Time check: 0114
Why the hell am I still up? Hmmm
Decided to take a break from work to listen to music. Tonight's choice...indian music :)
Decided to be more productive in saving money...every day's budget is arnd $10. Thanks to the lack of lunch partners w private transport, the lunch these days has been in-school. Hence its been easy on my pocket. Time to think further than next year...
FYI..my price range on food:
#1: $1-10
#2: $11-20
#3: $21-30
#4: $31-50
#5: $51 & above aka ARE U FREAKING KIDDING ME?!?! aka godly prices
Had an SP staff walk up to me and call me by my full name. He asked if I was 1 of the cast in SuperStar. Asked if I was full chinese or mixed.
Ning: yah Im full chinese..ehmm u are?
Staff: Oh Im full chinese too!
Ning: Oh and your name is?
Staff: Oh I'm L.......
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My frens think Ive got a fan..I just think he's got the wrong girl. Estelle was the eventual Kay..not me!!! Geez! Why do I always get the weird ones liking me? From my records, I can count 1 harmless but freaky stalker, 2 malays, 1 touchy feely nerd, 1 filipino chef, 2 indian chekopeh uncles and a bunch of drinking buddie uncles near the MRT. DAMN!!!
Its good to have a birds eye view of the whole estate and beyond... :) Makes me feel peaceful...go figure but its true! Then again, its one fo the places that makes me do alot of thinking..sometimes unnecessary....
Wonder how everyone I know around the world is doing...hmmmm
Had a nice session w my bros in the jam room and them being musicians...tend to go w the flow and I guess thats what I like abt real musicians..going w the flow. It started w the keyboard and the guitar came in and added a special touch and edge to it and as I did my work, I tried to sing a tune and put some words into it. The most amzing part of it..is that all 3 of us were doing impromptu to each other and there wasnt any song we were playing to. Uber cool (a phrase I learnt) The last time I had that chance to express myself..was when Jimmy auditioned me and made me sing as he played off the top of his head..he followed my tempo and all and I inturn did the same. I was the happiest then. :) All respect to Jimmy! In fcat I havnt sopken much abt my most recent event..NDOC. once again...UBER COOL!!!! Some other time I'll speak of it.. Remind me hor
Just cleared my stuff and found my old diaries....the last I wrote was beginning this year I think...Guess Ive been so into blogging that writing a diary wasnt necessary anymore but I still wanna keep writing on it because its something I wanna keep for whoever it is that comes after me :P maybe niece, maybe granddaughter/daughter, maybe god daughter or something..dunno lah! Just wanna do it. :P
K better go finish my work...
God Bless
Friday, August 24, 2007
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Damn the aluminium chairs
SUPER long story but too tired to talk abt it now...
too many things in my mind that its only when i sit down now, that I know what I forgot to do...forgot to say my prayers...Need help from God.
God please help me find aluminium chairs!!!! and a cheap BBQ pit! And a sponsor for my ISC events! and while your at it...maybe someone to love. Wahahahahahahaha
Yap..Im bored.
Saw to new faces this weekend, my fren's son..my godson..and my cousin's daughter..my niece. Both beyond walking...less than 1 year old man!
K anyway...I better leave my fren's house... gotta go!
God Bless!
too many things in my mind that its only when i sit down now, that I know what I forgot to do...forgot to say my prayers...Need help from God.
God please help me find aluminium chairs!!!! and a cheap BBQ pit! And a sponsor for my ISC events! and while your at it...maybe someone to love. Wahahahahahahaha
Yap..Im bored.
Saw to new faces this weekend, my fren's son..my godson..and my cousin's daughter..my niece. Both beyond walking...less than 1 year old man!
K anyway...I better leave my fren's house... gotta go!
God Bless!
Monday, August 20, 2007
Monday
Im groggy.....packed my room till 12 last night....packed till 3pm on sat night.
Thankfully I didnt really doze off during church...
Im super super tired man....dont feel like working today but bo pian...have to work...
Times like these I guess I really need to pray for God's strength to empower me.
Cant wait for 10am to take a short break....
God Bless
Thankfully I didnt really doze off during church...
Im super super tired man....dont feel like working today but bo pian...have to work...
Times like these I guess I really need to pray for God's strength to empower me.
Cant wait for 10am to take a short break....
God Bless
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Manamanah...tu..tu..tututu
An Idiot's conversation with God...
I: God? Is that really you?
G: Yes my child.
I: Its been a while since Ive spoken to you...
