Have 2 piggies I bought from Lim's Art and Culture and they're staring at me. :) I like the pink one not coz she's pink but because she's damn cute! The beigh one looks snortish hahaha okay maybe more snobbish hahahaha Its the year of the pig! My year! Come to think of it..I wud be in my 2nd cycle of the chinese zodiac calender :/ Im old!
Found a new piggy sister who's older than me by...4 days..'ess than a week. If I had gotten myself out earlier or if she had not been so kiasu to come out so early..we cud very well have been on the same day! Pig sisters! hahahaha Its amazing to think that at that day..2 people from diff parts of the world would be born on the same day. :) God is amazing!
Anyway...have been walking around town abit and abt a year ago, whenever I walk around stalls like 77th street or some punk stall, I wud have looked at all the chains and looked out for a golden anchor pendant or a marijuana pendant. That was a sense of hope I had about something. Now...it wasnt until a few days back that I realized that its been a long while since Ive really looked at the pendants. Guess theres no more need for that? Whatever it is, I hope that one day I will come across this golden anchor :) One day and I'll buy it for the simple sake of memoir.
Idan Raichel, an israeli artist I hold in all esteem. He fuses ethiopian music with arabic, indian and israeli...He rocks! His videos are on youtube! Wohooo!
Lastly..chinese new year. Nothing much this year...Went to get decorations during lunch to decorate Moberly up and I HOPE things will go well. This sorta means I gotta do the festival stuff every year and also to do Hari raya, Deepavali etc. Wish me luck! I deem myself INTERNATIONAL!
Okay gotta go. love you guys! Cant tell who is reading my blog these days but its okay...whatever is written here is the truth and is through self censorship (sadly)
PIGS RULE!!! SNORT!
God Bless!
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Sunday, January 28, 2007
POsting it fast
Went for my old church's youth gathering. Its abit strange coz I havnt seen them in ages and somehow the place hasnt changed. From what I gathered, the youth int hat church are starting to move away... Ive asked God if its coz of the teaching. One of the reasons why I moved away from there..was coz of the teaching...something abt it that I cudnt remember...all I know...I ma glad of being in New Creation. One of the reasons why I went back today...was because I wanted to see how different the 2 churches are....What i heard wasnt too bad. I wish I had more wisdom to discern such stuff...God's wisdom I mean.
Anyway...I guess... I have to stop here..laptop going flat...wanted to type more but allt he msn msgs and emails Im getting...took away the time..SHIT..haiz
Whatever it is Im home, rushing for a video that I shudnt even be doing..sigh...Im truly too lenient and too giving that its making even me frustrated but how can I complain? Wats truly irritating is if they dont realize and take it for granted.....haizz....
Looks like I gotta burn the freaking midnight oil..I truly pray that God keeps my head cool and I dont get easily irritated....
K gotta run! God Bless!
Anyway...I guess... I have to stop here..laptop going flat...wanted to type more but allt he msn msgs and emails Im getting...took away the time..SHIT..haiz
Whatever it is Im home, rushing for a video that I shudnt even be doing..sigh...Im truly too lenient and too giving that its making even me frustrated but how can I complain? Wats truly irritating is if they dont realize and take it for granted.....haizz....
Looks like I gotta burn the freaking midnight oil..I truly pray that God keeps my head cool and I dont get easily irritated....
K gotta run! God Bless!
Talk w God
Sunday morning and before I left the house, my mum gave me the whole "why you go and buy this? why you go and buy that? " I left the house feeling discouraged and dissappointed and irritated and angry. Not a way to start a church day. While walking to church, I just kept trying to calm myself down. Afterall, no point in having all thse angry emotions in me right.
I guess all of this trying to calm myself down, resulted in me talking to God..or rather..the other way around. I know alot would be sceptic abt whether the whole conversation I had in my head wud be really with God..or just me talking to me. But the funny thing abt this conversation..is that the answers I got..seemed like they didnt come from my head...Its not like you say what you think..which is what i feel when I reply to Him...in His replies to me...it seemed like they flew in from somewhereelse... Hahaha anyway..yah thats what I had. And in fact that was what kept me company through the whole trip to church and thats what helped me to calm down.
I asked many questions like what fi the one Iw as talking to was satan..He replied, "would satan be talking to you abt godly things? Would Satan be asking you to rest in God's arms and look to Jesus for comfort?" I asked Him what was the difference between christianity and other religions. "He said christianity isnt a religion..it is a relationship...with a living God. It is a relationship that men doesnt need to work hard for. all they need to do is believe in Jesus Christ and believe that they are saved and blessed by His works. Other religions require sooo much praying and if you dont do it right, you wont get what you want. Christianity is from God down (coz He first loved us) while in other religions..its down up...you pray him, apease him and offer him sacrifices for him to bless you.
I know this entry is sensitive..for alot of my frens..there would be somethign stirring inside that could make you wanna stop reading this. I guess its a 2 edged sword for me...My love for God could very well draw me away from the frens I have...sadly..if only that wudnt be the case. Coz I still love all my frens. Even those that smoke and drink. its stupid but I scold you and bug you abt it coz I care. Like your own parents. When I spoke to God, he also sited me soo many verses and examples to explain His view.
If I cud half remember what Ive wanted to say since yesterday..I wud tell it all to you... :/ All I remember is that I found a student who is graduating soon and is now my sister hahaha whats funny is that he's bigger than me by..4 days. 26 Oct 2006. I wud have screamed if it was the same date coz the 2 of us have become soo close. :)
Saw this old woman selling "Mai ya Tang" malt candy. She's old! and yet she's sitting by Holland V every week, with a pot of malt candy selling at $1. I remmber eating that and twirling the sweet around in 2 chopsticks and when I bought one from her, I wanted to ask her to help with the Moberly Launch but I guess I had to look for her another time. I wonder if she'd find me suspiscious at suddenly offering such a big opportunity. I wonder how much she earns!?!?!
Gotta go to church soon..before I go, I have to empty out somethingelse I discussed with God...its abt Pravin...I asked Him about Pravin and I and He said, "ask and ye shall receive" I asked why, He said," dont you think there was a reason why your relationship was soo strong?" Dont you think this is why so many things have happened even after you guys broke up. I said," I know why we broke up" He said, " because you were losing sight of me. i had to bring you out to bring you back to me first, before letting you guys continue....." I want to tell you more but I dont think you guys would even want to hear it. I believe that in the next year..somethign will happen..I know you guys would be telling me otherwise...I know you all do it for my own good and I appreciate. Within all that, please know that since being a christian, I have learnt that should something not go the way I want it, All that matters is God is with me and my dissappointment is not great so if you fear that I wud fall again due to this conversation with God, on the contrary...it will only make me stronger when I fall. But that doesnt mean I dont believe in His promises.
God Bless
I guess all of this trying to calm myself down, resulted in me talking to God..or rather..the other way around. I know alot would be sceptic abt whether the whole conversation I had in my head wud be really with God..or just me talking to me. But the funny thing abt this conversation..is that the answers I got..seemed like they didnt come from my head...Its not like you say what you think..which is what i feel when I reply to Him...in His replies to me...it seemed like they flew in from somewhereelse... Hahaha anyway..yah thats what I had. And in fact that was what kept me company through the whole trip to church and thats what helped me to calm down.
I asked many questions like what fi the one Iw as talking to was satan..He replied, "would satan be talking to you abt godly things? Would Satan be asking you to rest in God's arms and look to Jesus for comfort?" I asked Him what was the difference between christianity and other religions. "He said christianity isnt a religion..it is a relationship...with a living God. It is a relationship that men doesnt need to work hard for. all they need to do is believe in Jesus Christ and believe that they are saved and blessed by His works. Other religions require sooo much praying and if you dont do it right, you wont get what you want. Christianity is from God down (coz He first loved us) while in other religions..its down up...you pray him, apease him and offer him sacrifices for him to bless you.
