If you have hte chance, go visit hte Dead Sea Scroll Exhibit. Arts House till early Sept.
Didnt get a chance to go gym..too lazy again..Haiz. Plus it was raining the whole morning.
Instead I heard sermons on my laptop. I managed to clear my table and bags.
So went to the Dead Sea Scroll and it was such a heartwarming experience knowing that God's Word surpasses time and will always remain intact for all. :)
Its interesting really because the curator said that the only intact book of hte bible they found..was Isaiah. So I know God has His heart over that. and some of the parchment fragments they showed had grace teaching in it. :)
After visiting all the exhibits..my conclusion is true to my beliefs. That the things which God holds dear are hte exact thigns that is suffereing from condemnation and rumours and persecution. Hence the rtanslators of the Bible were mostly risking their own lives. Which leads me to firmly believe my arguement that While my dear Pastor Prince is being doubted on his immense riches and our church having bad reputation...that God;s heart is truly with us. Likewise all us christians who go there.
AMEN
Went down to my grandpa's place and saw my niece again. 4 generations in 1 house. I love both of them alot. :)
God Bless
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Saturday Wisdoms
Woke up today half hearted to go gym so hoped my sista would wake up and thereby giving me exrta motivation to go gym. Unfortunately didnt work and she woke up late. K admittedly i was dissappointed with her coz its not the 1st time but I still love her loads so yah..forgiven.
Plus.. I should have just gone down to run myself..Maybe tomorrow morning then..before i go church
So...while we contemplated the various dates...I came to a conclusion that for the next 2 weeks, we wouldnt be able to meet. yes today was precious time lost..Haiz...lost for a silly reason but nvm...
I rollerbladed around today. came across alot of slopes and bumps and drains and etc that I ended up falling around 3 times. As I bladed and felt my legs hurt and etc..I know my goal wasnt far away and my falls wasnt serious. So me it suddenly became and analogy of life. We cant go through life without falling. But if we let falls hnider us from going through w the route..we lose out on life...That would be the Secular view of it.
Everybody thinks the road to believe in God is a tiresome one. BUT God says that He will bear our burdens and hand us His. He says His yoke is light. then you wonder how His yoke can be light when He had the huge task of spreading God's word and healing everyone who came to Him and was condemmed by everyone?
Things is..His yoke is indeed light. He is the Son of God, fully God and fully human at the same time. He had no sin in Him so He did not have to suffer from the inner Satan taunting Him. He however had Satan taunt Him from outside as He stayed in the wilderness. That He easily fought away because His love for His Father God was great and He knew His status and power.
He went around healing people and that may seem work but whatever One loves to do could never be considered as work. Especially when Jesus did it for His own beloved Father God. He loved us so much. As any person who is doing something for his loved ones.
Lastly..Jesus;s real yoke was the condemnation from His people...but think about why He did that? He did that for us! It is because of us that He had to go through that. All this for us..so that we can have His yoke. His own yoke! the yoke that involves the love and blessings of God..the over abundance of health and carefree worry-less life that Jesus had before He took our yoke.
So knowing this..all the more we have this life to conquer. We as christians have God to give us the standing that we can have favour of people around us. And that He will help us with our worries and cares.
So while Satan would taunts us internally and externally to believe that life is difficult and our falls can not be overcomed. We as christians know better that the goal at the end is wonderful. :)
I felt very good after that blading session. :) In the light of contemplating about further studies...I realize how important it is to stay focused and make life meaningful. I told myself that I should do something that is meaningful to me..every day. It has to be something that would be me to my goal. Whether it is reading the bible or christian book...or spending well used time w students...or doing my radio thing or deciding what to study..etc....I can not have a day that is slacking and of no meaning.
God Bless
Plus.. I should have just gone down to run myself..Maybe tomorrow morning then..before i go church
So...while we contemplated the various dates...I came to a conclusion that for the next 2 weeks, we wouldnt be able to meet. yes today was precious time lost..Haiz...lost for a silly reason but nvm...