G: Its been awhile since you listened to be too..
I: Yah..I know...
*silence*
I: God...are you still there?
G: Im always here
I: How come I dont feel it at times?
G: Cause you've to caught up with worldy matters!
I:Ive got too much to do God...I feel like taking a break...
G: Then why dont you?
I: Cause if I do, I'll get lazy and everything Im trying to maintain...will get out of control
G: Dont forget that Im in control of everything
I: Then how come Murphy always likes to mess things up for me
G: Murphy is Satan. He likes to play tricks with you...Its his forte
I: Murphy & Satan need to get a life
G: All pun intended I assume
I: why cant you stop Satan/Murphy from irritating me
G: Because you dont trust that I can
I: I do trust you
G: Not enough to leave your worries with me and believe I can handle it. Everytime you worry abt things and stressed, its evidence that you want to do something abt it..even when you cant. You want to rely on your own strength & capabilities...
I: I cant help it. I worry alot!
G: Cast your worries onto me...Dont be stressed...Or I'll give you more white hair! Wahahah
I: God...not funny....
G: Fine...But I meant what I said abt casting worries onto me...When the sea that you stand on gets choppy...LOOK at me and focus on me...Most importantly..read the bible.
I: Okay...
G: I Love You
I: I love you too God. Sorry for being an idiot...
G: Sometimes..its the smart ones that dont get it. At least you're idiosy makes you humble...
I: Thanks ah...Love you..See you around
G: Count on it.
God Bless
I: God? Is that really you?
G: Yes my child.
I: Its been a while since Ive spoken to you...
G: Its been awhile since you listened to be too..
I: Yah..I know...
*silence*
I: God...are you still there?
G: Im always here
I: How come I dont feel it at times?
G: Cause you've to caught up with worldy matters!
I:Ive got too much to do God...I feel like taking a break...
G: Then why dont you?
I: Cause if I do, I'll get lazy and everything Im trying to maintain...will get out of control
G: Dont forget that Im in control of everything
I: Then how come Murphy always likes to mess things up for me
G: Murphy is Satan. He likes to play tricks with you...Its his forte
I: Murphy & Satan need to get a life
G: All pun intended I assume
I: why cant you stop Satan/Murphy from irritating me
G: Because you dont trust that I can
I: I do trust you
G: Not enough to leave your worries with me and believe I can handle it. Everytime you worry abt things and stressed, its evidence that you want to do something abt it..even when you cant. You want to rely on your own strength & capabilities...
I: I cant help it. I worry alot!
G: Cast your worries onto me...Dont be stressed...Or I'll give you more white hair! Wahahah
I: God...not funny....
G: Fine...But I meant what I said abt casting worries onto me...When the sea that you stand on gets choppy...LOOK at me and focus on me...Most importantly..read the bible.
I: Okay...
G: I Love You
I: I love you too God. Sorry for being an idiot...
G: Sometimes..its the smart ones that dont get it. At least you're idiosy makes you humble...
I: Thanks ah...Love you..See you around
G: Count on it.
God Bless
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
When your blog entries are named byt he day you write it..thats when you know you've got a writers block...
My right ear is blocked...my nose is blocked..im on lozenges diet...
work work work....money money money....stress stress stress
Been sick..on & off...its exams time for allt he rest so even I am waitng for exams to be over...havnt caught teh simpsons movie and ratoutuille (however its called)
within this week, heard Richard marx, Right Here Waiting twice....thats been months of not hearing it hahahah still good to me. Amen!
Wish I had enough money to travel the world and visit my relatives in america, hong kong, australia etc...its been such a long time since I saw them...Hope they're doing well...
Yet...I know I need the money to study....
God Bless
work work work....money money money....stress stress stress
Been sick..on & off...its exams time for allt he rest so even I am waitng for exams to be over...havnt caught teh simpsons movie and ratoutuille (however its called)
within this week, heard Richard marx, Right Here Waiting twice....thats been months of not hearing it hahahah still good to me. Amen!
Wish I had enough money to travel the world and visit my relatives in america, hong kong, australia etc...its been such a long time since I saw them...Hope they're doing well...
Yet...I know I need the money to study....
God Bless
Monday, August 13, 2007
Sick...Boo hooo
The whole weekend was eventful and yet sickening at the same time...
Went to sentosa on sat despite the sore throat and runny nose in the wee hours of the morning. Told myself that God will heal....He did! Enough for me to have some fun on sat...then sat night it got worse abit...but sun morning it was almost okay....fluctuations...
