The story continues abt my overexfoliated knee...

Well for those whom Ive proudly shown my right knee (self proclaimed sadistic) saying it was over exfoliation...now I have another overexfoliated knee to show hahahha

Yes both of them got grazed when I fell while rollerblading..on seperate occassions hahaha

So the right knee is getting better...dry and healing up...while the left knee is fresh and swollen and stingy. It has in fact..doubled the size of my knee cap hahahahaha

While I say this..I can feel stephen's eyes fall to the ground and roll all the way to Ian's place just to fill him in on my news.....(insider joke) If eyes cud roll out fot heir sockets and fall off, Ian's & stephen's wud be off their sockets and bouncing off the walls. Wahahahahah

Yeah soooo...my blades are now in my fren's place and I'll have to lay off blading for a whole week. Stubborn me has no choice but to follow.

Lastly...my walk is planned! Am damn excited!

God Bless

Fear/Worry....

God says to Fear not..worry not...seek His kingdon and all else will be added unto you. Do not worry for tomorrow worries for itself...

Its so easy to say that...doing it is as hard as climbing mt everest! How do I do that when so many things are not working for me? Am I not seeking him?!?! Am i not looking to His word and asking him for guidance? And when I feel His peace..I feel as if all things are in the right..yet sometimes...it still doesnt seem to be working....

I looked at my 8 clubs today and to be honest..the 1 i worry most are ISC and comperes....

ISC because of their upcoming Gigantuous event..and Comperes because I still feel that it's falling...

And while I thought abt how these 2 clubs are progressing and how much they are still missing...my heart constricts and I actually feel like Im gonna have a minor heart attack...

My head and heart are now flowing on super low speed coz these things just keep running arnd in my mind now...Im sooo ready to let go and see how things fall apart...esp for comperes...Im soo ready...yet I know Id dissappoint all my alumni...

My God, my Abba, My saviour...Im trying to let your peace flow in me...help me Lord to not feel sad or dissappointed or frustrated...Im trying to hard to not give up...Im trying very very very hard God. grant me your strength Daddy God. Grant me the power you have that has made countless miracles in so many people's lives..to give me miracles too..small ones..Im not asking for big ones....many small ones...

God Bless

Sat museum visit again..

The thing abt my bunch of international students..is that they can find pleasure in alot of things....like the national museum...

having gone to the same museum previously, we knew exactly where to go this time..we did a beeline to the greek mythology costumes section and did dressup..lasted for 2 hours-ish? okay maybe 1.5hrs...

Then we went up to the other sections...fashion, film, food..etc and took pictures there too..like a bunch of tourists....guesss wat...I was the only LOCAL! I was the photographer! Hahahah

Anyway I sorta regret my lack of knowledge for phototaking..coz then the pics wud have turned up better. :( Took a few nice shots that Im proud of and excited abt. Its God given lighting and God given looks man! (not mine at least) and the pics turned up really really nice by my opinion! Pity..my camera is charging now. so I cant transfer my pics over and put them online. :P You guys will have to wait. Huahahahahaha

As for ym other clubs..things are picking up quite nicely....alot fo thigns still need to be done but are put on hold because the students are all having exams...

Cant wait to upload the pics! Wohoo!

God Bless!

Walk around Spore

Just got these pics yesterday. They're long overdue for the blog man! NP's International Nite 07.

Trying to plan a route to hike..its a hike cum phototaking opportunity coz Im gonna be going to places like Little india, Kampong Glam, Chinatown, Cityhall, Changi memorial etc.. Cool huh?!?!?! k just say yes.
Woohooo!

My Cuzin's birthday is coming! Wohoo! But he's not in Spore and I cant give him BIG hug and punch him and say, "Happy Birthday!!!" Oh well...still miss him and love him loads... :/

Anyway nothing much to say....just hungry lah..

God Bless

ISC AGM 07/08

Thur I watched BEAUTY WORLD!!! WWohooo! Friday was ISC AGM...the performances were bizarre and disturbing but the videos were heartwarming and potentially tearjerking...my speech..felt it was abit to complex for them..dont know if they understodd or appreciated it...here it is
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Last year never write speech, learnt my lesson. This year I write. Bear with my English hor..can be too complicated at times.

Time flies…

You guys did a great job this year. In fact looking at past club history, it has been no way but up for all of you in the previous years and it will continue that way as long as we stick together, help each other and do things with our hearts.