I rollerbladed around today. came across alot of slopes and bumps and drains and etc that I ended up falling around 3 times. As I bladed and felt my legs hurt and etc..I know my goal wasnt far away and my falls wasnt serious. So me it suddenly became and analogy of life. We cant go through life without falling. But if we let falls hnider us from going through w the route..we lose out on life...That would be the Secular view of it.
Everybody thinks the road to believe in God is a tiresome one. BUT God says that He will bear our burdens and hand us His. He says His yoke is light. then you wonder how His yoke can be light when He had the huge task of spreading God's word and healing everyone who came to Him and was condemmed by everyone?
Things is..His yoke is indeed light. He is the Son of God, fully God and fully human at the same time. He had no sin in Him so He did not have to suffer from the inner Satan taunting Him. He however had Satan taunt Him from outside as He stayed in the wilderness. That He easily fought away because His love for His Father God was great and He knew His status and power.
He went around healing people and that may seem work but whatever One loves to do could never be considered as work. Especially when Jesus did it for His own beloved Father God. He loved us so much. As any person who is doing something for his loved ones.
Lastly..Jesus;s real yoke was the condemnation from His people...but think about why He did that? He did that for us! It is because of us that He had to go through that. All this for us..so that we can have His yoke. His own yoke! the yoke that involves the love and blessings of God..the over abundance of health and carefree worry-less life that Jesus had before He took our yoke.
So knowing this..all the more we have this life to conquer. We as christians have God to give us the standing that we can have favour of people around us. And that He will help us with our worries and cares.
So while Satan would taunts us internally and externally to believe that life is difficult and our falls can not be overcomed. We as christians know better that the goal at the end is wonderful. :)
I felt very good after that blading session. :) In the light of contemplating about further studies...I realize how important it is to stay focused and make life meaningful. I told myself that I should do something that is meaningful to me..every day. It has to be something that would be me to my goal. Whether it is reading the bible or christian book...or spending well used time w students...or doing my radio thing or deciding what to study..etc....I can not have a day that is slacking and of no meaning.
God Bless
Friday, August 28, 2009
Its time...to ramble
“The time has come,” the Walrus said,
“To talk of many things:
Of shoes—and ships—and sealing wax—
Of cabbages—and kings—
And why the sea is boiling hot—
And whether pigs have wings.”
Contemplation fills the brim of many empty minds
Of whereforth to go when the next sun doth rise
And I for 1 am 1 such person, raised chin into the world
Not of ignorance displayed but of troubled thoughts untold
For which step to take from here, which foot to take that step
When we have our minds made up then what then?
When does hesitence not become a part of the equation?
Dribble drabble of thoughts. No cause for worry. Is not the brain like that? cruising from thought to thought like a freight train? If I could catch every thought with a tweezer, Id be a genius.
God Bless
“To talk of many things:
Of shoes—and ships—and sealing wax—
Of cabbages—and kings—
And why the sea is boiling hot—
And whether pigs have wings.”
Contemplation fills the brim of many empty minds
Of whereforth to go when the next sun doth rise
And I for 1 am 1 such person, raised chin into the world
Not of ignorance displayed but of troubled thoughts untold
For which step to take from here, which foot to take that step
When we have our minds made up then what then?
When does hesitence not become a part of the equation?
Dribble drabble of thoughts. No cause for worry. Is not the brain like that? cruising from thought to thought like a freight train? If I could catch every thought with a tweezer, Id be a genius.
God Bless
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Nuggets of Truth
Sunday was good and the anointing was so strong that even before the sermon started, I got a nice revelation. Because Jesus has given the final answer to Satan and died on our behalf and resurrected, We who believe Jesus is our saviour, are righteous in His sight and Satna has not hold on us. We are hte righteous children of God who have God as our provider. We are rich beyond compare..
Anyway, the office has been alot quieter and its during the exam periods and holidays that I start to miss the students. Yes I admit! I do miss my students lining up outside my office to see me Wahahaha! I miss spending time doing silly things with them. Dang!
SOOO I miss you guys but study hard peeps.
Love you all!
God Bless
Anyway, the office has been alot quieter and its during the exam periods and holidays that I start to miss the students. Yes I admit! I do miss my students lining up outside my office to see me Wahahaha! I miss spending time doing silly things with them. Dang!