I know this entry is sensitive..for alot of my frens..there would be somethign stirring inside that could make you wanna stop reading this. I guess its a 2 edged sword for me...My love for God could very well draw me away from the frens I have...sadly..if only that wudnt be the case. Coz I still love all my frens. Even those that smoke and drink. its stupid but I scold you and bug you abt it coz I care. Like your own parents. When I spoke to God, he also sited me soo many verses and examples to explain His view.
If I cud half remember what Ive wanted to say since yesterday..I wud tell it all to you... :/ All I remember is that I found a student who is graduating soon and is now my sister hahaha whats funny is that he's bigger than me by..4 days. 26 Oct 2006. I wud have screamed if it was the same date coz the 2 of us have become soo close. :)
Saw this old woman selling "Mai ya Tang" malt candy. She's old! and yet she's sitting by Holland V every week, with a pot of malt candy selling at $1. I remmber eating that and twirling the sweet around in 2 chopsticks and when I bought one from her, I wanted to ask her to help with the Moberly Launch but I guess I had to look for her another time. I wonder if she'd find me suspiscious at suddenly offering such a big opportunity. I wonder how much she earns!?!?!
Gotta go to church soon..before I go, I have to empty out somethingelse I discussed with God...its abt Pravin...I asked Him about Pravin and I and He said, "ask and ye shall receive" I asked why, He said," dont you think there was a reason why your relationship was soo strong?" Dont you think this is why so many things have happened even after you guys broke up. I said," I know why we broke up" He said, " because you were losing sight of me. i had to bring you out to bring you back to me first, before letting you guys continue....." I want to tell you more but I dont think you guys would even want to hear it. I believe that in the next year..somethign will happen..I know you guys would be telling me otherwise...I know you all do it for my own good and I appreciate. Within all that, please know that since being a christian, I have learnt that should something not go the way I want it, All that matters is God is with me and my dissappointment is not great so if you fear that I wud fall again due to this conversation with God, on the contrary...it will only make me stronger when I fall. But that doesnt mean I dont believe in His promises.
God Bless
Friday, January 26, 2007
I QUIT！我放弃了！ my chinese sux！
这是我的第一个华文部落格。。。very 辛苦。。。cry！！Test my chinese
man！Test my hanyupinyin.
Okay everybody is surrounding me and quarreling about how the word "blog" is written in chinese! Dun quarrel! RESPECT!....GOAWAY!@@!
Anyway...all of them are making dumplings at my student's place and Ive more of less given up on making them. I can not make it lah! Let the professionals do it!
Aside from all this, I guess things are quite fun and happy on my end. :) Less thinking more doing. Do more get more done, think more, get nothign done at times hahahahaha
And the good news for today? ITS FRIDAY！！！(hmm..whyt eh spacing between all the punctuations so far apart?) Hahahaha
Im looking at my plans tomorrow and I think...I'll be in school coz I gotta jaga Moberly tomorrow... Sianz! Some of my students are going to study there later soooo HARDWORKING! Scully they go there and sleep! By the time I get there, just in time to wake them up.
I sorta think I need to run my life better :/ Must get back to real life and not face the 4 padded walls of my office. Sounds like IMH?Hahahah No its not. Thank God for all the students that make me laugh until I cry! They truly brighten up my day. Maybe coz our age difference is so little that Ｉcan still tahan their jokes...hahah think all the older folks wud be sweating blood! As my student/junior/fren (all in one) would say, my immune system very very high...they are all the bacteria. Go figure why they call themselves "bacterias" Hahahah K lah..wont die from them.
K time to eat! Love you guys (same for my juniors/students/frens) who are "Tou Kan"ning MY BLOG! SOOO DHAY! (naughty in burmese)
God Bless!..Thanks God!
man！Test my hanyupinyin.
Okay everybody is surrounding me and quarreling about how the word "blog" is written in chinese! Dun quarrel! RESPECT!....GOAWAY!@@!
Anyway...all of them are making dumplings at my student's place and Ive more of less given up on making them. I can not make it lah! Let the professionals do it!
Aside from all this, I guess things are quite fun and happy on my end. :) Less thinking more doing. Do more get more done, think more, get nothign done at times hahahahaha
And the good news for today? ITS FRIDAY！！！(hmm..whyt eh spacing between all the punctuations so far apart?) Hahahaha
Im looking at my plans tomorrow and I think...I'll be in school coz I gotta jaga Moberly tomorrow... Sianz! Some of my students are going to study there later soooo HARDWORKING! Scully they go there and sleep! By the time I get there, just in time to wake them up.
I sorta think I need to run my life better :/ Must get back to real life and not face the 4 padded walls of my office. Sounds like IMH?Hahahah No its not. Thank God for all the students that make me laugh until I cry! They truly brighten up my day. Maybe coz our age difference is so little that Ｉcan still tahan their jokes...hahah think all the older folks wud be sweating blood! As my student/junior/fren (all in one) would say, my immune system very very high...they are all the bacteria. Go figure why they call themselves "bacterias" Hahahah K lah..wont die from them.
K time to eat! Love you guys (same for my juniors/students/frens) who are "Tou Kan"ning MY BLOG! SOOO DHAY! (naughty in burmese)
God Bless!..Thanks God!
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Ohhh Jesus, I rest in your arms :P
I got a big shock today and the colour on my face washed off thinking that this year's ISFO wud be a flop. Thanks to God for his providence hahaha
Had a HUGE meeting with ISC today and for the 1st time, I showed them I meant business...not that I scolded them..I just did alot of explanation on why things had to be that way. I also put alot of hopes and visions on the table. I think I scared alot of them..I think we are really stepping into new ground...I think...I think Im gonna get a headache....
Alot of procedure were ironed and to enforce all of that, I am typing out every single thing I said to be put in the minutes and sent to every member. I know this club can reacht he higher places.
But I think I biting more than I can chew...
God, I know that we as your children..have your blessings..that you bless the path we take and all whom we come in contact with. I praise you! I praise your beautiful and wonderful name!
Go ISC Go!
Had a good time yesterday, met up with a good bro of mine. He was a clown in poly man! And I just realized that its been 5 years since i went into poly! I had cried my heart when I got my A level results...but boy am I glad now! We both teared abit thinking abt the past...even the bad moments seem happy! Too funny until cry!
Anyway...Im quite shocked at all the analogies I have in my head now...
1) All are emotions are contained in different bottles in our hearts that has to be emptied out once in awhile or it will overflow
2) Everyone has their gd points and if everybody contributed their good points together..we would get a rainbow
3) It takes 2 hands to clap, anything else other than 2 hands...hurts
4) If you take the roots off a tree, it will die...you are the roots, your not at the top pf the org calender...but you are as important if not more
I asked myself before...what wud happen if I had more than 1 club? who wud I be loyal to? It has to be both! but...wud I lose the motivation to fight for them? Thats why I wanna do as much as I can now, to give them the foundation..then when they start operating on their own....they will fish their own fish!
God Bless
Had a HUGE meeting with ISC today and for the 1st time, I showed them I meant business...not that I scolded them..I just did alot of explanation on why things had to be that way. I also put alot of hopes and visions on the table. I think I scared alot of them..I think we are really stepping into new ground...I think...I think Im gonna get a headache....
Alot of procedure were ironed and to enforce all of that, I am typing out every single thing I said to be put in the minutes and sent to every member. I know this club can reacht he higher places.
But I think I biting more than I can chew...
God, I know that we as your children..have your blessings..that you bless the path we take and all whom we come in contact with. I praise you! I praise your beautiful and wonderful name!
Go ISC Go!
Had a good time yesterday, met up with a good bro of mine. He was a clown in poly man! And I just realized that its been 5 years since i went into poly! I had cried my heart when I got my A level results...but boy am I glad now! We both teared abit thinking abt the past...even the bad moments seem happy! Too funny until cry!
Anyway...Im quite shocked at all the analogies I have in my head now...
