Music is the only universal language...

Its been soooo long since Ive had the same insatiable thirst for a song that would coz me to utter straight from the heart "this is god sent" Ive found 1!
~Maisha~ by Idan Raichel Project
Its a deep deep sound that sank right into my heart...I soo wanna perform this song ..in swahili..



A song my dear dear brothers love at this moment is 21 Guns by Green Day. BUT its the American Idiot Musical Version. Hear and you will know...



To fully enjoy these 2 songs (in my own opinon)..close the room door, off  the lights, blast the sound system...lie down, close ur eyes and ENJOY!!

Both of these songs speak about humans needing to look further than their own horizons..further than their own issues..to issues that are more heartbreaking than politics/world economy etc...

Yes this i wat has been speaking to me for the past 2 months. Maybe its a task that God wants me to work towards...

BTW..language difference is nvr a barrier from world music. Its an excuse.

:) :) :)

God Bless!

Maybe we're not better than ICS

Went to ICS dance competition a long time back and I remembered feeling relieved that ICS's emcees were not good. (no offence to the club. I do like your dances and etc but emceeing isnt ur forte) I remembered telling Jas that Im glad our emcees are better...

Today I fell flat on my face. Maybe its my fault that i didnt brief them abt event flow. I guess I figured that they would find things out on their own...

Im more dissappointed with myself....not being able to guide them...not knowing when to let go...letting go at the wrong time...
And at hte same time Im frustrated with them...and it sucks coz I dnt want to regret saying what I feel like saying now..knowing that most of what I say wud be unfair..it wud be "angry talk"

Dont know how many times Ive screwed things up so bad and this time..I feel like Ive done my worst... Somehow I feel like Im the one who screwed up the show. I feel like it was my event and Id flopped.

Ian is right...I cant be micromanaging anymore..I cant keep my hand there to keep them afloat... I cant..but...

Yah fine im emoing!!! Yes I know what else you're gonna say after that and all I can say is " Im not ready yet" and yes I can see the eyes rolling

From the likes of it..I dont think i want to be a parent anytime soon...Id pamper the kid too much...Id create a rebel child because that kid would find me too stiffling. He'd be so criticised that he'd hate me and hate my nagging. Id end up passing down the family tradition of petty emotions, "scold before reason", silent treatments etc

I wish I cud say sorry to somebody...but...no matter who I say it to right now...it wont matter...the shows already over.

God, I cast this worry to you...not cause I dont want to care about it anymore...but because you can do so much more than I can. Where I am not..you are. Where I cant help in, you can. Where I dont know how to instruct...you do. I cast them to you because I know so little and you know sooo much.
I cast them to you because theres 1 of me and you are omni-present.
God...I cast it to you because theres not point in me worrying....it wont bring back time..it wont make thigns better.

God Bless

Yah spent the whole day with bro.

Wasnt meant to be that way but Im glad it did...coz I had a long and enriching chat w my brother that...it sorta cleansed my soul. It brought me outta work and into what really matters..family and friends.

I dont know how to describe it but alot of things have been happening around me and the more I chatted w my brother abt serious stuff nd abt silly things etc...the more I felt so privileged and honored to have him and the rest as my family. Albeit not the genetial family...but family in my heart nonetheless.

And as I walked back home...(not doing what I had planned to do to start with) I thought of all those who call me Ning Jie..those who call me sister and how truly honored I am to know them and have that kind of status in their eyes.

Yes Im really honestly truthfully not fit to be a big sister..when i cant even manage my own life...and because of thiss..I further reminded abt how blessed I am to have this bunch of people in my lives.

In fact...it isnt just those who call me *sister*...but those who treat me/regard me as 1. That itself is enough to make me feel blessed!

And the more blessed part is that I see them in their own situations and how blessed they are (christian or not) and I feel even more blessed to have them as a friend or sibling!

Mosst of them dnt know how blessed they are. Most of them dont know how blessed they make pple feel..around them.

Im truly honored to be the sister of those who would regard me as 1...the me who at times doesnt deserve all this blessedness..this favour..this grace.

Truly Jesus had given me the chance to obtain favour in others eyes...

I will try my hardest to be the good sister...

Thanks Jesus for your amazing grace. :)

I blew my top again..

Im sorry God...I blew my top...

I was soooo angry! I was pissed! Its so unfair that the seniors have to suffer so much when the juniors dnt seem like they apreciate it! And we're not even expecting them to say thank you all the time!

I normally bitch on an A4 paper and stuff it somewhere until Im less pissed..before I voice my opinion...but this time...I really needed to let it out...

