I honestly think I shud lay off indian movies esp those with Vijay in it.
Btw...was watching an indian movie yesterday on my PC, Sachein...damn funny, damn earnest...bloody nice...and Im ashamed to say it..yes love story...my sister walks by and asks why Im watching indian movies again....*no reply*..she walks nearer and immediately exclaims, "hey i recognise this guy!"
Why would people not know...the ever wonderful, already married, ever boyish looking, possibly andy lau of kollywood(they nvr grow old)....Vijay
http://www.ilayathalapathyvijay.com/filmography.htm
He doesnt look really good looking in this website...coz the pics are too small...
His other damn good movie is Sivakasi...
Wonder why I like him...go figure it out....got to do with the camera shot....
Anyway much as the movie was really good...I felt abit bad after that...went straight to sleep...
Things have been rough for some people around me...much as I know...I dont say anything...I seriously dont know what to say....and because their mood is changed and all, I guess it affects me too....
seriously..not that I got nothing to say...its more that i dont know what to say...
Sorta makes me wish cud make everyone feel better orhappy...
Got a fren who asked me if he was a good friend yesterday and I replied..of course! whyelse would I be here having dinner with you? I wouldnt be talking to you if you werent...well not that drastic..but you get the drift...
Is it bad to have high expectations of your friends? I know I had at one point of time...I used to call up some of my frens wliving near me to ask if they wanna hangout for awhile...as in...meet up there n then... and when the call gets cut or no one picks up.....Id be super dissappointed....
Abit silly of me...it isnt like everybody is suppposed to be at my beck and call....I think I got over all that and decided that if things go like that, its natural! Maybe its the way to learn to be socially independent? is there a name for someone who can go out and do stuff on their own? thats not strange..rite? hahahaha
My colleague and my student both said to me once on seperate occassions, "dont keep spending your time on work leh! You'll never get a bf and get married like that!"
I replied, "Somehow I believe that God has someone arranged for me already and he will drop down from the sky or come up from the ground! Hehehe"
Student: Would you be shocked?
Ning: Nah..coz I'll know its god sent hehehhe
Hope: Yah well...God only helps those that helps themselves...
Ning: Well (thought of disagreement) ...ok
I still believe it though hahhaah I believe God has someone in mind...dont know who...but doesnt matter..when time come, time comes.
Btw..had some weird dreams last night and the night before...
Night before
Dreamt Moses came back..int eh second coming...happy occassion....
dreamt of my ex.....lets not go there
last night
Dreamt that a fren of mind was confessing...ehm....yah....scaared the shit out of me...seemed much like stalking.....haiz....I hope none of this comes true...dreamt i had a bunch of other frens whom I used as the shelter from my pestering fren.
dreamt it was jimmy's birthday and we had things all prepared for him..the best choc cake..best food, on top of an openair double decker bus!
I seriously hope this doesnt persist...
Anyway..I also hope the whole sudden, "pravin this pravin that..how are you guys..." thing is wearing off hahahaha
K back to work!
Love you guys!
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Monday, March 05, 2007
Im stil sorry...and for the last time!
"Do you still keep in touch with him?" Wendy..in the back ground, "you're my honey bunch sugarplum....you're my sweetie pie" Fuck... Hahahah okay not that serious...swearing is a form of exaggeration to me.
BUt lets count it again..seems Ive gotten the same question 3 times in the past week hahahha not to mention the long unheard (I wud say for abt months and years), the sweetiepie song that ...means something..whatever lah
Had a good chat w my colleague and Im just so impressed by him and my other colleagues, Matt, Tiong Hui, Angel, Anna..sooo many... I can look at them and be soooo amazed at how well they manage their family relations :) I think God has something to do with this....:) I always used to wonder how they do it. what makes them so different from other families that fall apart like a pack of cards.... Maybe coz of God...
Seems funny and laughable to say that if I ever get to the stage of starting a family...thats how I will handle mine...with God in the center. Gotta start w a christian guy as well hahaha
Morning blues pumping in full speed but God's here too, so who cares!