1) All are emotions are contained in different bottles in our hearts that has to be emptied out once in awhile or it will overflow
2) Everyone has their gd points and if everybody contributed their good points together..we would get a rainbow
3) It takes 2 hands to clap, anything else other than 2 hands...hurts
4) If you take the roots off a tree, it will die...you are the roots, your not at the top pf the org calender...but you are as important if not more
I asked myself before...what wud happen if I had more than 1 club? who wud I be loyal to? It has to be both! but...wud I lose the motivation to fight for them? Thats why I wanna do as much as I can now, to give them the foundation..then when they start operating on their own....they will fish their own fish!
God Bless
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
My well wishes to all ISC graduating students
Time just goes by so fast that 3 years feel like a year...I am glad to have known you guys and look forward to knowing you guys as friends than students...truth is...I never really thought you guys as students in the 1st place...but siblings. It is even my honor to be the Ning Jie. "Jie" (big sister) means alot to me.
As you go out to work, dont lose sight of life and fun (somehow I know most of you wont) even when you work, it may be stressful at 1st, but in the middle of all that, find fun in the work that you do. That is what will keep you going in work. You are all super talented in your own ways and thats what made ISC such a happening place. When all colours combine, we have a rainbow rite.
Of course, always turn back once in awhile to say hi to ISC peeps. Always come back once in awhile, if not , drop a mail or comment in ISC website, friendster, yahoo group etc (I promise to revive it!) I will also promise that you guys will be remembered. :P For good or bad reasons...up to you!
I hope that from now onwards, "with us, you will never be alone" will extend to beyond SP...that so long as you were from SP ISC, you will never be alone.
I may not be the strongest of frens in your books or most of you might have thought of me as the unusually informal SAA Officer (No More Ms Ning!)...but amidst all that, should you feel bored and need someone to crap with or bitch to or gossip with hahahaha anything also can.
So..as you all happily but hesitantly count the days to end of SP years...I sincerely hope you live the next stages of your life happily! And dont forget to update me when you guys find your "----fren" and so happen to want to tie the knots hahahaha
RESPECT!
God Bless
As you go out to work, dont lose sight of life and fun (somehow I know most of you wont) even when you work, it may be stressful at 1st, but in the middle of all that, find fun in the work that you do. That is what will keep you going in work. You are all super talented in your own ways and thats what made ISC such a happening place. When all colours combine, we have a rainbow rite.
Of course, always turn back once in awhile to say hi to ISC peeps. Always come back once in awhile, if not , drop a mail or comment in ISC website, friendster, yahoo group etc (I promise to revive it!) I will also promise that you guys will be remembered. :P For good or bad reasons...up to you!
I hope that from now onwards, "with us, you will never be alone" will extend to beyond SP...that so long as you were from SP ISC, you will never be alone.
I may not be the strongest of frens in your books or most of you might have thought of me as the unusually informal SAA Officer (No More Ms Ning!)...but amidst all that, should you feel bored and need someone to crap with or bitch to or gossip with hahahaha anything also can.
So..as you all happily but hesitantly count the days to end of SP years...I sincerely hope you live the next stages of your life happily! And dont forget to update me when you guys find your "----fren" and so happen to want to tie the knots hahahaha
RESPECT!
God Bless
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
allforning...how long has that been?
Today I had one of my ISC students come to me again and we were discussing abt having a website and newsletter and all...
As i surfed the quite defunked ISC yahoo groups...I found this..allforning...
Many of my ISC yr 3 students didnt know abt my past, but those who know..are shocked. Yet while some of there were wondering who their past president's gf was and thought abt how lucky and blessed she must be..none of them realized what the nickname stood for. After sooo long, seeing that was ....numbing. For a solid 30 seconds..I looked at the thing with little numbness..the more i saw it, the more I floated back to reality. Had it been then...I wud have been smitten...now...just pure pity...
Maybe he used it before we broke up..from the date..it was only a couple days before....and the nic didnt match the email add..meaning...he used it on purpose with his own email. Even now...if he drops a msg into the yahoo groups...it will still be that nic...pity...I guess he couldnt change his nic because its now fixed....so everytime he drops a msg...its the same haunting nic....Even his msgs have lost their luster :/
Pity pity pity....what can I say...
I know after soo long that..this nic no longer means anything and thats what I wud prefer to think...If I followed the saying, "ask and ye shall receive" I wudnt have gotten out of my pit so not seeing is believing :/
But I will always agree with my ISC students for one thing...he is someone to be respected....I would totally agree! Whoever he ends up with next time...I will go up to her, give her a hug and say," you made the right choice, I dont know you but Im happy for you" then walk to him and say," Im happy for you too. You deserve someone who loves you wholeheartedly. Im glad you found her." and give him a small hug and in the happiest fashion possible, walk off. :)
Till you finally find someone who makes you feel an overflowing urge to love the person more....a bottomless pit of ideas to make the person happy and the overflowing joy when the person his happy and the over flowing bitterness when the person is not happy (be it your fault or not)...you have never found love. Giving up somebody for their sake maybe the ultimate expression of love...but it could also be the ultimate heartbreaker when you do it without a mutual consent and understanding...
As I sit here and type this, I know many of my frens shakng their heads and going,"here she goes again" The diff between the me last time and now....is that Jesus is the person I look to and not him.
Anyway, I know this whole feeling will blow away..its temporal...pity
God Bless
As i surfed the quite defunked ISC yahoo groups...I found this..allforning...
Many of my ISC yr 3 students didnt know abt my past, but those who know..are shocked. Yet while some of there were wondering who their past president's gf was and thought abt how lucky and blessed she must be..none of them realized what the nickname stood for. After sooo long, seeing that was ....numbing. For a solid 30 seconds..I looked at the thing with little numbness..the more i saw it, the more I floated back to reality. Had it been then...I wud have been smitten...now...just pure pity...
Maybe he used it before we broke up..from the date..it was only a couple days before....and the nic didnt match the email add..meaning...he used it on purpose with his own email. Even now...if he drops a msg into the yahoo groups...it will still be that nic...pity...I guess he couldnt change his nic because its now fixed....so everytime he drops a msg...its the same haunting nic....Even his msgs have lost their luster :/
Pity pity pity....what can I say...
I know after soo long that..this nic no longer means anything and thats what I wud prefer to think...If I followed the saying, "ask and ye shall receive" I wudnt have gotten out of my pit so not seeing is believing :/
But I will always agree with my ISC students for one thing...he is someone to be respected....I would totally agree! Whoever he ends up with next time...I will go up to her, give her a hug and say," you made the right choice, I dont know you but Im happy for you" then walk to him and say," Im happy for you too. You deserve someone who loves you wholeheartedly. Im glad you found her." and give him a small hug and in the happiest fashion possible, walk off. :)
Till you finally find someone who makes you feel an overflowing urge to love the person more....a bottomless pit of ideas to make the person happy and the overflowing joy when the person his happy and the over flowing bitterness when the person is not happy (be it your fault or not)...you have never found love. Giving up somebody for their sake maybe the ultimate expression of love...but it could also be the ultimate heartbreaker when you do it without a mutual consent and understanding...
As I sit here and type this, I know many of my frens shakng their heads and going,"here she goes again" The diff between the me last time and now....is that Jesus is the person I look to and not him.
Anyway, I know this whole feeling will blow away..its temporal...pity
God Bless
pics
The line between formality and insanity is a thin line. This is where it meets...
Quite a grey line wouldnt you think? Hahhaha
However do not be mistaken that everyone in the picture is a resident of the local IMH, NOPE! We are residents of our own IMH! ISC!
International SIAO Centre!
Lotsa a love there. if you should consider booking in for a trial stay...pls call..1900 I AM INSANE (1900 416 46723)
To all who are gullible, please refrain from calling.
God Bless
Wow...
I know I havnt been actively blogging. Somethings are more important to me now a days...God's word...
Yesterday was a busy busy day...sorta makes me hate working life because every that is done, consists of 70% of paperwork/admin work. It sickens me. I was never a fan of paper work and I sure as hell ma not gonna start liking it..even if I wanted to.