Many people do many things..but they do it for different reasons
- the results/money/recognision/cca points
- the experience/the lessons learnt
- the fun of it

I believe most of you have learnt that with passion, the reason for you doing things is lesser about “what is in it for you” but “what can I learn from doing this” or even “because….just because”

and because of this you aim higher and you come up with amazing things in the process.

ISC Song (thanks to alumni)
ISC cheer (thanks to fuey chao)
ISC video (thanks to our directors, producers and the cast)

If you can name any other club in SP that has all this, tell me coz I cant. You guys have shown that when you put your heads together you can come up with new ideas and make them happen. You are truly the most sophisticated club Ive seen.

Im proud of you guys for taking every problem and not admitting defeat. We can all say, "oh it was sad, oh it was so sad..." but you never gave up. Thats why Juwy/Rino say, "can do!" Because you all can do it!

BUT dont leave it like that. continue trying new ideas..continue the ISC spirit, continue the ISC love and the ISC fire. A fire never stays in one spot. It spreads…the fire is our love & passion for ISC it spreads with everything we say and do when we are around other international students. If they feel the fire, they will draw near…like someone in the cold drawing near to a warm fireplace.

I also see the love the alumni have for the club too! THATS ALOT OF LOVE! Thats a BIG fire! Even the year1s have drawn near. You are a group of bros & sisters and your love for each other (regardless of country) is a love that cant be found easily and must be treasured. What soo many politicians & countries cant do (work together and love each other) we can. How cool is that!?!?!

So I encourage you guys..to keep the fire burning…

To the alumni and soon to be alumnis…once ISCian, always ISCian. Once you give your heart and time to something. Your heart is given and time is spent. No taking back. What you can take back….are the memories and the frens. Hold on to that till the next time you come back. No matter which year you are from, so long as the ISC fire is burning…you will always be welcome to come back and warm yourself in the warm fire.
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I tried to add in abit of humour...dunno lah..its times like these that make me wonder if I really do fit into this gang of people. I never wanted to be the officer who just sits at the table and waits for them to find me...but if I dont know when they gather..how can I be there? Maybe its abit hard to have singaporeans in ISC afterall...the ones who do succeed in infiltrating..are those that are persistent in intruding. like me.

Sat
Was supposed to meet alvin and all for basketball,volleyball, etc..in the end they cudnt make it...So i ended up lazing around the house until evening. Met Poh Yan and gang for another round of blading. My initial excitement of having 2 rounds of blading in 1 day didnt turn out that way in the end.

Sun
What I am glad I did through the weekend...was listen to God's word. Im sooo full of peace now...having heard today's sermon on God's name. How he has many names. 1 of which is Yahweh (Ya-Hui) that depicts God's love for us. It a moer personal name that God uses with his people. Initially, that was only for the Jews..but now..we can call Him that too. But the best thing I like to call him...is Abba (father) :)

For the whole day, I was thinking about how useless I was in spreading His love to those around me. So many of my friends have been saved but with the help of other friends who might not be as close to them than I am. Im relieved yet I wonder if I could do the same....
Then on my way to school (yes im in sch) I read Exodus and came to the part where God speaks to Moses through the burning bush. Moses is unsure of his capabilities of bring his people out from the hands of the Egyptians and the Pharaoh.
Moses says: Who am I that I should go to the Pharaoh and bring the israelities out of egypt?
God says: I will be with you. And this will be a sign to you that it is I who have sent you;
Right after reading that, a thought popped into my head and it said, " dont you feel the same? You feel that you are a nobody to tell people about God. But you are a Christian. A child of God who has the authority to tell people of your father's love for them.
Moses: But if they ask, "what is His name", what do I tell them..
God says: I AM WHO I AM ( I Am in hebrew also refers to LORD/Yahweh)

Now I can say: God is my heavenly Father and bear witness to the countless times He has saved me from trials and tribulations and danger. :)

Gotta work...

Yahweh Bless

blog-o-matic

Blogging....

Went home early yesterday..think staying out late has become very boring to me. Rested for awhile then went down to the gym to run.
I admit I cant run very much...I realize that the more I pay attention to my disabilities..the more my disabilities become evident. Like ervytime I think my breathe is running out...the more it runs out...the more I feel a stress on my heart and lungs..the more I pay attention to a possible cramp..the more if feels like it cud manifest. As I ran..I spoke to God. The more I thought of the blessings I will claim for the rest of those around me.