God Bless
BUt lets count it again..seems Ive gotten the same question 3 times in the past week hahahha not to mention the long unheard (I wud say for abt months and years), the sweetiepie song that ...means something..whatever lah
Had a good chat w my colleague and Im just so impressed by him and my other colleagues, Matt, Tiong Hui, Angel, Anna..sooo many... I can look at them and be soooo amazed at how well they manage their family relations :) I think God has something to do with this....:) I always used to wonder how they do it. what makes them so different from other families that fall apart like a pack of cards.... Maybe coz of God...
Seems funny and laughable to say that if I ever get to the stage of starting a family...thats how I will handle mine...with God in the center. Gotta start w a christian guy as well hahaha
Morning blues pumping in full speed but God's here too, so who cares!
God Bless
Saturday, March 03, 2007
The spark that died down...
Before I go on..I dont knwo how many of my frens bother to read my blog but for those of them and all others who dont...(if you'd kindly let them know)...
Im sorry....
Been awhile back since Ive kept in touch with many of them, some fo whom I thought would update me...see...im soo dependant and self-centered....I happily do my part of blogging and hope that people read once in awhile....truth is..like I do...or rather I dont....read
Checked my fren's blog today and the usual eccentric writing of hers..was unusually dark and solemn..like an overcasting of clouds..dark, pre-rain ones....it hit me that...somethign could very well have gone wrong....
As I later read and found out...she as in the hospital....FUCK....my heart sank.... also started to wonder if she was still attached...I fear the truth....wish she was in spore for me to call her...
Sorry sis....really....im soo sorry...
Got another fren who's mum passed away..Im gonna go find her these few days....God...keep her heart to you...
God Bless
Im sorry....
Been awhile back since Ive kept in touch with many of them, some fo whom I thought would update me...see...im soo dependant and self-centered....I happily do my part of blogging and hope that people read once in awhile....truth is..like I do...or rather I dont....read
Checked my fren's blog today and the usual eccentric writing of hers..was unusually dark and solemn..like an overcasting of clouds..dark, pre-rain ones....it hit me that...somethign could very well have gone wrong....
As I later read and found out...she as in the hospital....FUCK....my heart sank.... also started to wonder if she was still attached...I fear the truth....wish she was in spore for me to call her...
Sorry sis....really....im soo sorry...
Got another fren who's mum passed away..Im gonna go find her these few days....God...keep her heart to you...
God Bless
Emmm what do I want to do?
Yesterday I went for a course, "Effective Master Of Ceremonies"
I got there and realized that it was a late 50's or early 60's man who was teaching us how to speak. I tried to be positive and I guess I learnt some stuff..mostly..I just confirmed what I already knew... Yet..this course actually gave me a renewed want to go back to compereing..the same adrenaline runs when I think of the mic and the stage...
My fren also told me that there was a vacancy in power 98 again...and once again I wonder if I can be a dj... I like my job in SP but what hinders me from really really loving it to death...is the procedures and lack fo funds etc
I know Im staying put where I am for now coz theres still sooo much to learn..but I dont know whether even here, I wud be able to succeed..and if I do go out within the next 5 years...wud I still be able to do what I want..like working in the radio indus? or my songwriting? I guess for the past 1 years..ive stopped searching...but now that these old things are coming back to haunt me...
I wish I had the time and money to go for lessons on songwriting and production etc..I wish I could be such a fast learner....
Father..you have made me to be someone who cant stay put in her chair and needs to explore...Father..how to I satisfy this longing I have?
The gathering yesterday sorta put me down abit..as some gatherings wud start to do..you start comparing urself to others who are more succeessful... Haiz
Anyway..I do know that God put me here for a reason..I know Im being trained and Im trying to shapen myself up...
God Bless
I got there and realized that it was a late 50's or early 60's man who was teaching us how to speak. I tried to be positive and I guess I learnt some stuff..mostly..I just confirmed what I already knew... Yet..this course actually gave me a renewed want to go back to compereing..the same adrenaline runs when I think of the mic and the stage...
My fren also told me that there was a vacancy in power 98 again...and once again I wonder if I can be a dj... I like my job in SP but what hinders me from really really loving it to death...is the procedures and lack fo funds etc
I know Im staying put where I am for now coz theres still sooo much to learn..but I dont know whether even here, I wud be able to succeed..and if I do go out within the next 5 years...wud I still be able to do what I want..like working in the radio indus? or my songwriting? I guess for the past 1 years..ive stopped searching...but now that these old things are coming back to haunt me...