SOOO I miss you guys but study hard peeps.
Love you all!
God Bless
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Dont think abt how much u love God, but how much God loves you
So my students are all stresszed w projects and exams now..abit of a breather for me.
Alot of pple asked me how I was doing since my "all hell broke loose" blog entry and just to letcha know. Im fine. Anger and sorrow doesnt stay long w me
Went to the career fair today just to explore my further studying options but nothing much to see really so I got out earlier. Walked around a fair bit before I went down tot he Japanese School for their Summer Festival. It was packed!!! I wonder how the real one in Japan is because theres so much local flavour in tihs that I got abit dissappointed. :/
By the end of the day I knew I really should spend more time with God;s word. I know that I should further study but I dont know what and somewhere in my brain...I keep going back tot he idea of radio broadcasting. Yet I havnt done anything abt it and Im abit scared to.
Need God to dispel my fears by leaning on His love and provision for me. If God is with me, who can be against me? And knowing my God who is rushing to provide for us at the drop of a hat...He will...All thats lacking now..is my consent and my placing my problems on Him.
Tomorrow is Sunday. Day of Rest and dwelling in His love..A day to know Him more :)
Alot of pple asked me how I was doing since my "all hell broke loose" blog entry and just to letcha know. Im fine. Anger and sorrow doesnt stay long w me
Went to the career fair today just to explore my further studying options but nothing much to see really so I got out earlier. Walked around a fair bit before I went down tot he Japanese School for their Summer Festival. It was packed!!! I wonder how the real one in Japan is because theres so much local flavour in tihs that I got abit dissappointed. :/
By the end of the day I knew I really should spend more time with God;s word. I know that I should further study but I dont know what and somewhere in my brain...I keep going back tot he idea of radio broadcasting. Yet I havnt done anything abt it and Im abit scared to.
Need God to dispel my fears by leaning on His love and provision for me. If God is with me, who can be against me? And knowing my God who is rushing to provide for us at the drop of a hat...He will...All thats lacking now..is my consent and my placing my problems on Him.
Tomorrow is Sunday. Day of Rest and dwelling in His love..A day to know Him more :)
Thursday, August 13, 2009
In state of anger...
I'll be honest and sayt hat I dont know if I have hte right to be angry at people but I do have the right to feel angry.
The more I work with teenagers..the more I wonder if the education system in sec sch and pri sch is good enough to teach our future leaders how to be leaders. Im not saying they suck big time. Im just questioning.
then I question whether parents know how to bring their children up to be responsible, considerate and proactive adults.
Because from what I see...4 things are lacking. Proactiveness..consideration, responsiblity and wisdom
I see too many students take the inactive route and I know even without tarrot cards or reading tea leaves..that they will regret their lack of proactiveness..in the long run..they willr ealize just how much their idea of *taking things easy* would be a mirage of what is actually...their inactiveness taking control of their future.
Eg: We can argue alot abt how parents make their children learn tonnes of stuff when they are kids etc...hence giving pressure. BUT 20 years down the road when the children are multi-talented individuals who can come up w their own cds..etc Are the parents still to blame?
If the child was given a choice to learn stuff at a young age and he refuses to because its lesser time for computer games and tv..then 20 years down the road...would he regret not learning at a young age when he sees his idol (same age) on the same tv he's still staring at?
Ive got tonnes of students who cant care to hoots about the future careers/projects etc
Ive got tonnes of students who dont care abt the club they promised to join..dont reply calls..smses..emails...
And thats where I get the most pissed. Because of these *ever-loving souls*...nothing gets done int eh end and the members who are dedicated...take on more work or dont have work at all because theres not enough manpower at all.
So thanks to them..more dreams and goals are dashed..and likewise..i know in my heart that they will regret not taking that chance to hone their skill... By then...I'll have hte last laugh.
MY GOD! IM PISSED!!!
And yet...how pissed can I be when I know I never had the time for them to start with? How far can an officer in charge blame herself? How much am i supposed to let htem do? How much do I have to do myself? Im not depressed or putting allt eh blame on myself but seriously I dont wanna be a hypocrite too.