Anyway..by the end of the day...I was super sian..only thing keeping me hopeful was the meeting up w some of my sec sch juniors, boy have they grown up so fast!
Before I left the office, one of my students came to see me and we had a really good heart to heart talk. It wasnt about work or school coz I for one dont like talking abt work outside of the office :/ we talked abt ISC and its members and by the end of our talk, we had sooo many common points that the both of us would just be laughing at how similar our lives have been. She is such a sweet girl and its a pity I wont be seeing her as much after she graduates but somehowI figure that we will end up as really good friends. I dont know how we became close and started talking but God definitely had something to do w that. We talked till I was late for my meeting up session but as I walked to the station and waited for the train...I cudnt help but smile at what had just happened! It has been such a long time since I wud think of something that happened and subconsciously and uncontrollably smile to myself. I must have looked stupid but I dont care hahahahha
Once again...after sooo long, I feel that God is not telling me something...However it is I know that in His arms, nothing bad can happen.
I do however wanna thank God for all the bits of coincidences that have happened. For letting me be able to mix into ISC and be the sister and not the officer of the club. Not that I dont wanna be called Ms Ho or Ms Ning (geez!) but because you can never lead them unless you really know them as friends and vise versa. Im not perfect and im often scared people will realize that but I guess its time I got over that coz the more we hide, the more people will know.
Father, I pray for wisdom to handle everything in my workplace, I pray for wisdom to counsel students and not lead them in the wrong path..also not to let myself be stirred into the wrong path.
Jesus, thank you for your blood and body. Thank you for your sacrifice that I am found right with God. Please take care of my kids or siblings...prosper them in their health and studies and personal lives. Dont let me be the stranger..but the sister..who can give sounds advice.
God Bless
Yesterday was a busy busy day...sorta makes me hate working life because every that is done, consists of 70% of paperwork/admin work. It sickens me. I was never a fan of paper work and I sure as hell ma not gonna start liking it..even if I wanted to.
Anyway..by the end of the day...I was super sian..only thing keeping me hopeful was the meeting up w some of my sec sch juniors, boy have they grown up so fast!
Before I left the office, one of my students came to see me and we had a really good heart to heart talk. It wasnt about work or school coz I for one dont like talking abt work outside of the office :/ we talked abt ISC and its members and by the end of our talk, we had sooo many common points that the both of us would just be laughing at how similar our lives have been. She is such a sweet girl and its a pity I wont be seeing her as much after she graduates but somehowI figure that we will end up as really good friends. I dont know how we became close and started talking but God definitely had something to do w that. We talked till I was late for my meeting up session but as I walked to the station and waited for the train...I cudnt help but smile at what had just happened! It has been such a long time since I wud think of something that happened and subconsciously and uncontrollably smile to myself. I must have looked stupid but I dont care hahahahha
Once again...after sooo long, I feel that God is not telling me something...However it is I know that in His arms, nothing bad can happen.
I do however wanna thank God for all the bits of coincidences that have happened. For letting me be able to mix into ISC and be the sister and not the officer of the club. Not that I dont wanna be called Ms Ho or Ms Ning (geez!) but because you can never lead them unless you really know them as friends and vise versa. Im not perfect and im often scared people will realize that but I guess its time I got over that coz the more we hide, the more people will know.
Father, I pray for wisdom to handle everything in my workplace, I pray for wisdom to counsel students and not lead them in the wrong path..also not to let myself be stirred into the wrong path.
Jesus, thank you for your blood and body. Thank you for your sacrifice that I am found right with God. Please take care of my kids or siblings...prosper them in their health and studies and personal lives. Dont let me be the stranger..but the sister..who can give sounds advice.
God Bless
Saturday, January 20, 2007
Rain!
Haiz...at West Coast now and its raining! Haiz..thank God for lap tops and wireless! Just hope my stuff at the BBQ pit is still okay.....
I was planning to sit down at a corner of the pit and concentrate on God but while Im here..my bible is away from me. Sorta reminds me about this pastor I read about last time, who memorized the whole book of matthew while kept in jail.
One of my bros is back in Spore and Ive never really considered it before he left but I do miss his company. He is the closest church fren I have and the closest indian bro? hahahah Im also glad he's back to find his future. Coz I know its been a tough journey for the past few years for him and after a long holiday and possibly soul searching, I have confidence he will do alot better now. :) Dai, you better pull up those socks of yours ah!
To my side, the ISC people are playing monopoly..singaporean version...irony? Hahahahah The only sporean, me isnt playing at all hahahahahha I think one of them owns scotts road hahaha.
Had the intention of staying over tonight but I think it really wudnt be the case because...got work to do. Haiz....Plan to hit home by 10.30? But its saturday! sigh
Anyway..Im truly tempted to get a serviette from Mac D's and a pen from the air, and start writing a song. Had a dream last night and because of that, Im tempted to write something down...as usual, thats more or less where I get inspiration....lets hope these songs dont fulfill themselves.
Anyway...what Ive read today about God's Word...Jesus has died and paid for our sins, past, present and future...for that, we shouldnt be scared, worried or stressed etc because we are now righteous by his blood. So When God looks at us, He sees the pure Jesus instead of us...soo we are blessed. Whatever trials we get from Satan..is temporal and Im ready to pronounce that! Im ready to tell Satan that he is useless when I have God with me! I believe that good things will be coming my way...I believe what Ive always believed will come true. :) I know somethings I believe come across as ridiculous in other people's eyes and I wish I cud explain. Sorta feels like who my past relationship was...I had so much confidence in it but I cud never explain why..even if I tried..it wud be hard to make sense. One of those "if I tell you, I would sound stupid" and "I know it sounds stupid but its true!" moments.
I pray for the rain to stop... :) and of all my smart brain cells...it never occured to me that my lack of paper n pen is ofsetted by my laptop! Wahahahaha
BTW...any of my indian mahchas, if you have Chandramukhi, I want! The raa raa song has got me hocked and the mtv has been stuck in my mind :P I wanna watch.
God Bless!
I was planning to sit down at a corner of the pit and concentrate on God but while Im here..my bible is away from me. Sorta reminds me about this pastor I read about last time, who memorized the whole book of matthew while kept in jail.
One of my bros is back in Spore and Ive never really considered it before he left but I do miss his company. He is the closest church fren I have and the closest indian bro? hahahah Im also glad he's back to find his future. Coz I know its been a tough journey for the past few years for him and after a long holiday and possibly soul searching, I have confidence he will do alot better now. :) Dai, you better pull up those socks of yours ah!
To my side, the ISC people are playing monopoly..singaporean version...irony? Hahahahah The only sporean, me isnt playing at all hahahahahha I think one of them owns scotts road hahaha.
Had the intention of staying over tonight but I think it really wudnt be the case because...got work to do. Haiz....Plan to hit home by 10.30? But its saturday! sigh
Anyway..Im truly tempted to get a serviette from Mac D's and a pen from the air, and start writing a song. Had a dream last night and because of that, Im tempted to write something down...as usual, thats more or less where I get inspiration....lets hope these songs dont fulfill themselves.
Anyway...what Ive read today about God's Word...Jesus has died and paid for our sins, past, present and future...for that, we shouldnt be scared, worried or stressed etc because we are now righteous by his blood. So When God looks at us, He sees the pure Jesus instead of us...soo we are blessed. Whatever trials we get from Satan..is temporal and Im ready to pronounce that! Im ready to tell Satan that he is useless when I have God with me! I believe that good things will be coming my way...I believe what Ive always believed will come true. :) I know somethings I believe come across as ridiculous in other people's eyes and I wish I cud explain. Sorta feels like who my past relationship was...I had so much confidence in it but I cud never explain why..even if I tried..it wud be hard to make sense. One of those "if I tell you, I would sound stupid" and "I know it sounds stupid but its true!" moments.
I pray for the rain to stop... :) and of all my smart brain cells...it never occured to me that my lack of paper n pen is ofsetted by my laptop! Wahahahaha
BTW...any of my indian mahchas, if you have Chandramukhi, I want! The raa raa song has got me hocked and the mtv has been stuck in my mind :P I wanna watch.