I wish I had the time and money to go for lessons on songwriting and production etc..I wish I could be such a fast learner....
Father..you have made me to be someone who cant stay put in her chair and needs to explore...Father..how to I satisfy this longing I have?
The gathering yesterday sorta put me down abit..as some gatherings wud start to do..you start comparing urself to others who are more succeessful... Haiz
Anyway..I do know that God put me here for a reason..I know Im being trained and Im trying to shapen myself up...
God Bless
Thursday, March 01, 2007
Blog my way to heaven..stop mentioning him...
"what happened to both of you ah?", Hope
"I was at Newcastle and I wanted to contact him...", Roland
"Do you still keep in contact with him?", Roland & Hope
Haiz...no I seldom keep in contact with him..once in a blue moon...seriously...
I want to keep in contact but..its really not advisable so there!
Had a colleague talking about his friend who is younger than him, rich and indian..looking for a wife. Upon this another of my colleague shouts my name repeatedly...like Im supposed to jump for joy, get changed and walk down the aisle hahahahahha ...Is he christian?
This New Year has been a horde of well wishes...or otherwise..eveyrone knowing Im born int he year of the pig..has been wishing me, "Nian Nian You Zhu" directly translated...Year Year Got Pig....Dosnt go too well with my renewed motivation to go gym :/ Hahahah and other wishes include getting married or getting a bf..yahdahyahdah..I in turn wished my boss to get a grandchild soon hahahaha
My bf will drop down from the sky and knock on my door with a bunch of 70% dark dark chocolates, fake flowers that look real and last a lifetime and say, "wassup!" Hahahahha
Seriously..I dont see a rush in it man. But sudden recent reminders of my ex didnt make things better hahahah. Its amazing how Im still closely related to him...aside from the fact that we were attached for awhile and that the whole SAA Dept and other lecturers dotting SP, know about it..and likewise when we broke up. :/
Since the last email with him, Ive more or less cleared the dust and opened the door out of the whole reluctance and longing shingdings ...much as I still believe in us somewhere and somehow (silly of me at times) last thing I wanna do is step into that damned place again Hahahaha
Indian Smindian! So long as its someone who things as crazily as I am and doesnt talk more than me hahahha oh and has to be christian...I'll leave this to God. Even while I "sometimes" think about it... I just tell myself that God knows who Im meant to be with. Why look for something so fervently while the person is already coming to you? Its he's standing on those airport horizontal escalators and you are waiting on the end of it. He is in your clear view and you're still screaming, "Where are you man! I can't freaking see you! Come out come out wherever you are!"
Geez! So I would pray that God prepares me for that moment when I reach there. Till then, I'll go about my own things coz everything I do is preparing me for more things ahead. :) Even the past relationship.
I dont know if anyone knows the movie, If The SHoe Fits...
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0099826/
Its a love story I first watched in the 90's (note the tone of age) I think I was..oh....10-12 then? When sweet love stories used to fit my taste buds...
Aside from Liu Xing Hua Yuen (meteor garden), the anime one ah! This was my next fav...
But even now..these movies are in the back of my system..
Being the silly idealistic romantic, I guess despite my outer expressions, I am still excited about what God would bring to my doorstep and how it would happen hahahha
Would it be someone from school function? old classmate? someone I bump into in the streets and ruins my pants or top, someone that pisses me off at 1st encounter and causes me to fume for days, someone off the net, someone my fren intros seemingly unintentionaly but obviously on purpose, or would it be someone from church etc...Hahahah all the possibilities hahahah Father, you have your way and you have your humour. No doubt the origin of humour and emotions is from you so why shouldnt you be someone who is lamer than all of us combined? Hahahahhaha Ive laughed at your jokes before! Esp those you put on others or me hahahahha
So Father, amuse me! Hahahahhaha
So Yah...I'll wait for the show to start :) Knowing that when it comes, what God wills, will not and can not be defied :)
Whatever it is God, dont give me someone who forces me to eat mushrooms and listen to techno and trance hahaha maybe work within my criteria? Wahahahahahahah
Okay lah damn lame lah.
