My hp is useless...Im stressed by a mere event and its driving me nuts...
Daddy God, dont let me stop thinking of you because the moment I dont, Satan slips in through the window and drops a whole load of bombs in my room! Daddy..I know Im righteous and saved by Jesus blood so I refuse all this Murphy's law business! MUrphy's law is God's law and Jesus has saved me from being prosecuted byt he old law! So I REFUSE this condemnation business!!!!
I am blessed and the blessed never have a lack of blessings... :).... wiht determination!
Satan you can kiss my pink little ass for all I care~! BAH!
I am blessed and I believe I am! I see hordes of blessings moving toward by truck loads! Unloading their goodness, fulfilling all i need! AMEN!
Call me super positive but how can i not be when my Daddy is the God who created this world, he says that we reign this world....How would me being down and rejected and depressed...show that I reign?!?!?! I will step on sin with a firm footing and heals! pick it up, fold it and throw it intot he bin and satan wouldnt have anything he can do about it.
AMEN!
I order Satan to buy me a new phone!
God Bless!
Monday, March 19, 2007
Thursday, March 15, 2007
ohhh nooo
today I foolishly thought back on some stuff...wats wrong w me ah..haiz....
I cleared my yahoo email inbox, seeing that all of it is notices and no new msgs coming in to say hi. I thought to myself despite being a cold friendsteruser too...that none of us interact..wats the use? Why build a bridge when u dont cross it. I recall how long its been since my best friend and I chat..bit of sourness between us and thats what made it sad for me....Sorry bro...
This few days are hell...too many things...I try my best...I tahan w God's strength and pray for eveyrone for their probs...
Got cookie monstor staring at me...from across the table, awaiting his consultation and angel "Lilo n stitch" spinning tunes for me wahahahah
A&W Bear looking from behind me and etc..my office is my zoo wahahahah
K tummy ready to eat me liao...gotta feed it toblerone dark chocs! Yum!
Rush rush to suntec!
God Bless!
I cleared my yahoo email inbox, seeing that all of it is notices and no new msgs coming in to say hi. I thought to myself despite being a cold friendsteruser too...that none of us interact..wats the use? Why build a bridge when u dont cross it. I recall how long its been since my best friend and I chat..bit of sourness between us and thats what made it sad for me....Sorry bro...
This few days are hell...too many things...I try my best...I tahan w God's strength and pray for eveyrone for their probs...
Got cookie monstor staring at me...from across the table, awaiting his consultation and angel "Lilo n stitch" spinning tunes for me wahahahah
A&W Bear looking from behind me and etc..my office is my zoo wahahahah
K tummy ready to eat me liao...gotta feed it toblerone dark chocs! Yum!
Rush rush to suntec!
God Bless!
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Seratonin, HIT ME!
Went up to the bunch of kids playing the guitar and singing camp songs and told them to tune their guitar....
Got n monster headache..Godzilla is leaning on my left eye and I feel like plucking my eye out, placing it on the table...or simply..sleeping...
My colleague and not so recently found bro, Matt is in his problems...both physically and mentally. Bro, I know reality is hitting u very hard but bare in there..as God's kids we know that God is always there for us. We have to keep believeing that God doesnt sit around and do nothing. Believe that you will be fine...believe that you will be happy with your family and see your kid grow up and and slap every guy that comes up your doorstep...
Reality is different from God's reality and because we are God's kids, washed clean by Jesus Blood...sickness and disease is also caused by Satan...Adam and Eve were intially formed perfect, no sin, no disease, no imperfections, etc..but since that stupid forbidden fruit...sin was let in and Man had to endure sickness, diseases, plagues, hostile plants and animals..every sort of suffering you know is caused by God...
If so, Jesus having died and taken our sins and made us righteous...should clear us of our inflictions. Then what happened to Job?
Did you notice that Job never died? That he got back everything he had at the end? That God allowed Satan to inflict things on him, BUT ordered Satan NOT to touch his life.
SATAN HAS TO LISTEN TO GOD!