God Bless!
Rain!
Haiz...at West Coast now and its raining! Haiz..thank God for lap tops and wireless! Just hope my stuff at the BBQ pit is still okay.....
I was planning to sit down at a corner of the pit and concentrate on God but while Im here..my bible is away from me. Sorta reminds me about this pastor I read about last time, who memorized the whole book of matthew while kept in jail.
One of my bros is back in Spore and Ive never really considered it before he left but I do miss his company. He is the closest church fren I have and the closest indian bro? hahahah Im also glad he's back to find his future. Coz I know its been a tough journey for the past few years for him and after a long holiday and possibly soul searching, I have confidence he will do alot better now. :) Dai, you better pull up those socks of yours ah!
To my side, the ISC people are playing monopoly..singaporean version...irony? Hahahahah The only sporean, me isnt playing at all hahahahahha I think one of them owns scotts road hahaha.
Had the intention of staying over tonight but I think it really wudnt be the case because...got work to do. Haiz....Plan to hit home by 10.30? But its saturday! sigh
Anyway..Im truly tempted to get a serviette from Mac D's and a pen from the air, and start writing a song. Had a dream last night and because of that, Im tempted to write something down...as usual, thats more or less where I get inspiration....lets hope these songs dont fulfill themselves.
Anyway...what Ive read today about God's Word...Jesus has died and paid for our sins, past, present and future...for that, we shouldnt be scared, worried or stressed etc because we are now righteous by his blood. So When God looks at us, He sees the pure Jesus instead of us...soo we are blessed. Whatever trials we get from Satan..is temporal and Im ready to pronounce that! Im ready to tell Satan that he is useless when I have God with me! I believe that good things will be coming my way...I believe what Ive always believed will come true. :) I know somethings I believe come across as ridiculous in other people's eyes and I wish I cud explain. Sorta feels like who my past relationship was...I had so much confidence in it but I cud never explain why..even if I tried..it wud be hard to make sense. One of those "if I tell you, I would sound stupid" and "I know it sounds stupid but its true!" moments.
I pray for the rain to stop... :) and of all my smart brain cells...it never occured to me that my lack of paper n pen is ofsetted by my laptop! Wahahahaha
BTW...any of my indian mahchas, if you have Chandramukhi, I want! The raa raa song has got me hocked and the mtv has been stuck in my mind :P I wanna watch.
God Bless!
I was planning to sit down at a corner of the pit and concentrate on God but while Im here..my bible is away from me. Sorta reminds me about this pastor I read about last time, who memorized the whole book of matthew while kept in jail.
One of my bros is back in Spore and Ive never really considered it before he left but I do miss his company. He is the closest church fren I have and the closest indian bro? hahahah Im also glad he's back to find his future. Coz I know its been a tough journey for the past few years for him and after a long holiday and possibly soul searching, I have confidence he will do alot better now. :) Dai, you better pull up those socks of yours ah!
To my side, the ISC people are playing monopoly..singaporean version...irony? Hahahahah The only sporean, me isnt playing at all hahahahahha I think one of them owns scotts road hahaha.
Had the intention of staying over tonight but I think it really wudnt be the case because...got work to do. Haiz....Plan to hit home by 10.30? But its saturday! sigh
Anyway..Im truly tempted to get a serviette from Mac D's and a pen from the air, and start writing a song. Had a dream last night and because of that, Im tempted to write something down...as usual, thats more or less where I get inspiration....lets hope these songs dont fulfill themselves.
Anyway...what Ive read today about God's Word...Jesus has died and paid for our sins, past, present and future...for that, we shouldnt be scared, worried or stressed etc because we are now righteous by his blood. So When God looks at us, He sees the pure Jesus instead of us...soo we are blessed. Whatever trials we get from Satan..is temporal and Im ready to pronounce that! Im ready to tell Satan that he is useless when I have God with me! I believe that good things will be coming my way...I believe what Ive always believed will come true. :) I know somethings I believe come across as ridiculous in other people's eyes and I wish I cud explain. Sorta feels like who my past relationship was...I had so much confidence in it but I cud never explain why..even if I tried..it wud be hard to make sense. One of those "if I tell you, I would sound stupid" and "I know it sounds stupid but its true!" moments.
I pray for the rain to stop... :) and of all my smart brain cells...it never occured to me that my lack of paper n pen is ofsetted by my laptop! Wahahahaha
BTW...any of my indian mahchas, if you have Chandramukhi, I want! The raa raa song has got me hocked and the mtv has been stuck in my mind :P I wanna watch.
God Bless!
Friday, January 19, 2007
Memories
When I see you, I see a memory
I see the movie reel roll back to what was once
I understand the akward road of no return
to what is now long gone
When I hear things, it brings back feeling
And suddenly I feel a knot inside my heart
The kind of feeling that I havnt felt a long long time
But doesnt matter, what is gone is gone
Memories,
a mix of all emotions in our hearts
The sourness of broken dreams
the sweet and happy starts
all mixed in one
and this is who I am, Im full of
Memories
A Movie reel recording every part
the times I cry, the times I laugh
the times Im stuck
And memories make us who we are
I look up above and every star I see
Seems like the smile I used to see that lit my heart
The lights still shining but dim never go away
Make me smile and cry and tear and think about
I sing the song, a song that many sing
with their mouths or from the pits of broken rooms
I write the songs that many know, make them think of long ago
I shake the untouched bottle in our hearts
Memories
Life stories that make each person who they are
No one can be the same from end to start
It makes your life seem interesting
Those memories
some sweet some sour
some that are too dark
It doesnt matter sometimes who we were before
So long they dont rule who we are now.
Ning
Havnt written a song for a long time. Think I stopped for awhile to prevent myself from falling into memories. I do know now, that memories dont go away...they just dim down.
Had a wonderful ISC AGM...I look at the kids go about their fun and sorta feel like the big sis... hahahah silly of me but thats truly what I felt. Somethings I believe God gave..this is one.
I guess after the whole formal shebbang, I stepped out of the place..thankful God let me look after this club. I prayed there and then that...God will bless this club. That everyone's impression of this club will be better. For the next few mins..I also thought back on Pravin. If he were here..what wud he feel? Wud he be proud of ISC? Hahahah I think he would. :)
I dont think my memories will ever go away...nor will it ever dim to nothing...But I know that all od does, he does with a meaning and blessing. :)
God Bless
I see the movie reel roll back to what was once
I understand the akward road of no return
to what is now long gone
When I hear things, it brings back feeling
And suddenly I feel a knot inside my heart
The kind of feeling that I havnt felt a long long time
But doesnt matter, what is gone is gone
Memories,
a mix of all emotions in our hearts
The sourness of broken dreams
the sweet and happy starts
all mixed in one
and this is who I am, Im full of
Memories
A Movie reel recording every part
the times I cry, the times I laugh
the times Im stuck
And memories make us who we are
I look up above and every star I see
Seems like the smile I used to see that lit my heart
The lights still shining but dim never go away
Make me smile and cry and tear and think about
I sing the song, a song that many sing
with their mouths or from the pits of broken rooms
I write the songs that many know, make them think of long ago
I shake the untouched bottle in our hearts
Memories
Life stories that make each person who they are
No one can be the same from end to start
It makes your life seem interesting
Those memories
some sweet some sour
some that are too dark
It doesnt matter sometimes who we were before
So long they dont rule who we are now.
Ning
Havnt written a song for a long time. Think I stopped for awhile to prevent myself from falling into memories. I do know now, that memories dont go away...they just dim down.
Had a wonderful ISC AGM...I look at the kids go about their fun and sorta feel like the big sis... hahahah silly of me but thats truly what I felt. Somethings I believe God gave..this is one.