Within 15mins of standing next to a girl in church, the poor girl got the bug...Im sorry...gave her a pack of tissue as apologies....
Because of this battle with flu, I was very tired the whole sunday.....
Even now, Ive got this blockage in my abs area that stops me from taking a deeper breathe....hmmm
Anyway...back in work...got loads to do!
God Bless!
Went to sentosa on sat despite the sore throat and runny nose in the wee hours of the morning. Told myself that God will heal....He did! Enough for me to have some fun on sat...then sat night it got worse abit...but sun morning it was almost okay....fluctuations...
Within 15mins of standing next to a girl in church, the poor girl got the bug...Im sorry...gave her a pack of tissue as apologies....
Because of this battle with flu, I was very tired the whole sunday.....
Even now, Ive got this blockage in my abs area that stops me from taking a deeper breathe....hmmm
Anyway...back in work...got loads to do!
God Bless!
Friday, August 10, 2007
Goals
Goals to set for myself this year & next...
1) Earn at least 50% of my school fees for further studying
2) Go to gym often or take up a new sport
3) learn something new
4) Improve my make-up skills
5) get Comperes up to its golden glory years
6) work my heart out for at least these 2 years to gain as much experieince as possible...
7) get back to songwriting...
8) Improve on singing
Looking at these goals..I doubt I can do it all by next year...lets see....I'll try for...
1, 2,4,6,5....
the rest....3,7,8...might have to wait..
The best thng abt all this...Im sooo glad I have God to be there....
He is fulfilling my dreams in due time..even the Poly Forum bit and the cruise bit hahaha :)
God Bless!
Ning
1) Earn at least 50% of my school fees for further studying
2) Go to gym often or take up a new sport
3) learn something new
4) Improve my make-up skills
5) get Comperes up to its golden glory years
6) work my heart out for at least these 2 years to gain as much experieince as possible...
7) get back to songwriting...
8) Improve on singing
Looking at these goals..I doubt I can do it all by next year...lets see....I'll try for...
1, 2,4,6,5....
the rest....3,7,8...might have to wait..
The best thng abt all this...Im sooo glad I have God to be there....
He is fulfilling my dreams in due time..even the Poly Forum bit and the cruise bit hahaha :)
God Bless!
Ning
NDOC
Did NDOC last week...National Day Observance Ceremony
It was a blast...confusing at 1st because of how much I wanted comperes to be part of it and yet it didnt really work...
All in all however, I had immense fun doing it and Im thankful Caleb (my co-host) was game enough to follow along. If I scrutinize myself...I know I did alot of things wrongly...said the wrong stuff, left my compere in the lurch and etc...Im a mean co-host really...
The junior comperes were there to see me host and I only hope for one thing to be passed on to them...that every chance they get, they gotta let it go and make the event their own....the energy inside them....
Alot fo things are changing...my close fren/bro/abuser is gonna be changing job soon...I understand all that, given that he's not exactly in the pink of health and his boss is giving him ahard time..etc...I pray he gets rest and becomes his dandy healthy self again...that his kids grow up strong and alike him. Etc :) Cant say much now...will do soon... :P
Btw..thanks for being the pillar of faith to God that you display constantly... :)
Been having email conversations w my ex..via frenster. I believe that through the years, God has brought me up to a stage where Im fine w where I am and how we are. I am really happy that I can still speak to him like a brother. I talked to him abt alot of things..except my "love life" if any and likewise...and its soo easy to mention past people who both know and talk abt them...he even asks abt my parents, auntie and sis..like how I ask abt his mum, cousins etc...\
Maybe its just me being open and asking him abt them...maybe he doesnt feel comfortable abt answering..and maybe us talking online helps us feel more at ease... :)
I value the honesty....I also believe that God has my future within his sight and as I cast my cares to Him, he finds the best way for me. :)
I know I had a dream last night..abt the world being invaded by Decepticons and me running away from them with a bunch of people..prob is I dont rememebr who they are...my relatives...my bf....and who this bf is..I cant remember..I just wonder if it was really him. Hahahahahaha
Anyway...alot of people are coming back in December...him included. I might be going to Medan at that time...for Overseas Comm Service..so it really seems like all of us are gonn have a hard time meeting up.
Went to my cousin's place to see her new house and newborn. :) The little one is soo cute that I cant even bear to hold her....She's so fragile that I dont trust my own strength to hold her...