I go through my own stuff and at my worst times, I fight the emotions and w gritted teeth, I praise Him...I praise him because He is always there and it is at those times that I feel the most confident that he's there...holding on to the promise...the father's hand...His right hand! Amen!
K need to go off...
God Bless!
Got n monster headache..Godzilla is leaning on my left eye and I feel like plucking my eye out, placing it on the table...or simply..sleeping...
My colleague and not so recently found bro, Matt is in his problems...both physically and mentally. Bro, I know reality is hitting u very hard but bare in there..as God's kids we know that God is always there for us. We have to keep believeing that God doesnt sit around and do nothing. Believe that you will be fine...believe that you will be happy with your family and see your kid grow up and and slap every guy that comes up your doorstep...
Reality is different from God's reality and because we are God's kids, washed clean by Jesus Blood...sickness and disease is also caused by Satan...Adam and Eve were intially formed perfect, no sin, no disease, no imperfections, etc..but since that stupid forbidden fruit...sin was let in and Man had to endure sickness, diseases, plagues, hostile plants and animals..every sort of suffering you know is caused by God...
If so, Jesus having died and taken our sins and made us righteous...should clear us of our inflictions. Then what happened to Job?
Did you notice that Job never died? That he got back everything he had at the end? That God allowed Satan to inflict things on him, BUT ordered Satan NOT to touch his life.
SATAN HAS TO LISTEN TO GOD!
I go through my own stuff and at my worst times, I fight the emotions and w gritted teeth, I praise Him...I praise him because He is always there and it is at those times that I feel the most confident that he's there...holding on to the promise...the father's hand...His right hand! Amen!
K need to go off...
God Bless!
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
I need to blog the &^%$ing anger and frustration
I know its hard coordinating people to do stuff but wats frustrating is when they have a change of plans before telling you....Im stuck with 2 HUGE places to fill and Im drained...mentally....
I cud step up and scold some "ones" but I'll freaking feel bad doing it...but I have to or Im just causing myself more trouble...yes reshuffle reshuffle reshuffle..come on people! Musical chairs please!
we cant make a sound if we dont clap together...
Sorta makes me wish the right people read this blog and got the msg...
*Im really really sorry...hope you understand*
...I understand..thats why I'm not saying anything...if I had more nerves of steel and a metal heart...Id be irritated...and say, " I understand! But do you understand?!?! You promised me a LONG time ago before this! And just coz I didnt remind you, does this mean Im held responsible for it? That its all my fault?!?! No! Its you business too! Because you made a promise to me! And now you're going back on your promise! You should have taken the initiative to record the things you need to do..hence not leaving anything out!
* Im abit scared to do this...I dont think I can do it..Im sorry...can I quit?*
...God help me...How abt me? Can I quit?.....Fine! I give you new duty...you help me coordinate this...then I let you quit....
*background: campfire songs being sung out of tune and raining cats n dogs*
...Thanks Satan...
Maybe because of the singing....
This whole day is soaking with spiritual warfare and while I try to perp myself up, and hold back the frustration and knot in the throat....Im finding it very hard...
Was planning to get my hp fixed tonight...looks like I would have to fly to Plaza Sing instead...but I cant fly..so guess its cancelled..Im just plain giving up..lah lah lah lah lah
Anyway... Im thinking of leaving all my work in the office and going home...seems like a good plan to me.
Despite all this I say with all conviction and singlemindedly.....My God is an AWESOME GOD! Praise His name! No matter how things may turn...I see Him and know that He never lets me out from His sight! AMEN!
God Bless
I cud step up and scold some "ones" but I'll freaking feel bad doing it...but I have to or Im just causing myself more trouble...yes reshuffle reshuffle reshuffle..come on people! Musical chairs please!
we cant make a sound if we dont clap together...
Sorta makes me wish the right people read this blog and got the msg...
