Really need to not care

Scorpio and Friendship:

Relationships with Scorpio are always complicated, just like the person, their relationships are a series of extremes, they can even be downright moody for no apparent reason. Scorpios are known for their possessiveness and jealousy but on the other hand, they are extremely loyal. Scorpios have an excellent memory and combined with an inability to let things go, they can hold a grudge against someone who did them harm forever, in fact a Scorpio rarely if never forgives and forgets. They will even go as far as get vengeance on the person. On the other hand, they will always remember a kind gesture forever and repay it. Any kind selfless gesture done to a Scorpio will gain trust and respect which is extremely important to them in any relationship, either romantic or not. The best advice is to be honest with a Scorpio friend and in return, you will gain an amazing friend you will never forget and who will be loyal to you and never make false promises. Their truthful and shocking sense of humor if different than that of any other zodiac sign and the Scorpio makes an amazing, powerful interesting friend that can be trusted.
excerpt from http://zodiac-signs-astrology.com/zodiac-signs/scorpio.htm

I guess the scorpio in me is really hard to deal with..and maybe that in itself has made me very awkward in front of those I like.

I really need to not care anymore. Not care about what and who interests him.Because afterall, he is just a brother right.
I obviously have no say at all.

I guess, with the times that I've told him to go find someone, that I should be happy that he does take a liking to someone. I should be happy. I should be overjoyed...

Need to find myself again..need to focus on what makes me happy again... Even if it means giving up on someone whom I treasure alot.

God Bless