Dont think running was meant to make me win God's favour because I already have it...but I wanted to run and test myself for my ability to look to God when Im in a demoralizing situation.It worked. This time..I had no complications whatsoever. Normally it wud be a cramp or stitch or feeling pukey...yesterday the moemtn i felt like pukey, I looked to my Jesus and the pukey feeling went off. :)

One of my aims this year is to look to my Jesus for guidance in life....I dont wanna be frustrated by my own thoughts because we as humans..get our feelings and thoughts conflicted too. oh well....takes abit of getting used to...

Gotta go..

God Bless

Doggy talk...

Alot of conversations can conspire from this picture:
Scenario 1
Dog: I need a manicure/pedicure....just a cure..both cures also can...
Scenario 2
Dog: ....*shy*
Scenario 3
Dog:* hey macarena!*
Scenario 4
Dog: pppwwweeeeaaaassseeee mummy....I go on my hinds to beg you
Scenario 5
Dog: All Hail Ning....

<<<<<>>>>

God Bless

pictures and memories

2 things to talk about..both make me excited. :)

PIcture whoreing...
After the eventful and laughter-filled day att he museum...Ive come to question on why international students have that thrill of taking pics etc..while Sporeans dont. Is it only coz locals are on homeground..nothing much to take on? But every event is different and every picture has a different feel right?
Or does it have anything to do with Sporeans being shy of doing silly things infront of their common countrymen. In this case..its cramping up for a pic...While International students have nothing but pics and videos and memories of this place when and if they leave...
My students have passed on the bug...to me. Since getting a camera, Ive also started taking pics of things arund Spore..different perspectives etc... and Ive started cramming into pics with my students foir the simple joy of keeping things in memory....something I used to do alot...
Its a good thing to have memories! To have pics! And i know its time for me to start looking at my pics and deciding on which ones Id want to develop.

Speaking of memories...I had a wonderful night with my sec school frens last night. My sista's (Ling) bf (Alvin) called me int he evening, saying he was at dover. Having the initial idea of meeting up w my sistas (Ling, Yan, Ching) being scrapped, I decided to surprise Ling by follwing Alvin to her house! So thats what we did. We bought ice cream over and Ling got a surprise. Then after staying awhile, having dinner downstairs and catching up, all 3 of us decided to go over to Yan's place to scare her! :D
Went over, Alvin knocked the door, Yan opened the door and got a shocked. Took her arnd 5 seconds to register who was at her door and exclaim, "Win already lor! You all! Everytime come and surprise me!" Hahahah Cudnt hide the smile and enjoyment off my face! :)

We tred to call Ching and give her the final round of surprise..but she wasnt home. So we opened up our ice cream and shared it.

The sheer chance to meet up w old friends (for 11 YEARS!!!) and talking abt past present and future...is really fun! In fact us all being from the same sch, same class etc..makes it alot easier to chat. :)

Miss my 2nd sis...Ching....She seems abit downcasted and sad...i hope she's not depressed...I know how its like to hate what you're doing..hate going for lessons...feelt eh pressure the moment you step into class .... In fact..the 3 of us are abit worried abt her...hoping she'll open up to us...
Er Jie: Dont worry okay. You do what you need to do..but if you need company, must let us know. We know you dont feel like talking or answering calls (maybe) when you're down so...we'll try not to disturb but when you're done with what you need to do....we will be here okay. :)

After 11 years of friendship...its amazing that we can still be so close..even when we've each got our own lives..and thats what makes our friendship valuable...that marks real friendship.
So dont worry about the friendship and bond between the 4 of us..coz we will always be there!


I also found out that Alvin is going tot he same church and Im soo happy about that. vene if it means once or twice a year..Im still glad he's in New Creation! He seems sooo much happier and jovial and open. :) Kudos to you bro!

God Bless!

Day At The National Museum

We're all photo whores! They let us try on greek costumes and guess what we did....

Jack T is abit confused...in fact..all of us are confused...

ISC-inspired art piece...

The National Museum Dome that I took at the entrance...bent back enough to get wet fromt he water feature....wat a klutz...
God Bless

Sat & Sun

Open House is over! Had many heartattacks..my comperes had last minute illnesses that caused me a whole load of cold sweat….hate it and I just kept shaking my head on sat….I know I cant blame them for falling sick…but there has to be better timings….

Anyway went to the museum yesterday with my bunch of ISC peeps…. The relationship is good although I know Im not a very good officer..hopefully they see me as the person I am..and not my capabilities…coz I suck…The outing was very fun! Didn’t get a chance to finish the tour but nvm..we took many weird pictures and something abt ISCians..they love to take pics and this “love” is infectious! Will post some pics soon! Did I mention that I got myself all wet there….