I have the mind to slap the *dead weights* and tell them to leave. And threaten to close the club....I do...But its unfair to those who did their work.....
WHY DO THE YOUTH NOWADAYS NOT REALIZE HOW MUCH OPPORTUNITY THEY HAVE!?!?!
YOU THINK LAST TIME GOT ALL THIS MEH!?!
YOU THINK EVERYTHING OTHERS DID IS JUST PLAY HUH?!?!
EVERYONE PAID TIME AND ENERGY TO GET TO WHERE THEY ARE LOR!
IF YOU DONT WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE..DONT WASTE MY TIME!
SIMPLE QUESTION OF YES OR NO!
And for the youth that are so much free time to vandalize, criticize, intentionally break rules...
I will laugh on the day you receive the same things. Spend more time on your work and charcter building coz you wont get far with that stuff.
God bless the world and God bless me with patience
The more I work with teenagers..the more I wonder if the education system in sec sch and pri sch is good enough to teach our future leaders how to be leaders. Im not saying they suck big time. Im just questioning.
then I question whether parents know how to bring their children up to be responsible, considerate and proactive adults.
Because from what I see...4 things are lacking. Proactiveness..consideration, responsiblity and wisdom
I see too many students take the inactive route and I know even without tarrot cards or reading tea leaves..that they will regret their lack of proactiveness..in the long run..they willr ealize just how much their idea of *taking things easy* would be a mirage of what is actually...their inactiveness taking control of their future.
Eg: We can argue alot abt how parents make their children learn tonnes of stuff when they are kids etc...hence giving pressure. BUT 20 years down the road when the children are multi-talented individuals who can come up w their own cds..etc Are the parents still to blame?
If the child was given a choice to learn stuff at a young age and he refuses to because its lesser time for computer games and tv..then 20 years down the road...would he regret not learning at a young age when he sees his idol (same age) on the same tv he's still staring at?
Ive got tonnes of students who cant care to hoots about the future careers/projects etc
Ive got tonnes of students who dont care abt the club they promised to join..dont reply calls..smses..emails...
And thats where I get the most pissed. Because of these *ever-loving souls*...nothing gets done int eh end and the members who are dedicated...take on more work or dont have work at all because theres not enough manpower at all.
So thanks to them..more dreams and goals are dashed..and likewise..i know in my heart that they will regret not taking that chance to hone their skill... By then...I'll have hte last laugh.
MY GOD! IM PISSED!!!
And yet...how pissed can I be when I know I never had the time for them to start with? How far can an officer in charge blame herself? How much am i supposed to let htem do? How much do I have to do myself? Im not depressed or putting allt eh blame on myself but seriously I dont wanna be a hypocrite too.
I have the mind to slap the *dead weights* and tell them to leave. And threaten to close the club....I do...But its unfair to those who did their work.....
WHY DO THE YOUTH NOWADAYS NOT REALIZE HOW MUCH OPPORTUNITY THEY HAVE!?!?!
YOU THINK LAST TIME GOT ALL THIS MEH!?!
YOU THINK EVERYTHING OTHERS DID IS JUST PLAY HUH?!?!
EVERYONE PAID TIME AND ENERGY TO GET TO WHERE THEY ARE LOR!
IF YOU DONT WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE..DONT WASTE MY TIME!
SIMPLE QUESTION OF YES OR NO!
And for the youth that are so much free time to vandalize, criticize, intentionally break rules...
I will laugh on the day you receive the same things. Spend more time on your work and charcter building coz you wont get far with that stuff.
God bless the world and God bless me with patience
Sunday, August 09, 2009
Everybody says I sounded depressed.
Yah so Im not depressed...maybe more like stressed. :/
Anyway met up w bestest best bro.
Haiz...you know while the problem is gone....I dont know if the aftermath of the problem has resulted in me losing my bestest best bro too.
Sad really but I can't help it can I? I know I didnt really speak to him face to face but we did chat. Yet I would prob never get the face to face (nobody else) conversations again and quite honestly..I know I shouldnt rely on him for that coz he definitely isnt coming back to stay in Spore. Its gonna be UK from now on.