*Im really really sorry...hope you understand*
...I understand..thats why I'm not saying anything...if I had more nerves of steel and a metal heart...Id be irritated...and say, " I understand! But do you understand?!?! You promised me a LONG time ago before this! And just coz I didnt remind you, does this mean Im held responsible for it? That its all my fault?!?! No! Its you business too! Because you made a promise to me! And now you're going back on your promise! You should have taken the initiative to record the things you need to do..hence not leaving anything out!
* Im abit scared to do this...I dont think I can do it..Im sorry...can I quit?*
...God help me...How abt me? Can I quit?.....Fine! I give you new duty...you help me coordinate this...then I let you quit....
*background: campfire songs being sung out of tune and raining cats n dogs*
...Thanks Satan...
Maybe because of the singing....
This whole day is soaking with spiritual warfare and while I try to perp myself up, and hold back the frustration and knot in the throat....Im finding it very hard...
Was planning to get my hp fixed tonight...looks like I would have to fly to Plaza Sing instead...but I cant fly..so guess its cancelled..Im just plain giving up..lah lah lah lah lah
Anyway... Im thinking of leaving all my work in the office and going home...seems like a good plan to me.
Despite all this I say with all conviction and singlemindedly.....My God is an AWESOME GOD! Praise His name! No matter how things may turn...I see Him and know that He never lets me out from His sight! AMEN!
God Bless
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Spiritual Warfare...Im telling God about you Satan!
Spiritual warfare is whats been bugging me these few weeks...I guess alot of things are going wrong and anything that goes wrong is without a doubt....satan's fault. Nvr a christians fault even if it was negligence on your part etc...
Matt (my colleague who doesnt mind being named) has been having his tough times and I feel for him...thats pretty much all I know how to do...I hate to say this but Im scared to help him with his work at times because Im sometimes drowning in mine....my work drowniness is often due to my lack of work capabilities. But I will try k bro....I try to help you out....sorry if I have little words to say..
However, I had a good chat w him on saturday and I realize even chatting helps...of course talking to him baout God sometimes...Im abit worried if Im saying the right thing about my beliefs in God..Daddy help..
After the chat...i hope I made his day better and I know I felt better too... :)
My spiritual warfare is the doubts I have about christianity and my aptitude as a christian...do I ahve what it takes to be a christian? why is it most of them are evidently blessed by God with the wisdom and holy spirit etc and I have zilch...or rather...it seems that way...
Alot of people say Im talented (something I count as blessings from God) in alot of stuff which I cant quite see myself...yet what I know I need is God's wisdom...the same wisdom everybody needs and only a certain percentage of people have alot...
I went to church today...abit less enthusiastic..wondering whether I'll learn anything today....I came out...happy. Happy that Im reminded that Im God's child...that He gives me everything I need and want....
By "want" I dont mean...what "I" want.....eg: A kid could run to his dad asking for the Turbo Jet Super Soaker 1500Xtra Maximus (seems cheem ah) The dad looks at him says yes and gets him an inflatable swimming pool and a slide...do we really know what we want? Its like advertising...every company positions their product to fulfill a certain need of their target audience....supersoaker = Need to get wet and have fun = water pool w slide...eveyrone gets wet and has fun....evidently more than what the kid asks for..at times...
I guess God does things that way at times...depending on how he seeks fits...ie:whichever way satisfies us the most.
Lets relate this to real present "year old" times....I cud ask God for my ex now....but only He knows what kind of a guy fits me. Which is why I dont ask for my ex. I just ask God for the right guy.
Psalm 23 (michael jordan's jersey number hahah makes it easy to remember)
The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want...
God evidently fills our wants as well as needs but he fills them realistically...not w a supersoaker that fills our wants temporarily.
I prayed for the baptism of Holy Spirit today...how do you know if you've got it? I know most of my frens are non-christians...so let me explain. Baptism fot he Holy Spirit is not baptism of water or sprinkle of water etc...baptism of water is the public declaration that we are god's children...it is our own want to show publicly that we are god's kids...as my pastor would say it...not baptising in water is fine..because we are already saved if we believe that Jesus is our saviour. Simple..
From my understanding and the pastor's preaching...