I guess after the whole formal shebbang, I stepped out of the place..thankful God let me look after this club. I prayed there and then that...God will bless this club. That everyone's impression of this club will be better. For the next few mins..I also thought back on Pravin. If he were here..what wud he feel? Wud he be proud of ISC? Hahahah I think he would. :)
I dont think my memories will ever go away...nor will it ever dim to nothing...But I know that all od does, he does with a meaning and blessing. :)
God Bless
Monday, January 15, 2007
God, my dear God.
My God is an Awesome God. How do I explain to people of how safe I feel and how much this God has done for me, without me sounding crazy? :/ Nonetheless, I praise Him. I praise Jesus for all His sacrifice!
Made a resolution to save money and be a good officer and to take the Holy Communion more often. Its not a ritual..its a meal with God and of God.
Sat through my compere junior's event yesterday and how proud I am to see them do their 1st event. Somehow I felt that I cud have been more lenient but I felt I had to teach him. So I did advise him. The way I see it...I starting to worry that comperes standard is dropping...what happen to all that magic we had? Father, bless this club! My loyalty now, lies with both ISC and comperes. If I cud only be the same big sis I was in comperes..I wud have scolded them to wake them up...my comperes..........
I know that I had alot of thoughts to say before I blogged but they've all run away! Hahahaha
You know...after a real good read and church and all, today, I came to the office feeling light..feeling happy! Like I am really at peace! Theres no sense of being stressed...
Anyway..this has been one boring entry Im sure...on better days, Im not tahaning my shit and pee and im not lethargic...on better days I will be talking abt more constructive things I manage to catch before I forget them...on better days, I wud have pics.
So I love you all, God Bless you! For all those whom Ive forgotten birthdays... doesnt mean I dont love you...just means I dont remember your birthdays. Heheheh no truly I love you and I'll tell you guys more next time so that you dont say I MIA hahahah coz it wud be U who MIA from my blog! Wahahahahah Crap crap crap!
God Bless!
Made a resolution to save money and be a good officer and to take the Holy Communion more often. Its not a ritual..its a meal with God and of God.
Sat through my compere junior's event yesterday and how proud I am to see them do their 1st event. Somehow I felt that I cud have been more lenient but I felt I had to teach him. So I did advise him. The way I see it...I starting to worry that comperes standard is dropping...what happen to all that magic we had? Father, bless this club! My loyalty now, lies with both ISC and comperes. If I cud only be the same big sis I was in comperes..I wud have scolded them to wake them up...my comperes..........
I know that I had alot of thoughts to say before I blogged but they've all run away! Hahahaha
You know...after a real good read and church and all, today, I came to the office feeling light..feeling happy! Like I am really at peace! Theres no sense of being stressed...
Anyway..this has been one boring entry Im sure...on better days, Im not tahaning my shit and pee and im not lethargic...on better days I will be talking abt more constructive things I manage to catch before I forget them...on better days, I wud have pics.
So I love you all, God Bless you! For all those whom Ive forgotten birthdays... doesnt mean I dont love you...just means I dont remember your birthdays. Heheheh no truly I love you and I'll tell you guys more next time so that you dont say I MIA hahahah coz it wud be U who MIA from my blog! Wahahahahah Crap crap crap!
God Bless!
God, my dear God.
My God is an Awesome God. How do I explain to people of how safe I feel and how much this God has done for me, without me sounding crazy? :/ Nonetheless, I praise Him. I praise Jesus for all His sacrifice!
Made a resolution to save money and be a good officer and to take the Holy Communion more often. Its not a ritual..its a meal with God and of God.
Sat through my compere junior's event yesterday and how proud I am to see them do their 1st event. Somehow I felt that I cud have been more lenient but I felt I had to teach him. So I did advise him. The way I see it...I starting to worry that comperes standard is dropping...what happen to all that magic we had? Father, bless this club! My loyalty now, lies with both ISC and comperes. If I cud only be the same big sis I was in comperes..I wud have scolded them to wake them up...my comperes..........
I know that I had alot of thoughts to say before I blogged but they've all run away! Hahahaha
You know...after a real good read and church and all, today, I came to the office feeling light..feeling happy! Like I am really at peace! Theres no sense of being stressed...
Anyway..this has been one boring entry Im sure...on better days, Im not tahaning my shit and pee and im not lethargic...on better days I will be talking abt more constructive things I manage to catch before I forget them...on better days, I wud have pics.
So I love you all, God Bless you! For all those whom Ive forgotten birthdays... doesnt mean I dont love you...just means I dont remember your birthdays. Heheheh no truly I love you and I'll tell you guys more next time so that you dont say I MIA hahahah coz it wud be U who MIA from my blog! Wahahahahah Crap crap crap!
God Bless!
Made a resolution to save money and be a good officer and to take the Holy Communion more often. Its not a ritual..its a meal with God and of God.
Sat through my compere junior's event yesterday and how proud I am to see them do their 1st event. Somehow I felt that I cud have been more lenient but I felt I had to teach him. So I did advise him. The way I see it...I starting to worry that comperes standard is dropping...what happen to all that magic we had? Father, bless this club! My loyalty now, lies with both ISC and comperes. If I cud only be the same big sis I was in comperes..I wud have scolded them to wake them up...my comperes..........
I know that I had alot of thoughts to say before I blogged but they've all run away! Hahahaha
You know...after a real good read and church and all, today, I came to the office feeling light..feeling happy! Like I am really at peace! Theres no sense of being stressed...
Anyway..this has been one boring entry Im sure...on better days, Im not tahaning my shit and pee and im not lethargic...on better days I will be talking abt more constructive things I manage to catch before I forget them...on better days, I wud have pics.
So I love you all, God Bless you! For all those whom Ive forgotten birthdays... doesnt mean I dont love you...just means I dont remember your birthdays. Heheheh no truly I love you and I'll tell you guys more next time so that you dont say I MIA hahahah coz it wud be U who MIA from my blog! Wahahahahah Crap crap crap!
God Bless!
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
The president will ask me to tea...
And he did! He asked al of us to tea! The whole Musical cast, crwe and band and other impt staff directors etc..went to the Istana to have tea with the President. :)
I had to host the event coz Jimmy was sick but boy did I relish in it :P The President asked who I was at the end and the Principal said I did a good job! :P Had a colleague ask me if Iw anted to do more events! If I wasnt working in SAA, I wud nod till my head dropped off! But since Im working in SAA, everything I do has to be in discretion..think before you act dear!
Im still happy abt having hosted int eh Istana, might not seem like a big deal but to have Mr President and Mrs President sitting in front of you as you crack a joke...priceless! Wud be better with more laughter and cheers etc. thanks to allt he frens there, It wasnt as quiet. Hehehehe
If I cud, Id show pics but you know the procedure....:P
Thanks Father!
God Bless
I had to host the event coz Jimmy was sick but boy did I relish in it :P The President asked who I was at the end and the Principal said I did a good job! :P Had a colleague ask me if Iw anted to do more events! If I wasnt working in SAA, I wud nod till my head dropped off! But since Im working in SAA, everything I do has to be in discretion..think before you act dear!
Im still happy abt having hosted int eh Istana, might not seem like a big deal but to have Mr President and Mrs President sitting in front of you as you crack a joke...priceless! Wud be better with more laughter and cheers etc. thanks to allt he frens there, It wasnt as quiet. Hehehehe
If I cud, Id show pics but you know the procedure....:P
Thanks Father!
God Bless
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
:) Thank You!
Wow! Its yr 2007! This year promises to be exciting! Wahahaha
Anyway...Im glad to say the magic is gone from my life Hehehe U wonder why this is good, well trust me Id rather no magic... that way, I wont hope for a miracle. Not that I dont believe Jesus and him providing his miracles...I just dont want this miracle to happen coz..well...call it sweet & sour. Am I spinning you in circles now? hahah thought so.
Got to make new changes to my life and the way I do things because if I dont, I can find myself in alot of trouble. The kind that washes the colour off my face. Im trying not to worry coz worrying is useless and I have God, but sometimes we cant help it cant we? Hahahah Haiz...
Anyway..nothing much to say now coz got work. Help!
God Bless!