Its easy to say " I dont know" but I do know.
Its a pity really... :) Coz I know he'd always be the bro I can tell everything too coz we shared a time frame that is relevent to each other even now. Everything I cud complain abt or talk abt now..would not require further background info because he knows who I talk abt.
So looks like id have to admit defeat haha He will always be someone I can talk to but I pretty much dont have a bestest best bro anymore. And once you label someone that, there cant be another bestest best bro hahaha
I guess it was the idealistic and happy go lucky me that thought I had found a best brother to share life stories with.
BTW...Have a student/friend who was commenting that day on not believing how she would ever be attached and be lovey dovey her guy. I say..I know how you feel and my past sentiments exactly. All I can say is that the person you will be with...will be a person whom you can talk to. Even talk to about everything. Even if it sounds funny now.
And so when all words are said and oth of you understand each other so well...then you will have a bond so strong that words dont have to be said to know what he's thinking.
With that bond...and that amazing a relationship..and if the person treats you right..you will get there. Reason why you cant imagine..is because you havnt gotten into a relationship w the person. Babe..take things a step at a time.
Note to BBB: Hey I wanna put your heart at rest that Im past hte problem and I know you are too. The prob now..is whether that prob would have affected our bond. I dont wanna question anymore coz its not fair to you to keep asking you the same thing..it makes it seem as if I was getting insecure ..something only couples should do but not us.
Still love you loads as a bro so while I know I cant see you as a BBB coz I feel my title as a SSS has been removed. I know our friendship was there while it lasted.
This time round, we'll slowly become just friends. :)
As usual my belssings to you and your family. :)
I soo wanna enjoy the weekend!
God Bless
Anyway met up w bestest best bro.
Haiz...you know while the problem is gone....I dont know if the aftermath of the problem has resulted in me losing my bestest best bro too.
Sad really but I can't help it can I? I know I didnt really speak to him face to face but we did chat. Yet I would prob never get the face to face (nobody else) conversations again and quite honestly..I know I shouldnt rely on him for that coz he definitely isnt coming back to stay in Spore. Its gonna be UK from now on.
Its easy to say " I dont know" but I do know.
Its a pity really... :) Coz I know he'd always be the bro I can tell everything too coz we shared a time frame that is relevent to each other even now. Everything I cud complain abt or talk abt now..would not require further background info because he knows who I talk abt.
So looks like id have to admit defeat haha He will always be someone I can talk to but I pretty much dont have a bestest best bro anymore. And once you label someone that, there cant be another bestest best bro hahaha
I guess it was the idealistic and happy go lucky me that thought I had found a best brother to share life stories with.
BTW...Have a student/friend who was commenting that day on not believing how she would ever be attached and be lovey dovey her guy. I say..I know how you feel and my past sentiments exactly. All I can say is that the person you will be with...will be a person whom you can talk to. Even talk to about everything. Even if it sounds funny now.
And so when all words are said and oth of you understand each other so well...then you will have a bond so strong that words dont have to be said to know what he's thinking.
With that bond...and that amazing a relationship..and if the person treats you right..you will get there. Reason why you cant imagine..is because you havnt gotten into a relationship w the person. Babe..take things a step at a time.
Note to BBB: Hey I wanna put your heart at rest that Im past hte problem and I know you are too. The prob now..is whether that prob would have affected our bond. I dont wanna question anymore coz its not fair to you to keep asking you the same thing..it makes it seem as if I was getting insecure ..something only couples should do but not us.
Still love you loads as a bro so while I know I cant see you as a BBB coz I feel my title as a SSS has been removed. I know our friendship was there while it lasted.
This time round, we'll slowly become just friends. :)
As usual my belssings to you and your family. :)
I soo wanna enjoy the weekend!
God Bless
Thursday, August 06, 2009
1st sighting of bestest best bro
So he popped by SP and it was NDOC. Most of the SAA staff were busy at the audi but htey still remembered him. Yeah he was popular.
I was briefing the students when he came up to me and it was like "OOiii!" hahahaha Man! he hasnt changed! Or at least thats what I feel. He's got the same look, same built, no indian tummy (thank goodness) hahaha SAME LAH!