Trying to bring on my new new year resolutions. 2 changes have made things easier for me…change in job scope…and the letting go of the one I cudnt let go..for the longest time…I can say that I’m finally out of it…for the past few years..ive tried to stop myself from liking others by putting his face in my mind…causing me to not forget him…this time round…I cant be so foolish anymore…there is no reason to make me do that anymore….the only one I have to look for to ensure that I don’t do anything foolish is my Jesus Christ. And yes I do like others but Ive always said that liking doesn’t mean loving..so I’ve liked a lot but loved only…1..
That being said, Yes liking can bring on the latter but you can call me the “duo qing” type. Ive never had that many chances of meeting someone with a mutual liking…so there…risk of rejections….thats what scares me. So I may like the person very much…but if my senses tell me that he’s not interested, I back off….knowing that Im a better sister than anything else…

What my friends are doing now..is think of who they know..to introduce to me….I never in my whole damn life expect to experience this and I really hope that they’re just joking…coz..this is soo sad! I believe that God brings to me who He feels is right, at the right time and right place…and while I said that…I know I just shot myself in the back coz….those “intros” cud end up being the right time and right place….*damn it*
Anyway I will do what my God leads me to do….He is inside of me…nudging me…and I believe He will tell me who “the one” is….at that point I’ll be ready to take on the challenge of loving someone and keeping everything else in perfect balance…It wont be love at 1st sight…but it will be a gradual insisting increase of affection for someone…an affection that you can differentiate from sibling love with any of my other bruddas.

But seriously…from everything Ive felt, seen and heard….I believe....love is dangerous & paralysing…love is intoxicating and addictive…love can lift you up one min and bring you down the other….love is the heart’s desperate attempt to find company and not for the frail hearted…..Seems dramatic but its true.

Its now that I read through my entry..and pray that none of my students & family members read this…it can be a potential laugh for a decade or more…well guys…wait till you’re my age! Hahahaha

Lesson over! My heart feels weird these days and maybe writing all this helps ease things. I will let nature take its course..maybe I’ll write a movie or play abt it? Hahaha why not? Hahaha

God Bless

Emm..international students...reason for everything

You know....been thinking....I always used to say that regardless of what happens to me....God has plans for me....He has an explanation for everything that I go through...breakups, JC..etc

And as I got my 4 new clubs....I thought to myself that maybe its becoming apparent...

When I came back to SP to work, I never thought Id get ISC as my club..International Students Club? And I thought to myself of whether that had anything to do with my ex being in my life before..and me having so many intl students as friends...

Then I got SPARC & Comperes and that was cool coz I was in comperes when I was in SP and SPARC was the sister club

Then I got Makeup Artist Club which coincides with my initial want to learn how to put on makeup (dont roll your eyes at me.. :(......) if I were to be a professional emcee or dj

Then I got Guitar Club......Guitar Club was a club I joined in JC....wasnt good at it..was a secretary I think...was I? Cant remember...but I once had a desire to playt he guitar...now I can....just strumming...and abit of plucking???

Then String Ensemble....coinciding with my prevous work at Spore Symphony Orchestra...

Jazz Band & Bagpipers are the ones I havnt come in contact with..I know nuts abt them...

So Im thinking that God has guided my steps and brought me to where I am...with info on what I need to do.

Got to take time to decide on what I wanna do with these few groups coz I keep feeling like Im not giving them enough experience....haiz..

God Bless

Raining Cats & Dogs

1st day of SP Open House and its raining to no end. Been running around since morning and me thinks me have clocked all my running for today...

my alumni Emcee stood me up for today and I had to throw one of my emcees in to fill up the empty space.

Now its flooding in my booth and Im stuck w 3 comperes and they're crapping (crap+rapping) Mr Muthu & all..damn it...

The water levels getting higher..damn it...

Nothing much to blog abt really.....

btw..one of my students said this blog is funny...I chose to believe its me being funny and htem being sadistic..laughing at my woes. :(

.....help.........*background: yoh yoh yoh welcome to SP!*....sobs...save me....

*distortion*.........earthquake!!!....*distortion*.......more "yohs" in the background....

God Bless...ME

Weekend w Cal!

Cal's birthday was on sat. Got abit nervous on fri...hoping that the birthday would go smoothly.