Baptism of the Holy Spirit results on speaking in tongues. Speaking in tongues is NOT jibberish (something I otherwise believed long ago) and it is given to any christian who believes in God and asks God for it. Tongues is an unknown language, an uncomprehensible language because it is spiritual language..the language I believe is used in the heavenly places...by speaking in tongues...we speak directly to God through the Holy Spirit. Praying with our own lingo is fine too so long as we pray through Jesus Christ...Jesus will do our intercepting and perfect our prayer before it goes to God our Father. and FOR SURE God grants em.
Praying in tongues...the wonderful thing about it is that the "words" we use are inspired by the Holy Spirit...means the prayer cant go wrong...we dont know what we're praying but rest assured the Holy Spirit has got every word correct.
Take the supersoaker for eg:
jesus and the holy spirit work in the same way...they both know what you really want and need and know just how to say it...like ...ur sister. You want the silly supersoaker..your sister knows you want it but also knows that wont fulfill you..so she gives the best solution..the inflatable pool! She goes to ur dad and tells him for you..with out you having to sheepishly tell him yourself...
In the present times...you may have a classmate or colleague or boss that pisses you off or irritates you or intentionally makes life difficult for you...chances are you'd really wanna pray for him to leave...more often than not you dont...do that coz being a christian you know better....
You may pray in to God for Him to help you with your troubles and help you to control yourself and to help make the reltionship between you and the irritant better...etc
Maybe praying in tongues would sound more like... "Daddy, bless my colleague/boss/classmate/ shower him with blessings, teach him to see your love for him and grace...etc....
As the bible says, "love even your enemies....
I am but a new christian..not as well versed in the bible as my pastors or even my colleagues...and I guess Im worried that what I say here isnt 100% correct....but what I do know is....my God listens to me when I am in need of help and am troubled...He hears my prayers and ALREADY has a solution to it...He doesnt hear your plan and say, "hmmis that so...okay let me see..what can I do to solve this..." He goes," Sit still...Ive known your probs even before you said a word...I saw it coming 2000 years ago and Ive solved it. Sit still, wait and see!"
Amen! Praise my Daddy God!
The pastor prayed for me to be baptised with the Holy Spirit and get tongues and all I ahve to do is believe that I have it already...
Moving on...my dad just made the announcement that we all have to thro away our old stuff because they're gonna be doing a renovation...I cud very well get my own room... :D the trouble now...is figuring what stuff to throw...feel a migraine coming on...Im excited but starting to feel tired too hahahahah
Got the urge to write songs again...havnt had that urge for a long time but this time...God is urging me to write christian ones...I cant play the keyboard or play the guitar well etc...but I do believe that so long as God wants me to do something...he will give me the means to do so well. Amen!
My God is an awesome God!
God Bless!
Matt (my colleague who doesnt mind being named) has been having his tough times and I feel for him...thats pretty much all I know how to do...I hate to say this but Im scared to help him with his work at times because Im sometimes drowning in mine....my work drowniness is often due to my lack of work capabilities. But I will try k bro....I try to help you out....sorry if I have little words to say..
However, I had a good chat w him on saturday and I realize even chatting helps...of course talking to him baout God sometimes...Im abit worried if Im saying the right thing about my beliefs in God..Daddy help..
After the chat...i hope I made his day better and I know I felt better too... :)
My spiritual warfare is the doubts I have about christianity and my aptitude as a christian...do I ahve what it takes to be a christian? why is it most of them are evidently blessed by God with the wisdom and holy spirit etc and I have zilch...or rather...it seems that way...
Alot of people say Im talented (something I count as blessings from God) in alot of stuff which I cant quite see myself...yet what I know I need is God's wisdom...the same wisdom everybody needs and only a certain percentage of people have alot...
I went to church today...abit less enthusiastic..wondering whether I'll learn anything today....I came out...happy. Happy that Im reminded that Im God's child...that He gives me everything I need and want....