Im sorry for being so impatient...Im sorry for letting the evil side of me come through w hurting words...

We all know that in this case it isnt just the recevier who hurts..but also the sender...

My Bullshit Button!

Watched Imaginarium of Doctor Parnissus yesterday night w Franceen, Peiyan and YQ. By the end of the show, we concluded that Health Ledger died because he was confused by the movie and script.haha

Also bought myself a "bullshit alert" button! hehehehehe So everytime someone says something ridiculous..I'll activate the siren! Hahahahaha

So I also got my head straightened out :) Somehow things are clearer to me now. Wont credit it to the imaginarium if thats what you;re thinking...hahaha I did do abit of writing. And amazingly enough..writing does help ur mind process thoughts hahaha. So I sorta know what to do now and I know what I wont do. :)

Im gonna keep to what God says.

Wed today! lunchshow! after that..basketball! :)

Time to meet make more friends as my dear brother would say. :)

God Bless

I tried..but it was too hard. So many fav pic!

Very nice shot of the SP String Ensemble. Classical Renaissance 9 - 2009

Night performance at the Singapore Intl Water Festival - 2009

Intl Students Freshmen Orientation 2009

Christmas trip to JB 2008

Christmas Party 2008 w Comperes at Esplanade

Sp Makeup Artists doing Open House's Fashion Show 2009

SPARC Christmas Party 2008

Random shot w Sam on last day of LOST Camp for SPARC & Comperes

Open House 2010 w comperes n their new EMCEE Tee

Ipoh waterfall abseiling (me on right)

SPARC in jail for misconduct. Parliment House Tour 2008

ended up studying at esplanade

So yesterday I was soo bored and so tired of being in school w students...I took the train and decided to stop at Raffles place...walked to Esplanade.

Beautiful sunset behind me as I walked...it was uplifting really. Sorta reminds me how beautiful the world is if we only look around. Thank God for these little beautiful things that subconsciously affect our mood. :) Yes colour has an effect on us.

Had my mp3 player so as I walked..I sang :) softly of course.

Pity there wasnt any outdoor performances...haiz..sat down took out my audio tech notes (yah Im trying to learn) and did my studying.

Of course without a table and comfy seat..studying didnt go very well but I tried. hahaha

Im thankful for allt he events Ive done lah..without those..I wudnt have a real life example to learn by. I know u guys are asking why Id be learning allt hat..afterall, Ive got students and external help to handle the system..

I guess...I am interested to learn coz I know how much I am into performing. And maybe 1 day Id be able to work my own sound system. No offence tot he sound guy buddies i have like winston, rush, wan, ryan, dhanish, yq etc haha I is incredulously impressed by u guys!

BTW...fav song today: Lighthouse family's version of Aint No Sunshine. FABULOUS!! listen to it behind closed doors, dim lights, sound system full blast, lounge chair and champagne in hand. :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r920QgrvfQU

God Bless!

monday again and i dont feel like working...

Feeling lazy...want to start work but body too lazy to move nad brain too lazy to start generating ideas and being productive....

Had a bad dream last night and it sorta got to me in the morning..so now Ive got a feeling in the pits of me that refuses to go away for now. Sigh... Always happens when I have something enfixed in my brain before I sleep.

I know I have alot of things i need to settle and because i know..and my brain wnt work...I sorta feel a double guiltiness of not doing so. hahahaaha...k not funny..

K no seriously...because of my dream and my lack of motivation..I know I have to turn to God. Popped in some hillsongs and its amazing how those songs can lift my spirit up..put me back at ease...

I learnt something abt human nature recently. thatt eh lack of love makes a person smaller and more easily fooled. And this lack of love causes a person to find love at the wrong places. Some look to material things..some look to gangs...some take love so frivilously...picking off physical love from pple as and when they can...
All coz they never found love in the comfort of their own homes and they never knew God's love.

I know I havnt been the most stable person..emotionally..and thats why all the more I depend on God..bask in his love...like how I do eveyrtime i sing int eh church choir..as we lead the congregation...we ourselves feel His love.

And after that...its as if..we lose the need to find love in other places....coz he is the ultimate form of love. Agape. Im not saying I'll be single for life. hahahha Im saying that I dont lack the insecurity that others might have..because my security lies in His hands..His works..His grace..His love. :)

And after listening to hillsongs....and thinking of God's love for us...I believe this day can only get better...somehow as I type this..my heavy heart is slowly lightened and the effects that my dream had on me...is slowly lifting too. :) Maybe today wudnt be such a bad day after all!

I dont know abt other Gods but I know mine is great!

God Bless!