Sat morning: School
10am: Met edwin & went to Holland V to get pressie and stuff. Bought balloon, pressie, and other frills. The more I bought,t he more excited I became
2pm: Called Saad a dozen times to make sure he knew abt the celebration. Finally got him!
2.30pm: Still waiting for Cal to turn up at cityhall.
3.00pm: 1 hour late, finally got to Pit Stop! Saad & Edwin were there waiting w balloon and cake etc
3.10pm: Tattoos on and balloon and pressies presented, time to order & play games.
3.30pm: Naz comes, we cancel bowling
3.45pm-4pm: Neetz comes
By 5.30pm: we were roaring w laughter! Took many pictures (Thanks Saad)

Glad Cal loved it!

Sunday went to granny's place. Had fun w cousins and niece. Niece is growing bigger! :)

My God is an awesome God who has blessed my family and friends so much!

God Bless

God's Promise...

Went into my boss's office today nad got myself a new portfolio...

Goodbye moberly, hello jazz, guitar ensemble, string ensemble etc...

Im happy! I wanna celebrate! But the one I want to celebrate with...emm not suitable. :)

Tried to call my sisters...and I think I knew calling wudnt help. Oh well....

Anyway...been lost without my mp3 player..my songs are in there and I was hoping to change the songs in it, for the new year...new year resolutions yah...

So...given the new year resolutions...with objectives, we need strategies and tactics....business-ish...
- Lesser movies
- Drawing enough money for the month and leaving the rest to build up
- less shopping
- more sports (basketball, volleyball)
- read more of the bible....very hard...
- going home earlier

I think these few days..Ive been having something in me trying to breakfree...trying to remember how it feels like to have dreams...and knowing that theres a road that leads there...
Feel like singing again...in a band or something..remember one of my juniors asking me abt forming a band but it never took off...

Now im stuck in a situation where I just got 2 comperes kicked out of their event coz they're not good enough and I feel bad for them. I feel bad for them..I feel bad that I have to do this..its sad...because the 2 of them are the most gung-ho....

I wish Id selected people properly....

New Year Resolution

Wrote about it, slept on it, thought about it, spoke about it....here is my new year resolution...

1) Worry less, Trust more
2) Find the dream job (with youth,music,compereing)
3) Find the one...
4) Do more sports
5) Write more songs
6) Hit the 10K mark and stay there...im starting from 0K
7) Give my parents money every month...
8) Visit my granparents more often
9) Make my clubs shine

Very hard...requires discipline and requires time management which I still cant handle....

A new road is forming ahead of me...its slowly materialising..if I can catch up to it on time...maybe it could bring me to where I wanna go...if I catch up w it on time...

God Bless

Emo...

Def of Emo: a style of rock music or hardcore punk music / display of depression ...definitons go on....
http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=emo

I was that bored....

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!
Yes its 2 Jan 2008 and here is my new year wish to all..its not early but better late than never... Think its quite okay to go around to everyone to say "Happy New Year"..for abt a week? After that, it gets too stale and starts to stink of lameness...

Spent new year w the ISC gang...the juniors organised a new year and alot fot higns went wrong thru the planning but we stuck w it anyway....I admit the attendance wasnt good and alot had other plans....but the important thing that did happen..was that ht eorganising team bonded...
I was abit saddened byt he attendance but I decided that it wudnt be the only thing I should broad on. We had a good stamboat w delicious soup and food...

By the end, I was awake and not sleepy. Walked to the mrt. Stepped in and an old lady pushed me away to get a seat. Seeing as she was older I decided to let it go. Sat on the floor by the door and slept. I woke up and I was still alert, went home, watched tv..etc, slept till 12 something...
Watched Transformers and then went out to Grandma's place to celebrate her birthday.

My granny is forgetful but her reactions and sense of humour is still incredibly intact.
My uncle wanted to salute her w a cup of tea....
Uncle: Ah Ma, Yam Seng (cheers)
Granny" Must Yam Seng (cheer) and not Yam Seng (leave any tea left)
*word play*

I walked over to their table and my granny looked at me and asked who I was..(she cudnt really see) Then my auntie answered, " Ah Ling" I pretended to look sad and shed a tear. :P
My cousin started testing my grandma on who she was...
May: Ma ma, do you remember who I am? Who am I?
Granny: I remember who you are. Do you remember who you are? Who are you?
May: (jokingly) Emm Im Ah Yin (My sis's nickname)
Granny: No you're not Ah Yin
May: Im ah Bee (other cousin's nickname)
Granny: No...Ah Bee is fatter...

Classic example of where I got my humour and wit from...

So yesterday ended well.I pray for longer years for my grandma.

Havnt thought of my new year resos..but I will by today...

God Bless