By "want" I dont mean...what "I" want.....eg: A kid could run to his dad asking for the Turbo Jet Super Soaker 1500Xtra Maximus (seems cheem ah) The dad looks at him says yes and gets him an inflatable swimming pool and a slide...do we really know what we want? Its like advertising...every company positions their product to fulfill a certain need of their target audience....supersoaker = Need to get wet and have fun = water pool w slide...eveyrone gets wet and has fun....evidently more than what the kid asks for..at times...
I guess God does things that way at times...depending on how he seeks fits...ie:whichever way satisfies us the most.
Lets relate this to real present "year old" times....I cud ask God for my ex now....but only He knows what kind of a guy fits me. Which is why I dont ask for my ex. I just ask God for the right guy.
Psalm 23 (michael jordan's jersey number hahah makes it easy to remember)
The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want...
God evidently fills our wants as well as needs but he fills them realistically...not w a supersoaker that fills our wants temporarily.
I prayed for the baptism of Holy Spirit today...how do you know if you've got it? I know most of my frens are non-christians...so let me explain. Baptism fot he Holy Spirit is not baptism of water or sprinkle of water etc...baptism of water is the public declaration that we are god's children...it is our own want to show publicly that we are god's kids...as my pastor would say it...not baptising in water is fine..because we are already saved if we believe that Jesus is our saviour. Simple..
From my understanding and the pastor's preaching...
Baptism of the Holy Spirit results on speaking in tongues. Speaking in tongues is NOT jibberish (something I otherwise believed long ago) and it is given to any christian who believes in God and asks God for it. Tongues is an unknown language, an uncomprehensible language because it is spiritual language..the language I believe is used in the heavenly places...by speaking in tongues...we speak directly to God through the Holy Spirit. Praying with our own lingo is fine too so long as we pray through Jesus Christ...Jesus will do our intercepting and perfect our prayer before it goes to God our Father. and FOR SURE God grants em.
Praying in tongues...the wonderful thing about it is that the "words" we use are inspired by the Holy Spirit...means the prayer cant go wrong...we dont know what we're praying but rest assured the Holy Spirit has got every word correct.
Take the supersoaker for eg:
jesus and the holy spirit work in the same way...they both know what you really want and need and know just how to say it...like ...ur sister. You want the silly supersoaker..your sister knows you want it but also knows that wont fulfill you..so she gives the best solution..the inflatable pool! She goes to ur dad and tells him for you..with out you having to sheepishly tell him yourself...
In the present times...you may have a classmate or colleague or boss that pisses you off or irritates you or intentionally makes life difficult for you...chances are you'd really wanna pray for him to leave...more often than not you dont...do that coz being a christian you know better....
You may pray in to God for Him to help you with your troubles and help you to control yourself and to help make the reltionship between you and the irritant better...etc
Maybe praying in tongues would sound more like... "Daddy, bless my colleague/boss/classmate/ shower him with blessings, teach him to see your love for him and grace...etc....
As the bible says, "love even your enemies....
I am but a new christian..not as well versed in the bible as my pastors or even my colleagues...and I guess Im worried that what I say here isnt 100% correct....but what I do know is....my God listens to me when I am in need of help and am troubled...He hears my prayers and ALREADY has a solution to it...He doesnt hear your plan and say, "hmmis that so...okay let me see..what can I do to solve this..." He goes," Sit still...Ive known your probs even before you said a word...I saw it coming 2000 years ago and Ive solved it. Sit still, wait and see!"
Amen! Praise my Daddy God!
The pastor prayed for me to be baptised with the Holy Spirit and get tongues and all I ahve to do is believe that I have it already...
Moving on...my dad just made the announcement that we all have to thro away our old stuff because they're gonna be doing a renovation...I cud very well get my own room... :D the trouble now...is figuring what stuff to throw...feel a migraine coming on...Im excited but starting to feel tired too hahahahah
Got the urge to write songs again...havnt had that urge for a long time but this time...God is urging me to write christian ones...I cant play the keyboard or play the guitar well etc...but I do believe that so long as God wants me to do something...he will give me the means to do so well. Amen!
My God is an awesome God!
God Bless!
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