My cousin and I looked at the little one lying in her cot and when she opened her eyes and I introduced my cousin to her, "this is alan" Alan, " and this is ning."
Wonder when my sis wud get married and have a kid..I'll play w her every day... :) I'll Luv her and Squeeze her and Hug her and Dress her...(Almira, Animaniacs)
To all whom I know and often forget abt...and forget their birthdays and forget to drop a mail or sms to...Im sorry...I do remember you and the next time I walk on the street, I hope to see you and give you a hug. Its a fri today!
God Bless!
It was a blast...confusing at 1st because of how much I wanted comperes to be part of it and yet it didnt really work...
All in all however, I had immense fun doing it and Im thankful Caleb (my co-host) was game enough to follow along. If I scrutinize myself...I know I did alot of things wrongly...said the wrong stuff, left my compere in the lurch and etc...Im a mean co-host really...
The junior comperes were there to see me host and I only hope for one thing to be passed on to them...that every chance they get, they gotta let it go and make the event their own....the energy inside them....
Alot fo things are changing...my close fren/bro/abuser is gonna be changing job soon...I understand all that, given that he's not exactly in the pink of health and his boss is giving him ahard time..etc...I pray he gets rest and becomes his dandy healthy self again...that his kids grow up strong and alike him. Etc :) Cant say much now...will do soon... :P
Btw..thanks for being the pillar of faith to God that you display constantly... :)
Been having email conversations w my ex..via frenster. I believe that through the years, God has brought me up to a stage where Im fine w where I am and how we are. I am really happy that I can still speak to him like a brother. I talked to him abt alot of things..except my "love life" if any and likewise...and its soo easy to mention past people who both know and talk abt them...he even asks abt my parents, auntie and sis..like how I ask abt his mum, cousins etc...\
Maybe its just me being open and asking him abt them...maybe he doesnt feel comfortable abt answering..and maybe us talking online helps us feel more at ease... :)
I value the honesty....I also believe that God has my future within his sight and as I cast my cares to Him, he finds the best way for me. :)
I know I had a dream last night..abt the world being invaded by Decepticons and me running away from them with a bunch of people..prob is I dont rememebr who they are...my relatives...my bf....and who this bf is..I cant remember..I just wonder if it was really him. Hahahahahaha
Anyway...alot of people are coming back in December...him included. I might be going to Medan at that time...for Overseas Comm Service..so it really seems like all of us are gonn have a hard time meeting up.
Went to my cousin's place to see her new house and newborn. :) The little one is soo cute that I cant even bear to hold her....She's so fragile that I dont trust my own strength to hold her...
My cousin and I looked at the little one lying in her cot and when she opened her eyes and I introduced my cousin to her, "this is alan" Alan, " and this is ning."
Wonder when my sis wud get married and have a kid..I'll play w her every day... :) I'll Luv her and Squeeze her and Hug her and Dress her...(Almira, Animaniacs)
To all whom I know and often forget abt...and forget their birthdays and forget to drop a mail or sms to...Im sorry...I do remember you and the next time I walk on the street, I hope to see you and give you a hug. Its a fri today!
God Bless!
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
Headache.....
Had headache yesterday..it was soo bad it left me queasy and handicapped....mentally....
wanted toget a chinese/english bible that will allow me to improvemy chinese and read god's word...will it help? dunno...but god's word is the best thing to read compared to the news paper... I know I dont need fantastic chinese to compare...
Tom is NDOC..abit nervous coz Im rusty...I'll try my best....Tom the media is also coming so its a doubly stressful affair....
Been looking at furture education....money is the prob and work is the next. Wondering if id have to stop working here and focus on studies. Might be the best way...but all I know is that I have little money now....If theres anything I wanna study...its radio...mass comm with radio and video production in it. I wanna believe God for the eventual supply of money to further study....I want to believe in Him for the wisdom and time to study..and I want to believe in Him for the supply of allowance during the years that I study... After all as the bible says....do not worry about what you shall eat and the clothes you will wear...He will provide.
Even in the times that we get into trouble and are surrounded by bad things that can blow up at our faces....He prepares a table for us...He still provides...
God Bless
wanted toget a chinese/english bible that will allow me to improvemy chinese and read god's word...will it help? dunno...but god's word is the best thing to read compared to the news paper... I know I dont need fantastic chinese to compare...
Tom is NDOC..abit nervous coz Im rusty...I'll try my best....Tom the media is also coming so its a doubly stressful affair....
