The start of the hurricane

Sooo...This is the last day before the hurricane. Tomorrow its war against time and anxiety...

As a student we probably dont think much of the events that SP really hosts often because it seems alot easier than it is. Then as you become a staff you realize just how much work needs to be done to pull off a 30min program even.

Maybe we never got it..we never understood, never appreciated until we got into clubs and had to roganise our own and go through allt he stress and swear to never do it again...when we think abt it some events that are done..ahev to be repeated year after year..no point swearing and promise not to do it..you just have to.

I guess the staff of SP do wanna make life fun for students even if they sometimes...most of hte times dont understand...

BUT when is it time to say enough of serving them stuff on silverware...when do we stop? if we are too blind to stop when they dont appreciate it...then have we lost our aim to start with?
have we been doing it for the students or for ourselves?

Think of it in any form of service...even mrt service...
Some people just dont deserve courtesy because they cant get it through their heads.

Well thats me...I guess at times where I know effort is wasted..then why do it?

Which is abt like american film..stereotypical problematic youth who dont study when its a waste of time and nobody would see htem as normal youth...so why not go out and work in watever you can find and just earn what you can...aint it?

Hmm theory....

Been abit mellow on life drive hahaha stepped into my room and looked at my stuff and said.."since when did I build a storeroom...time to clear....but where to start?
So many things mean to me in so many ways...

Also it occured to me that its been 2 years since I wrote a song...rare for someone who always wished she could write her own songs...do inspiration? maybe dont want to do back into emo-ness while I write..and then end up thinking back..haiz...

speaking of past..had a student come to my office today and he was just chatting w me and all which is fine! Then he started asking these qns abt my ex and I hahahah..yeah they sorta know the story...since I came in before the year3s (who know my history) left.
Emmm not feeling sad or what. Feelings are feelings and they will still be there but in lesser amounts so Im fine. :) Just leads me to wonder.."what now?"

guess when you reach a certain age...you ask yourself and others ask you.. "when?"

I choose to say, "when it comes, it comes" I wont rush it or go guy shopping etc hahaha not that i can buy one...but..you get what i mean! I choose to believe that God sends.

And dont tell me abt " God doesnt help those who help themselves" The Bible didnt say that. Benjamin Franklin said it.
In what case..even if it was said in the Bible, the interpretation of it is different because its true that If we dont believe that Jesus saved us and He loves us, then we are not God's children and therefore...as the Bible says..the non-believers will go to hell...
NOTE: Its not that He cant help or that He doesnt help. Its that we dont accept it.
So that line still makes no sense.
New testement says that Jesus came, doed for our sins that we may be righteous in God sight. If we are righteous, we are sin-less..hence we are saved. At the same time...our righteousness obtained from Jesus's sacrifice entitles us tot he blessings that God gives to his righteous children. Blessings include health, wealth, wisdom, length of days etc..all included to make our present lives well to do..not just our days in heaven.
SOO we dont have to do anything but believe that Jesus has saved us and made us righteousness in God's eyes to gain everything we need in life.
Thanks to Apostle Paul.

Problem is...how easy is it to throw your cares unto God and believe that He will take care of all? Those who have lived their whole lives w the idea that no one helps them but htemselves....will find this the hardest to overcome. Like me.

As I head downt he remainder of this week, I pray al goes well and I pray that next week goes by smoothly. I want to cast my cares on Him..so I will try.

Till then, take care

God Bless