Anyway...Im glad to say the magic is gone from my life Hehehe U wonder why this is good, well trust me Id rather no magic... that way, I wont hope for a miracle. Not that I dont believe Jesus and him providing his miracles...I just dont want this miracle to happen coz..well...call it sweet & sour. Am I spinning you in circles now? hahah thought so.
Got to make new changes to my life and the way I do things because if I dont, I can find myself in alot of trouble. The kind that washes the colour off my face. Im trying not to worry coz worrying is useless and I have God, but sometimes we cant help it cant we? Hahahah Haiz...
Anyway..nothing much to say now coz got work. Help!
God Bless!
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
medan day 5 & 6
k these last 2 days, we had more fun than work...
day 5:
We went to a catholic orphanage, Bethlehem Orphanage.
The place was like a monastary and it was very cosy! if i were an orphan, i would love to live there man! The kids there range from 7 to arnd 19? They rear their own pigs and rabbits and geese! It was 2 days before Christmas and I havnt seen a glimpse of christmas for a long while, but being in the orphanage made me feel at home. Not that the place was filled with christmas spirit, but cause I was in a place of God. Im not catholic and im not say a fan of catholicism, but being a way from a church for that few days, it was good to be in a place that was even remotely related to God.
Also, along the way to some highlands, we had to drive through alot of places. mostly towns and small villages...amongst all the attap houses and small wooden stalls, I was amazed that the 2 prevailing religions in those rural areas are christianity/catholicism and islam. It warmed my heart that even in the rural areas, God's love would be there. And whos to stop Him? If he so wants, He can spread His hand over the mountain range and give the people a church to take shelter in. I praised God for that. :) At that time, I believe a smile was on my face. To think he is soo powerful and loving that he would never lose sight of those who live in the rural areas, no matter how high the area is or how rural the place is, He can put His Son there to look after His children. No matter where I am, I will always see His love around me and in me. Amen!
Day 6
Last day before leaving. Alot of goodbyes said, alot of reflections made, alot of quiet time etc
By this time, out team was pretty much gelled and crappy to the extent of Mnt Everest. All hte guys buoght a shirt with the same design and wore it on the same day. Kiddy? Maybe..but you can smell the togetherness from a mile away man! I was once again termed the Lao Shi of the gang before we left and just to make sure all is right until we got home, I adopted my Lao Shi ways until we reached Spore ground hahahahah I didnt forgo the crapping ont eh plane though.
When we touched down, I told our indian fren int he gang, that he was no longer special hahahaha As we stepped off the plane, sure enough, the next person we saw, was indian. Hahahahah
K I end here coz I need to get home. :) Love you all!
God Bless!
day 5:
We went to a catholic orphanage, Bethlehem Orphanage.
The place was like a monastary and it was very cosy! if i were an orphan, i would love to live there man! The kids there range from 7 to arnd 19? They rear their own pigs and rabbits and geese! It was 2 days before Christmas and I havnt seen a glimpse of christmas for a long while, but being in the orphanage made me feel at home. Not that the place was filled with christmas spirit, but cause I was in a place of God. Im not catholic and im not say a fan of catholicism, but being a way from a church for that few days, it was good to be in a place that was even remotely related to God.
Also, along the way to some highlands, we had to drive through alot of places. mostly towns and small villages...amongst all the attap houses and small wooden stalls, I was amazed that the 2 prevailing religions in those rural areas are christianity/catholicism and islam. It warmed my heart that even in the rural areas, God's love would be there. And whos to stop Him? If he so wants, He can spread His hand over the mountain range and give the people a church to take shelter in. I praised God for that. :) At that time, I believe a smile was on my face. To think he is soo powerful and loving that he would never lose sight of those who live in the rural areas, no matter how high the area is or how rural the place is, He can put His Son there to look after His children. No matter where I am, I will always see His love around me and in me. Amen!
Day 6
Last day before leaving. Alot of goodbyes said, alot of reflections made, alot of quiet time etc
By this time, out team was pretty much gelled and crappy to the extent of Mnt Everest. All hte guys buoght a shirt with the same design and wore it on the same day. Kiddy? Maybe..but you can smell the togetherness from a mile away man! I was once again termed the Lao Shi of the gang before we left and just to make sure all is right until we got home, I adopted my Lao Shi ways until we reached Spore ground hahahahah I didnt forgo the crapping ont eh plane though.
When we touched down, I told our indian fren int he gang, that he was no longer special hahahaha As we stepped off the plane, sure enough, the next person we saw, was indian. Hahahahah
K I end here coz I need to get home. :) Love you all!
God Bless!
Time is here again
Its scary how so many of my students actually read this blog. I guess I wud need to exercise self censorship, for fear that one of them would come to my office and say, "hehehe i read your blog! Are you okay?" Hahaha
Anyway...I still believe in frankness...I am who I am, officer or not.
Speaking of frankness, checked my email today and found that my ex sent me his regards. What a sweet sour moment. I replied in all enthusiasm, telling him that I went to Medan and abt ISC and Comperes. Im glad he took the intiative to send his regards! Im surprised actually! Which is why I replied so extensively, suspecting that this would be one of the rare and endangered emails and that I wud never have another chance to talk to him. For all I know, it wud be 1-2 years later before he even sends an email again. I also wrote so much in the reply...because I wanted to show that I had no animosity against him. He is afterall, a good bf, if given the chance...
At the end of the day he is still my bestest best bro. in fact, he is the one I sayang most. Wud there be a girl who hurts him, Id do more than slap the girl left right centre inside out... Call me crazy...Ive always been crazy anyway. But seriously, I especially miss this bro. I still do think that I cud sit down with this one and talk abt life again....this is prob one of the few bros whom I can speak like that to hahaah
As for my other bros, those I can speak on par with, and those whom are my small bros, I will still slap the one who hurts them...none of them deserve to be treated that way! unless they are posessive or agressive.
To be honest, even now, Ive got this feeling in my stomache...since receving this mail...call me stubborn and scold me to get over...I believe I have... I believe and I hope that in years to come, I will have a really close bro as my family fren and likewise. Call me idealistic but hopes do come true.
Alot have said that ive grown up through the years..I for one think Ive grown up through the past 3 years. For now, i believe that God will provide all my needs...that I wont have to look far for anyone. Call me yaya and expect to have someone drop by my feet but I beg to differ. :P When God is by your side, you dont need to beg. Sit still ruth!
As the new year slowly creeps into our hearts, I truly await for new things to happen in my life, at work or at play or at home. :) 2007, here I come!
My New Year Resolution this year:
1) Grow closer to God
2) Get better at working
3) Find my music again
4) Get fit
5) Be a better person
Father, you have carried me so far for the past year. In the blink of an eye, I missed the months of last year...but last year was also one of the most memorable years...
1) SP Musical
2) SAA work
3) ISC club, ISC camp
4) closure with Pravin
5) closer to Alan, Sis, Ah Kah
6) Overseas Comm service to Medan
Father, I pray for peace this year...I pray for the lack of losing loved ones and loved ones losing their loved ones, I pray for health and blessings for all whom I know, I pray for a better understanding of you, even a tinge of your infinite wisdom.
I thank you for your love for me, your protection, your blessings. I thank you for letting me experience every single thing Ive experienced, bad or good, big or small...
Father, you understand me the most...because you see everything that happens to me and I take comfort that you are always there to see and when I feel no one is there to hear me, you are there. I will sing for you God!
God Bless
Anyway...I still believe in frankness...I am who I am, officer or not.
Speaking of frankness, checked my email today and found that my ex sent me his regards. What a sweet sour moment. I replied in all enthusiasm, telling him that I went to Medan and abt ISC and Comperes. Im glad he took the intiative to send his regards! Im surprised actually! Which is why I replied so extensively, suspecting that this would be one of the rare and endangered emails and that I wud never have another chance to talk to him. For all I know, it wud be 1-2 years later before he even sends an email again. I also wrote so much in the reply...because I wanted to show that I had no animosity against him. He is afterall, a good bf, if given the chance...