Gave a hug, noting that students were around so the hug could pretty much fit a small elf in between. :) But a hug nonetheless so no hard feelings.
Yeah well Im happy so far because I know that Im pass the stage of letting the past dominate my reactions as much.
We went to teh corner seat to talk and because NDOC was starting..we couldnt talk much.
Much to say but none of which is negative. so rest assured.
It feels like old times! Before the major drama that is. Felt like we were new friends and school students talking abt old times hahahah
After NDOC, Roland Tan came up to me and told me that Pravin was back coz he knew how close we were. :) Thanks Sir. I know . Glad he went to find you too.
Was thinking abt it and wondered why after all these years, Id still have the same urge to tell him abt my life...its not the same with some others in fact but for him its always been the case.
In fact, I now know that out of all those whom Ive spoken to ,made friends with etc..Ive only had this same *telling life story* urge to a small bunch.
Hmmm..
K lah ..enoug lunch break taken
God Bless
I was briefing the students when he came up to me and it was like "OOiii!" hahahaha Man! he hasnt changed! Or at least thats what I feel. He's got the same look, same built, no indian tummy (thank goodness) hahaha SAME LAH!
Gave a hug, noting that students were around so the hug could pretty much fit a small elf in between. :) But a hug nonetheless so no hard feelings.
Yeah well Im happy so far because I know that Im pass the stage of letting the past dominate my reactions as much.
We went to teh corner seat to talk and because NDOC was starting..we couldnt talk much.
Much to say but none of which is negative. so rest assured.
It feels like old times! Before the major drama that is. Felt like we were new friends and school students talking abt old times hahahah
After NDOC, Roland Tan came up to me and told me that Pravin was back coz he knew how close we were. :) Thanks Sir. I know . Glad he went to find you too.
Was thinking abt it and wondered why after all these years, Id still have the same urge to tell him abt my life...its not the same with some others in fact but for him its always been the case.
In fact, I now know that out of all those whom Ive spoken to ,made friends with etc..Ive only had this same *telling life story* urge to a small bunch.
Hmmm..
K lah ..enoug lunch break taken
God Bless
Tuesday, August 04, 2009
My bestest best bro is back! Wohoo!
Instant cheerer-uper!!!
Havnt seen my bro in years lah! Now we've all graduated and got our own jobs etc so life is different but just thinking abt my bestest best bro coming to Spore for awhile is excellent!!
Grandma of all good news given the season!
I do wish I wasnt working and had time to sit and chat w him because it is somethign we've never done for years even. In fact the last time we met up, we didnt chat at all. I guess at that point of time..things were still abit problematic.
I soo wanna tell him abt whats been happening around in school. Bring him on the grand tour..afterall..things have changed drastically in the school.
I know we both still have the passion for compereing and I still tell my juniors abt the event, He, adam and I did. that to me..was the best event I ever did.. :)
Im happy now. :) and the happiness I feel is the type of happiness that has taken me years to achieve. Thing is..there was a point of time where it was very hard to forgive this bro of mine for what he did. It took me a 3 years hahaha but Im past that stage. I always knew that frenship is more precious to us than anythingelse. And while I battled with being the bestest best sis and the ex-friend/sibling...I choose the former and forced myself to work on it. No choice really.
So while i dont exactly know how this time's little reunion would be because of teh lack of contact, I still hope that the "can say anything" bond is still there...cause I know I still have loads to update him about. :) Esp my grannies...
Welcome back to South East Asia BBBro!!
God Bless
Havnt seen my bro in years lah! Now we've all graduated and got our own jobs etc so life is different but just thinking abt my bestest best bro coming to Spore for awhile is excellent!!
Grandma of all good news given the season!
I do wish I wasnt working and had time to sit and chat w him because it is somethign we've never done for years even. In fact the last time we met up, we didnt chat at all. I guess at that point of time..things were still abit problematic.
I soo wanna tell him abt whats been happening around in school. Bring him on the grand tour..afterall..things have changed drastically in the school.