Been looking at furture education....money is the prob and work is the next. Wondering if id have to stop working here and focus on studies. Might be the best way...but all I know is that I have little money now....If theres anything I wanna study...its radio...mass comm with radio and video production in it. I wanna believe God for the eventual supply of money to further study....I want to believe in Him for the wisdom and time to study..and I want to believe in Him for the supply of allowance during the years that I study... After all as the bible says....do not worry about what you shall eat and the clothes you will wear...He will provide.
Even in the times that we get into trouble and are surrounded by bad things that can blow up at our faces....He prepares a table for us...He still provides...
God Bless
Monday, August 06, 2007
I feel pukey...
Is that how its spelt?
I am drained and in pain...head hurts like crazy...makes me feel queasy...
Supposed to go and get my bible today..a chinese n english one...
Realized that Ive got a bunch of pool cue sticks broken....if i find out who, I'll break the idiots stick..all bloody puns intended! Not to mention the ones who stick 20cent coins into the $1 coin slot to get a cheap game...my imagination is quite good nowadays...
Anyway..Im super tired..head pounding like the african drums...except theres no stopping till I rain puke....
Okay thats abt it...got a bloody presentation to finish...God help me to do this presentation wel...all in all, do my job well...
God Bless! *ouch*
Ning
I am drained and in pain...head hurts like crazy...makes me feel queasy...
Supposed to go and get my bible today..a chinese n english one...
Realized that Ive got a bunch of pool cue sticks broken....if i find out who, I'll break the idiots stick..all bloody puns intended! Not to mention the ones who stick 20cent coins into the $1 coin slot to get a cheap game...my imagination is quite good nowadays...
Anyway..Im super tired..head pounding like the african drums...except theres no stopping till I rain puke....
Okay thats abt it...got a bloody presentation to finish...God help me to do this presentation wel...all in all, do my job well...
God Bless! *ouch*
Ning
Friday, August 03, 2007
Before & After Christ...
Before
The stage is my holy ground
The mic is my life line
My words are my sermon
The script is my Bible
After
The church is holy ground
God's teachings are my lifeline
Also my sermon
The Bible is my bible.
Stuff and nonsense
The stage is my holy ground
The mic is my life line
My words are my sermon
The script is my Bible
After
The church is holy ground
God's teachings are my lifeline
Also my sermon
The Bible is my bible.
Stuff and nonsense
Dont have much to say...
Damn busy...very very very busy until abit immobile....How ah...
Next wed got NDOC event..Im hosting with an SB Colleague. :P Emm dont know how to handle it but I hope the evnt goes well coz just thinking of it makes me nervous...How ah?
Clifford came back for a few weeks and trained the students for awhile.. the compere juniors still need training....SERIOUSLY....how ah?
Spoke to my ex on friendster. can tell he's mellowed down through the years.or maybe mellowed down in terms of communication with me...Im fine I guess...tring t sound as happy as I can, maybe to psyche myself up and sound that Im back to my :ningadingaling" self...He's coming back for holi in dec....how ah? Hahhahaha I thank God for keeping me strong!
Going on a cruise for Poly Forum soon. Didnt get to go during my school years but Im going this time. After which, got a leadership training camp to malaysia in Sept and Comm service trip overseas in dec...how ah?
I want to study but got no money..how ah?
Hahahah soo many HOw ahs....Praise God for his provision to clear these hows!
God bless allt he frens Ive had but havnt caught up with.bless those who are happy and those who are going through rough times...
God Bless
Next wed got NDOC event..Im hosting with an SB Colleague. :P Emm dont know how to handle it but I hope the evnt goes well coz just thinking of it makes me nervous...How ah?
Clifford came back for a few weeks and trained the students for awhile.. the compere juniors still need training....SERIOUSLY....how ah?
Spoke to my ex on friendster. can tell he's mellowed down through the years.or maybe mellowed down in terms of communication with me...Im fine I guess...tring t sound as happy as I can, maybe to psyche myself up and sound that Im back to my :ningadingaling" self...He's coming back for holi in dec....how ah? Hahhahaha I thank God for keeping me strong!
Going on a cruise for Poly Forum soon. Didnt get to go during my school years but Im going this time. After which, got a leadership training camp to malaysia in Sept and Comm service trip overseas in dec...how ah?
I want to study but got no money..how ah?
Hahahah soo many HOw ahs....Praise God for his provision to clear these hows!
God bless allt he frens Ive had but havnt caught up with.bless those who are happy and those who are going through rough times...
God Bless
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