was getting more and more upset with them and dissappointed with their not meeting my expectations. So i decided not to input so much anymore... time to hold my tongue.
The guy whom I have loved for the longest time... somehow Ive been able to stem the emotions for now. Its been 2 weeks and that's pretty miraculous. So Im gonna keep at it and see how far I can get away. This guys is hard to love because I dont know if He can love...
And because of that, I cant love him...
Oh well....if I cant find anyone, at least I know I have amazing friends who love me...
All that I am, is Nothing I show on the outside. It's up to you to read the words I have written. Most importantly, I am a born again, Jesus praising, praise song blasting, Israel loving, Bible carrying, BLESSED CHILD OF GOD
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