I know we both still have the passion for compereing and I still tell my juniors abt the event, He, adam and I did. that to me..was the best event I ever did.. :)
Im happy now. :) and the happiness I feel is the type of happiness that has taken me years to achieve. Thing is..there was a point of time where it was very hard to forgive this bro of mine for what he did. It took me a 3 years hahaha but Im past that stage. I always knew that frenship is more precious to us than anythingelse. And while I battled with being the bestest best sis and the ex-friend/sibling...I choose the former and forced myself to work on it. No choice really.
So while i dont exactly know how this time's little reunion would be because of teh lack of contact, I still hope that the "can say anything" bond is still there...cause I know I still have loads to update him about. :) Esp my grannies...
Welcome back to South East Asia BBBro!!
God Bless
Sunday, August 02, 2009
tired...
Slept till afternoon...had a headache that bugged me so bad that I finally relented to taking panadol. Yes I admit defeat.
In fact Im pretty much admitting defeat to alot of other things...
Watchdf this korean drama series for awhile...it was gonna end anyway....by the end of the show..I knew that I shouldnt be watching love stories. Not that I dont like them. More like I dont wanna get into the happily ever after dreamland thing again. In actual fact...love isnt as easy as we think.
Went to army market to get the light sticks and ended up at the bookshop w YQ.
Alot of questions on howI would want my life to be next time. What should I do with my life?
I'll be honest and say that my fatigue is not entirely due to long hours...its also mental fatigue and I know Im not good at working from 1 event to another event just like that...and because of that..my stress level never really abates.
So heres my plan...cant really say much cause I cant promise much
- by end Sept..do a recording of 1 of my songs
- by end sept..do a demo tape for radio
- within the next 2 years, go for further studying..part-time
The other jobs I wanna try before I settle down into a job for life
- hosting in the zoo
- hosting outside
- tuition
- radio dj
- theatre/sound work
I know my love for the current job now...is because of my students. Nothing would matter if not for my students. the sacrifices I make are for my students whom I find myself thinking of them as baby siblings that need guidance and I truly love.
How can I not be with them and not learn to love them..everyone of them that Ive learnt to be with..has made me who I am now.
Small shout out to my bros around who might not be having the happiest times. Still here for you bros. Thanks for being there and brightening my day w your nonsense or just tolerating my nonsense. Thanks for tolerating my violent natures. every shoulder I slap us a shoulder well cherished.
To my sistas, thanks for accepting my hugs...not everybody is hug-savvy or hug-conscious but you guys are so hug-able :P
God Bless
In fact Im pretty much admitting defeat to alot of other things...
Watchdf this korean drama series for awhile...it was gonna end anyway....by the end of the show..I knew that I shouldnt be watching love stories. Not that I dont like them. More like I dont wanna get into the happily ever after dreamland thing again. In actual fact...love isnt as easy as we think.
Went to army market to get the light sticks and ended up at the bookshop w YQ.
Alot of questions on howI would want my life to be next time. What should I do with my life?
I'll be honest and say that my fatigue is not entirely due to long hours...its also mental fatigue and I know Im not good at working from 1 event to another event just like that...and because of that..my stress level never really abates.
So heres my plan...cant really say much cause I cant promise much
- by end Sept..do a recording of 1 of my songs
- by end sept..do a demo tape for radio
- within the next 2 years, go for further studying..part-time
The other jobs I wanna try before I settle down into a job for life
- hosting in the zoo
- hosting outside
- tuition
- radio dj
- theatre/sound work
I know my love for the current job now...is because of my students. Nothing would matter if not for my students. the sacrifices I make are for my students whom I find myself thinking of them as baby siblings that need guidance and I truly love.
How can I not be with them and not learn to love them..everyone of them that Ive learnt to be with..has made me who I am now.
Small shout out to my bros around who might not be having the happiest times. Still here for you bros. Thanks for being there and brightening my day w your nonsense or just tolerating my nonsense. Thanks for tolerating my violent natures. every shoulder I slap us a shoulder well cherished.
To my sistas, thanks for accepting my hugs...not everybody is hug-savvy or hug-conscious but you guys are so hug-able :P
God Bless
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