Anyway tomorrow Im on course.."Effective Master of Ceremony" I will squeeze the course dry and learn the most I can and if I can absorb everything, I'll pass it on to my juniors. One day, the Comperes will have a business, harnessing the best comperes and we will have event organisors eating off our fingers for comperes :P
K gotta get my butt of the office chair.
God Bless
"I was at Newcastle and I wanted to contact him...", Roland
"Do you still keep in contact with him?", Roland & Hope
Haiz...no I seldom keep in contact with him..once in a blue moon...seriously...
I want to keep in contact but..its really not advisable so there!
Had a colleague talking about his friend who is younger than him, rich and indian..looking for a wife. Upon this another of my colleague shouts my name repeatedly...like Im supposed to jump for joy, get changed and walk down the aisle hahahahahha ...Is he christian?
This New Year has been a horde of well wishes...or otherwise..eveyrone knowing Im born int he year of the pig..has been wishing me, "Nian Nian You Zhu" directly translated...Year Year Got Pig....Dosnt go too well with my renewed motivation to go gym :/ Hahahah and other wishes include getting married or getting a bf..yahdahyahdah..I in turn wished my boss to get a grandchild soon hahahaha
My bf will drop down from the sky and knock on my door with a bunch of 70% dark dark chocolates, fake flowers that look real and last a lifetime and say, "wassup!" Hahahahha
Seriously..I dont see a rush in it man. But sudden recent reminders of my ex didnt make things better hahahah. Its amazing how Im still closely related to him...aside from the fact that we were attached for awhile and that the whole SAA Dept and other lecturers dotting SP, know about it..and likewise when we broke up. :/
Since the last email with him, Ive more or less cleared the dust and opened the door out of the whole reluctance and longing shingdings ...much as I still believe in us somewhere and somehow (silly of me at times) last thing I wanna do is step into that damned place again Hahahaha
Indian Smindian! So long as its someone who things as crazily as I am and doesnt talk more than me hahahha oh and has to be christian...I'll leave this to God. Even while I "sometimes" think about it... I just tell myself that God knows who Im meant to be with. Why look for something so fervently while the person is already coming to you? Its he's standing on those airport horizontal escalators and you are waiting on the end of it. He is in your clear view and you're still screaming, "Where are you man! I can't freaking see you! Come out come out wherever you are!"
Geez! So I would pray that God prepares me for that moment when I reach there. Till then, I'll go about my own things coz everything I do is preparing me for more things ahead. :) Even the past relationship.
I dont know if anyone knows the movie, If The SHoe Fits...
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0099826/
Its a love story I first watched in the 90's (note the tone of age) I think I was..oh....10-12 then? When sweet love stories used to fit my taste buds...
Aside from Liu Xing Hua Yuen (meteor garden), the anime one ah! This was my next fav...
But even now..these movies are in the back of my system..
Being the silly idealistic romantic, I guess despite my outer expressions, I am still excited about what God would bring to my doorstep and how it would happen hahahha
Would it be someone from school function? old classmate? someone I bump into in the streets and ruins my pants or top, someone that pisses me off at 1st encounter and causes me to fume for days, someone off the net, someone my fren intros seemingly unintentionaly but obviously on purpose, or would it be someone from church etc...Hahahah all the possibilities hahahah Father, you have your way and you have your humour. No doubt the origin of humour and emotions is from you so why shouldnt you be someone who is lamer than all of us combined? Hahahahhaha Ive laughed at your jokes before! Esp those you put on others or me hahahahha
So Father, amuse me! Hahahahhaha
So Yah...I'll wait for the show to start :) Knowing that when it comes, what God wills, will not and can not be defied :)
Whatever it is God, dont give me someone who forces me to eat mushrooms and listen to techno and trance hahaha maybe work within my criteria? Wahahahahahahah
Okay lah damn lame lah.
Anyway tomorrow Im on course.."Effective Master of Ceremony" I will squeeze the course dry and learn the most I can and if I can absorb everything, I'll pass it on to my juniors. One day, the Comperes will have a business, harnessing the best comperes and we will have event organisors eating off our fingers for comperes :P
K gotta get my butt of the office chair.
God Bless
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