At the end of the day he is still my bestest best bro. in fact, he is the one I sayang most. Wud there be a girl who hurts him, Id do more than slap the girl left right centre inside out... Call me crazy...Ive always been crazy anyway. But seriously, I especially miss this bro. I still do think that I cud sit down with this one and talk abt life again....this is prob one of the few bros whom I can speak like that to hahaah
As for my other bros, those I can speak on par with, and those whom are my small bros, I will still slap the one who hurts them...none of them deserve to be treated that way! unless they are posessive or agressive.
To be honest, even now, Ive got this feeling in my stomache...since receving this mail...call me stubborn and scold me to get over...I believe I have... I believe and I hope that in years to come, I will have a really close bro as my family fren and likewise. Call me idealistic but hopes do come true.
Alot have said that ive grown up through the years..I for one think Ive grown up through the past 3 years. For now, i believe that God will provide all my needs...that I wont have to look far for anyone. Call me yaya and expect to have someone drop by my feet but I beg to differ. :P When God is by your side, you dont need to beg. Sit still ruth!
As the new year slowly creeps into our hearts, I truly await for new things to happen in my life, at work or at play or at home. :) 2007, here I come!
My New Year Resolution this year:
1) Grow closer to God
2) Get better at working
3) Find my music again
4) Get fit
5) Be a better person
Father, you have carried me so far for the past year. In the blink of an eye, I missed the months of last year...but last year was also one of the most memorable years...
1) SP Musical
2) SAA work
3) ISC club, ISC camp
4) closure with Pravin
5) closer to Alan, Sis, Ah Kah
6) Overseas Comm service to Medan
Father, I pray for peace this year...I pray for the lack of losing loved ones and loved ones losing their loved ones, I pray for health and blessings for all whom I know, I pray for a better understanding of you, even a tinge of your infinite wisdom.
I thank you for your love for me, your protection, your blessings. I thank you for letting me experience every single thing Ive experienced, bad or good, big or small...
Father, you understand me the most...because you see everything that happens to me and I take comfort that you are always there to see and when I feel no one is there to hear me, you are there. I will sing for you God!
God Bless
New Year! Medan (day 3 & 4) part 2
Sooo...on the way to the cinema, my hp was bombed by sms from my ISC club, they ALL decided to sms me "Happy New Year!" I had to delete old sms just to accomodate their smses.
To say the truth, I have yet to delete their smses. Out of all that calling them up to scold them for the mass sms...I truly appreciate it. Hahahah I appreciate the occasional bombing hahahah
After walking and talking with my cousin, I met some of my ISC students for dinner, then countdown at the Merlion. Obviously alot of other students where there, as I later found out. We weaved through the crowd like a row of chicks after a hen...aka Me! Sigh... The countdown went really past and the fireworks were really pretty...looked like rain of glitters. :) To be honest, it was the 1st time I'd seen fireworks for real and not from my house.
I went to my auntie's place to stay and woke up to greet my grandma, "Happy Birthday!" :) She's 90 years old. A truly happy woman who has her heart on God, a smile so bright and twinkling eyes. A kid in an old body. Since coming back from Medan, Ive grown to treasure her....Speaking of Medan...
Day 3
We went to the local old folks home, the home was totally government funding
Washing their feet...and cutting their nails
Sweeping and mopping the rooms...
Kill me before I ever do this to any of my loved ones! Never! The kids deserve to be shot! I do think that these old folks are lucky enough to live in a spacious home like this...but they shouldnt even be in a home! I was apprehensive while entering the home. Its the same for every old folks home...Im not good at dealing with old folks. But before going in, I prayed. I prayed to God for patience and humbleness and openness. As we got ready to cut wash their feet and cut their nails, they made us wear gloves and wear masks. But...I refused to wear a mask because it was plain disrespect for the old folks sould we wash their feet like that. Its as if we were forced to wash and we didnt like it, so we wore masks to cover the supposed smell of etc. I know its really not the case on our side. The masks were for our comfort..but Id rather forgo comfort than wear that silly mask. I wore the gloves and washed their feet. I tried to se myself washing my grandma's feet and tried to recall Jesus washing his disciple's feet...somehow that gave me the courage and affection. Now I know why...
John 13: 15-17
v15: For I have given you an example, that ye should do as I have done to you.
v16: Verily, verily I say unto you, The servant is not greater than his lord; neither he that is sent greater than he that sent him.
v17: If ye know these things, happy are ye if ye do them.
I think..I did this for God. We are no greater than our parents or grandparents, nor vise versa. These folks have worked their lives for their kids who are now MIA. we came and did them what their kids should have done, wash their feet to show respect. We are the more advanced generation, physically better and more illiterate..but that doesnt exclude us from doing the basic things as attending to our elders. I had Jesus washing Simon Peter's feet's image in my head as I cleaned the old lady's foot...Thank you God...I felt happy doing it. The rest of the kids did the same. :) Some cleaned the rooms that were dusty and dirty and had cigarette buds around. One of the old men, shits outside his door...
After which, we had lunch and dropped by an animal museum. The epitome of self pleasure and self worship. I had a very bad feeling about that place..the owner obviously loved to hunt animals, by setting up this animal museum, he had a valid and legitimate excuse to hunt, for sake of preservation of animals. Of course the policy was to retain a certain percent of flesh there for other animals to eat. the owner had photos of all the famous people who visited his museum. Oh well....
Day 4
Aside from the usual, we had a trip to the local IMH.
A cat contemplating life @ the local IMH...crazy?...maybe...
Cant show u pics of the place coz no photos allowed. not to say we didnt steal a few pics..but thats for personal use. Hahahah anyway the place is quite scary.. with long houses of 40 odd patients each, categorized by aggresiveness. the dorrs of the houses are wooden and huge with iron grills above it. we had patients asking us for money andclimbing above the door to look at us. etc...80% of teh patients there are schizophrenic. At that point of time, Iw as praying to God...curses curses curses..so many people struck with madness, thanks to Satan. For a split moment, I wished Jesus would wipe the madness of that place and set allof them free. Send the madnes to the chickens there and burn them. Leave the cats alone coz they're very cute..some of them. Seems they have a fw black cats there and they have this, "go away or I'll shred you" look...shudders. God help them.
K end of today's entry. God Bless and Happy New Year!
New Year! Medan (day 3 & 4) part 1
New Years eve I went out w my cousin and for the 1st time in a long time, we had heart to heart talks. We watched Charlotte's Web cause he wanted to watch and I promised to watch it with him and then we walked from PS to Bras Basah, Suntec, Marina Sq, City Link, City Hall, Bugis. Hahahahah My feet are tired but who cares! Its my cousin! he's bigger size than me but younger by a few years, yet amazingly, we clicked! Im sooo very proud to be his cousin and he is damn smart lah!
He told me how every of our cousins is so artistic , even me but he doesnt seem to have that genes. I told him that given his mechanical background, he could come up with something more sophisticated like a robot delivering flowers etc hahahahha
He is also one of the super rare good guys..just when Im starting to think that spore chinese guys cant make it...he is the rare glimmer of hope. Heheheh no offence to other guys..rest assured that the guys I know..more or less have a future hahahah esp those bros I sayang alot.
So...Ive come to a conclusion that whoever mistreats my cousins' hearts..I will slap them left, right, centre, upside down and REPEAT! How dare these women ill-treat my loved ones!
K gonna makan break. will get back later!
He told me how every of our cousins is so artistic , even me but he doesnt seem to have that genes. I told him that given his mechanical background, he could come up with something more sophisticated like a robot delivering flowers etc hahahahha
He is also one of the super rare good guys..just when Im starting to think that spore chinese guys cant make it...he is the rare glimmer of hope. Heheheh no offence to other guys..rest assured that the guys I know..more or less have a future hahahah esp those bros I sayang alot.
So...Ive come to a conclusion that whoever mistreats my cousins' hearts..I will slap them left, right, centre, upside down and REPEAT! How dare these women ill-treat my loved ones!
K gonna makan break. will get back later!
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